Kick Livestreams/back from my date 2025-08-17 19_51 [83442610-back-from-my-date] 480p

Testing, testing, testing, testing, testing, testing. Yeah. But from the date it was a lot better than the Indian girl date. But I didn't really find her attractive to be honest. I'm just not finding any of these girls attractive. That's the issue. I could probably most definitely get a second date. I just don't want to. But she was nice. I liked her more than the Indian girl. I think we did the whole banter thing a lot better. Some people you just kind of, I don't know why it's like easier to banter and talk to them than other people. I feel like the Indian girl, she kind of felt bit standoffish. Like I don't really like a aura, but game of girl had a nicer aura. She seemed a bit more nerdy and stuff. I don't like it when the girl seems a bit bitchy, but that was the vibe I got from Indian girl. We went to Tin Gel Castle yesterday so I guess I'm not going there for a stream. It cost 20 pounds, 20 pounds per person. I'm not going again for a stream. It was okay. I mean it was pretty and everything but very crowded. I wouldn't really wanna stream that. And there wasn't really much of a castle. It was just like the remnants of foundations 'cause it's nearly a thousand years old. And then we got some food, walked about, got Cornish pasty. Apparently the Cornish pasties are not what I'm expecting 'cause I'm expecting a pasty to be. It sits on its bottom and the crease is at the top and it's like fluffy and flaky. Apparently that's not a pro a proper Cornish pasty apparently that's like a Kent thing. So what I thought was a proper Cornish pasty is not actually a proper Cornish pasty, a proper Cornish pasty lays on its side with the crease on the side and the pastry's very flat. So I don't like those. I want what I'm used to when I had it as a kid, what I had when I was a kid. But I guess that's not a proper Cornish capacity apparently. Interesting. I think the way we do it in Kent is way better. It feels more meaty and piy. No, we didn't kiss but she hugged me. I didn't know there was a Kentish pasty, not Cornish. I thought Cornish pasty would be like the one I had in Kent and I thought the ones on the side are very flat. They just like rubbish against the ones. 'cause I had the one at the castle and it just tastes like against the one they flat bland. I asked the gamer girl about it and she said no that's what a proper Cornish passage supposed to be like. Very disappointing. Oh, why is my eye itchy stoner girl? I don't know. She said September after summer holidays. But Spanish girl came back yesterday and messaged me, said she's back. Are we going to Thailand now? I don't know. I don't know about Thailand anymore. I feel like I just need a girlfriend here and I'd be pretty happy. I don't even know if I really want to be in Thailand. I just don't know. There's like sometimes I feel like I miss Thailand, like the nice shopping malls and stuff and the vibe and then I sometimes I feel like um, I don't know. I don't know. Oh the funny thing is I got, I got gamer girl two back and then I lost her again. So you know I got banned on Bumble where I was chatting to that one and I asked her to add me on WhatsApp but she didn't. Well after I got banned on Bumble, she did message me on WhatsApp saying Hey are we still on for the date? And I was like, yes. I got her back and then stupidly, I told her I got banned thinking she would at least listen to why I got banned. But she just went, I said I got deactivated. And then she goes deactivated. No thanks. But it was nice chatting to you. And then she didn't even reply to me. I said I didn't do anything weird but she wasn't even interested in hearing why I got banned. So I got her back and then I lost her again. It was so annoying. I felt so stupid. Why did I tell her I got banned? I should have just said, oh I deleted the account 'cause I'm taking a break. That was so rare. I had no idea that she would just be like, no thanks you got banned and no thanks. Just assumed the worst. So that was pretty annoying. But she seems, I don't think I would've gotten on with that. She seems really annoying. Like really SJW like she probably thinks I'm like it didn't sell or something 'cause I've got banned even though these dating apps banned people for all sorts of reasons. So she seems hypersensitive wouldn't add me on WhatsApp wouldn't go for a beach date. First day insistent on a coffee date and then didn't even hear out My reasons for getting banned. She was so annoying. But yeah, really dumb. Never tell them you got banned. Always say I have a feeling Indian girl got banned too. But she lied 'cause Indian girl's account also said profile deleted. And I said, what happened? She just said, oh I deleted it. I reckon she got banned as well. Yeah, so I really, really annoying yesterday morning I was like yes. Got her back, fuck. Lost her again 'cause she didn't seem suspicious that I got banned. Her first message was, Hey are we still on for today? But I, 'cause I thought she wasn't gonna message me. I booked gamer girl one for the date yesterday and, and I overwrote gamer girl Tuesday so I couldn't go to the date anyway. I thought, I just assumed she was gonna ask, did you get banned 'cause well what other reason would I have? I should have lied and said, oh I deleted it 'cause I'm uh um, taking a break from dating. I thought if she's gonna ask me why I got banned I could just say oh someone was racist to me and I told them to go fuck themselves and then I got banned for swearing but I didn't even get a chance. I thought yeah maybe I could tell her 'cause she hasn't blocked me. But she hasn't asked. It makes me seem kind of suspicious and her suspicious levels already kind of high. I feel like she's gonna ask me for ID or something. So yeah, not really worth it. So I've got two girls left and then I don't know really, I dunno what a girl could have said to me to make me start swearing at them. That would be justifiable apart from me sounding like fucking in insult. I mean I mean if it's the other way round a guy's being a creep to me and yeah you could get away with but girl's not gonna be a creep to you are they? When when's a woman ever been a creep to a guy that's just like a guy thing really being a creep. So I was kind of screwed by admitting I got banned. I didn't realize she'd be so be like oh no thanks but nice chatting to you. Hope you find what you're looking for. Idiot. Well Indian girl and game of girl One off the list. Game of girl one. I feel like maybe she was a bit on the spectrum. She seemed a bit autistic. I don't know like the way the stuff she said or the stuff or the way she said stuff was kind of strange. Which I like. I prefer that than someone who's like really serious and normal. 'cause it's funny and you can kind of let your guard down a bit. It definitely felt like some weird autistic date <laugh> like that undateable show. Yeah, but I, I preferred her way more than the Indian girl. If I had to choose out the two, she was way easier to talk to and be around. I mean I wasn't really attracted to be honest. People just looked so different in real life compared to their pictures. I went back and I looked at the pictures afterwards and thought she really doesn't look like that. <laugh> must be, I don't know, filter or makeup or camera angle. Maybe they should make you take a video and do this so you get all the angles. 'cause just from one static 2D image, you can't really tell what someone really looks like. You can get an idea. It doesn't really look like what I thought she'd look like. That's the problem with online dating. It is the problem. But it was a nice apart from the wind, it was so damn windy. Apart from that it was a nice day out and tin steel castle was quite nice and we had some laughs so I wasn't terrible better than sitting in a coffee shop. She could also walk a lot, which was nice. There's no way Indian girl could have done that. We walked across the bridge, we walked up and down everywhere and went up the cliff bit and then we got ice cream. No we didn't kiss but we hugged twice disabilities. Well Indian girl, she had osis so we had to keep sitting down every five or 10 minutes. This stupid washing machine's so annoying. I can't wash everything all at once 'cause it's too small. I do everything in two batches. Ugh, everything's dusty. No I didn't get a boner. The thing is if you go on a date and you don't get a boner, then you know you're not attracted. Oh well now I've gotta wait. I waited two weeks for Spanish girl, now she's back. Now I've gotta wait four weeks for a weed girl. Oh God. The Spanish girl said, I said are you glad to be back in Devon? She said Yeah, but I had a panic attack being alone. So were you not alone in Spain? I don't get a, who was she with in Spain? Family. I can be your new family. It's just, I don't know. I'm worried like I get Spanish girl over and then she wants to be my girlfriend before I get a chance to meet weed girl. I got two girls now, maybe a third one but she looks like mixed black or something so I don't know if I wanna meet her. She looks okay I guess. Apart from that, no one else don't really wanna meet. I would not wanna meet Indian girl again. Don't really think I'd meet game a girl one again. Maybe it's friends. If there's something I really wanted to do with someone, which there's not <laugh>. Hmm And that Thai woman doesn't reply the 40-year-old Thai woman. So I don't have many options. I guess I could try to get back on Bumble and Tinder with my flip <laugh>. Just keep making new accounts. I stone a girl like me that um, not really. Mila wasn't really a stoner when I got high from the the brownie in Amsterdam. She didn't even have any, she didn't, she didn't drink and she didn't do weed. Mila was very clean I think maybe 'cause in the past she did a lot of stuff and now she wanted to be become clean and she was like really into Russell brand and into his like uh, what's it called? Recuperation journey. She was like really into that stuff. So she didn't want to touch drugs and alcohol. So Mita was a bit boring to be honest, which is kind of ironic 'cause she thought I was boring. She never drank very dull. I took two days off streaming this week. I'm only gonna make about 650 for the next payout. You see, this is the problem. If you stream normal hours and have a social life, the best you're gonna make is maybe five or 600 a week. Like 2000 a month. If I stream all day every day, yeah I can make some good money like 4K, 4.5 k. But that means you gotta have no life and it's just a sad life isn't it? Well whilst I have no life I'll take advantage of it. But if I get the opportunity to get a social life, I would definitely want to um, have a more balanced life. Sacrifice money. And the problem with the streaming thing is it only makes really good money if you can do it all day long 'cause per hour the page not that good compared to a normal job. Sometimes it's less than minimum wage depends on your view account. Oh yeah, I don't know. You have to really go all in on the streaming thing and make content go traveling and your whole life just becomes streaming. I don't know if I want that. It's just kind of sad sometimes I think maybe just getting a normal job, how a normal life is actually better 'cause it is such a miserable, boring life living like this. It it's shit. Unless you got like a bunch of streamer friends, which I would not want 'cause then you end up like fucking ice beside and all these fucking retards around you. I would not want like a CX community of streamers in my life all hungry for drama to get abused. It just looks so toxic and horrible. I mean look, all this stuff happening now with his Kimmy girlfriend breakup, didn't she bang like one of his friends, they're sailed. Imagine the 20 of me all streaming and gossiping each other's drama and like sleeping with each other behind each other's backs. It's just horrible. It looks horrible. I would not want be part of that. Imagine having a relationship part of this toxic stream of community. God I feel sorry for these people in a way that's basically what CX community is. It's 20 Daniels just shit talking each other nonstop and cheating and backstabbing, betrayals, gossip secrets. Poor ice bassoon. He never learned from his first lesson of um, people betraying him. That's why I don't want friends. Exactly the reason I came back from the day yesterday detox with six hours of maricar and sea dog V eight and I watched a healthy gamer Indian guy talking to the pirate software guy that was quite interesting and funny how he's getting so much hate just because he is arrogant. The internet is ridiculous. Imagine hating on the guy so much just 'cause he is arrogant and he let his friends die and wow <laugh> so stupid. The whole internet bandwagon hating on him just 'cause he got views. It's funny 'cause he's right about most things he says but people get pissed off at him because he sounds smug. It's just stupid. Like he's not wrong about anything but people just hate on him because he sounds smug. Lacks humility. I should have just done what PewDiePie does and be like, yep guys I was wrong. So sorry I had a moment of weakness. His problem is he doesn't do that and he like argues about why he wasn't wrong. I think that's kind of what I do as well, which is why a lot of people hate me as a creed. So you are bend the knee. People don't care if you're right or not, they just wanna see you say sorry even if you're not wrong. I like the guy to be honest. I've watched a lot of stuff of his now since that stuff's happened. The pirate software guy, I don't hate him at all. I think what he says makes sense. I think people's stupid fucking retarded failure on him. I feel sorry for the guy but he needs a haircut. His hair's stupidly long. No I don't think you have to be like ice beside do string with people. But my type of character and my kind of content relies a lot on drama. So if there were other streamers in my circle, there would be drama wouldn't there? And it would become toxic. I don't have the self-control to not have drama, which is my problem. I get too emotional And communities like ISIS thrive off of the drama same as mine really on a smaller scale. Obviously I, I'm probably not gonna go out to there. I've been going out every single day. It's a bit tired of driving. Just wanna stay in, stay and like clean, do laundry, clean my bedsheets. I don't know why the freezer is not freezing the ice cream. It's still squishy and the chips are not frozen. Why is it not freezing? Mm The stuff at the back's frozen. I moved all my money into a savings account. I think it's 3.85% interest. So I'm getting 44 pence daily interest. And what I plan to do is I'm gonna hold all my money in that savings account and then slowly buy into the market very slowly, like a hundred pounds a month maybe until there's a like a buying opportunity. Then I'll deploy more. I'm not really in a rush to deploy now I want to get, oh no get stupid SB 500 made me boring The settings. I'm pretty sure it's on max. It says max. Yeah if I start putting all the money into that savings account, if I put 8,000 into it and get paid a pound a day, it's like 30 pounds a month and then slowly drip it from that into an investing account into some ETF. Otherwise it's just sitting in my bank account doing nothing. I am missing out on 40 PE a day. No I still got the ice cream. It's still sloppy for some reason it's not freezing properly. God, I'm so mentally exhausted from all these dates recently. God going on dates is so hard. It is not fun. Not fun at all. But you have to do it don't you to find a girlfriend. I hate the anxiety buildup at the beginning whilst you're waiting for them to arrive and then that feeling when you see them in real life for the first time and you're like, oh god, not you know, straight away you're not attracted instantly like within a second now you gotta sit it through hours. A forced combo. Oh back to streaming. Focus on the Monday. What we doing? Hmm? I've been thinking a lot recently about normal life versus streaming life. Sometimes it does. It does seem kind of nice. I wondered why I, I couldn't have just done every and been happy doing that and done it properly, kept it secret so I don't get banned. But I did kind of hate doing it. Sometimes I wonder, maybe I'll try looking for a job again. I don't know. I don't know what to do. Can I just get a job sitting in one of those ticket officers at one of these attraction places, right? I know the castle and just sit there and sell tickets. Damn this pickup truck's massive Ford Ultra track. Look at the size of that. That's a beast. That thing must be like 40 k. I've seen those in the Ford showroom. That fucking expensive four wheel drive I think's huge. I would not wanna come across one of those on a tiny country lane. I don't know. I just, I feel so much happier when I don't stream. Like yesterday I came back from the date and I just did nothing. It was nice. It's like you can't enjoy anything when you're live. You can't just like sit in your house and have a meal and relax. I like streaming's fucking shit. Boring gets me in trouble constantly worrying about oh I gotta do something interesting. Oh no, my view is getting bored. Fucking shit hate streaming. Boring is fucked. Hey the money's not even good unless you do it all day long, like 12 hours plus. And I just feel like there's a lot of happiness that you miss in the world from doing what I do. But how many girlfriends social life, <affirmative>? Yeah I feel like maybe I would rather just sit in a ticket office all day long making minimum wage. At least that's not going to destroy my life. You say, oh the job's boring and it's not fun. This is not fun either. And this is boring and I'm not gonna become famous doing this am I? I mean the whole reason why YouTube is fun is because of the idea of becoming famous, boring as fuck Again, like a thousand views. No one gives a shit. The whole point of doing it is 'cause you want to become famous. Like that's the goal. Once you realize it's not gonna happen, then you give up 'cause you realize well if I'm not gonna become famous then what's the point? The only exciting bit about YouTube is when you get loads of views and you like kind of famous and then that's over and then you, you kind of retain a small audience and you make, yeah okay you can live off it but it's not fun anymore 'cause you're not really famous. I don't know. The only fun part of it was getting hundreds of thousands of views. Did I keep my fake identity up? I notice on dates people don't actually use your name. No one's ever called me my name. You just say Oh hello, nice to meet you. Weren't you ever gonna say each other's names? So it's not really a problem. I, yeah, hotels are the problems. Problems like well you gotta pay for something. Give them their name. Give them your name. At least my floor mats nice and clean. I dunno, I don't really feel very happy recently. Now I don't think randomly going to Thailand's really gonna help it. It might make it worse actually 'cause I can't even get a job in Thailand and I can't speak to people because I don't speak the language. Maybe I do yarn some kind of social life. Dunno really. Maybe I do have to think about some kind of training or career to look at. I use the kick money to go do a course or something. I am not making seven KA month on kick anymore. I'd have to destroy my mental health. I have to do crazy hours to make good money on the kick. Like double the hours of what anyone else does. Most people just work seven hours a day. I have to do like 13, 14. Did you ever get this idea where you imagine meeting this girl and you think she's great and then you would do anything to um, preserve that relationship? Like change careers, change jobs, move. 