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嗯。

Um,

twisting.

Testing. You seem happy right now.

Yeah, kind of, but not really.

So unhappy.

This

is my unhappy face.

Let's just say very good news, but it's a secret.

I opened the door for just an hour, all these flies are in here. Well, they're all going to be dead tomorrow morning.

My hair's getting long already. I swear I cut my hair just a month ago. How is it already looking long again?

It was not even 2 months ago I cut it, remember? Now it looks like I got to cut it again. Again, weirdly long

and mushroomy.

I'm saving a fortune cutting my own hair though.

The weird thing is this bit isn't really long. The rat tail. When the rat tail gets really long, that's when I start thinking about cutting it. When I can tie a ponytail.

Maybe I just grow it really long for fun. Don't cut it for a year and just let it get really long so I look like a girl naked from behind. That'd be pretty hot.

I don't know what my hair would look like if I just let it grow stupidly long like Jesus.

No, I don't like it. I mean, it gets too long, starts to look weird. There's like a sweet spot where not too short but not too long where I look the best. It's getting a bit long though.

Another YouTuber made a video about me called Ray—

Ray Something Sunshine. He's got 277k subs. He's quite a new channel, but he gets a lot of views. He gets a couple hundred thousand views every video, so maybe it'll go viral.

Who knows? A lot of YouTubers making videos about me recently. I think because Turkey Tom made his one.

Yeah, I watched it. It was quite funny. Made me laugh a few times.

It's just the same as all the other videos though, you know, like Daniel's a sociopath, he doesn't understand people's feelings, blah blah blah. Although he did say one thing that kind of annoyed me. He said that I, I created a Discord for the sole purpose to rizz up my girl viewers, which is so not true. Number one,

I don't have a Discord. Like, I don't, I don't own a Discord. The one I'm in now is like a fan, like a viewer-run Discord that I joined. It's not my Discord, and I don't rizz up girls. I only, I chat to girls if they chat to me first. But it's not like I'm in every girl's DMs

going, hey babe, wanna shag? The girls I do chat with, it's not even sexual. It's just like, oh, I find you cute. Oh, thanks, you're cute too. It's like that. I'm not being a weirdo,

but he's making it sound like I'm this predator or something.

I wasn't very happy about that, to be honest. I barely chat to any girls. It's like 3 girls that I sometimes talk to, but that's only because they reached out to me first.

And I don't even talk to them that much anyway. And it's not sexual.

It's only like kind of sexual with Moon.

I sent her some willy videos,

but only because she asked for them. I didn't just send it to her. I didn't, like, randomly send her a willy video. So it's not like I'm a predator.

I would never send that stuff unless they asked for it.

So yeah, I didn't like the bit when he was trying to make me sound like I'm a predator with my Discord

because he took one screenshot and then took it out of context and then ran with it. When I was obviously joking. It's funny, people don't seem to think I'm joking and they think I'm being serious

unless they, they don't care and they're like pretending they're taking it seriously for the video, like they're running with it because that would be— that's good content, isn't it?

To make it seem like they believe that I'm being serious about everything I'm saying, because then they have something to counter-argue, which is the whole point of these commentary videos, is to— they'll show a clip of you saying something silly and then they will counter-argue you to make them look good. It's like the whole iDubbbz and Leafy

era used to do this back in 2017. They'll play a clip of their target saying something silly and then they'll refute it. And then maybe throw in a joke and then make themselves look good at the same time. So what they do is they'll be like, oh, this thing he just said is really silly and sociopathic. If

it was me— and then they give you an example which shows you how great they are as a person. Example, he shows the clip of me saying,

I do care about people. For example, if you get run over and get sent to hospital, it'd be annoying because then I've got to go visit you. And then he'll say, that's because you're only caring about yourself. And then if it was me, my first thought would be to go and check to see if you're okay, blah,

blah, blah.

So he's like, put me down, putting himself up.

That's, that's been one of my new jokes recently. When confronted with the whole, do you care about me?

But people don't seem to get it.

Whatever. Kale, you're in the video too. He clipped the video of me complaining about you.

We all made it. We're all gonna be famous. Ken's in it too, so maybe he'll go viral because he's quite a new channel. His videos get good views. He gets way more views than he has subs, and he's only a year old. So editing's quite good too, so maybe he's got a chance going viral. Maybe we're gonna

get more girls.

Send more girls,

my Discord's waiting.

The Discord guys are like the bottom feeders and I'm like the, the vassal, and then I get— I'm the bottom feeder from the bigger YouTubers who shower me with more girls when they make commentary videos about me. It's the food chain. We're getting more girls, guys. Get strapped in. Although I don't know if this guy gets many

girl viewers.

Oh wow, thanks Matthew Stone, very generous.

Hey, hope you're well, dude. Try to connect with girls via shared interests, mate. Also, did you ever do Sunny Up the Back Door? No, but we did discuss it at Tesco's. We were just in Tesco's doing the food shopping, and then for some reason we just started talking about anal. And I said, yeah, I'm not really interested.

And she was like, well, I'm open to the idea, and I guess you would be my first and only time since we're going to be together forever. Yeah, that would have turned out well, didn't it?

She, she seemed to really think we were gonna be like— I was gonna be her last ever boyfriend because we're gonna be together forever.

It was just in Tesco's food shopping. I don't know how we started talking about it.

No, I wouldn't really be into doing anal

unless it was a guy. I mean, like a ladyboy guy, not a real guy. But like a guy who looks like a girl, because that's your only choice, isn't it? I think anal is like the poor man's hole next to the vagina.

I mean, why would you go— I mean, maybe if the girl's on her period, then yeah, but I mean, I'd rather get poo on my dick than blood. What's grosser? I think blood is probably grosser than poo.

Unless it's diarrhea. I guess you could rank the different types of poo.

Bloody poo, that's just the worst of both worlds, isn't it? Oh, these YouTubers, these commentary channels, when they react to my videos As if that's the craziest stuff I say. The videos are so tame compared to what I say on stream. I say way more unhinged stuff on stream, but all they do is, is

like react to my videos where it's obviously all just scripted and, you know, I'm just saying it to troll.

But it's a shame that obviously the only thing that people find interesting about me is when I say weird stuff. These commentary channels never say anything else apart from, oh look, this guy is saying weird stuff.

Guess that's my thing, isn't it?

Oh, and also, well, I do my, my tech reviews, but these commentary channels never mention my Steam Deck video or my Elden Ring video. All they do is when I— they react to stuff when I talk about girls or friends,

not having friends,

because no one cares. Well, yeah, exactly. That's what's sad about it, because I have a lot to offer and bring to the table, but people only care about this one thing.

Which is when I say crazy stuff.