'cause she's the one like you really click and everything's great and then you can picture yourself with a fu having a future with her. Sometimes I get a tiny feeling of that and I would not wanna cut other people's hair. I'd be way too nervous that I mess it up. I mess up my own hair but I don't care 'cause it's my fault and it'll grow back. My hair looks terrible when I, I let it grow long and then I cut it all off the first day or two. Looks awful, takes me weeks to fix it. Snip by snip. I had a lot of girls in the including the Muslim girl. She said What you're doing is not the right thing and the money's not even worth it. <laugh>, I remember we made a video together and I was really happy 'cause it got like 20,000 views and it made like $60 and I thought wow it was pretty good. And she said, is that it? And I was like, yeah but that's good. But she was not impressed with the $60. I'm easily impressed by low amounts of money I guess <laugh>. I'm like wow. I made a hundred dollars. This weird streamlabs just minimized itself. Didn't even touch anything. I had this, I used to have this friend back when I was 10 years old. His name was David. Why is everyone called fucking David? His name was David and he used to work at my mum's castle as a car park attendant. And I always used to think that's so lame and sad and my life as a famous YouTuber so much better now I don't know who he does to stand in a car park and makes more money than I do and has a normal life and pray has a girlfriend and friends and people don't hate him and he pray has no problem doing his job. And I think I kind of want that. Maybe I've gotta find like a car park job at a castle that's boring. Uh, this is boring. This is not fun and exciting. This is boring as fuck. I just sit in my fucking house with a hundred viewers uh, to get any more viewers. I've gotta do insane stuff. Not fair. People like Sea Dog VA can be boring and everyone loves them. He gets like 10,000 viewers on Twitch just playing Mel solid. He doesn't have to do crazy stuff but he has an un tarnished reputation and he's likable sometimes. I wonder how Seadog VA does it. He doesn't get into any drama. He never says anything that gets him into trouble. Even someone like pirate software has gotten into that big trouble. But CLVA wouldn't. Connor's kind of a genius but he knows exactly what to do, how to manage a large audience, not get emotional, not say the wrong things. How are some people so good at it? Like Chris as well? They're so good at it. Yeah, if you're making big money then the controversy and the weird lifestyle's worth it. But I'm not making massive money unless I do this all day every day and then I really having like a, a life moment. I've been an epiphany. I think that's what it's called. I think just when I take a break from streaming, I feel like I really like not streaming. Well I got myself out of debt so I just got to strengthen my position a bit more. 10 K savings would be nice. I started moving my money into a savings account with about 3.85% interest. 50 pence daily interest. And then I'm gonna slowly drip feed it into stocks again very slowly. It not going all in or anything crazy. And not CFDs just uh, used the trading to un ISA account foreclosed by free trade. I don't like free trade. They've done something really ugly with the ui. It looks awful. I need like some kind of mental stimulation and this is not stimulating. I actually did kind of feel stimulated when I started the every job and I started the Amazon job. I mean but I need something new And then definitely keep it a secret. Every time I talk about what I'm doing, it gets the trolls mess it up. Definitely needs to learn to keep my mouth shut. Hmm, what's out for lunch? There's so many Indian people at tinted jail castle packs of them. So many like massive buss full of the tour guide people. A lot of French people too on the roads going oh god, why the French people drive so slow? Maybe they're scared 'cause they're used to driving on the other side. I saw this Toyota Yaris French plate 30 miles per hour on the 60 Road French Drive so slow and the ice cream. Oh god all the mint is leaking out. I don't know why it's not freezing in the freezer. I think all the ice is blocking the freezing air. Really annoying. I just, I don't know. I've got this feeling like how cool would it be if I put some effort into learning a skill? I got a job. People liked me, try my best to be a good person. I don't like feeling like a scumbag and hated, I don't feel good but I always get in trouble with people. I don't have the social skills to deal with it. I don't like that feeling when people hate me. Uh, you know at one point back in maybe February or March I was thinking differently like get a truck driving license or whatever. I don't know what happened. I really feel like sometimes this whole YouTube thing completely ruined my life. Oh no fucking mold. Oh my God. Oh why does it keep going? Moldy <laugh>. Why does it now I've gotta make my own bread. I hate mold. So annoying. I give up buying bread. It just goes moldy after a few days isn't it flower pancake? There's too much water. There's still too much water so got it harder. No, AJ bought me this garlic powder like four months ago. <laugh> still using it now. There's too much flour. Add more flour when there's too much flour And that stuck in the sieve. I mean the whisk for me, my own bread don't need real gr it's easy. I need a rolling pen. Let that rest for 30 minutes. Ugh stink. Yeah look it's completely dry. The last time I did the washing you said is there gonna be water leaking from the washing drainage? Did it just dry up or did nothing leak? I don't know if the real estate agent secretly fixed it whilst I was out or maybe just fixed itself. There's no water in my leak bowl. Sometimes things just fix themselves without doing anything to it. I understand weed girl, she said she's really busy with work but yesterday we texted almost all day and she was obviously not doing anything could have come over. I really doubt she's working on Sunday too so I don't know why she's making me wait a month. Maybe it's like a shit test. Do she think it's a shit test like to weed out people who just want to bang. She's like oh you gotta wait a month. I think she's shit testing me. We were texting almost all day yesterday. She was definitely not working. I was texting her whilst I was on the date and she's about 27 and I don't think she's worked. Who worked? Who? Like what place is open on a Sunday on this? I don't know. I wouldn't mind getting a new fridge, vacuum cleaner and a TV that in a nice big fridge I could put ice rollies in and then I got to save my money and this precious like bonus money that I wasn't expecting to make. I've got to not blow it or my house is messy. What do you mean the laundry here? Yeah, I got kind of lazy putting the clothing away. My date shut. This would drive the Korean girlfriend crazy. She was so OCD with folding towels up. Uh, I how dirty this is. Didn't notice that. Uh, that's dried batter that I've been there for weeks. I love frying pan. Tiny rubbish bins for food waste. Big rubbish bins for everything else. There's bits of garlic lumps that didn't spread out. Um, how am I gonna flatten it? Yeah, it's not really working. Oh look at this. Why doesn't it come off? Oh screwed on. Yeah I can't be bothered now I've gotta screw it back on. Fucking hell. Now I've got the screwdriver. I might as well screw it off. Oh it works pretty well. Oh wow. That's pretty good. Okay, Brent is done. What's that? Oh what's that? Smoke? Oh <laugh>. I dunno why smoke's coming out from underneath the pan? It's kind of weird. I think I made it too thick but ah, it's gonna be raw inside. Oh my god. Burning raw in the middle. Oh my fucking God. Why is it so hot? Ah, ah, smokey. It is called tempering the steel. I learned it in kingdom cu. Oh I got smoke everywhere. I don't think the smoke alarms work. Look, look how smokey it is. Oh Jesus. How about open the door? Oh god. Smoke attack. It smells like barbecue now it has like a gust of wind blowing through the house. Looks, looks like a wind tunnel from there into there. Bing bang bang, boom boom bang boom it's cooked. I see you don't need to buy bread when you can make your own. You can make it from taste. Maybe I'll put AJ's garlic powder in the bin. It's kind of old now. Don't tell AJ. Maybe it's done Brent, but it not be raw in the middle. A try piece. Delicious My lunch. Beautiful. Never get any peace on the weekend. My people's got bang stuff, cut stuff. Can't they just do nothing like me. Best lunch ever see if it's any good? Yeah. Yeah. Kind of weird. It's like a salmon pizza. It is kind of like pizza, right? Uh it is Okay. I guess I should have made sushi. I am very dry. I think I'd rather just see the seven on this own. Oh God I feel sick. Ugh. Um, worst lunch ever. It's a stupid little fly flying around my face. Oh it's fucking fine. I a little fly flying around my face. Oh my god. Rubbish bread. I've got a massive lump of dough there. If I rolled it thinner it might be better. It was too thick. May I have mango instead? What? Like a NICU man. The Japanese or Chinese one? It is mostly to steam Those aren't you man. This is not how my mom used to prepare it. She used to cut it in half like um, like that and then whoops. That didn't work. The stupid stone is so big. Why is the stone so big? Get out. Oh well let's my phone keep locking itself. So mango is really annoying. It's so slimy. I think I've got most of it off. Oh I knee went down my throat and that is how you eat mango. If I had kids, I'd teach 'em I to do everything wrong. <laugh> and they'll think this is how you're supposed to do it <laugh>, but grow up learning how to do everything the wrong way. Today I teach you how to prepare a mango. No this is not how my mom did it. She, I dunno how she cut it in half when there was a seed in the middle and then she would crisscross cuts and then tone it inside out and then all the square bits would like pop out. That was a weird lunch. Salmon pda, hoots and a mango Done another successful lunch. Pineapple. Tomorrow maybe might have orange. It is only 12 o'clock. I wanna get a tv. There's a 75 inch one on Amazon. 500 pounds. If I get a girlfriend maybe I'd buy one. Someone got banned. Yeah. Obvious troll. Made the account today. Joined today. See she's not busy for hell. We girl says she can't meet until September 'cause she's so busy. But we were texting all day yesterday and today she said she's going out to Bristol with friends. So she's had the whole weekend off. What are you talking about? Why can't we meet now? Definitely suspicious. I got the impression she's working every day but she didn't, obviously she didn't work yesterday unless she texts me at work and then today she's going out to Bristol with friends. So she could've easily came over on Friday and had two days or three days out two nights. I uh, they tell you one thing they do another don't they? I could say I thought you were really busy so why can't we meet on the weekend at this point anytime there's a new follow up it's just a troll. Another troll account 'cause they've already been banned. Maybe she's gonna buy more weed. No, she lives near Bristol. How did the date go? Uh, it was okay. Didn't feel attracted. Uh, I hope she doesn't ask to meet again. The gamer girl. I don't wanna be rude and ghost to her. And I think if the guy doesn't ask to meet again then the girl should take the hint. She was nice. I don't wanna be mean to her. Sometimes I feel a bit sorry for these girls. Like I wonder if they'll ever get a boyfriend 'cause it won't be me. Would rather be alone. I don't know. I feel sorry for them because they can't do anything unless they get massive surgery. Her face was fine unlike Indian girl. Now if I could put her face on Indian girl's body now we're talking, there's always two problems with women that are either a bit fat or the face is a bit ugly. No, I haven't eaten all the groceries. I've got the beef. Most of the pork, the chicken breasts. Uh, what else? I wanna slow boil the beef for a curry tonight. Wait, can you make tika masala with beef? Isn't that weird? Maybe I use the chicken for the tika masala Then Indian food doesn't have beef. Oh yeah I forgot about that. <laugh>. Imagine going to an Indian restaurant. Say do you have beef curry <laugh>? I might actually do that by accident. It's like going to a Muslim restaurant saying do you have any pork? I completely forgot they eat. They worship cows don't they? Yeah. I never now think about it. You never see Indian people in McDonald's do you? Do you think even British born Indians don't eat beef? It is weird. British born Indians identify as Indians instead of feeling like they're British 'cause they honor the traditions of their parents. Yeah, McDonald's missing out on the Muslim and Indian customers. Well I guess the Muslims can have a beef burger without any bacon in it. Imagine just like not eating a whole animal. You're missing out. Yeah, well I don't identify as Chinese so I don't give a shit. But how even is Chinese culture anyway? <inaudible> Chinese New Year. We don't have a Ramadan or can't eat this. Can't Chinese people eat everything? <laugh>? It's not one single thing Chinese people don't eat. It wasn't Turkish gold but she still let me nut inside raw. I thought you're not allowed to do that. Although aren't condoms banned in Islam <affirmative> that I can get behind. She said technically she's a Muslim but she doesn't really follow it. I guess they got different levels of Muslim manity. Turkish is probably not as strict. Um, I don't why people bothered to be honest. No one's forcing you unless you, you live in the Middle East and they are forcing you. I think if you're not being forced then why bother? No one even cares if you do it or don't do it. Do what you want. Like if you want to take it up the bum and then take up the bum. No one's stopping you eat wherever I want. Eat my toenail. Well I am not doing food shopping for another week at least. I don't think all my food will last me until September. It is the 17th. That's two weeks. Well the meat's gonna start going off by two weeks. I've gotta start cooking it all off. I dunno why my food bill is so expensive. I'm not buying anything fancy am I Crisps and pot noodle? Yeah. Until they ban you. If they're doing nothing wrong. Stupid Amazon. Yeah, I did have to throw out the pork Betty 'cause it was going all weird looking. No I think I like um, pork loin more. There's too much fat in the pork bedding. Yeah it would be nice having a big fridge. Can you imagine the space? I I could freeze more stuff as well. Freezer would be nice. It's funny. I buy an 80 pound monitor that I don't need and then don't wanna buy a fridge when it will cost about the same. I dunno. I have like this mental block against buying big stuff because I keep thinking I'm going to leave or something. I keep feeling like I don't want to buy more big stuff 'cause then I've gotta get rid of it. If I do leave a couple days ago I was dead set on setting the car. Now I don't really want to, my mind changes. Every day i's not easy being me. I think I got a DHD or something. Also a fridge is boring. I don't get excited at a fridge. I don't really wanna buy anything Now I moved all my money into a a cash saving trading two on two account. It generates 44 PA date. That's 15 pounds a month. That's pretty good. 15 pounds a month risk free guaranteed money. And a lot of these ETFs like I don't know SP 500 ETFs are only up 7% year on year. All that risk just for 7% gain when you could just put in a 4% savings account. I wanna slowly start rebuilding my stocks. I'm thinking like a hundred pounds a month and then 200 pounds a month. If it starts crashing, if it keeps going up, I'll put less in a month. If it goes down I'll put more in every month. DCAI don't really know what to get. I thought rare earth and minerals ETF and then maybe just SS and P another stack. It would probably be higher this time next year than it is now. I don't really have any genius trading ideas. Maybe gold still but I just get the gold boole on ETF and not get a mining company. I think wait until September I probably have better buying opportunity. Well I am not planning to keep the money in this saving account forever. It's just in there whilst I slowly drip feed it into ETFs. I not paying mom. Um, I need more financial security first. I want 10,000 pounds savings first. Well the stocks ICER has interest in it then what's the point? Making a stocks ICER and a cash isr. How do I get interest? Interest on cash. Oh what You get more interest on cash on the stocks and shares ISR than the cash ISR enable. That's stupid. Why do you have to enable it? Okay, I'll just move all the money from the cash ISR into the stocks and shares. Isr why does the cash ISR have lower interest rate than the stocks and shares? Isr, that's so stupid. Cash ISR minus 4,002 stocks and shares isa. Okay done. I get 43 pence daily interest. Well why do they have a cash eye? So if they've already got interest on the stocks and shares IR and also what's the point of having an invest account and a stocks and shares ir why would you put the money in the invest account which isn't protected from tax when you could put it in the stocks and shares IR And this in the stocks. I mean in the cash ISA it was 3.85% interest in the stock shares. ISA it's 4.05%. It didn't f it's just dunno the camera turned itself off. <affirmative>. I don't know why they have so many damn accounts. They should close the invest one and close the cash iser and just have the stocks and shares. Iser also free trade. You gotta pay five pounds a month to have the stocks and shares Iser but it's free on trade one two. So they're called free trade and then it's not even free. Ah, they shouldn't call themselves free trade if you gotta pay five pounds. How's that free? It's stupid isn't it? I took all my money out the free trade account. I'm gonna close it tomorrow. I'm paying five pounds a month. For what? Trading 2 1 2 offers you everything for free, not free trade. I put all my money in trading 2 1 2. That's the best one. ETO is rubbish as well. Looks ugly. Revolut you can invest on Revolu. Revolut has got 4% interest savings. Account revenue's got crypto as well. I don't know what what stocks to get all in Palantir, how about that Palantir's the future they're gonna revolutionize whatever they do. Remember watching those YouTube videos and getting tricked into thinking they know what they're talking about. Uh, this stupid Jeremy with his tattooed chef not falling for that. Yeah, I can't believe I put all my dad's inheritance money into two meme stocks. BNGO and MicroVision down 90% since 2020. So dumb. I thought it was gonna be rich. Make a hundred KCFD counts not looking good. It's down nearly 400 pounds. Oh my laundry. Yes. I lost 10,000 pounds investing. Didn't get it back. No I put 600 pounds in my CFD account down to like 280 now. Oh and market tanks. I'll make all the money back there. Just be patient. September's usually bad for stocks. August is usually still strong. I didn't read it. I watched it on my YouTube video. Yeah I don't watch YouTubers who say buy this dark hundred x gains coming laundry day is so exciting. Milk solid three really sucks. I'm so bored watching the play. Three. The enemies are dumb. You got the pain. Who shoots out bees? You got the fear who just shoots poison Crossbo bolts. And then you got some big guy who does electricity. All the enemies are really dumb. And Mel, solid one. They were cool. Psycho mantis, sniper wolf. Did they have a new writer for NGS three? 