Damn, my hair's looking good today though.

Fresh out the shower. I cleaned the shower today. It was getting all slimy again.

You really gotta keep cleaning that drain hole, otherwise it gets gross.

And there's hair everywhere. It's like a month's worth of fallen hair buildup around the drain and the floor of the shower room. Had to mop it all up. God, I would love to get a vacuum cleaner. It would make it so much easier.

My stock's looking soon good.

Why? What's going to happen?

What's Israel doing?

I had a very boring day. Cleaned the shower, made a couple Switch videos. The cat came again. Had a nap in my conservatory for hours because it was raining today. It was raining. And then I was sitting in the conservatory having my lunch and then this cat face just pops up and he was looking at me like

he was saying, let me in, let me in. So I let him in. He went straight to the Amazon box chair. It's funny, out of all the chairs in my house, he could have gone to the sofa, the gaming chair. The fluffy rug. He chooses the Amazon box to sleep on every time.

I wonder why.

I must have made a pretty good chair.

It rained almost all day. It's crazy.

When's it ever not going to rain? That took a nice little video.

It was very relaxing.

Yeah, cats have this weird thing about boxes. I remember when I got the bean bag, it came in that massive box. I used it as a table in the garden, so I put it upside down, made it into a table, but there's a little gap and the cat would keep crawling under the gap to get under the

box

and then just chill out under the box, peeping out from the gap.

You know, I'm thinking about sending the Switch 2 back.

I don't know,

I can't make up my mind because I was playing Rainbow Six today and I thought, this is really nice. I got a big monitor, I got mouse and keyboard,

I've got 60 frames per second.

How is that any worse than— how is the Switch 2 better than that? Why would I play the Switch 2 when I could play on my gaming monitor?

Also, the Switch 2 video trend is dead. It's over. They don't get views anymore. The only chance would be if a new game comes out like a new Pokémon game. It would look like I have more authority to speak on the issue if I have a Switch 2 in my hand. People would believe that I actually played

the game. Although I'm not gonna buy the game.

Yeah, the new Mario Kart is really good. The elimination mode is quite fun.

24 players, make sure you're not the last 4 player before you get to the finish line and you get to survive until the next round, the next checkpoint. It's pretty fun actually. Very chaotic,

very annoying if you get kicked out in the first round because you feel like a noob, but it happens.

Oh look, Amazon guy's here.

Anything for me?

What? I didn't plagiarize tech reviews.

Are you the guy who thinks that I copy and pasted my tech review script? I think I saw your other comment.

Uh, it's not true. I used Copilot to generate the script. Actually, I mean, why would I plagiarize someone's review when I can just generate my own review using AI?

Yeah, I like the new Mario Kart. I haven't tried the open world cuz it doesn't interest me. I want to play competitive online racing. Not drive around a dead, lifeless open world. I don't know why they bothered making an open world. Who wants open world in a Mario Kart game? We just want to race people and compete.

Is there even anything in the open world, like car shops? Maybe go and get your car washed?

What even is the point?

Hmm, you don't leave your house, which makes no sense. No, I like sitting on the beanbag and relaxing and playing some Mario Kart. That's— yeah, I guess I'll keep the Switch too, actually, because that's the one thing you can't do with a gaming setup. PC setup. You can't just relax like this and sit back and play some

Mario Kart. Yeah, I'll probably keep it. I'll wait for the next big game to come out and then I can review that as well.

Pokémon games usually get good views,

although I'm not gonna buy it. And oh, I got my refund from Cyberpunk 2077, so you can buy games on Amazon play it, open it, and then send it back and they refund it. So I don't know what that other person was saying, that you can't refund it if you've opened it. Another load of rubbish.

So I could just buy the game off Amazon, play it, and then return it.

I wonder how many times I can do that before I get banned.

What do you mean try to fix me? What do you need to fix?

Fix what?

Oh wow, thanks, Beth. David CS being a cyberbully in chat. Is he being a cunt?

Introvert from society and lacks real life experience with friends. I had friends when I was at school. I'm a grown man now. The time for having friends. And playing Halo after school and going skateboarding at the park is over. I'm a grown man. Imagine being a grown man and you're like, oh, my friends. I've got bills to

pay, money to make, taxes to pay, got a house to clean, I've got food to cook and prepare. I don't have time messing around with friends like I'm a 12-year-old kid. Mom, can my friend come over after school? Can he stay for dinner? Having friends is gay.

Now imagine being a grown man and you're like, oh, my friends this, my friends that. Lame.

When a man is at my age, his only friends should be

His Excel spreadsheet for recording income and expenditures and his stock market portfolio and protecting and looking out for his family and his woman. Friends are like, don't even come close in the top 5.

I'm busy. I've got stuff to do. I don't have time wasting my life hanging out with friends. Unless you can do something of value for me, like suck me off,

then what's the point?

I mean, there's nothing you can do that I would want. Are you— what, are you gonna give me money to be my friend? Okay. I'll be your friend if you give me money.

I'll only be your friend if you give me money or you suck me off. But I don't want to be sucked off by a guy, that's the thing. So I'd only be friends with a girl. So that'd be friends with benefits, but I don't do that. So I'm only interested in girlfriends.

The girlfriend is like a form of friend, but superior in every way.

Apart from when she nags you. Why don't I do friends with benefits?

Because

I want to— I want to be with a woman who wants me and wants only me and not a bunch of other guys on the side. I want to be her number one.

Priority, and I want to be loved.

So maybe it can start off like friends with benefits, like me and Sunny did, but I want it to move into a direction where it becomes a relationship. Otherwise, what's the point?

Like, if I see a girl and I feel like there's— I don't even want a long-term relationship with her, then I might— I probably won't even be interested in having cereal unless,

unless it's very easy and I don't have to do anything. Like, I don't have to go anywhere or pay any money. And she just gets dropped off at my doorstep in the middle of the night with no expenses for me to

pay. I mean, if she's already here, then you might as well. Yes, but ideally I wouldn't have wanted to get into a situation like that in the first place.

Well, if she said, I'll only be with you, but she's not your girlfriend, isn't that just the same thing? How is that different?

That's basically just the same thing as being a girlfriend, but you're saying I'm not your girlfriend. I'll do all the things that a girlfriend does, but I'm not your girlfriend. Okay, what's the difference then?

And where are the new haters?

They seem like it's all the same person on multiple accounts because they're all very similar insults with bad spelling, like your instead of you're.

Do you think Americans make that mistake more than British people? Because in American English, your and you're is pronounced the same way. They say your for both of those words in the same way. But in British English, it's either your or you're. But I don't see Americans making that distinction. It's like they, they think it's all spelled

Y-O-U-R.

I swear it's Americans who mostly make that mistake.

Yeah, you're and your are pronounced different— differently in British English. There's so many times I get these comments and they're like, you're stupid. Yeah, coming from the guy who doesn't even know how to spell you are.

Imagine thinking your and you're is the same.

The, their, and there. There sounds very different to the and their. There, there is like, eh.

But maybe in American English it's all the same, like their, there, their, there.

I get triggered at the you're thing

because I just don't understand how anyone makes that mistake. It's so easy. It's just you are but shortened. Like, why would you're be you are shortened?

Everything. Yeah, I did. I did used to pronounce TH like an F until I was about 22. It took me a very long time to realize that's not how you pronounce it.

And then I remember just being a teenager and saying thank you all the time. And then one, I remember one time I was watching TV. And I realized, wait, people are sticking their tongues out when they say thank you. And I wondered why I never do that. It took me a very long time to realize.

You have a posh boy accent. I really don't think I sound posh. This is just what words sound like when they're pronounced properly.

It's so funny that some people think I sound posh when I don't.

I mean, Stewie from Family Guy sounds posh. That's posh. I don't sound posh. I don't sound anything like Stewie. Or who else?

I was going to say only Americans think I sound posh, but then Sam Pepper also did have a go at me for sounding posh. English people are weird. I was at the car dealership and I overheard this conversation with the car salesman and they were like debating whether each other sounds posh or not. And they were like,

oh, I don't sound that posh. Like they were trying to not sound posh because people feel like if you sound posh, you're not likable because you're not one of the guys. You come from privilege. So no one wants to be accused of sounding posh and they will try and make themselves sound less posh. It's really weird. I

mean, the guy didn't sound posh at all to me. No one does in Devon, but he sounded like he was getting a bit nervous about being called out for being— being told that he sounded posh. He was like, no, no, no, no, not posh.

Even Connor, CDawgVA, he's always— Chris likes to make fun of him for sounding posh, and then Connor's like, no, I'm not posh.

I wish I sounded posher. If I sounded posh, I would be proud of it. I'd be like, yeah, I do sound posh, so what, peasant?

Did Connor used to have a Welsh accent?

Devon accent is interesting because it sounds kind of southern, but they pronounce certain words like a northerner does. Like instead of last, they'll say last or fast, they'll say fast. It sounds really weird.

I don't like it when people say fast. You know the brown man who does tech videos? What's his name? Mr. Who's the Boss. He's— he sounds very posh and camp, but he pronounces last like last, like he's northern.

He'll say faster, last. I don't like that. It's weird.

I thought he was gay. He seems so gay, his energy, and he's very like full of positive energy like a gay guy, but he's got an Indian wife. I wonder why he didn't get a white girl, like a white British wife. Why do the Indians always stick with their own people? Have you ever seen an Indian guy

not with an Indian woman? I haven't. I've only ever seen one Indian guy on YouTube, Mr. Who's the Boss.

It's like they stick with their own people to please their parents. I reckon Their parents want them to marry another Indian person, so they pressure it and then they feel like, oh, I've got to make my parents happy. Indian people are very— they really like to please their parents, don't they? I think more than any other culture,

the parent pleasing thing is such a big part of it. You know, the whole, oh, I've got to become a doctor or lawyer because my mum and dad told me to.

Plenty of Indian guys don't date Indian women. Okay, name one.

Yeah, exactly, you can't even name one.

I can't— I mean, even Rishi Sunak. Rishi Sunak married an Indian woman. For the money as well, because her dad's a bazillionaire.

Yeah, Rishi Sunak and Mr. Who's the Boss, the only 2 Indian men I can think of,

both married an Indian woman.

I remember in Japanese, the way they pronounce Sunak is like snack. And apparently that made Japanese people laugh because it sounds like snack. Sunaku. It does sound kind of funny.

Like, you know, the snack bars where those girls— it's not sexual, but it's kind of like a sexual bar, but more innocent. You just go and pay for drinks and you get to chat to the girls. I don't think you get BJ though.

What are we talking about?

Oh yeah, accents. I don't know how we went from that to this.

Yeah, I've had many conflicting thoughts today. So first of all, I started looking at videos on my second channel, the old ones where me and Chihiro were just eating food. You know, when I was trying out a bunch of videos just at restaurants and I just put the camera down, it was just us eating. Yeah, I watched

some of those. I felt a bit nostalgic and I thought those were good times. Just being bored in Japan with a wife. Go out and eat, go to a restaurant, film film it, get some YouTube footage, make some silly video.

Didn't have to worry about things like car tax, council tax, debt. Life was so easy. There was something nice about those times that I'm starting to feel like I'm missing it a little bit. You know that feeling of having a girlfriend or wife and you live in a city and there's lots of restaurants and stuff to do,

and then, I don't know, one day you're bored and you say, oh, let's go try out this place. I kind of miss that. I never do that anymore.

And now I'm stuck in a really nice house in a really nice area, very quiet and peaceful and comfortable. But I've got massive debt and I'm— I don't know, like part of me misses the Asia lifestyle in a city, but then I also really like my house.

And I like the quietness and I like the— having a house is really nice.

But having things like a sofa and a table and a beanbag.

And the idea of going from this to horrible guest house again in Japan.

So I either— I would need to be able to stomach life in a guesthouse as someone who's nearly 40, which is sad,

or make more money so I can live in an apartment, which is like $1,500 a month if you're going to book one, or get a new wife to live with. All very, very difficult things to achieve. Easiest one, probably get a new wife.

Although I wouldn't be able to get one as attractive as Chihiro again. It would be a massive downgrade.

I really lucked out with Chihiro, didn't I?

Thailand would be easy. I found places in Thailand for like $500 a month, apartments, condos. But I can only stay there for maybe 2 months. Japan is very expensive. It's like triple the price to get a similar kind of apartment. And I just don't— if I get fed up of it, I won't have a place to come

back to in the UK unless I go back to my mum's house.

It was easy back in the day when I could just come back to my mum's house after

Messing about in Asia for a bit. But now I don't really want to go to my mum's house anymore.

I just— I kind of miss that domestic lifestyle of eating out and doing stuff

And I don't know,

I feel like I'm missing that a little bit here.

I've got this massive paperweight sitting outside costing me money that I'm not even using.

I am thinking about maybe an exit strategy

at some point. I don't know.

But then I'll just start whining, saying, oh, I miss my house. My life in Devon was better.

I just wish Japan wasn't so expensive. So annoying.

Even though the yen is really cheap, you get charged foreign Western prices when you go on the hotel booking sites. Do you think it's cheaper if I pretend I'm Japanese and I use a Japanese app?

It's expensive to get a nice place to stay in Japan.