'cause the story sucks. Where's Otter Con? Where's Colonel and where's Ry? And where's like cool people? The characters suck. I've watched nearly seven hours of Connor playing it. Well all the characters are boring. You've got young o aot who's just lame and you've got that biker woman who's lame compared to Meryl and then the whole game is just in a stupid jungle. He is in a jungle the whole time. Mel said one was cool with the Alaskan secret military base and Mel were two was cool. And the oil thingy. I don't wanna be in a stupid jungle. I would never buy that game. Why is it just running around in a jungle in caves all the time? It just doesn't have any interesting characters. Like not just solid one had always the first and second games are the best in a series. I've never played four or five or the other ones. They look stupid. I don't understand how they've made it so bad compared to Milky sort of one and two. I've only ever played one and two when I was a kid by the time three came out I was in my anime phase. Didn't care about gaming anymore. I probably played number two the most. I remember shooting the watermelons in that pantry thing. Being amazed at the ragdoll physics. Mm. How much does it to get a fridge? 150. 200. Oh my god. 200 pounds. About secondhand. There's no secondhand ones. 165 for a used one. 50 centimeter freestanding fridge freezer. Nah, I'll just use my small one. I'm not buying it off. Some random person in a house and then I've got to sort out transport. How am I gonna get it back yet? I need to hire a van. It's too much hassle. And then I've got to like go to the house and talk to them and they want cash probably No thanks. I heard some story about some guy in Japan bought a fridge off Craigslist or something and then it was full of cockroaches. No thanks. Not buying people's secondhand rubbish. Pretty stinks as well. I think every house should come with a fridge and washing machine. I mean every house comes with an oven. Why does every house come with an oven as standard and a toilet should come with everything standard. Everyone needs it. Who doesn't need a washing machine and a fridge? Everyone's gonna need it. So why not just put it in here as standard and instead of moving your old one around you just leave it here and then you use the one in your new place. I mean no one goes around installing ovens and taking it with them. I think it should just be part of the house. Like the shower and the toilet's part of the house isn't it? I don't even use the oven. That's the funny thing. You always get an oven with a house. I don't even use it. I never use the oven. I used the oven once when I moved in and had a pizza and then I got an air fryer. I'd rather have a fridge and washing machine than an oven. I wish I had a bathtub. I miss having a bath. I thought maybe I send the flip seven back. No, keep it. She sent me a picture wearing a hat <laugh>. I sent a picture of me wearing my Japanese World War II hat. Uh, she'd send her my cardboard hat. That was funny. I got way too carried away making those cardboard hats. I don't know why it was so fun. Cardboard's fun isn't it? You can cut it and shape it into things. It's cheap rubbish. So it doesn't matter if you waste it. I like cardboard. I made a whole chair out of it. Could probably have made a sofa out of cardboard and then just put pillows on it. Cardboard table. Oh the cardboard game for switch. I played that at the Korean woman's house. She had the labo, the driving thing. It was pretty cool. A load of cardboard held together with elastic bands and like cardboard springs. Yeah, she was working, doing her coding. I was just sitting there playing Nintendo Labo like I was a kid. <laugh>. I played that driving game. Nintendo do come up with all this stupid gimmicky rubbish, don't they? That you play once and then never play again. Why not get into woodworking? I just dunno what I would make. And it's so like that Ikea table cost 20 pounds. It's so cheap to just buy furniture. What would I make? I'd make a sexy woman out of wood and then I'd put a hole for my flashlight and bang at on a big massive wooden bum. So who could have guessed it was gonna go in that direction? <laugh>. I make like a wooden butt with a hole for my flashlight to go into. Mm-hmm <affirmative> Imagine fucking a wooden butt. Yeah. Imagine the splinters in your dick. <laugh>. No, I put fleshlight into it. What's the point? Creating any anything. If you can't fuck it. You know that ice drama? He keeps saying this guy goon should have told him something but he never says what? What is the thing that he didn't tell him? I don't get it. Kept saying, you should have told me a year ago, man to man. Tell him what, what is the thing? You know what I think is nice when you meet a girl and you click? I like it when you can feel comfortable kind of teasing each other. You know when you, you stop doing all that fake politeness thing. I like it when a girl feels comfortable when they can like tease me. You break down that weird ice wall barrier thing. Banter. Yeah. Yeah. I like it when the girl starts bullying me. Maybe I like doing silly things and then I like it when the girl kind of makes fun of me. But then when my mom does it, I get really pissed off. It's weird isn't it? Maybe it's like some things to do with my mom. My racing class. Un well. I always like playing as a troll. I love the male troll with his big hunchback and his funny laugh. His laugh is like sounded so stupid. I had just spam it all the time and it would crack me up. His stupid hunch back at his tusks. It was so dirty. I hated Arks and Torrance. I could never play as an ark. They're so ugly. I kind oft listen to it now. Also the male troll laugh was, I mean dance is pretty good. Why can't, are there no clips of it? Oh here's, there's that one. No damn. The game's really dead isn't it? If it's this hard to find what that was, not it. Oh, I can't even bother those stupid ads. You know, I'm hating using YouTube more and more. 'cause of all the fucking ads. I'm not paying 12 pounds a month. It's annoying when I'm watching Connor and I'm playing America up and I can't press the skip ad button And the ad just keeps playing. Really Thinking of getting an ad blocker after all the years. I complained about my viewers using them six pounds. I'm sure it's like 12 pounds or something. I don't have a student id I If you can't beat 'em, join them. I've gotta use a VPN as well now to watch porn. I'm not entering this stupid age verification in every single time and I'm not making an account on X hamster or whatever. <laugh>. I having an account and profile on a porn website. That's just sad. I just wanna go in, click the video, not and then click off. Too much effort to watch porn. Mm-hmm <affirmative> It's a nice day. Why aren't you outside? I went out yesterday and the day before and the day before and the day before and the day before and the day before. And the day before. I went to Tin to Joel Castle yesterday with my date. Sorry I didn't bring you guys. I took some photos. Do you wanna see a photo? Got this photo of the, had a big bridge and that's the castle. Not much left of it. It's nearly a thousand years old. King Arthur's castle <laugh>. This one's really strong. I can't inhale it. Yeah, it wasn't that good if I was gonna stream it. Number one, it's 20 pounds to get in and it takes like half an hour to see all of it. And then you can walk along the, the coastline, the cliff line. But it's just same as any other cliff line. Oh nice. And then I got an ice lolly. She bought it for me. She bought me ice lolly and Cornish past it. Maybe I do some weeding or weeding stream. I can't really complain that the weather's bad. Now look, I switched to the outside setup. Hold on. Testing, testing. So many. I'm supposed to pull this out. Must be joking. Look. Well I'm supposed to call out every single thing. You must be joking. And then some of them have brambles. Why is that? It's a nail. Oh my God. Oh I can't do this. And then these are like thorny thick ones. I can't pull these out. Look at these. I can't even touch it. I can't. I can't grip it. And these ones have spiky leaves. I need to get gloves. I can't put it out. Stupid. God it is not too bad on this side. I did extract the root look. Sometimes it snaps. See it snaps. I can't get this one out. Oh, I got it looks like greens. Uh, yeah I have hay fever but it seems to be over now. It seems to only be bad in spring. I don't seem to get it anymore. It was pretty bad back in April, may. And it was steam metal not touching that. Those things really hurt. These red ones are weird. A thick spider. Uh, they will break off. It popped. Oh fucking hell. Oh fuck. What was that? Oh. Oh it stung me. You little bitch spit on. You actually like that. Oh, the nettle in that. Oh, it already hurt. Oh it's a nettle. You fucker. Now you're gonna get it. Oh that really hurt <laugh>. Oh that really stung me. You think you're funny? Do you? I think you're smart. This what yet? It'll bitch. Now that's not really doing anything. Hmm. Oh my finger's burning now. I can't get this red one out 'cause they're nestles in it. Uh, why are these leaves all white? God. Metals are clever. Aren't they? Make make themselves untouchable. Oh, their finger. They're gonna suck it out. Hurts so much. I'm scared. I'm, I need to get gloves. Oh, I'm scared now. <laugh>. That really hurts. Uh, maybe I buy some gloves now. My finger hurts. Uh oh. A headache. Oh, stupid garden. Oh it hurts. I got stung. Oh, I bought gloves before off Teo. And they're rubbish. There was as thick as toilet paper. Oh, I don't wanna buy more stuff. Gardening gloves. Uh, 10 pounds, thorn proof. Leather, garden work, gloves, doctor. Heavy duty. I get those. Add to basket. Nine pounds. That's another nine pounds gone. That's an hour of streaming. Yesterday called cost me a fortune. 40 pounds for tickets and then probably seven pounds charging. I used about 40% of the battery and didn't stream so I missed out on $180. God, that really hurt. I just touched a tiny bit of it. It's like spice on your skin. Uh, hate gardening. And if I get a weed trimer, then I just cut the top bit of the weed off and then it would just keep growing back until the whole thing is just weeds. But cut short. It'd be like a lawn of weeds. Yeah, well they shouldn't have put stupid stone garden. Why don't just put grass and I could mow the lawn. I can't mow the stones. How can I mow the stones? I really dunno why they put a stone garden. I'm supposed to pluck out every weed one by one. A weed killer doesn't do anything. And even if it died from weed killer, you still gotta pluck out. Otherwise you'd be, instead of green weeds, you have a load of brown dead weeds. Yeah, there's like a waterproof lining under the gravel, but the weeds grow in between the gaps. So it's completely useless. It should have just concreted the whole garden then. Yeah, they just put them out of whatever that is liner and then put a load of gravel stones on top and then weed will grow through it. And I can't mow the lawn. If they just had a lawn then I could have mowed the lawn and then gotta buy a lawn mower. I how any garden's A bit annoying. I don't have this problem at my mom's house. You just mow the lawn. Weeds are crazy. They're like the cockroach of the plant world. Oh God. She wants a picture of me wearing my World War II hat now. I shouldn't have mentioned it. I knew she was gonna say that. Oh, it's in my car. Oh God. I look so dorky. I found, show this maybe inside. I can't make this look cool. <laugh>. She wants to see my hat. Oh my God, it looks so bad. I can't take a picture of this. I look. So where's my skin filter? <laugh>. Mm-hmm <affirmative>. Maybe this one. Hmm. I can't get a good picture way like that. <laugh>. It's really hard to see a good picture. Ah, these all look terrible. I'm trying to look good in my hair. I can't. Yeah. I think it's impossible to take a good photo wearing this <laugh>. He's gonna block me. Me. Do you think if I look really bad, she'll not wanna meet? If I take it like this, what if I show some bicep? What about this one? That looks pretty good. It <laugh>. It looks so dumb. How about that? I shot myself in the foot. Hmm. I don't think it would be this hard to set a photo wearing a hat. Maybe this one. I must choose the best picture out of 20 failed shots. I must take 100 shots and then choose the best one or two. The other 98 shots. Uh, and they're not. They're not. How it actually look like the fake Your toes are so long. Yeah, that's how it walks so far. Girls like to suck on them. I could smell roast dinner if someone's having Sunday roast lunch. Smells like roast potatoes and gravy. Very traditional English here. I'm probably the only ethnic in the village. I'm the only ethnic in the village. I really hope she's not sending my pics to her friends. There's um, there's a several few obstacles to this dating thing. Number one, don't get banned off the app. Get the WhatsApp first. Number two, uh, hope they don't ask for ID or proof. Number three, hope their friends don't know me if, 'cause usually girls like to talk to their friends about some guy they're talking to or gonna meet. They'll they'll, they'll say like, or I'll meet the guy next weekend and then the friend will go, oh, show me a pic. And they show a pic and then they go, oh my god, that's Daniel. I got fucks like that when I was in Manchester. I had a date set up and everything. And then she goes, oh, I showed my pic your friend and she knows you. And she canceled the date even after finding out I'm a famous YouTube. But just 'cause I did only fans, she didn't wanna meet up girls like to talk don't they? So if I can pass this, she's definitely probably showing my pig surf friends who was cute the date, not really, not quite up to my standards. Slight improvement over Indian girl though I didn't even fantasize about having sex with either of these girls. I thought um, it would have to be a dark night and I'd have to be feeling very depressed and horny. But then I pray, regret it afterwards when I have to now kick them out. Well you ruled in life don't have sex unless you actually find them attractive. I'm done accidentally get into relationships with people I don't even find attractive. How come she's texting me when she's supposed to be out with her friends? She got so much time to text. Why don't she come over? I dunno why she made it sound like she's so busy. And then she obviously had the whole weekend off and I mean I guess she probably already planned to meet these friends on Sunday 'cause we only started talking a couple days ago. I'm a bit disappointed in her lack of enthusiasm will wait a whole month to me. Maybe it's one of those things where if he really likes me, he'll wait. Yeah, I'll wait but I'm gonna meet other girls in between. I mean he might spend a month texting and we meet and we don't like each other and we just spend a whole month wasted. Wasted a whole month texting. Doesn't wanna rush things really? She said she could come to my house the first time we meet and not go on a date. I said would do you wanna meet outside first before coming over? And she said, if I prefer, I don't. I mean I prefer just come in we fuck. Let's be honest. I'm just saying it in case you would rather me outside first. 'cause that's what most girls want. Oh, and it burped and fired at the same time. Don't they say your stomach explodes if that happens. Yeah. One thing I was impressed with was that she's more knowledgeable about platypus than me. I said, did you know platypus are one of the only mammals that can lay eggs? And she was like, yeah, they also secrete milk out of their stomach and don't have any nipples. Then I looked up and it, it was right. They also have two dickhead. They have a bifa bifurcated penis. They don't urinate. They only come and then they've got another dickhead for peeing. That's weird. And they got an A cle which is what birds have, which is a hole where they shit piss and come out of all at the same time. So it looks like they've got bird features laying eggs and that a cloaker. And they've got a bi bifurcated penis, which is weird. She knows more about me than I know about the reams. Impressive. I wonder what, what comes up if you search platypus penis. Oh my god, it's disgusting. It's got two dickhead. I need to poop. Oh my god it's coming. Yeah. Do not look up platypus. Penis is disgusting. It looks like a medieval war mass. It's all spiked. The whole thing spiked and it's got like two heads on the end. It's disgusting. Us humans. We got the best penises in the whole world. Animals got some weird looking things. They got two dick heads. It looks weird. Well the both the heads go into the vagina. How does it even fit? We're having two dickhead, like a conjoined twin who has two heads and it's all spiky. The whole thing's like covered in spikes is sort of weird. I heard the a kid thats four dickheads and they rotate or something. It was that hedgehog. I think hedgehogs got like rotating quad head dick. A kid penis. Oh my god. It's got four dickhead. Oh that's disgusting. It looks like a little hand with fingers that her one of the weirdest penises of the animal kingdom bright red and has four heads. Uh, porus osa <laugh> one of the main tissues that make up mammalian penises. Imagine being like a professor in mammalian penises and having like a degree in stuff. Uh, PhD in mammal penis solving the mystery of the four headed penis. What a load of fussing about. Why not just have it like ours? Ours does the job well enough, doesn't it? I actually need four heads with split split thingies bloodstreams pipes by alternating the use of each side. A kid can ejaculate 10 times without significant pause. Well it's like a Gatling gun of ejaculation. Split urethra lu's pressuring beer to date you first. He was trying to get me in here to me up. Now he's going for beer. He's just looking out for me. He's a true bro. Doesn't try and steal my girls but he tries, gets us together. We need more of that. See he's not selfish trying to steal the girls from himself. That's what a true bro does. Not like Kate all trying to steal all my girls getting in the dms. No girls left now. Anyway, <laugh>, my lips are kind of burning. I think I touched my lips with the finger that got stung by the nettle. It's kind of nice. It's like a weird fuzzy warm feeling. Like spice almost. I wonder if the stinging net or sting is kind of like spice. 