And I don't want to live in a guesthouse again. I don't want to stay at— even at a hotel is not cheap. At a hotel for a month is nearly $2,000 a month.

South Korea is a bit cheaper, but I don't really like South Korea, to be honest. It feels like a very miserable place.

Imagine I bump into Mina. That would be funny.

Do you think Mina would be like, oh, Daniel, or would she run away and be like, stop stalking me?

Yeah, I felt kind of miserable in Korea last time I went, which was 2020. It's a very lonely, soulless place full of these massive monolithic monolithic, gray, bland, boring buildings that just look like massive Lego blocks stacked one by one next to each other,

with massive roads full of angry drivers honking at each other.

Yeah, Seoul is very soulless. The irony.

Yokohama.

Well, I searched in Saitama and even that was like ¥1,400 for an apartment.

I can't afford that.

I could afford maybe 600 to 1,000. That's my budget. Over 1,000 is— I'd be going back into credit card debt.

Also, trading the markets would be a pain in the backside. I'd have to wait until

10 p.m.

I think I have to wait until 10:00 at night until market opens. And then if I wanted to trade,

like trade the close, it would be

6, 5 or 6 a.m. in the morning in Japan.

So it would suck.

Look, day trading is not a scam

if you can do it right.

The problem is you need extreme patience, which I'm struggling with. I get bored and I just YOLO a trade thinking I might have a chance of making some money.

What I noticed with trading is that there are very obvious times where you should take the trade. Like when Elon Musk was beefing with Trump, it was so obvious to buy the dip. The COVID crash, so obvious. Sometimes it's very obvious times where you should trade. The problem is you get hooked and you want to make more

money. So then you end up trying to take a trade whenever you can every single day, and then you get wrecked looking for a trade when there's not really anything to trade. You got to wait for them to appear, but it takes— sometimes nothing happens and you get so bored, and then you're like, oh, maybe I'll YOLO

this.

I really need to try and control myself. It's like being a hunter waiting in the fields for a deer, and then you've got your gun and it only shoots one shot until you gotta reload it again. And then you're waiting for hours and hours and hours, days even, and there's no deer. So you get bored and you

start like randomly shooting into the bush for fun, and then you end up scaring off any deer in the area. And then you end up going home with nothing. It's basically what trading is like.

It's like, oh, I can't see any deer. I'm just going to randomly shoot into the trees and the bushes. Maybe I'll hit a squirrel

or a rabbit.

That's what it's like.

So if I was in Japan, yeah, I could trade Asia market in the morning and then London market in the afternoon. But the real action is American market.

So I'd be waiting all day. I'd be so bored. And then also, if I had a girlfriend, I'd want to be hanging out with her in the evening, wouldn't I? Not sitting there staring at stocks.

Also, I wouldn't want to be waking up at like 6 or 5 AM in the morning,

so that would be not good.

Damn, why is this David C in the chat hating on me? What'd I ever do to him? Why is he so mad at me?

Get in.

My famous predictions for this year.

Hmm. Probably just endless melt-up and probably no crash until nearing the end of the year. So just buy the dip.

Small caps are lagging.

Probably has more upside. And also buy silver and gold.

All-time new highs on gold might be coming soon. I bet, I bet you anything it's going to have to do with something about Israel. It's going to be like a weird coincidence where the new all-time high of gold Comes in around the time Israel or Iran does something crazy. Isn't it weird how these two things are connected?

Are they still bombing each other?

So when I rebuild my portfolio, I'm going silver.

Russell.

What else?

I don't know.

Why do I have to rebuild? Because I'm going to sell everything in the next few weeks to pay off my credit cards, and then I will start putting money back in each month.

Although I'll be spending months just paying off overdraft. I don't know how long it's going to take, probably a few months until I can start actually getting positive cash flow without going into overdraft. And then I'll be able to start putting a couple hundred here and there back into stocks, which might be around August.

But I think it's just going to be a constant battle with overdraft

because then we've got council tax to pay in November, road tax to pay in October. This car is financially destroying me.

So I don't know where I'm gonna get an extra £900 because I would want that for my stocks, but now I'll pay lump sum of council tax and then road tax.

Yeah, EVs are now no longer road tax exempt. This year,

which sucks.

You're not leaving the country? I don't know. I am tempted. And if something happened, like I got kicked out of my house, I've got a massive decision to make. Do I get a new rental house? Or do I just sell everything and go back to Asia? That's, that's like the thing I'm contemplating. Sell the car, I get

rid of all the furniture, I sell this big monitor,

I fit everything into a backpack,

and then we go back to Asia and then we country hop

for as long as I can until I die.

Or get fed up with it and then come back to the UK and try and find a place to rent again.

So yeah, those are the 2 options: continue renting in the UK or ditch everything, we go back to Thailand. Thailand, Japan, Korea rotation.

But Japan will be tough because it's expensive.

And I kind of hate it there.

Thailand longer term would be nice, like a year visa. Maybe I'll get another student visa, but I really need to rebuild my finances. Otherwise I'm just going to get back into credit card debt.

Well, maybe I add some cheaper countries to my rotation, like—

I don't know. I really don't want to go to Philippines. It looks scary. I've heard people get kidnapped in the jungle. Indonesia, I don't know, looks scary. I don't want to go to these jungle countries.

I feel like the only good ones are Thailand, maybe Malaysia, but I'm a bit scared of Malaysia because it's a Muslim country.

Although it seemed nice in 2022 when I went.

Vietnam. I think you need a visa for Vietnam if you want to stay for more than 2 weeks. You fucking moron. It's obvious you will never leave this vicious circle. Your overdraft is way too deep and you are not making enough money to finance your life. You will be back at your mum's till the end of this

year. Your adult mission has failed. My what mission? No, it's not failing at all. I don't know what you're talking about. I'm gonna be out of credit card debt in 2 weeks. Trust me. My overdraft? I'll probably be in overdraft by like £500.

Israel is probably going to nuke Iran, and then my gold is going to go to the moon, and then my CFD short is going to print, and I'm going to be rich.

You just wait and see. Prove you all wrong.

Maybe I send the Switch back as well to make back £400.

Oh my God, stupid saliva.

Eastern Europe. No, maybe not.

We shall have to see.

Hopefully I can get— pump up the views. You know, I've doubled my revenue on the gaming channel in the last week. I went from making $90 a month on the gaming channel to now $202. That's 100%. That's a 2x gain. Easy money. All I gotta do is pump out like 5 Switch 2 videos every day saying the

same thing over and over again with a different rehashed title. It's so stupid, but it works.