'cause after it stops hurting, there's like this fuzzy warm burning feeling but it doesn't hurt. It feels kind of nice watching with sound off. So you're just looking at my feet <laugh> just looking at a picture of my feet. Um, all if weed girl's gonna get wasted at nighttime and then drunk, text me eight hours to go. I will make tika masala with chicken and rice. Sounds good. Where's my phone? Ah, it fell down the gap. Oh, got my arm stop. I can't even picture having sex with the Indian girl. I don't even know if I could get hard. The date yesterday was okay. It went a lot smoother than the Indian girl date. I felt less, I had a bit more energy and I felt more chatty. It was a lot easier to talk a game girl. She did the banter thing a lot better. I I wouldn't always date her though. I think if I don't wanna date them, I shouldn't bang them because then they'll think I wanna date them and then they'll get upset. The Spanish girls back from Spain, she said she had a panic attack 'cause she was all alone. And I said we could hang out together and then she just hearted it and didn't say anything else. When did you develop morals? It's not really about morals. It's just I don't wanna deal with it. I don't wanna deal with all these women thinking I wanna date them and I don't. And I'm not that desperate for sex. I just wanna be with someone I wanna be with, not have sex. And then I don't have to spend the whole day with them. I don't even wanna be with them. Sex isn't worth it. Sex isn't worth being stuck with them for almost the whole day. Oh no, I couldn't imagine. Like you not and then now you're stuck with them. Wait until you get hard again. I didn't really like Indian girls personality but game of girl had a nice personality. She seemed a bit autistic, which I like and I find it easier to talk to them if they seem a bit spurge 'cause they got less of that bitchy attitude. And I don't like the bitchy attitude. Some women have really puts me off. I like kind of dopey girls. I don't know, I, I just kind of got like slight bitchy vibes from Indian girl. Like when the guy was doing this survey with us and we were, we were fitting out his questions, I don't know, she kept looking at me and laughing and then looking back at him like she was mocking him and the guy looked really nervous and his hands were like shaking. So I felt a bit like that was a bit rude. He's just trying to do his job. I know it was annoying though 'cause he just interrupted us and said Oh guys could you help me fill out my survey? I dunno why she kept looking at me and laughing. The guy looked young like twenties. You kind of looked like the guy who invented Ethereum, like skinny white, very short hair and and like I don't know, looks like a goblin. And he had really bad breath as well. I thought am I supposed to like do something like, like step in and stop it and say actually what is it? No, I just stood there and I, I let it happen. She answered all the questions but I didn't find either of them attractive. But it's all about two things really what their face looks like and what their body looks like. And then thirdly what their personality's like. Uh, I give game a girl a tick for face and personality but cross for body and then I give Indian girl tick for body, then cross her face and personality. I just can't believe these girls are like 26, 28 when they're 35 to 40 they look awful 'cause they should be looking pretty good Mid, mid to late twenties. They're gonna look ter. I mean if they look like that when they're young, imagine when they're 40 they're not gonna hold up. Well you wanna find a girl who's got a good gene so you know they're still gonna look good into their forties. If they look bad in their twenties, oh that's not good. But yeah, you can't really do anything. I mean what are they gonna do to get plastic surgery? Surgery? I just didn't find it attractive. Unfortunate. Very unfortunate. I think I have a better face than all these girls to be honest. You know I'm way, I have a way nicer face than a lot of these girls. It's just I don't have boobs in a vagina. Not bragging and just saying that I think I have a way better face than a lot of these women. Okay, my skin sucks. I admit my skin's pretty bad. But who cares? I don't really care that much about skin. I care about what the face looks like. If I like their face, I don't really care about their skin. You know, my body is too skinny. That's the problem. And some would say my hair's not good. It gets kind of big at the back. I kind of look more feminine than a lot of women do and don't like it when the woman's got like big chin and like frog neck. I don't really know how you get rid of that. The exercise maybe or is frog neck, you know like a frog's neck when they go rub and then the neck balloons up. Nigel Frog neck. Turkey neck. No Turkey neck's more for old people. But frog neck becomes Turkey neck when they get old. I guess they need to do some ing. Do you even meo this is better than no neck. No neck head. <laugh>. I remember people making fun of that. No neck ed. They were saying his body is built to withstand a car collision. <laugh>, he's got no neck and he's got like this really robust looking frame body evolved to to survive. Car crashes. <laugh>. That was good. TV is cheating on you with Mr. Yeah, well he can't come back here now 'cause I banned him. That's what you get. You just wait until meaningless has had enough of tbs, endless whining in the chat. Oh why don't you do this and why don't I do that? TB just loves to backseat drive and nag and whine the whole time. And then he gets upset when you don't listen to his stupid advice as if anyone asked Do ask for any advice. Imagine getting mad 'cause they said I'm gonna take a taxi to the airport. What did get known for? For sniping me and then complaining about me. That's it. He stream sniped me and then started whining that I wasn't friendly such a baby. Oh I just thought you'd be more friendly. Why would you think that? Do I sound like I'm friendly? Imagine thinking I'd be friendly. My biggest video literally says why I have no friends and that I don't wanna hang out with guys. Why would you think I'd be friendly to guys? My whole thing is I don't have friends and I don't want friends. That's my whole channel theme is I'm a loner and I'm lonely but I don't want friends. And if I was gonna have friends it wouldn't be with people like him and people, normal, nice people who are cool like George Trombley or Eugene. If I was gonna be friends with someone, it'd be someone who lifts me up and like I aspire to be cool like they are. Oh Eugene and George are called George Trombley has amazing charisma and confidence that I find inspiring. Yeah, I wish I could be like that but I can't really. I'll try my best. I think I did pretty well yesterday's date. Asked a lot of questions. I said stuff like, oh I saw this picture on your profile. What was that about? And when did you learn to drive that you pass? First time. Oh me too. Do you go on holiday with your fa? I asked a lot of stuff actually it was pretty good. Asked what kind of things she's into now. She said reading. Oh when they say reading I'm like oh my god. Do not ask what they're reading. I would not know. I wouldn't care. I don't know why girls love reading. It's so boring. I haven't read a book since I was 12 years old. Waste of time reading is so boring. You just look at words and flip the pages. Wow. Imagine talking about books. I really like this book 'cause of the way they introduced the characters is really dynamic. It really drew me into the book in the way that the characters hair was described in great detail. Books are stupid. Uh, the stupid flip seven keeps overheating recently. I don't know why I've gotta switch back to IV cam. It's focused on charging it at the same time. It overheats and then it closes the multi window and I can't see the chat. I didn't used to do this. I tried reading. I read a few of the Halo novels. I guess they were okay. All my laundry's blowing away. Wow. These are dry already. Wash my pillowcases. Hopefully I got the pool out. Might make some cupcakes. My bed sheet I might, I'll put them back on. There's Bobby down there. Oh no. What's this thing? I hope that's not what I think is anal leakage. <laugh>. It's not. It's yeah all the white bits on it. Yeah, I can't get a cat stupid haters or snitch on me. Don't. I forgot to get the thing I went down to get. I there white bits on it. What are these? What is that? Why didn't it wash out? Oh, I can't bring a goal around if I've got these stains on the bed sheet. I dunno why it didn't come out in the wash. Washing machine. Washing machines are not very good at washing are they? It's baby oil. Oh fuck. What's wrong with pillows on the carpet? People are weird. Like when I put my wash laundry on the floor, you will freak out. There's nothing on the floor. It's just a floor. I didn't realize you were so OCD about everything. Calm down. It is dirty. It's not not dirty. Whatcha talking about everything's dirty. It doesn't matter. You've got an immune system don't you? Are you immunocompromised? No. Then shut up. I didn't realize all my viewers got HIV immunocompromised. You're dirty. Yeah, everything has bacteria on it. Welcome to planet Earth. That's not gonna kill you. The funny thing is you whine about dirty this and dirty that and I bet you get sick more often than I do. I haven't even gotten sick once this year. How many times have you gotten sick with your cleanliness and hygiene? Haven't gone sick once. Damn mommy. You sound like a nightmare to live with. He's just whine about everything. Like my mom. I dunno what this is on the carpet. It was there when I got here. Definitely wasn't me. I am quite clean actually. But all that came off the carpet. <laugh> better in than out. Nice clean bed seat. Put the pillowcases on. Ah, look at that. Beautiful, beautiful. Get my green thing. I love this green thing. This green thing's great. You just to sit back on it like this. Oh so nice. It's so comfortable Up against the headrest. You don't need to like prop the pillows up. Do some ding scroll. I do scroll for like an hour 'cause that green thing's so comfortable. I dunno what it's called. Who invented it but it's damn good. See if weed girl replied to my hat picture. Who? Well if she sees how bad I look in the hat picture and then doesn't wanna meet. She said I love it. She said I love it. Ha. It's just for when I solo hike. When I go hiking alone, I, I burn easily. Damn. She's out with her friends and she's texting me. She must love me already. She can't stop texting me all day. Maybe I tell her I've got a weed problem in my garden. Not that kind of weed. Uh, sponge is covered in flour and stove. I think the sponge is finished. Uh, I hope it sponge in. A friend in it need new sponges soon. It's all stuck in the sponge fucking fly. Where you going? I kill you. I dunno if I wanna use this again as a rolling pen. Uh, I dunno if I want keep this dough. Maybe if I roll it thinner it'll be better. So much stuff everywhere. Weed girl also likes gaming and movies. Uh, shouldn't this thing covered in oil. I need like a degreaser spring, not a surface cleanser. This is for bacteria. Like a degreasing de oiling thing. Oh, oil everywhere. Oh maybe I just um, put some slope on it instead. And some spray and then water. Hmm. It's a lot of bubbles. If there's bubbles it means it's working. Everything's covered in oil cleaning stream. Um wow. So clean soak is pretty nice sometimes. I have to admit. Genius invention. Oh yeah. Look how clean it is now. Nice. The corn would get all dirt and I dunno why the sink gets blocked when there's too much water out. I need to finish. Finished the Yaki nick sauce. It only took five months. I still haven't finished the rice. I've had the rice since February. A bag of rice lasts me forever. Oh God. Huh. House works hard. Plans for this week. I'm just relaxing after all these dates. These dates have been really mentally taxing. It's really knocked out my stream schedule. After I finish a date. I just, I can't scream. I'm so tired. I just need to play maricar and not talk. I've gone on two dates now. I don't like any of them. Wouldn't even pretend to like them to try and bang. I wouldn't even wanna meet them again. I think even if they offered to bang, I wouldn't meet again. I don't even know if I could get it up. Maybe I'm gay now. Yeah. A game. A girl messaged me afterwards. She said she had a lovely day. Thanks so much. And I said thank you for coming. I had a good day too. I paid for our tickets as well. I, I bought the castle tickets first before she arrived. I'm such a gentleman. 40 pounds play tickets, 20 pounds per person. So I let her buy the food so she didn't feel too bad. Don't say I'm not a gentle man. I always treat my ladies right before I shit. Talk them onstream uh, plans for this week. I don't know. I've gotta try and get a Spanish girl around Spanish girls back and I've gotta keep up my texting game with a weed girl until next month. I'm hoping she changes her mind and says, oh I can't wait anymore. Come on. You really wanna wait four weeks. She was free all weekend. She's not that busy. I think she's lying or delaying. She says she's really busy 'cause it's summer holidays. But she, we were texting all day yesterday so she wasn't working yesterday. And then today she's out with friends so she does have the weekend and she says after summer holiday she's gonna take the whole week off. Well you need a whole week off to come see me. Damn. We're gonna be fucking all weak. And those dreams guys, we'll lose a week of income. That's an expensive bowl of cereal. Odd damn girls with their jobs and friends and family. What about me? No time for me. My mouth is burning. I think I touched my face with the stinging nettle burn. My lips are burning like I had chili or something. Does it look red? Where's my vacuum? It's a fly. Oh. Impossible to catch him with a hoover. I don't know how they see it. I creep up from behind them. I think Hoover's not a good idea. I need to get There's that lid thing. Where's it? It's stuck in the camera. Set the tape. Okay. Second batch of laundry. Nearly done. Um, why wouldn't it fly out? Just fly out the door. I think it doesn't want to fly out. Oh it has leaked a bit. Let see look. But then it dries out on its own. But tell he was right. Oh won't admit he was right. I hate putting a duvet sheet back on. Oh my god. It's still got poo on it. What? How the fuck does it still have P on it? This stupid fucking washing machine's. Useless. How the fuck am I do a quick, quick spin after soaping it up. I can't believe it's been in there for two hours and it can't get a tiny little po now. Like 90 degree cycle. 40 15, 24, 30, 40. Owned as 40 cotton load. It's three hours. I'm not doing three hours. It's two hours now let's just do 15 minutes at 40. Oh oh oh 40 is the hottest. It goes on 15. I can't find that emoji. Mm. I don't know if it's just me or my sofa kind of smells like vomit. I don't know why it's got that weird bitter smell to it. It wasn't me. I didn't do nothing. Oh I wanna make cupcakes. Watch the master cup cake in action and flower and there's salt. Um, more sugar. Coconut. Mmm cherries. Vanilla. Mm-hmm <affirmative> I'm so good at cupcakes now. Cupcakes done batter everywhere. Uh, sort of was the town as well. How is weed girl hanging out with her friends and texting me at the same time? Maybe her friends are really boring or something or she misses me so much. The rancid pork fat at the bottom of the air fryer gives it its special or unique flavor. Dirty air fryer. Cupcakes. Yeah. She talks a lot compared to gamer girl and Spanish. Spanish girl barely says anything. Nymph girl just left me on read. Yeah. She definitely thinks I'm cute. She said it. I said I think you're cute too. And then I said I like you. And then she said, I like you too with a blow kiss face. I can't believe I, you know I lost game of girl too 'cause I got banned on Bumble. I got her back 'cause she messaged me on WhatsApp 'cause I left my phone number. So I was like yeah I got her back and then I stupidly told her I got banned and then she was like banned. No thanks. Hope you find what you're looking for. She didn't even ask why I got banned. I just said I didn't do anything weird but okay. I understand. So she sounds like a bitch doesn't even hear me out. She probably thinks Oh you're like a creepy guy who asked for sex. Yeah. Maybe I'm in love with weed girl. Her face looks nice and she's not fat and she's a bit weird. Which is good. I, I don't really know what to do next week. I've been out a lot this week. Two dates. Tin Steel castle. Went to the Viaducts last Sunday didn't they? I'm a bit tired going to these same places over and over. Might work out doing my biceps no game. A girl two was supposed to be in Plymouth but after I told her I got banned she canceled. That's what you get for being honest. Everyone says why don't you be honest? 