So yeah, I do have some assets. Like, I could probably get £600 to £700 for this monitor. I could probably get £7 to £8K for the car. I've got £1,000 deposit locked up in this house, which I'll get back when I move out. So that's like £10K of assets. I got a sofa and a bed covered in

jizz stains and baby oil. Someone might want that. Who wants my baby oil and jizz-soaked mattress?

And I got a Bobby Brown well-used male 12-inch dildo sex doll.

Anyone want to buy it?

I'll cut off his willy, send it to the highest bidder.

It's got the taste of ass included.

No, I'm definitely getting deposit back. I've actually— I think the house looks better than when I moved in. I cleaned the shower

and I cleaned the drain and I even planted some grass in the garden so it looks less like a shithole. Although it has become a literal cat shithole. All the cats keep coming in and shitting in the garden. The grass has grown quite nicely. I'll show you later when it's not raining.

So yeah, don't know what's gonna happen really.

Sometimes I do miss that Japan married lifestyle.

It's kind of why I went a bit, a bit mental when I was

not stalking Chihiro.

I thought maybe we could have it again, but she wasn't interested.

Do you think she would marry me again?

Oh wow, thanks. You're fucking sociopath motherfucker. Fucking creep. Yeah, it takes one to know one, doesn't it?

OnlyFans dying a bit.

Come on guys, sign up to my OnlyFans. You see me naked and oiled up.

How could you resist that offer? Only $10 a month.

Yeah, so I don't really feel worried, to be honest. I feel like I've got a solid portfolio.

I think it's pretty obvious what the market's going to do.

I guess it all depends on the next 2 weeks.

What do you mean only 3 stocks? I've got the Russell 2000. It's in the name. 2,000. I own shares of 2,000 companies. They work for me.

So yeah, I'm not even worried, to be honest. I'm just going to pump out endless tech videos. If Steam Deck 2 comes out soon, oh my God, easy money.

All I got to do is keep saying the Switch 2 is superior in every single way.

Mm-hmm. Do do do do do. Not even worried. Got it all under control.

And if things get really desperate, I guess I could get a job or do bee livery. I turned off notifications on Beelivery because it was getting annoying. There's one available now,

um, paying £27.

You gotta deliver one Budweiser, one Times Budweiser 20x 300ml bottles to,

um, Bood

Bude. It's about 40 minutes driveway. £27? It would take me 2 hours to do that. It's like £13 an hour.

Easy money.

Just go Tesco, pick up some beers, drop off at this house. Maybe he's having a party and he will let me join.

Ooh, the house looks fancy. It's down a little lane

near the coast

in Kilkhamperton.

They want £25K a year for private school. What a scam.

Education is such a scam. They get you to— you get into massive student debt, like $60K to get some worthless piece of paper that doesn't even teach you how to make money.

And then you start paying off the student debt, student loan for decades, even after you get a job and you're not even guaranteed a job. Like you could go to school, get the degree or whatever, And then your industry is now overrun by AI and you can't— or maybe you don't even want the job anymore. Like, what

if you're really into computer science and then you get the degree and then 5 years later you hate computers?

Just put the money in stocks

and then go travel Japan.

And live off the dividends.

Yeah, that's why I never went to university. I didn't want to get in student debt and there was nothing I wanted to study and I hate going to school and I would have just gotten bullied and become miserable. And then even if I got the degree, it doesn't mean I'm going to get a job in the thing

that I studied, even if, even if I passed the exam, which is very unlikely.

I don't have the willpower to stick to things, which is why I don't like putting in heavy investment into something, because I know I'm not going to stick to it and I'll just get bored and give up. Happens every time.

Name one thing I've stuck to that's taken a long time, that requires effort and required some kind of initial investment to get started.

YouTube. YouTube doesn't require any investments, guys. All you need is your phone and then press upload.

Yeah, I have stuck with Barrick Gold for 3 years, which is— I would say that takes a lot of discipline

to not sell it all and jump into something more volatile like Facebook or Tesla.

Stuck to clickbaiting. Well, it doesn't require any effort. If it doesn't require any effort, then obviously it's easy to stick to.

I'm saying taking a course or paying money to get into a course is risky because you might end up quitting or getting bored and then not getting a job in the field anyway. So then you just wasted all your time and money. What I like, I like to be able to get in and out with

little pain,

which is why I'm a bit Because, you know, to dismantle my current life would be quite a pain in the backside. I have to list my furniture on a marketplace and get rid of it. I might even have to just give it away for free because I don't know how to dispose of a sofa or a bed.

I'd like cut it into tiny pieces and set it on fire maybe. And then I got to sell my car and then take photos and list it. What else? It'll be so annoying to dismantle my current life.

I gotta take photos, I gotta put everything on Facebook Marketplace, I gotta sell the monitor.

I'd sell it to carwow.com.

They seem pretty good. They also Say they come and pick up the car. They'll collect it.

Are we still anticipating a visit from Moon? I think so, although we haven't talked much recently. We talked this morning.

But she has been getting very triggered recently by viewers and stuff.

Yeah, I did enter my reg. They estimated about £8,000 in

not good condition, but wear and tear kind of condition. Worn and torn.

I said

fighting with the trolls is a waste of time and energy because they're probably just trolling. But she didn't listen and she went on the Discord and started fighting everyone. I don't really know how— what to advise.

Mm, I don't know really.

I like to rage. So yeah, I get triggered sometimes, but then I think it's funny to rage at the

stream and it's also something to talk about. Otherwise I'll just sit here not knowing what to say.

Was the Switch worth it? Hmm, hard to say. I've made maybe $100.

Might be more. I have to add it up. I reckon I made maybe $150. And there's also gonna be new games coming out that I could cover, like some Pokémon game, Donkey Kong, but I'm not gonna buy them. I'm just gonna pretend I bought them.

To be honest, I didn't think Moon was still around because we talked in 2020 and she really wanted to come to Korea to see me, but I said no,

uh, which was good to be honest because COVID happened and then I left anyway. So I wouldn't really have wanted to be stuck in Korea when COVID was beginning.

But then we didn't really talk after that until we talked a little bit a couple of years ago, but nothing. We didn't talk about meeting.

I didn't realize she was interested until like a month ago. Has it been a month or a couple of weeks?

It's 7 o'clock. I'm gonna eat leftover sausages. I might make mashed potato with butter and garlic, but I don't have any black pepper.

Dun dun dun dun dun dun. I didn't make any main channel videos. I've kind of lost motivation because they all flopped.

They all just got about 4K views each. Every single one. Before I made the Switch 2 videos, I pumped out a bunch like why I hated my Japanese wife.

The highest one was why I slept with my viewer. They only got 5K views. I can't even get 10K views anymore. It's crazy.