'cause that's what happens. That's what happens when you're honest. You get screwed. Okay. Do no. Yeah. Uh uh. Ugh. I don't really feel my thigh muscles getting bigger. Maybe it's too early. Huh? Biceps just kind of stay the same size now. Where you at? Uh huh Okay. One moment. Hi. Hey done. Oh now for protein over Greek yogurt it with honey. It's got eight grams of protein for half the pot. Four grams for a quarter of the pot. So it's 16 grams for the whole pot. Pretty good. Sorry cupcakes have protein 'cause I put milk. Maybe I put the fuel in it. I haven't eaten in <affirmative>. Ah. Very productive day. How old is weed girl? Hmm? Between 25 and 30? Hmm. No that's eight grams of protein. How many proteins in one bicep? Hmm. Damn bicep. Massive. What a nice day. I wonder when it's gonna rain again tomorrow. I should have known Tuesday. Mm-hmm <affirmative>. Mm-hmm <affirmative>. Mm-hmm <affirmative> I wouldn't mind having a burger but then I won't be hungry for dinner until it's late. I'd rather have dinner earlier and then have like a snack after dinner. I don't wanna be mu and muffin faffing about making dinner at like 10 o'clock. I feel tired. Hmm. Look at my cupcakes. Eighth generation looking good Apart from this one let's bit wither May well take a picture of it. Send a weed GI can say we can put the weed in here and heat it instead of smoking it. Picture of the copy. Missed that. Where'd it go? Give the poo stain came out and it should have 'cause I rubbed very liquid into it all. There is definitely growing very quickly at that. Wow. Sorry you're busy today. Fridge master. Only the best for me. Oh I've done everything. I've done three batches of laundry. Cupcakes gonna make chicken tika Messala got papa do's. I can't if you here. I didn't know what papa dom is is she was like hey Papa D, Papa d. I do not know what a puppet D is. Tax. I got Lloyd Grossman a gross man. Not a very appetizing name on it. It source label. Is it Honey tomato leaves? Maybe I put onions with it too. I think my chopping board's moldy. What's all this black on it? I might need a new chopping board. Chad's dead. Everyone fell asleep. That's what happens sometimes I feel like Jack tends to die when I start doing food stuff. I just, onion skin's so weird 'cause it's kind of like plastic. It's like nature's plastic. It just doesn't feel natural does it? It's like plastic. How's it not plastic? It even kind of tears like paper on your skin's. So weird. It sounds and feels like plastic but then it tears like paper. It's really weird and it's completely dry. It's the most artificial looking natural thing. Sometimes I wonder if the shops put the skin on it. It sounds like cell. Ah, shut up. I know it's done. Oh God it stings. Oh. Oh my eyes. All my burning eyes. Oh my bones up. Yeah, my hands looked dry 'cause I was outside all day I guess. And I didn't wear sunscreen because I don't wanna go on a date and I look, I look all sticky and gross. My play Mario, see what weed goes up to. Not replying. Oh God. I loves to have a girlfriend nearby. You can go book a cabin in the woods, go swimming, do all this stuff. That's boring when you do it alone. When you find someone you like, suddenly your mind starts going into overdrive. Thinking all the things you can do together. I feel like there are things I want to do. It's about summer. It's gonna be over the Google Pixel. 10 looks pretty cool. I like this lens bump thing looks nice. No, iPhone 17 had come out next month isn't it September already? I guess I didn't go to Thailand. I can't believe I was looking at Thailand tickets a couple weeks ago thinking I was gonna go in August. Okay, sure you will. I I send her a picture of my cupcakes. I made cupcakes. I could say we could put the weed in the cupcake. Do you think she likes smoking it more than eating it? I'd rather eat it. Mm-hmm <affirmative> Is there anything good on switch yet? When's Elden ring coming out on it? Not that I'd buy it. I've already finished it four times. Mm-hmm <affirmative> House of the Dead. That game is so old. You always have that when you go to a gay arcade with the plastic guns. Mm. What's coming soon? It's just nothing exciting coming out on Switch two. Is there Star Wars Outlaws? Didn't everyone hate that game? Borderlands fought. That's new. I didn't like borderlands. It was boring. I don't like this stupid cyber kind of like punk style persona three. I do not like persona boring turn base stupid weeby stuff. Although running around in Japan was pretty cool. It really looks like Japan. But the combat story was rubbish. All the text, there's so much text. I would've loved this when I was 17 or 18 when I was a weeb. Why is this special move He shoots himself in the head. That's kind of weird. It seems kind of like set in a dangerous precedent with how stupid kids are these days. That's it. Borderlands four and persona three. What about GTA five? That would be cool. I play one game. Did they make a remake of Resident Evil One? Seems like they just made it for two and three and four. What about one? One was kind of boring in that old mansion. Mm-hmm <affirmative> Thailand plans. I don't know. I've gotta meet weed girl and Spanish girl first. A weed girl wants to gently stroke my hair but I have to wait until September to meet her. She's playing the long game and no she's not a viewer. No viewer girl wants to date me. They all think I'm weird or something or they're scared 'cause they'll get the attention of my weirdo toxic viewers and then get hate. It's funny 'cause if they didn't know about the channel, they might wanna date me. I don't think I'd do anything weird. And if there are weird things I can explain why they happened. There's always a reason behind everything. Mm-hmm mm-hmm <affirmative> Okay. Maybe I did some weird things but I don't think I'm dangerous girls out there rather date someone who beats them and strangles them than Date me. Just 'cause I'm a bit weird. The violent abusive guys out there who got girlfriends and I can't get anyone 'cause I'm weird. Okay. Enjoy getting strangled then. Could be enjoying my cupcakes over the weekend. But you'd rather get beaten and strangled but I'm weird. Okay. Have fun then. Have fun with your abusive guy. Or at least I didn't strangle no one apart from my sister. But that was when I was young like 22 and she started it to be fair Obsession with Musky odors. Well if it smells nice, I can't deny that it smells nice. Can I? I don't choose what smells nice or doesn't smell nice. Yeah. We had a fight back when she was living at home and I was living at home 'cause I, when I was 22 early twenties, I was pretty messy. I didn't clean up after myself. I didn't wash my dishes and she was really OCD and clean so she would get triggered. She came up to my room, started having to go at me and I kept telling her to go away but she wouldn't go away so I pushed her out the room. But she was heavier than me. <laugh>. She was a lot heavier than I was back then. And I struggled. We were like sumo wrestling and I couldn't physically push her out my room so I went for the throat. We had, we were like sumo grappling with her hands on each other's shoulders. And I was trying to push her out my room. She wouldn't go. So I went for the jugular up and then she, she let me win and then walked off. Yeah, well I was like 44 kg and she must have been like 65. She was quite chunky back then until she started doing her diet. She was quite a big girl then she started doing the whole diet thing and then lost a lot of weight. Yeah I got pissed 'cause I couldn't physically push her out. It was embarrassing 'cause my uncle and auntie from Australia were visiting at the time. They could probably hear it And then I start, I started raging in my room. I was like smashing my stuff up and then my dad came up to my room. He was like, Daniel, what's wrong? You've got to stop this. You shouldn't fight with Sabrina. 'cause when me and your mom are gone, it's nice to have someone because the world, it's nice to um have each other say something like that. Yeah, I remember that. Well. I had a lot of anger problems when I was younger. Smashing stuff up, punching the wall. I swear there's so many cracks and stuff in the doors 'cause I punched it or kicked it. When communications fail I just lose it. I get so frustrated when words don't have any effects anymore. I feel like why aren't my words working? But apart from that, I didn't strangle nobody. Oh shut up star. I changed loads talking rubbish. What do you mean I smashed my equipment the other day. What you mean two months ago? Yeah. 'cause the stupid fucking bella box is infuriating. Stupid piece of crap. Rubbish ui rubbish software glitchy. It was so annoying Ever since I stopped using it, I've just felt so much better. God that battle box pissed me off so much. Wasted my money didn't even need it. I've done all these streams outside that have been fine just with the flip and two sims. I got way too excited about this whole streaming thing. I was like oh my God I need this, I need that. I'm gonna stream outside everywhere. Wow. Didn't learn my lesson with the live view. I thought it fixed my problems but actually it caused more problems. And the thing that fixed the problem wasn't the bell box, it was just the sim card. I just used Labra instead and that fixed everything. I swear when I was a teenager I must have been early 40 kgs. Like 42 kg I used to be really? 'cause I didn't exercise or lift weights or anything. And I had hyper fast metabolism. I could eat pot noodle and cake. I wouldn't put on any weight. Now I've gotten a bit older, my metabolism is a bit slower. I think I put on muscle a bit better than I did back then. I mean back then I didn't even try. Didn't even do pushups or anything. I'm like 48, 49 kg. Now maybe when I'm 45 years old I'll be like 50 kg. Isn't it amazing to think these bones, this skin, it's been on this planet for over 30 years now. This exact same skeleton. The legs in my bones and the fingers all this like all this been here for 36 years now I think she doesn't have dairy 'cause I always see her. My mom always gets oat milk if my sister's coming home 'cause she doesn't drink normal milk. Oat milk's disgusting. I don't know how you can drink it. Soy milk's really disgusting. I try it in Japan and it gag it's horrible. <laugh> plan for September I wanna meet weed girl. That's my number one goal now. And Spanish girl, I guess I could text her and I dunno what to say. She didn't reply to my last message. She just hearted it. Uh, what could I say? Take any nice pics but I wanna pick of her not some random where the pics at. Well she said she had a panic attack 'cause she's alone. And then I said I'm alone too. Do you want to hang out? And then she just hearted it didn't say anything. How'd you get a panic attack from being alone? Who has mental health issues? Um mm-hmm Most of those robot taxii things are fake and it's got someone remotely controlling it. Why not? All you need is a steering wheel and a break, an accelerator pedal and then you use the Tesla's cameras and then you just drive it like you're playing a game and then pretend it's autopilot. I don't think the girls I text have mental, mental issues. How would I even know? Well if they were normal maybe they wouldn't be on a dating app. Like if I was normal and I had a normal job and I was outgoing and social, I'd already have a girlfriend. I wouldn't need dating her. I would seem like a great catch And girls would be queuing up. I mean girls don't even know I exist. That's the problem. I could be a great catch. But then no one even knows. People even know me through the internet. And so when I've got a lot of exposure, girls are interested when they know of me it's just they don't know about me. 'cause I just see in my house I don't do anything and I don't go viral anymore. Yeah, I think the weak girl seems mentally stable. She's got a job, she's got friends, family drives a car. I think just doing weed every day means you're mentally unstable. I Mm How would you know if she's mentally stable or not? You never even talked to her before? Obviously I would know more than you know. All you know is that she does weed. He had the cops called on him really well for going up to girls. I mean I'm a guy and when he came up to me I was creeped out. I thought he was gonna stab me or something. What would I do if I was a girl? I'd just say sorry I've got a boyfriend. I mean that decline guy looks kind of good now. He looks way better now than when I first saw him when he had that weird mop hair. I think going to the gym has helped a lot actually. Do you like my picture of my hat? I sent it to weed girl. She said she loves it. It makes you like charge up Pinks. <laugh>. Uh oh no. Is that Mr. Mirror now? Oh shit it is. Oh no. Hide. You're not allowed. If he sees me I'll stop meowing. I'm not allowed to. The neighbor told me not to let him in the house. Where is? I don't see him. Oh I saw him on the camera. It takes so long to flip the cameras. Hmm. Whole kitchen smells like onions. What else goes into t? Got chicken and onions hiding from neighbor's. Cat get in trouble. Hmm? This other girl messaged me but I don't really like her. I don't know why I matched her 25. Uh, it is funny how when you don't find 'em attractive you just have no interest in talking to them. Her lips are too big. Nah, I wouldn't like it. Although her body looks kind of nice. Nah, if you don't feel it, I don't think you even waste time talking to them. Just wait until she unmatched you. I think if you don't feel that tingly excited feeling in your chest, then she's not here. The problem is if you don't like her face but her body's nice so you bang her, maybe you don't mind banging her but then you don't wanna be in a relationship with her. But then she wants a relationship and then either you pretend you like her or you just tell her up straight. I don't like you. Her lips too big, her chin's too small. I don't wanna meet her mouth needs to be a bit higher up. No I don't like it when they got like a really tiny chin and the mouth is too low down and the worst is when they got really big nose and like a really small chin. It's weird like ice Poseidon. I'm attractive to a lot of people actually more than you. I could type in the word attractive on my comments and put up thousands of comments. People saying he's really cute. Look at Turkey Tom and Elvis. Ian videos. Hundreds of comments saying he's really cute. It was just jealous. I dunno how people can say looks aren't everything they are though. If I don't like the way she looks then I don't wanna talk to her and I can't even get aroused. Of course they're everything. They literally are everything though. People saying they're not just stupid. If I don't find them attractive, I'm not interested. Uh, tahira is not mentally ill. Is she? Why does it matter if they're mentally ill? Not That's why it's saying Oh only women with hair like you only women with five fingers like you. Yeah. If you're gonna say okay no women who are young, mentally stable and attractive like you, then okay I have to agree. But you said no one finds you attractive. Which I said no that's not true. If you began this statement with no one who's young, beautiful, mentally stable and normal like you, then okay I can't really argue then. And you've gotta be more specific. Oh, 10 out of 10 blonde bombshells ever. Love me. Got a point there. I guess could make dinner now five o'clock be early. I'll make rice I guess. Should I finish? Yeah, finish all the yellow rice. Can you name one woman who's not either a druggie, used to be a druggie or had some kind of mental problems because I can't think of a single one. Ro. Yeah I said shahi and then you said oh she was old. Japanese people don't really do drugs in general but even weed, they think doing weed is like oh you're a drug addict. Weed is like really seriously illegal in Japan. I think you're like some kind of mobster yers. Remember even the yers are probably scared of doing weed. Japanese people get all freaked out over a tattooed as well. In the west we think weed is like just smoking cigarettes and having tattoo. Everyone's got a bloody tattoo nowadays. Japanese a very sense of oh what I'm gonna do tomorrow. Gotta try and get a Spanish girl here. September's a long way away and she is the type of woman who thinks she can still get guys 'cause she's got an interesting personality and she's good at talking as if that matters when you're a girl or a woman. Well that only matters if you're like aiming for shy guys and Jira is past as sorted as mine. Two divorces done up the bum by Australian guy and she cheated. It's just that no one would know. She could keep it a secret. Well she doesn't had to tell anyone she was divorced twice. Does she? Don't say it if you don't say it. It didn't happen. Any Japanese guy should get will be at least 40 years old and he must have his own baggage. I mean look at me. I'm only 36. I've already got loads of baggage. The older you get, the more baggage you got. Failed marriages, kids scandals. When you're in your twenties, you're fresh. Don't have any baggage yet. Fresh and wild. Five plus six 11. Hmm. Okay, now I'm recovering slightly from the dates, the catastrophic dates of failure. I've gotta keep weed girl suite and I've gotta try and get a Spanish girl here. In between that I've gotta carry on with the streaming. What are we gonna do? Yeah, I'm kind of stuck here now until I can meet weed girl. Um, I don't know if I wanna meet. I don't know. She kind of looks black but not really. She does have a nice body. I nah, I'm gonna unmatch. So sorry. Oh I feel bad. She wrote a big text as well. What she did on the weekend. Ah, I just can't be bothered. Unmatched her. Yeah, well she finds out who I am. Should Heartlessly unmatch me straight away too. What's wrong with black girls? Nothing. It's just this one. I did not like her face. She wasn't black. She looked like, I don't know, 10% black. But the facial proportions were not up to my likings lips too big. It'd be weird kissing her like you're gonna get swallowed up. Maybe I just stick to white and Asian girls. I don't care about the skin color. It's just I didn't lick her face. Like Mila could be black. If she had the same face, I wouldn't have cared. If your first reaction is I don't really like her face, then it's over. Don't even bother. Waste your time. Why would you meet? I don't know what to do anymore. I just feel burnt out. Going to kick. I mean Kick Hill and Bog Hill all the time. And I already went out somewhere yesterday tend to draw Castle. I'm not gonna go there again. No way. It wasn't that good then. I feel like recent dates have kind of bookmarks and end and also a start of an era. I don't know, it's like kind of bummed me out a little bit. It's hard finding someone you actually like, isn't it? Isn't it? But when you find it, it's so good just having sex all day. Getting food and just watching movies when it's good. It's so good. I know exactly what kind of girl I like and there's so many of them out there. I says, how the fuck do you find them? I know what I don't like. Do not like kind of bitchy, really serious type of girls. Who does? But I don't like completely crazy ones like Crypt and Venus. Ugh, no thanks. A Venus completely lost interest in me. <laugh>. Thank God. I thought, oh my God, is she actually gonna come? She seems bad shit. Insane. Have you seen the stuff she's posting on Instagram? She's complete like, I don't know, nut job. Utter nut job stuff. Not having her attention is like the best thing anyone could ever have. I feel sorry for all these other people that she's obsessed with. I would not wanna get involved with that. I feel kind of sorry for her fans and she had hundreds of thousands of fans, tens of thousands who loved her and then watching her become like, this must be heartbreaking. I don't know. I've never really been a fan of anyone for years like that. So imagine like you bought her merch and like went to her signups signing meetings. Imagine being like an ultra fan and she becomes like that. It must be wild. I Why are her teeth so yellow? She probably doesn't even brush them. Like she doesn't wash her hair. I think she likes doing the opposite of what people keep telling her to do. Like some kind of rebellious act. Like stick in the middle finger to her stupid vans. So she does the opposite on purpose. Like to piss