I was getting 10K views,

um, around April. I guess the Turkey Tom stuff was still fresh. The Turkey Tom people have mostly gone now,

and a lot of my original audience have also gone. So now I'm down to only getting about 4K views,

and the Switch 2 video is all flopping now. So yeah, I don't really know what to do. Back to my life is ruined kind of videos.

At least that gets more CPM.

I'm focusing on spamming videos out on the gaming channel more, so I can just spam out 6 and it's like, whatever, don't really care.

Unfortunately, I'm gonna have to do something drastic to get people to come back, like move to another country and get a new girl. There's not really anything else I can do here.

This stone has been milked.

Sunny has been milked. Good day.

Maybe I can milk Chihiro more.

The problem with tech reviews is there's not enough tech coming out and it's expensive to buy.

When's the next big tech coming out?

iPhone 17, Steam Deck 2.

It comes out very slowly

and they don't trend for very long. They trend for maybe a week or two and then it's dead again.

You notice some tech channels like The Tech Chap, he's got over a million views. Some— when nothing's trending, he barely gets any views. He gets like 30k views on a 1 million sub channel. That's crazy.

A lot of these tech channels, um, live or die on what's trending. So I need some like MrWhoseTheBoss and Marques Brownlee get millions of views every upload.

There's so many tech channels, it's just oversaturated, and most of them only get views when something's trending.

And I think their revenue must tank when nothing's trending because the views look really bad. Like Tim Schofield, nearly a million subs,

he'll just start randomly opening I don't know, some Sony TV and barely get any views.

There's so many of these like white, nerdy American middle-aged men with tech channels and they got long hair and they're like Nintendo guys and they've got that soy boy face.

And they all have the same editing and like the same persona.

They all sound the same as well,

and they're all kind of fat or chubby.

It's like a very middle-aged American dad kind of thing to do, isn't it? Have a tech channel.

They're all like clones of each other.

And they just, I don't know, they say the most boring stuff ever, like check your updates for the new update, get the latest USB cable.

They never say anything interesting or useful.

Yeah, ETA Prime, Gameranx, Wolf Den, Everyday Dad. There's this other guy who looks like he's in a metal band.

I watched one of his recently.

Yeah, because I searched for Steam Deck 2 to see if that was coming out soon, and there's a bunch of people clickbaiting with the Lenovo Go S. Saying, oh, this is the— what's his name? Yeah, this guy, Beat 'Em Ups. He's got really long hair

like he's from a metal band.

They all sound the same, look the same, have the same editing, and they've got like really colorful backgrounds, sort of neon lights and gaming stuff.

And Lenovo Go S does look kind of cool actually.

And then you got the, the top dog, Linus. Linus.

And oh yeah, Austin Evans. That guy talks in such an annoying way.

Can I go over to Josie's house to play? Can I go over to Josie's house to play? It has finally arrived, the Steam Deck Killer! Well, we'll find out. So this is the Legion Go S Steam Edition. Lenovo and Valve were very gracious and sent me— I don't know why tech— American tech YouTubers' voices are really irritating

me recently. It just sounds like, hey guys, shut up. Oh my God, it's so fucking annoying.

I'm getting more and more triggered at the American accent recently. It's just so annoying to listen to. They, they sound— oh, I watch Evan Austin's podcast thing where he does it with this fat white guy who sounds like Eric Cartman from South Park.

He sounds like all lispy and, uh, I wonder if I can find it again. His channel is called This Is. This is a stupid channel name.

Listen to this guy.

Where is it?

Why did he name his channel such a stupid— This Is— How am I supposed to find it? This Is Tech Channel.

I can't find it. There's the worst channel name ever. The 2 randomly— the most used words in the English language ever.

Oh, there is. Yeah, listen to this guy. I'm gonna throw you.

Pretty solid. You want that? But if you're trying to convince me, okay, as always with HD Rumble or amiibo support Or any of these other things, but I was legitimate. Door some of the years. This feels exactly the same to me. You were wrong. Like I will tell you, you were wrong. This feels like what I remember

a switch being like. I would say he sounds like Eric Cartman from South Park. I can't stand that guy.

It's a lot closer to the OLED than it is the old L. Almost never play without it being plugged in. It does seem like it's a downgrade though. He's so fat. Can't he go to the gym? Jesus Christ. I don't know how people get so fat and not do anything about it.

They sound normal. No, he sounds like a cartoon character. And then Austin, he sounds like Kermit the Frog.

And this other guy, listen to this guy,

listen to this guy. Oh, he sounds so annoying. With virgin meat. That's mad. He also does all this cringe skits. Stuff in his tech review. That peeved me a little bit. Also, the guy yelled at me when I tried to pick up Pro Controller, but I got a Pro Controller. But they did not forget the coin Best

Buys were giving away. It's because everything's got to be complicated. You know, when I get a new Steam Deck or a Steam— he doesn't sound that annoying in this one. It's the game, and games are gonna play. Now coming out of it, it looks like things are going to play pretty— he looks like a 40-year-old middle-aged man

going out buying stupid Nintendo gaming products like a loser. It's kind of sad.

Bunch of middle-aged 45-year-old American guys

obsessing over the new Switch 2 Pro Controller or whatever. Oh no, the new Mario game. It's so pathetic.

You literally did that. As if I care. I'm just doing it for views.

These people seem like they actually care.

Imagine caring.

You'll never catch me caring about anything. That's one thing for sure.

My life motto: never care and never put any, any effort. And also never follow instructions and do everything wrong.

That's my life advice.

Yeah, I've been watching these videos because I've been trying to find stuff to copy, and I had to endure all these stupid nerdy American guys. With the Kermit the Frog voices.

Gameranx is really annoying as well

with his stuttering. It's like fake stuttering to sound funny.

Yeah, I hate that ProZD guy as well.

Stupid nerd playing Dragons and Dungeons and watching anime.

Oh God, what is wrong with people these days?

Everyone's just a bunch of manchilds.

It's a sad time to live.

Living. I'm hungry.

Yeah, I'm jealous. I wish I could just make stupid videos about, I don't know, whatever gaming device and get bazillion views. All I get is stupid 5K, 10K views at most.

These people get hundreds of thousands of views plus sponsorships. They get sent the stuff for free. They don't have to buy it. They get it, they get it for free, and then they review it and they send it back

and they get a bazillion views.

Stupid toothpick. Why does it keep falling on the floor?

You wish you had a passion. I have a passion for hate. I am a hater.

I love— I make money hating on stuff.

Yeah, I do kind of like how I make most of my money by shitting on things with my do not buy stuff.

I'm like, do not buy this piece of rubbish, it's stupid. And then I get a bazillion views.

I am the anti-salesman.

But yeah, I do like my Switch too though. I just wish there was something else on it that I wanted to play.