them off. It's such a shame 'cause she was pretty cute like five years ago and before. What a waste. It's hard to believe it's the same person. Age. I don't think it's aging. She's only 27. Her mum looks better than she does. Her mum's like 50. I'd rather bang than mum. Her mum looks way more attractive. I mean even blood bucket looks more attractive. Isn't she? Like 55? Let's see if my laundry is laundry done. Let's see if this shit stain still in my pillowcase. Imagine a girl comes over and there's shit staying on my pillow. <laugh>. I'll say, um, it was the cat. Yeah, it's probably fine When I get back into making pies. I can make a chicken pie. I wonder if I can use that dough I made as a pie pastry. I wanna get like a pie, a tin thing and then I wonder if I can make a pie instead of a curry. I kind of have a craving for a pie. Now. Can I make a pie? I can make like tiny pies in the cupcake cups. I kind of want a chicken pie now. Lemme scrap the curry. I got peas and butter, but I need cream. I use butter for the cream. It's a p. How can I make a chicken pie without a pie in it? And also I didn't put butter in the dough, so maybe it's not gonna be good for pie pastry. I could put it in now. Can't, right? I really want chicken pie now. Hmm? It's already chopped up. Hmm. I think it needs to take this out. Didn't realize it. Maybe a chicken stock chicken pie without out. How can I make the sauce? Maybe milk and flour. Make her rose chicken. Half. Hm. Ghost man. Right? Green bit too much green thing. No. Still a lot of green thing. Didn't put butter into the flo. I mean the dough now, although this is not butter, it's lu packed. I don't know if it does the same thing. Good. How's that palm strike? Uh, it's all wet now. I think I put too much butter and it all melted. Hmm. I think I messed it up. Uh, I So when Or five. Oh, so isn't the butter spicy fruit? So it's hard. It's not supposed to melt straight away. I think this is not gonna work. How? I think it'll it's still wet. Come on flour. Dry it up. So, oh no. Oh my god. It's everywhere. Oh, just clean this. I don't know if I can make the pie without the pie thing. I make Cornish pasty. I need a big chopping board. Do you think this needs to cool down first? I don't know. Beautiful chicken pie. Oh. Oh no, it's leaking. Oh my god. It's leaking. Oh fuck. Oh my god. It's all leaking Now. Get it into the air fry real quick. Think that's gonna work. Whatever. When in doubt, just whatever. Uh, it's gonna be a disaster, isn't it? I can tell already. Can I get it cleaned up before it's done? Speed cooking and speed cleaning. Oh, I didn't do the egg wash. Oh no, you forgot the egg wash. Okay, how about the sec? Yeah, you can see my experience as a dishwasher. My skill and speed. Unrivaled. I should put little bits bacon in it. Uh, see if this actually turns out good. Oh, this chicken pie. I should get one of those items as well. I guess with cooking side, never ending things to do. Cleaning, pairing, clotting, chopping, folding, mixing, frying. Oh god. And then you make such a mess. Let's see if it's good. Oh, beer or, oh wait, I'll finish this one stage. Been a busy day. Laundry, cleaning, bed sheets cooking. No one's replying to me. Where's we go? Where's Spanish go? I, when did I get that brush? Ages ago. I was using it to make, I was using it to brush sesame oil on broccoli. Oh, shut up Murph. Yeah, I can see. You know, you have to type it out every fucking time. Yeah. Dead channel. Dead community. Boring. Fucking dead chat. What's new? Christ, you say the same thing over and over again. Every fucking time. You type it out all the time. Which mean 90 viewers left. I get 90 viewers all the time. That's how many viewers I always get. I always hover around 90 to a hundred. Say it as if Oh, just recently. Suddenly, oh, you dropped down to 90. It's always been fucking 90 viewers. 90 to a hundred. This is the norm. This is not weird or unusual or anything. You're gonna have to type it out as if, oh my God. 90 of your world collapsing. That's how it always is. Oh, fucking idiot. Even on YouTube, it's always like 90 to a hundred euro. This is completely normal. Why do you type it out like it's not normal. Chat is not lively at all. Barely ever lively. You know, what are you going on about talking absolute fucking bollocks. Earnings per hour four by like three or $4. It's down to like 13 or 14. It's not because of kick or anything. It's 'cause my stupid viewers get bored. Obviously I was getting higher per hour rate in the beginning because I had more viewers. It is the same routine every day. Well, I'm, I supposed to have a different routine every single day. This is what daily life is like. I tired is stressed out and my girls aren't talking to me. And I've gotta wait a whole month tired from cooking and cleaning all fucking day. And all I get is this. Why am I calling viewers stupid? Because every other fucking streamer can do the same thing all the time and stay the same, have the same viewership. But I have to do stupid, dumb, crazy stuff to get my viewers up. See Dr. VA can just play Mel all day long, have the same viewership. Not fair and crazy stuff like moving all the way to another country, moving in with some random woman, having stupid relationship drama. I I just want a normal life. I'm not saying the cra the content now is crazy. I'm saying that if I want the viewers to go up, I need to see something drastic. I can't even listen to simple English. When did I say the content now is crazy. And what's wrong with some of you people? It's like you got bad English or something you dunno how to listen properly. I never said, now is the crazy. I said I have to do crazy content to get my books out. I didn't say I'm doing it now. Did I fucking uh, I can't even understand basic English. Uh oh. Why do I have to like say, repeat myself over and over and explain things when it's really pretty obvious? Why? Man, it will fuck you slo. Get the fuck out of it before you bang. Get the fuck out my live chat. Fuck you. I am making chicken pie. It is been a while since I made pie. Not since Thailand. I what? You don't like chicken pie? That's wild. Wow. Looks delicious, doesn't it? I sharp mph. If it pisses you off, then go away. He's asking you to say it. Cry me a river. Are you the one who started it? What is that? It's the chicken pie. You say My chicken pie looks bad after I've been slaving away in the kitchen. Well then you don't get any, you're gonna have some hooter hoops instead. No dinner for any of you. You won't grow big and strong. Now I'm grateful that wets clams, uh, yuck. Uh, shellfish. Disgusting. A vomit on your clam. Whew. Seafood's. Disgusting. Looks weird. And you just eat in its guts and brains. When you eat the shellfish, you eat the whole thing. The guts. The willy the bum hole. Eat the client's bum hole. Ugh. Who started it? Murph did. Pointing out 90 viewers and dead chat. Now you're making fun of my low viewer number. You know what you did. Oh, up to it. Come on. Go browner. Every time I put it out it looks the same. Mm. I need a bigger chopping board. I need a bigger fridge. I need a bigger tv. Do you think it's done? It's kind of hard. I think it might be done. Some of it's spilled out my pie. If I can get a gold then I don't wanna move. If I can get a gold, there's nothing wrong with it. So that's the pie. Let's cut it over. Why is it I got to smash it? Okay, that kind of worked but I missed the middle. Hmm. What? Oh my God. It's like expanded into a loaf of bread. What? Oh, it's like a loaf of bread. That is not pie. What did I do wrong? That's not how you make pie. Pastry. Oh was it the milk? It's bread. <laugh>. What is this? Where's all the filling gone? <laugh> And it's just a load of bread. This is not what I was imagining. I forgot how to make pie. Pastry. It's like bread. Mm-hmm <affirmative>. Nah, that's weird. Hmm. I made bread by accident and I need this to make chips. What is that fucking egg <laugh>. It looked an F right egg. I forgot how to make pie pastry. I made a load of bread instead. Yeah. I forgot how to make pie. Pastry looks kind of okay. Dunno why. Maybe 'cause I use self raising flower and it's expanded. If I just cut some of the bread off like that. If I just get the crispy bit and then take the bread out. What's that? I right. I just get a crispy can rebo it into the Oh, that's true. Ow the fucking bread out man. I don't want the bread. Go down the bed. Save the chicken pie finish. Looks pretty good. Cleaning up. Never ending. I said no. Oh, now I got clean this at the end. I just cleaned it. Oh god. Oh, everyone's wet and slimy. Oh god. What's that sound Better taste as good as it looks. Nah, she said my cupcake looks like a boob. Some look a bit deformed. Looks like a boob. <laugh>. Yeah. I was gonna say we could put the weed in the cupcake but I didn't get round to it. I forgot how to make a pie. I made so many in Thailand. Check those chippies chicken pie and just, just like your mama made them. I probably won't show this to her. I took an hour and a half to make that. Oh my god. Didn't I start around five o'clock now it's half past six. Definitely need a beer. Hmm? Not bad. Uh, kind of dry. Uh, yeah. Uh uh uh uh. This is gonna be a tough one. This is gonna be a tough uh uh um, oh God. I think this is going in the bin. Worst pie ever? Uh uh. Um, yeah. Uh uh uh <silence> Oh God. <laugh>. It is so dry and stodgy and it tastes like nothing. It is just like mashed up. Cardboard. <laugh> so bad. I can't look how bad this is. <laugh>. Oh god. Uh, <affirmative>. Uh oh. Raw. I should have just made the curry. I don't know why I suddenly want to pie. I am done. I'm done. I can't even finish this one. That was a zero out 10. Yeah. I need to relearn how to make a pie. I can't. Those are gonna be my last thoughts when I'm about to die. Do you think you'll know exactly the moment when you've realized, yeah, this is it. I'm dead. I'll be like bring tea to pallet and the palette fucking fly fucking shit in fuck fucking fly jump scared me right in my ear. Ah. Hate flies. I can't take out the trash. They don't come until Wednesday. Well I'm just gonna leave piles of rubbish bags outside my house. I, well, okay. I wish I just made the curry horrible meal. Now I don't have chicken left to make the curry. Who was my new date game? A girl one. She was nice but I didn't really feel attracted. Pies is just so annoying to make. I probably don't look like my P either because you take a bunch and then you choose the best angles don't you? But the best angles aren't the way you actually look like in real life. The worst angles are probably what you actually look like. I mean when you see someone's facing real life, the actual face is a combination of the bad angles. Possibly good angles. It is been too long since I made a pie. I forgot how to do it. Was it milk and flour or was it I think it was water and flour. I forgot. It was like bread, milk and flour. We go said enjoyed your Sunday. I did a three rounds of laundry. It was great. Ha ha. Did you have a nice time in Bristol? I wonder if she's back from Bristol now. Damn. Jake and Blake's girlfriend's pretty good looking. I assume it's his girlfriend because he's still streaming. I dunno. Actually sometimes she doesn't look very good in this video. But then this one she looks hot. I'm confused. Yeah. Not bad. I guess not up to my standards though. Like I can do better. Is this your favorite part of this dream? Oh that was the worst meal I've ever had. It was like dry chicken and peas with bread. <laugh>. It wasn't even pastry, it was just bread flavorless, dry bread. The whole thing was just dry. Oh it was horrible. Should just be the curry. I've got no chicken for the curry. Oh god. Spanish girl doesn't fucking reply. She's so slow. She's not Spanish. I think she's British. But uh, I forgot if she said she had family in Spain or something. I just called her Spanish girl 'cause she wrote that she speaks Spanish and she goes to Spain often. Uh, don't like the new kick app icon. Look stupid. Now I've got this stupid Mr. Beast face on my desk, my home screen all the time. I hate it when they change app icons and they lay out bulging, bulging biceps. Mm-hmm <affirmative> Mm Uh three hours to go. Not many beers left. Now it feels like I've got the majors are ago. Eight bottles. Didn't we start off at 24? I had half a beer almost every night. So that would take 50 days. I wonder why people like Mr. Beast next. You see bother coming over to kick the money but don't they already have loads of money? Doesn't Mr. Beast already have like a billion dollars or something? I guess you really can't have enough. You can't never not have enough money. You can never not want more money. You can always do with more money. Unless they really like the idea of Kik and wanna support the movement. If I was getting paid the same, I don't know. I probably well stay on YouTube on if he uses his philanthropy as a tax write off. I don't really know how it works. Pirate software was saying something about how when he wanted to make this ferret rescue center or something like that, people accused him of starting it up because he wanted to use it as a tax write off. I didn't even know he could do that. Like a nonprofit organization has something to do with your taxes. Last time I cut my toenails must have been weeks ago. 'cause I walk so much. They wear down pretty fast on their own. So they, they only grow long if you don't walk a lot. She said she sat in the park and had a picnic. That sounds nice. <laugh>. I dunno what else to say to that. Well she's so busy. Can't meet me while she's sitting in the park doing nothing. The weed girl said she can't meet me until mid-September 'cause she's so busy. Oh. But then spends all Sunday sitting in a park doing nothing. Uh, I'm glad you enjoyed it. Not could have been enjoying my day. This kind of rubs me the wrong way when she says she's too busy to meet and then she's obviously not that busy. Her's busy aren't I? Her phone's been overheating recently. When I charge it, when it gets to 45 degrees, the multi app thing shuts down. It's really annoying. Didn't use to do maybe 'cause the temperature's gone up outside. I dunno why it's getting so hot. I had lick it. Yeah. I put it into power saving mode. Limit CPU to 70% promise when you charge the phone it makes it really hot. Uh, okay. Banning I am Serena, how about you leave and shut the fuck up, which is having a relaxing time. I plans for next months. I want to meet weed girl but she's making me wait. Yeah, I met her on a dating app. Um, why is she making me wait so long? Patience. What if you find her unattractive? Hmm. That is the risk. But I've seen a lot of photos. I don't think she looks weird. Gosh, you forgot where the Indian girl's photos were. I It's not just the way they look as well, it's also the way they move can be off-putting. But you don't see that in a photo like the way they walk and hold themselves. Uh, maybe I don't seem like it but then in real life I don't really walk very confidently or you don't notice my legs without skin or something like that. It's really hard to tell what someone's try. Other girls. I've only got one other girl and I'm banned on most of the apps. Now imagine how many dates I could have had if I didn't get banned. I could be more selective and not just go for anything. I, yeah, it really sucks being bad from dating apps. Miss out on meeting a lot of people that you might like and then you also avoid meeting loads of people that you would not like. Imagine having to meet another 10 Indian girls. Oh God, that date was awful. Uh, no she didn't tell me a sc ois. I, I wonder why she kept like she kept looking exhausted and tired and she was kind of limping in a way so young and already crippled. Couldn't even finish walking around the museum. Yeah, I really don't like it when the girl's physically incapable of walking for half an hour. You can't even walk for half an hour. Well I don't know what her limits are. If she's tired and wants to sit down, she needs to say 'cause I don't know. We sat down like three times in the museum. She kept saying it was really hot and it wasn't. It was like 20 degrees. And then that other ginger girlfriend from 2022, she had some weird uh was it handicap? I don't know what it was. Said. She found it hard to walk trolls really out in force today. I'm not making fun of her. If you say I'm making fun of her, you're gonna get banned. I just said it was annoying. It's not really making fun is it? You got a date with weed girl? She said she wants to come over and then we do weed and have food. And I said When do you wanna do it? She said not until mid-September. Oh my God. I want a girl who could walk more than 30 minutes without having to sit down. I was that making fun of it. I don't wanna date a cripple. How am I supposed to go anywhere? Like go out to nature and walk about and stuff? I can't do anything. How are we gonna like keep texting for four weeks? Ugh, this is like a long game. Like my Japanese women game long games where I had to phone them for months before the actual meeting. I phoned <inaudible> for months before actually meeting her. It was such a long project and I said yesterday I wish we could meet sooner. And then she just said meet too. Let me see what it said. Yeah, I said Wish you could come over sooner. And she said Me too. Sounds like we would get on really well. Yeah if she meets another guy before we meet I'd be like what the fuck? You said you were too busy to meet but not busy enough to meet and another guy. And she said, 'cause it's really busy at work right now 'cause of summer holiday. But she had two days off this week. She had today off and yesterday can't be that busy man. Maybe she's on a period or something. Doesn't that make you inactive for a whole week or something? I remember crypt telling me her period dates said she would have to wait until after the 24th of August. Imagine Crip suddenly comes back. I mean it's still not the date that we agreed to meet up on. And she said she would come end of August. Imagine she suddenly reappears. That'd be funny. Well what can you do? I don't think paying 15,000 pounds for a visa is a very good idea. If I was gonna leave, I'd just go as a tourist I guess and figure out if I really want to do that. I still don't really find life abroad to be very appealing. It's just the same as this. But having to move around every few months. Life in Thailand's not that exciting. Don't really know what I wanna do now. I'm not really that interested in Thailand to be honest. Going outside will be too tiring. Hot and noisy. Nowhere nice. No Kit Hill. Stressful trying to stream outside. Hard to talk and I'll just be sitting in the condo all the time. Being bored entirely. Is 15 K? She said did I buy anything in the red light district? No, I had a girlfriend at the time. It was 2020. Damn. What would she think of me if if I said I did get a prostitute? No, I was there with my ex at the time. It was 2020. I was going to say if we could bake it into a cupcake. The gamer girl too. Oh my god. If I told her I had a prostitute she would so block me straight away. She seems the type women like that are so fucking boring. Like they're so prude that oh everything's bad and insulting and offensive seems like such an SJW but this week girl seems really cool. Yeah I got game A girl two back 'cause she saw my phone number and messaged me but then I stupidly told her I got banned. I said Oh my account got deactivated. And then she goes deactivated. No thanks. It was nice chatting to you. I hope you find what you're looking for. Didn't even ask why I got banned. I just pretty instantly assumed that I was being an incel dick to women. Any girl who's got a cool attitude would be like, she'd laugh and then say why did you get banned? So I lost Game of girl two and then got her back and then lost her again. Shouldn't have told her I got banned. See honesty is just stupid. Never be honest. That's what happens when you're honest. No one wins anything. Being honest. I mean I told you the truth and then you gonna punish me like that. It sounds like a massive beach. If you ask her about weed she'd be like, oh no I would never do something like that. That's bad. What a boring person. <laugh>. I said I was there with my ex and then she says, still could have made a purchase. What? Bang a prostitute When I'm there with my girlfriend and um, kind of weird things to say. Should I say if you're my girlfriend, would you let me make a purchase? <laugh>? I would hope she would say no. 