But I don't know what, because I don't really play anything, to be honest.

The stream's only getting 2K views now. I wonder if we ever drop below just 1K views.

We're getting 2.5 to 3K views every stream,

some only just about 2K.

So every day that's

That's what, 90,000 views a month?

Hmm,

I've got to find more videos to make, more topics to make videos about.

What's trending now?

Switch 2's dead already.

I got some views off that new Xbox handheld console. I got nearly 10K.

Might make food now.

Oh, I hate Saturday. At least Sunday you got Asia Market opening.

Okay.

What's that noise?

Shut up.

Testing, testing. Where's the camera?

The mystery box, don't I go? Smashed it.

Where's the camera? Oh, it's loose where the camera is. Oh, there it is.

The Saturday stream's always the most dead. It definitely is the weekend effect, isn't it?

That's why I hate the weekend.

Damn, I look good in some of these thumbnails. Like, this one's pretty good.

Where's that other channel that made a video about me?

I hope that's me in, uh, 15 years. I'm 51, no spouse, no kids, no home. Could at least shave the beard, you'd look a lot better.

Yeah, where's that guy?

I can't even find his channel.

Oh yeah, he didn't, he didn't put Hiding in My Room in the title. He put, I dismantled the most disgusting

YouTube channel.

Yeah, there it is. Dismantling YouTube's most disgusting channel. What? It's only got 13K views at the moment, but I'm hoping it'll get a couple hundred thousand.

I'm better than you because I don't use a condom. Imagine taking that video seriously. You'd have to be seriously stupid to think I'm actually being serious. It was such a troll video. I don't know if you remember it. I made it after my dad died in my bedroom. It was called Why I'm a Better Person Than You.

I say I don't drive, so I'm not making pollution, and I don't use condoms, so I'm not causing plastic pollution. Come on, it's so obviously a troll. How do you not—

how do you take it seriously?

The funny thing is, in the video I was like, I'm never going to drive, I'm never going to get a car, and now I've got a car, but it's an EV. It's like I'm saving the planet.

I think they want to believe it's real so they can get all mad at it, and that makes, that makes for a better video than, oh, he's just trolling. Because if you just say, oh, he's just trolling, then you can't make a video about being outraged at me, and then you won't get your views.

So either they're really dumb and they think I'm actually being serious, or they are just playing along because that's going to get more views.

Oh wow, thanks. Today I went to the hospital because I had a lump on my cheek. The doctor told me it's only my jawline, but I should have my brain checked out. This was very unexpected. Why don't you have your ass checked out? With my dick. Yeah, imagine thinking that the masticating jaw muscle is a lump. Yeah,

it's a lump of muscle that I masticate with.

I need to see the doctor. Mr. Doctor, I've got a lump in my face when I chew.

Is it cancer? Yeah, once I got checked out at the hospital because I found a lump on my throat, and they put the lube on me. They like lubed me up for the, for the CAT scan. They did a CAT scan like a pregnant woman does, and it turns out it was just a lymph node. They wanted

me to take my shirt off. I said no. Imagine like stripping in front of a bunch of doctors as they lube you up and scan you like you're pregnant. I felt like a woman, like I was getting scanned

to see if I've got a baby in my throat, and they'll be like, congratulations, it's a boy.

Felt really weird,

and it was just a lymph node, and I went and got it checked out for nothing. Stupid.

Not a CAT scan. Well, what's the scan called? Ultrasound. Yeah, ultrasound scan. They put the gel on me and then they rubbed the scanner over it. It felt embarrassing.

What is a CAT scan?

Now people are saying my lump on my ball is cancer or something.

Not everything is cancer, you know.

Sausage and mash.

Maybe cabbage. Should start finishing the cabbage. Look at the sausages,

beautiful.

Oh, there's flies everywhere. Not houseflies, but these weird long-wing flies with legs.

So I'm gonna make boiled potatoes today.

So that could take a while.

Moon's been a bit absent recently. I feel a shift.

I feel a change in the Force.

Better not be because of Crypt. If Crypt chased off Tate and she chases off Moon as well, I'm gonna be pissed. Getting sick and tired of it.

How's that noise?

Shut up! Oh my God, keeps making me jump.

Yeah, so I'm gonna make mashed potatoes with a sausage.

And cabbage.

Hope you like it.

Quick, the water's boiling.

嗯。

Comments don't update because no one's fucking talking.

You all asleep or something?

Boringest live chat ever.

Bunch of zombies.

What video was annoying? The Ray of Sunshine guy. Yeah, he was very preachy, wasn't he?

But Daniel, you do realize

most people do those things and still have friends.

Okay, whatever.

The thing that annoyed me most was him saying that I won't be able to make money trading because, oh, he also trades and he thinks I don't have the discipline. I'll show him.

Yep, we got sausages every day.

I think I can make my food last probably another 10 days. I've got 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10 sausages. I have 2 sausages a day, that's 5 days. Plus I've got 5 pork bellies that I haven't even touched yet. That could last me a week, so I think maybe 10 days of food left, which would

get us to the end of June quite nicely.

And then I might not have to go food shopping again until the beginning of July, which would be pretty good.

Now we're going to boil potatoes for half an hour. Potatoes are annoying because they take so long to cook.

But Daniel, you could cook them earlier

in advance. Yeah, it doesn't take away the fact that they take forever to cook.

Everyone thinks they're so smart with their but this and but that.

Okay, I

guess we just watch the potatoes boil now. I haven't had mashed potato in a while.

Why men can't be friends with women. That's usually a good one since we're on the friendship theme.

I don't think I've done that before either. Why men and women cannot be friends, and then I'll just say a bunch of stupid stuff like If I'm hanging out with a girl, then obviously I'm gonna think about banging her.

Otherwise, what's the point? Blah blah blah.

Yeah, I'll probably do that tomorrow. Five minute stupid rant and five minute cooking. Bada bing, bada bong. Easy money.

I'll say maybe women think men and women can be friends, but men do not believe that,

and they're only going to be your friend if they want something else.

Yeah, I'll just say a bunch of stupid stuff like that.

I can't believe this.

Oh, this is boring today, isn't it? No one's even chatting. I don't even know what to talk about.

Do you think Moon ghosted you? No, we talked today. I didn't really say much apart from good morning.

It says she was last seen 9 hours ago, so maybe she's busy.

Why did I unmod Crypts? I never modded her in the first place. What do you mean

you don't put any effort into your streams? What effort? What do you want me to do, do a backflip in the kitchen?

I'm just a normal guy living a normal life, boiling potatoes. What did you think was gonna happen?

Still raw.

See, exactly what I was doing in Japan. Wasn't boring then, was it?