'cause that's kind of weird. Would you let me <laugh> make a per Well I just say it like that. Make a purchase. If you were my girlfriend, what is can you butter? Well if she goes, if I let you make a purchase, would you want to make a purchase <laugh> butter that's melted and steeped with activated weed? She knows her stuff. I said can you just put the weed into a cupcake and cook it? She says no the THC must be activated. What happens to that weird Canadian girl who said I want you to have sex with someone else before you meet me? She disappeared as well. She wrote this whole list about why she'd be the perfect wife for me and then said I should come move to Florida. Okay. Whoa crazy person. And these people were just nuts. Well how do you activate it? What? She said we'd make the purchase together. I don't know if she's joking or not. Surely she's joking. Unless her profile says bisexual. Oh wait, her profile says pansexual. I forgot about that sounds kind of hot. So what is she like? I don't get it. If you joking and says she's pansexual but also says she's looking for monogamy. Surely she's joking. She's suggesting we have a threesome with the red light districts hooker in Amsterdam. But it also says she wants monogamy. How can you want a threesome if you want monogamy? Is she shit testing me? Am I supposed to say Oh no I would never do that. She said would definitely be an experience. So you're into women as well? I don't know if I like where this conversation's going. <laugh>, it's getting kind of weird. What do you mean? I thought that's what monogamy meant means you're only with each other and only have sex with each other. Like you're in a committed relationship. Relationship. She thinks she's gonna just go. Oh, just kidding. I don't know. It's kind of weird when they start talking about threesomes and stuff like that. I dunno. I mean that's just what normal relationship. I don't know what pan means, what you're just attracted to anyone. But how's that difference between bisexual and now she says, who says we're getting a woman? I thought that's, I thought they just have women at the Red Light district. She says she's not bothered by what's between the legs. So you mean you like both or disinterested in both. So may, I mean if you say you're not bothered about what's in between legs, does it mean it's not something that interests you? Like you're not inter genital. Isn't that asexual though? Oh well I'm confused with all this stupid terminology. Asexual is, you're not interested in sex, isn't it? I think she's just joking around. So it just means by, okay, so what she wants a girlfriend or what? I don't get it. Like do you want a boyfriend or do you want a girlfriend or do you have threesomes or, I don't know, maybe I should ask her. So she, so she would be my girlfriend but then she also wants to mess around with girls as well as like side pieces. That's not, that's not monogamy though. She puts, she wants monogamy. That would be uh, what's the other word that starts with an A? Oh I forgot the word. Don't tell me. Oh, oh my god. I forgot the word. There's monogamy and a gmy. <laugh>. I can't remember the word. Uh uh. I actually don't remember. What's the word? If you have many partners. Oh yeah, polygamy. Yeah, that's the one. Not a gmy <laugh>. No, I wasn't looking 'cause I didn't want to cheat but I, I couldn't remember it. Polygamy. Let me read her profile again. She says pansexual but she wants monogamy and she wants long-term relationship. Well maybe she did it in the past like fool around now on something serious. She, yeah, but she just suggested we have a threesome in the red light district. It doesn't sound very monogamous. She must be joking. I can't tell when British people joke or not. Sometimes they like to do this deadpan sarcasm and I'm like, are you joking or serious? I don't know. But I'm definitely not doing a threesome with another guy though. That's weird. What is he gonna fuck my girlfriend to? There's loads of different areas with different things on offer. Well are they, are there male red light district areas in Amsterdam? I thought it's just women. Well I never saw the male hookers there. I like personalities over body parts. Okay, so you're saying a dick doesn't turn you on? I don't really know where to take this. What the hell is demisexual? I see. I get confused with all the terms sometimes. I dunno. I don't really like this whole threesome idea. I'm just gonna like try and end the conversation there. I'm not into threesomes. Um, if I've got a girlfriend, I don't want her seeing other people. It's fucking weird. But if she says, oh I'm with you, you're my main guy, but I'm also gonna sleep with other people 'cause I'm attracted to their personalities. That's not monogamy then, is it? It's polyamory. She's not asking for a threesome but she just said, I forgot what she said actually. Uh, I said I didn't make a purchase 'cause I was with my girlfriend Mila. And then she said, what did she say? I can't remember anything. She says, uh, still could have made the purchase. And then I said, would you have let me make the purchase if you were my girlfriend? And she says we would've made the purchase together. So I just assumed it would be a woman. 'cause I never seen a male hooker in the red light district. And then she says, who says it would be a woman? I think she's just kidding around. I'm not taking my girlfriend and getting sandwiched with another guy. No, I, I want, I like to have one person to focus on when I'm in a relationship. I don't want like multiple women. I mean if she's like gonna bring over hot girls and she's saying Oh can my hot friend Claire come around tonight for threesome? I'll be like, Hmm, guess so. But it's kind of weird. Why did I cheat? Because I got horny and couldn't control my woody. But ideally I'd be with one person who satisfies me sexually and emotionally and I didn't cheat on everyone. Like I didn't cheat on Mila 'cause she, I thought I really liked her. Should I say, so are you saying you would be, you would want a threesome if we were together and then follow up by saying sorry, I'm not sure if you're joking or not. I'm kind of dumb. No, I'm a romanticist. I like the idea of love and having one girlfriend but if I feel unsatisfied, yeah I'll, I'll look elsewhere and would cheat. But if I was satisfied I wouldn't cheat. I've only cheated on four out. Seven of my girlfriends. No five out. Seven. No, four out of seven. She says we'll have to go there someday and explore properly so she's not drinking. So if we were dating you'd also want threesomes. I'm not sure if I follow right. I mean you said it doesn't sound like she's joking. Why is she so intrigued with this prostitute idea? With the Red Knight district idea. But I'm not gay so things are getting weird. Okay, now she's saying I'm a one person at a time kind of girl. But you're saying you wanna get, I don't understand. Oh so the threesome at the red light district thing wasn't serious. Sorry. Um, sorry. Um, and I'm so confused. A bit confused. Um, dumb sometimes but I don't get it. She said we would make the purchase together and then we'd have to go there to explore sometime. And now she's saying she's just a one person kind of girl. Or after hinting her threesome so many times I'm confused 'cause she's like suggesting we get a hooker together like a threesome and now she oh whatever. What do you mean? Why am I so confused? 'cause she's saying we should get a prostitute together and go to the red light district. But then she's saying I'm a one person kind of girl. Okay, what are we gonna do with the prostitute then? I think she's just joking about you can be monogamous and get a hooker. It's still monogamous. Well sorry I didn't cheat on Ji <laugh>. So all the times I went to Thomas Dechy and got health delivery doesn't count as cheating. Guess I didn't cheat after all then. Well if you do it together then it's not cheating. But if I secretly went off and did it, it's cheating. Oh God, I got so confused. Me and Shera did go to competition. She together <laugh>, we just didn't do anything. We just walked through it and Shara had a good look at the hookers. If she says can we change the topic then I know I fucked up <laugh> like the ai, can we change this subject <laugh>? She's saying she's, she's not saying I'm not down for it. It would be an experience. Have a threesome of a professional. So if it's with a professional then it doesn't count as okay. I think I get it. Yeah, it would definitely be memorable. Ha. I don't know though. I don't wanna see a guy bang my, if she's my girlfriend. I don't wanna see a guy bang my girlfriend. But I'm not, I'm not gay so I'm not sure if I like a male one. Should I tell her about the time I got sucked up in a park by gay guy <laugh>. Damn this conversation's getting wild now she's saying she's, she's monogamous but she's intrigued about the idea of doing it with a professional. Yeah, but if we do it with a male, how's that gonna work? What are we gonna DP her or are we gonna take turns and watching a guy bang My girlfriend's gonna be fucking weird and traumatizing. Unless I didn't give a shit about the girlfriend. But if I like actually loved her or had feelings, I don't wanna see a guy bang my girlfriends fucking weird unless I bang her and the guy bangs me. I'd rather the guy bang me than me watch the guy bang my girlfriend like I'll take the dick. Take one for the team and how it would work. Two guys and a girl. I think I might rage like if I actually like the girl and I see, see her getting banged by a guy. Even if he's just a professional and he's getting paid to do it and it's not like an emotional thing, I would get emotional. I'm a very jealous person. She seems like she's replying way faster with this conversation. <laugh>. Well she's basically saying she doesn't mind if it's a male or a woman. She doesn't have a preference. But should I ask if you, if you had to choose a professional for us, would it be a male or a woman? I feel like this needs a voice to voice conversation. This is a very complex topic. I need to put, well I've got a spasm prostitute threesome with my future girlfriend. She would love Amsterdam. Then they got weed, they got hookers. I all right. Maybe I enjoy watching some guy bang my girlfriend. Hmm. I guess I have kind of shared women before, haven't I? Like the married Japanese women? Yeah, but I wasn't emotionally invested in her. I didn't really care and we weren't, I mean the husband wasn't in the room with us and I bang that Hong continent. Yeah but I'm looking for a girlfriend. Not like some random sex partner. Although I guess if one, if there was a girl and she was like, oh I'm not looking for a boyfriend, she's looking for a random sex partner and I like it then I'd be like okay sure. Yeah as soon as I've got no one else. What she said, I'm sure we can find a goat somewhere. What? Uh, maybe we stick to humans. But would you have a preference for male or female professional at the red light district or try both. Why she's saying goat <laugh>. That was so random. We could find a goat somewhere. If she says horse then she definitely knows about my channel. She's trolling me. And so her pansexuals also also attracted to anything on the planet that's also not a human. If she said sheep I should have said Oh you part well <laugh> I think she's definitely out freaking my freak. I don't why people think I'm a freak. I'm pretty vanilla. Like I'm not into all and threesomes of gay sex and like cut stuff. I just have normal sex with women. Why? People think I'm, I'm a weirdo. I'm pretty normal. Apart from the gay stuff up the bum with the dildos. I guess it's kind of weird. I mean it's not really that weird. A lot of people are gay these days. I'm not gay. But it does feel good. I just like, I'm not vegan but I can enjoy it. Beyond burger? No, she doesn't have dyed hair. Yeah but I didn't want to get sucked off by a guy. He just did it. Well yeah I was kind of raped wasn't I? I because he kind of just forced me to do it. I mean I was saying no but he wasn't listening so he did it anyway and I didn't really put up much physical resistance. Like I didn't get up and leave did I? So maybe he thought oh he's not getting up and leaving. So maybe he likes it. Funny how I bring up Amsterdam. Her mind goes straight to the red light district. I thought she'd be interested in the weed stuff. My main interest is I want to get high and fuck her brains out in the hotel room. But I guess you don't need to go to Amsterdam to do that. That's funny. The nymph girl's name is Casey but not spelled like two letters. It's spelled out phonetically. I wonder if I message her again even though she left me on read. Hey, so you still wanna meet up? Mm-hmm <affirmative> lucky replied, I'm not watching scavenger hunt. No. How's ice holding up? He looked really pale. Didn't look very good in this clip I saw of him because he looked miserable. He may all just completely, maybe not. Who knows? Tim won. Well he won again. Didn't he win last time? Speed walking somewhere. Dunno where he's speed walking though. I had to guess. I think port here. I think they're, their plan is just waiting. I don't see the point of it. So what he hid a bunch of stuff around the city and then a bunch of streamers go look for it and then he just watches them stream it But he doesn't actually do anything apart from watching it. Boring. Hmm. What do I say now? One on one. What do you mean? What about you? I've already said I'm not gay. Well I wouldn't choose a guy if I had to pick do I think I could win this event? I don't even know what you have to do. How do they know where it's hidden? Follow the leaders. Observe the leader. Follow what they do. Yeah. What does it all mean? How am I not gay but like things up your bum Because there's pleasure nerves in the bum hole. Like when you have a poo, doesn't it feel good? Doesn't mean you're gay. Gay means you're attracted to men. I'm not attracted to men. Like you could put a cucumber up my bum and it would feel good but I'm not attracted to cucumbers. What you mean you're not aroused when you're sitting? I have a massive bone. When I have a shit, I have to push my dick back down into the toilet bowl to pierce. Otherwise it goes everywhere. Mean you don't have a raging boner when you take a poop you're lying <laugh>, I get in and you're talking about shoving cucumber up your ass. <laugh> you joined at the right time. It is just another day with Daniel <laugh>. Hmm. I dunno if I start um, like ending this conversation about the threesome, I should say well I wasn't expecting this conversation when I brought up Amsterdam. I wasn't expecting this conversation when I brought up Amsterdam <laugh>. Hmm. Note to self, don't take her to Amsterdam <laugh>. She's gonna maybe have a threesome with a male prostitute. Give it a try before closing her off. Well a threesome in Amsterdam can we at least meet up first and have sex one-on-one before we start talking about threesomes? Can't even come and meet me now when she's not doing anything on the weekend anyway. I don't really want to have a, the reason to be honest, it's never really interested me. And what do I do if there's two girls? Will I put my woody in one and then put it out and then put it in the other one and then keep putting it out and putting it in? It's annoying once it's in. I don't really want to take it out until I not, I don't like changing positions because I, I'm scared if I put it out it goes soft. Yeah. That's why I feel kind of skeptical when they talk about this stuff 'cause I've been messed around with girls talk a lot but then they don't take any action do they? Like I think a lot of girls have these wild fantasies and they like to say it out loud to someone that they've got no intentions of actually meeting. So they don't actually have to follow through. Like maybe they find it kind of hard but they would never do it and it's risk free because if they don't wanna me they can just ghost. They're not gonna see me in real life. Did you visit Anne Frank? We have to actually meet first. I think I went there but don't really remember it. Well why don't you just hurry up and come meet me then What if I say what if I book a hotel near you and then you can come over easily without driving two hours. Go book a hotel near where she works so romantic then I just sound really desperate And she's near Bristol. It's just like two hours away. Women don't like it when you impulsively just show up. Do they like in Manchester as chassis's at Manchester Girl and they just showed up. Uh, I'm gonna be disappointed if this one flakes too. Kind of getting my hopes up. Which is a bad sign. Things rarely go well when you get your hopes up. I was sexting with that Manchester girl for months so I don't know why she was so surprised when I went to Manchester I told her I was going, do they really have me? They kept saying they had live sex on a stage shows there but we didn't go to one. That's weird. I just saw the peep show with the woman touching herself. What else is there to do in Amsterdam? Peep Red light District weed. It's like a city of degeneracy. Imagine just living there and having a normal job. <laugh>. It's like a weird adult Disneyland. I bet none of them are Dutch in the red light district. But they're all like I know Slovakian, Belarus, Turkish. I find the prostitutes in the country you're in are rarely ever from the actual country you're in. Like in Malaysia that hookers were Thai or Vietnamese. Not actually Malaysian. I wonder why Maybe part of an Tates network if he thinks I'm like this massive stoner who does weed all the time. <laugh>. I've done it once. <laugh>. No I've done it twice but I made it sound like yeah I do it all the time. When I was in Thailand I do the weed all day. Yeah that's me. I think my problem is I do too. I do too much. Like I had half the brownie in Amsterdam and I had, I smoked half of the thingy in Thailand. I should have had just a little bit. I'm super lightweight. How am I going to get dates now? Now I don't know. I've only got weed girl and Spanish girl and that's it really. I think that's the end of that. I was just thinking if I could get her horny through a conversation, maybe she wouldn't hurry up and meet. So do pansexuals not get attracted to the body If they're attracted to personalities, are they not like getting turned on at the thought of sex or don't get it really? I think this cat's deaf look. Oh it heard it. Is it deaf or something? What does it sell on my doorbell? Try my cupcake. That cat is a different cat. Mr. Meel never sits on the doormat. This one is the white foot one. I haven't seen Mr. All day. Maybe he's locks in the house. What's that in the field? Looks weird of a giant rat. Is it a rabbit? It looks too black to be a rabbit. Yeah it looks kind of scary out there. Dunno what else to talk about. Really can't keep going on about the meeting thing. Discuss her sexuality. What are we gonna talk about for four weeks? Maybe I can speed up the process. Can't. Pretty good. It's kind of chewy I think. Doesn't this break away? It kind of stretches. No it's not as dry as a goon. But when you're on a date and the girl says what do you wanna do next? Is that she's saying that because she wants to do more things. I think if she wanted to go home she wouldn't keep saying, what do you wanna do next? I think game. A girl liked me. If I wasn't really having a good time on the date, I wouldn't keep saying, what do you wanna do next? Unless she was, she wanted me to end the date. Like she was prompting me to end the date 'cause she was not willing to do it herself. Yeah, take the initiative. But to do what? To end the date or to prolong it. I should have said, I don't know. What do you wanna do <laugh>? Girls hate that. Girls hate it when they, they ask you a question. You say, I don't know I about you. Like what do you want to eat? I don't know. What do you want to eat? What was wrong with that? I don't know. I didn't really, I don't think game a girl can grunt me. Um, I don't know. Yeah. I don't know why TV turned into such a hater. I don't think anyone watches my streams or channel because I make great life decisions. Oh, messed them out now. Oh they took the collar off. Oh no it's still on the blue one. Not allowed in the house. Yeah. He kept saying it's unhealthy to watch my stream. Well, wants to go sleep on my nice clean bed. Not allowed. Don't. Oh, oh why? You know he's like attacking the glass now or is he attacking an insect? He's like trying to get in Jesus. He's like dumping at the gas. Oh give up. Uh, I dunno what to say. I feel like this Amsterdam topic's been very stretched out. Like my an where's he got? It's cold outside. I don't wanna go out. Dunno what to talk about. It's a weed girl. Now we've covered Amsterdam. I don't really wanna keep going on about prostitutes. Oh shit. I don't really want to keep going on about prostitutes and the threesomes. But now she might think I'm boring 'cause I kind of, I don't know. I said something like we should meet first before exploring wilder ideas. Maybe she thinks oh I'm boring. Well I mean what should I say? Yeah, let's do it with a guy and we take turns banging you. Oh I got the rice out. It kind of smells weird left out right? It smells kind of like egg. What does it smell egg once to be? She says, oh are you free next weekend? And then I say, oh I thought you wanted to wait for September. I just can't wait anymore. What I do tomorrow? Don't need food. Don't need food. Bit bored of all the places nearby. Don't really want to drop an hour. I've got to think weird. She likes weird topics. Well I'm not five seven. I'm five nine. What do you mean I'm not five nine. Are you being serious? What you think? I'm actually lying about my height. You honestly think I'm lying about my height? Why would I lie about my height? I've measured it loads of times. I imagine thinking I'm lying about my height. Someone about losing mod status. How? How can you tell my height just from looking at me on a video? Are you fucking stupid? Oh my god. Little ways band don't fucking piss me off about my height. I had enough of this shit fucking flight go away. I'm gonna get it. Ah, I dunno what else to talk about to this girl. How am I gonna talk to her for four weeks without running out? Things to say And then she's gonna think, oh I lost interest. And if I ask her boring things like how was your day? She's gonna be bored. But I don't really wanna ask her about threesomes. Makes me feel weird. Like asking, well how was his sex with your ex-boyfriend? Maybe I'm replying too quickly. Well I'm hoping if I chat to her more, she'll like me more and then want to meet faster. I mean sooner. Because if she's attracted to person, I should try and do a voice call. Really? 'cause she says she's attracted to personalities. So maybe she wants to wait a month to see what my personality's like problem is I'm kind of dry. I mean I am weird but I'm also kind of dry. Especially if I'm shy and I wonder if it's okay to be more flirty. You know I can't talk about most of my interesting stories. It would scare most people away. Like I bought a full-sized sex doll when I was married and then me and my ex-wife chopped it up into tiny bits. I promise all these stories involve an x. I don't really want to keep bringing up Xs. 'cause then they might say, oh why did you break up? How did you have so many Xes? Why did they keep dumping you? I, yeah, I dunno why Jira took a pic with it. It's like she was about to murder it. It's like taking a picture with your victim before you butcher it. She was happy because she thought it looks like her. She thought I bought a sex doll in the image of her. Didn't look anything like her. She was like, it looks like me. <laugh>. She sent it to a friend. I should have said you look way better babe. So I saw her picture of my Bobby Brown. Uh, maybe I got to ask a question now. Have you ever tried being a prostitute? No. Well I don't wanna talk about threesomes. It kind of puts me off. I You talked about weed so much already. What about what's the craziest thing you've done whilst high? Well if she says a threesome, I had a gang bang with my roommates. Oh God no. It's either gonna be gross. Like she puked everywhere or she had a gang bang. Don't really wanna ask that. <laugh>. The problem is I have to show interest in her. But to be honest I don't want to know too much about her. Like I don't know. I don't wanna know when she broke up with her ex. I don't want to know if she's met any other guys on the app. I don't wanna know if she's had a threesome. I don't. I'd rather not know. Like I was kind of scared of Mina's past. I didn't wanna ask her stuff about her past 'cause I was scared of what the answer would be. I already didn't really like the lesbian GY thing. I don't know if some guy banged you in the toilets when you were high. I don't know this stuff. It's gonna ruin my image of you and then I'm gonna think less of you. Like when I found out about Australian guy, it really ruined my image of Chihiro. Like it lowered my opinion of her. I really wish I didn't find out about it. I'd rather not know. I would've been way more interested in crypt if I didn't know she was doing fentanyl and her dad was a serial killer. <laugh> all this stuff. I'd rather not know. That was why I wasn't interested in her. Mm-hmm <affirmative> I change the topic. I dunno why we're still talking about Amsterdam and prostitutes. I've been talking about this for nearly two hours. I said what are you doing tonight? <laugh>? We going to bed plan for tomorrow? I don't know. Um, yeah I had a nice time at the beach last stream didn't I? And then the dates kind of ruined my momentum. I told her about the peep show thing and she was asking what it was like or I could ask if she's done anything else than weed. Like fentanyl. It's only nine o'clock. Although we were texting until like past midnight yesterday. Should I steal the nymph girls question? If you could be any mythical creature, what would it be? What a stupid question. What else have you done apart from weed? She watches anime. Hmm. It's like everyone watches anime these days. Back when I was a kid it was like a weird unknown thing to do. Why are you watching Japanese cartoons? Although everyone, I mean everyone watched Japanese cartoons when we were kids. We just didn't know they were Japanese cartoons. Pokemon Sonic. What else was there? It wasn't Power Rangers. Japanese. I used to love Power Rangers. I liked it when they morphed and then went into that big robot thing. Oh the cool gadgets. Power Rangers was cool. It was such a pain in the backside trying to find episodes of Naruto, you had to tie up something like Naruto episode 251 part A English sub. And then if you couldn't find English sub you go Spanish sub German sub. And hope you could understand enough Japanese. Japanese inspired, uh, 'cause they're all wearing Uh I thought 'cause they were wearing face masks, they could just easily dub over it. But I guess they do take the face mask off. Isn't Transformers Japanese? I forgot. I think the toys were Japanese and then the cartoons are American based on the toys. Something like that. She said not even watching tv. <laugh>. I don't have a TV yet. What's coke? Is that cocaine? Is that the one you inject? I've only done weed and nicotine. You sniff it. Is that what Mita did? Mita did a lot of coke 'cause she went parting in LA. I always try this other stuff looks scary. What Rumors? Probably not. If they're rumors are Ben, they're not true. Okay, your banned is just a stupid troll following since today. Well you waited an hour to say that or an idiot waited a whole hour to follow to say one thing. What do you mean All my YouTube people are gone. You are all my YouTube people. Unfortunately you're not gone. Are you still here annoying me? When are you gonna be gone? Do you want me gone? No. You can stay cool. I guess sometimes I What is me, Luke or Chan know the heart of that. Her conversations get a bit dry. Well she loses interest before September even comes. Oh it's like me at a court. I just noticed that. Yeah I kind of dunno what to say anymore. Like it's fizzling out a little bit. Started off strong on Friday. What I've got to see is if I just let the conversation end, will she reinitiate the conversation the next day or wait for me to reinitiate it? This is why I didn't wanna wait a whole month. This is what I'm worried about or not. Other guys are saying that maybe other guys talking about gang bangs and orgies. Although I did like how she messaged me throughout the day even though she was hanging out with friends. I thought that was kind of strange though. I think I just let it die and then see if she tries to keep it alive. 'cause I'm asking all the questions at the moment. I think I don't check my phone for the next half an hour. Might go to bed soon anyway. I don't know what to do anymore for Stream. I feel really distracted. All the girls Kit Hill, no don't need food. I bought loads of food already. Oh God. What else? I already went to two beaches and I went to a castle yesterday. Kind of running out things to do. Now I thought maybe I'll go to the pet shop and get a fish tank. Well that could be nearly a hundred pounds. I don't want to stream and do something that's gonna cost a hundred pounds. A fish tank would be cool though. Grossing underwater grass. How you cut the underwater grass though? Will it just keep growing and growing again? Underwater Lawnmower. Maybe you can get the equivalent of sea sheep that graze the grass. Are they're not like herds of herbivores underwater that do what sheep do you? I guess the scavenger hunt is quite a good idea because he basically gather all these streamers with all the viewers and you gather them all into one point. And then ice himself doesn't really have to do anything apart from just sit there and commentate. Oh hey aj. I don't know for sure if Thailand is off 'cause I don't know what's gonna happen. I've only got two more girls I wanna meet. I met two already. But I don't really like them. I'm finding it hard to decide what to do. Tomorrow I'll sell my car and then next day I'll buy a Tesla and then next day I'll regret it. And then next day I say I'm leaving and then next day I'm buying a fridge. I have no idea. But I think if I do go to Thailand I'll be there for a long time. I mean we could do another month. Can we? If not November. I don't really know. I mean it depends if I get a girlfriend or not. If I don't get a girlfriend I'd probably go but it seems unlikely. I'll get a girlfriend. I'm already banned on Tinder and Bumble and then I've only got two girls left to meet. Didn't like the other two girls or two out of four done the is really far from New Zealand. I don't think she would come. Must be like a 20 hour flight. Plus it'll be freezing in November. It'll be winter here nearly. Oh Spanish girl replied finally. That's weird. She says it was fine. How about yours? As if I asked her how was your day? But I didn't ask how your day was. I just said did you take any pics? Looks fun. No pics of you. I went to a castle, sent her my pics of the castle. Spain does not look good to me. I don't know why. Number one, everything looks very dry and brown like the mountains and stuff are very brown and dry. And then number two, the buildings are very white and weird looking. I'm not a fan of Spanish architecture and the trees and stuff look kind of fried and it doesn't look good. <silence> Weird. I'm only getting one gray tick. I'm only getting one gray tick to the Spanish girl. She blocked you <laugh>? Well she messaged me and then blocked me straight away. What is one gray tick now if they block you? The whole profile picture disappears and goes into that default gray one. Myanmar girl blocks me and you straight away. I need to prompt Spanish girl into me. Spain's boring. I don't understand why so many British people love Spain. Just 'cause it's hot. A lot of places are hot. What about France? Portugal, J Brow. What if British people love buying a house in Spain too? I would not wanna own property in some random country that I'm not from. It seemed risky. Didn't loads of them have to leave after Brexit 'cause they couldn't stay anymore? Or do they have a role? Like if you've been living here five years already before Brexit you can stay. If you own property here, you can stay. 'cause a woman I worked with at the petrol station retired and moved to Spain. She was my school friend's mom. I forgot what her name was. Sharon, something like that. Or middle aged older women in the UK either called Sharon or Michelle. Michelle is like such a, your friend's mom's name kind of name along with Nikki or I dunno, m imagine dating a girl called Michelle. Sounds like you're dating a 50-year-old woman of East Enders. Yeah, Abby's like a bit of an old name too now that's really weird. Why did the Spanish girl reply to me as if I asked her how her day was but I didn't. She said it was fine. Really? How about yours? What did you do? But the only thing I asked her was did you take any nice pics? That's kind of weird. Well sorry, I wonder if she's gonna notice that I've got banned on Tinder because she hasn't said anything. Yeah, it seems like she replied to the wrong convo but she sent me the pics. I said take any nice pics. But I don't see the point going to Spain when it's summer here people go to Spain 'cause it's warm. But it's really warm here now it's better soon. I dunno why I'm only getting one. Great tick. Your message has been sent but it hasn't been delivered to the recipient's device. It could be 'cause recipient's phone is off Poor signal or being area with no network. It hasn't reached the recipient's phone. Oh well I'm done. Chance I can't bother anymore. I feel comfortable in all the effort and my streaming tomorrow. Yeah, got to. I've already taken two days off. That's nearly $350 Lost. Feels kind of anti-climactic now. Being kind of bored of weed girl. But I was so excited about Weed girl on Friday and then she hit me with the September thing and then game ago date was disappointing. It's not going well. No, I don't have any more dates apart from mid-September if that counts. I'm about too excited for weed girl. I need to take a step back and recompose recompose then decompose. Feel a bit bummed out now. Bummed out. 'cause I don't know how I can keep this texting thing going on for a month with We girl. It is quite a distance isn't it? Two and a half hours. Maybe that's why she put me on low priority. I don't know how it would work if we dated. I mean she could come Friday and then leave Sunday if she works Monday to Friday. Yeah. Can't you? Because she can't drive two hours to work every day. Yeah, but if we really liked each other we could look for a new place together near nearer to where she works. But then once you say, oh isn't it far from where you work? 'cause she thinks I'm a delivery driver, then what do I say? Oh, I'm gonna quit my job for you. Or I'll just get relocated. Oh I'll get a new job. I don't like it anyway. It's so tough. <silence> <affirmative>. Yeah, I think it'd be easy to hide 'cause she would go to work and then I'd just stream at home. Yeah, it's such a pain in the back. So having to hide stuff though, I wish I could just find someone I can be open with and they accept me. Uh oh. Rather date a viewer. But since there's no viewers interested, this is what I have to resort to. No one's gonna run a date. Someone who streams like ice stream and No, no, no. Tricky situation isn't it? I've got a terrible online internet footprint and history. I say things on the stream that make any normal person run a mile. I don't really wanna date someone who's nuts like Crips or Venus, even though they might be the only people winning to date me. But I don't wanna date them. I don't wanna get a normal job to get a normal girl and have a normal life. I'm kind of fucked, aren't I? I mean, I'm not that crazy. I mean, I don't mind dating a girl who's on my level of crazy. I'm not that like Venus and Crip level of crazy. I'm like, I'm not doing drugs and getting into jail. I kind of like find someone who matches me. All I do is I talk shit online. Not that bad. Nothing I say is even that bad anyway. That's why people being such big fuss, I don't know. I really feel like I'm trapped, like trapped in this black hole. Unable to move towards what I want now. I'm bored of Japan. Don't want to go there. I'm not even interested in Japanese women anymore. I don't even watch Japanese porn now. Boring. Anyway, I'm gonna go to bed before I start whining on a nun about existential crisis. See ya.