Hmm, when have I ever put effort into streams? I guess when I did the walking and biking.

That's kind of like effort.

It's not creative effort; it's more like making myself suffer effort.

What about walking to Wales livestream?

Sounds so fun.

I saw this clip of Jeremy Clarkson. He was at a pub and they were talking about roast carberries costing £25. He was saying, oh, this carberry is really good value, only £25. Some charge £40. £25 for a stupid roast dinner. Jesus Christ, I could make the same meal for £1.

You get some potatoes, get some meat, gravy, carrots, broccoli. £25 for that? Oh my God, these people are insane. People who eat out are insane. For such a basic meal like a roast, Sunday roast, you're gonna pay £25 for Sunday roast.

And then people wonder why they're broke. So they go— they're not Jeremy Clarkson, they go out and they spend £40 per person on a Sunday roast. So it's a family, so you just put down £200 for a fucking Sunday roast.

You could have bought

two months of groceries.

You could fight. Oh my God! It's like it wants to die, flying around my foot.

I get so triggered hearing how people spend, I don't know, twenty pounds, fifteen pounds. On a meal, you're insane. The bag of potatoes cost a pound. A whole bag of potatoes. Not one, not two. A whole bag of potatoes cost a pound.

Eating out is probably the biggest scam that people fall for. Because they're too lazy to cook, or they think they can't cook.

I think people's biggest, um,

stupid usage of money is probably eating out. Also, they get hooked on it, don't they?

Spent £40 on a meal today. Jesus. I spent £40 on my whole month groceries so far, and it's lasted me weeks.

Yeah, I like eating out too, it's just so expensive compared to just cooking at home.

Last time I ate out was my birthday. Sunny paid for it, so I didn't really care. Sunny took me to a tapas restaurant and we had a big meal. Lots of little dishes came out, like steak, satay chicken, pulled pork. It was pretty good. I felt like a girl. She, she drove us to the restaurant, she booked

it, paid for it. I felt like I was a woman. Good thing I— we broke up after my birthday. Got a free meal. It cost £80. It was an £80 dinner

and I didn't pay for a thing.

I'm just glad we broke up before her birthday came around, because if I paid for like £200 meal or something and then she dumps me, I'd be pissed.

I'd be so pissed. Always make sure you break up before her birthday and after your birthday. Some pro tips.

Are these potatoes gonna take ages to boil?

Yeah, it's quite nice, I guess.

At the restaurant,

my favorite is probably fish and chips takeaway and Chinese takeaway. I prefer that more than being at the restaurant.

Uh, yakiniku restaurant's always good, but it's so expensive.

In Thailand, it's so cheap. Everyone just eats out all the time. Get a pad thai, pad a pound for like 50 pence. You get a whole meal. It was about 70 baht, maybe 60 baht, which is not even a pound, I think.

But if you go to a Japanese restaurant or Western restaurant, you pay maybe 10, 15 pounds for the meal. It's not cheap.

Do miss yakiniku.

Potato's getting soft.

It's a shame it's really hard to make yakiniku at home if you don't have the right cuts of meat, and even if you have the meat, you can't really get that smoky flavor unless you've got a charcoal barbecue grill.

So bright outside. Oh, the cat's out there. The black cat.

Mr. Meow Meow, what you doing?

What am I having with the potatoes? I'm gonna have sausages.

Oh, might fry some onions.

Make the meow meow.

Mushisareta ignored. Yeah, screw you too.

Tom Scott is back. Oh wow, what a surprise. These stupid YouTubers make a big announcement saying they're quitting, and then a year later, oh look, I'm back, guys. Yeah, I need money. It's like Bald and Bankrupt. Didn't he quit YouTube and then he's back again? How I've made like ten different I'm quitting YouTube videos. It really gets

people to come back for some reason. I'm guys, I'm quitting YouTube because my channel's dead, and then everyone comes back, and then you're like, oh wow! Since you're back, I guess I won't quit then. Idiot.

They got chopped some onions.

Onions and cabbage— very British.

2

or 3?

Might just have 2. We got a ration of sausages, starting to run out of

food. Ration the sausages.

Tom Scott, he's like one of those old school BBC, um, Blue Peter presenters. He's He's got the Blue Peter vibe.

He's been on YouTube forever. He's like one of the OGs,

and he just nerds out about the most random things.

I wish I could do that. I find everything boring.

I feel like Tech Lead peaked when he did the crypto scam and he was on Coffeezilla. After that, he kind of—

numbers went down. Didn't they? The gimmick got old.

I could never watch his videos because they were so boring. They just ramble on and on and on. I didn't find it funny. The whole, I'm the tech lead, I'm the greatest coder, yippee, and I'm rich, blah blah blah blah blah.

But he'll get really technical about blockchain and all this stuff, and I'll just fall asleep.

And then he did the whole, uh, his Japanese wife divorced him or something. He was looking for his kid. I don't know if that was real. The whole thing could just be fake. And then he had that moving into his parents' home to save money thing. He had a lot of arcs. He messaged me on Twitter ages

ago when my channel was blowing up, but I never replied.

Also, TerryTV messaged me as well back in the day, but I never replied. TerryTV has never come back, has he?

Maybe he died.

He just disappeared without a saying anything. I bet his channel got demonetized or something, and then he was like, fuck this. Because why would you give up a 2 million sub channel that was getting views still?

If my channel got demonetized, I'd be like, fuck this, I'm going. See ya. I might try and rebuild somewhere else, but it won't work, would it?

I might try go to Kick if I got banned or something on YouTube. I'm afraid I just gotta give up.

It's really hard after you've peaked and you've gone through your viral phase.

Some people still, you know, they keep at it like sandpaper.

No one knows why TerryTV left. He didn't say anything. No tweets, no social media posts, nothing. He just ditched his whole audience without anything, without a goodbye.

Maybe he got a job, like a real job. A lot of YouTubers get bored of doing YouTube and just get a real job and then disappear.

I nearly did that when I got the Amazon Flex job. You know, my YouTube income dropped down to maybe $400 a month when I was doing Amazon Flex because I just gave up on YouTube. Got bored of it. Amazon was easier, made more money, it was new, felt more interesting.

But here we are again, back on YouTube.

A tech lead reached out to me to warn me that my real name was on my Twitter handle, but I think that was before I doxxed myself, because I remember trying to keep my last name a secret because I was scared of getting doxxed, but the trolls found it somehow.

I haven't used this yet. The chicken broth ramen broth or the miso ramen broth. I don't think I've got ramen noodles.

Oh, I forgot about this. The mayo. Mayo.

Mangyao, makao.

Da da da da da da da da. Finished. Let me taste it.

Boiling potatoes, my new hobby. It's disintegrating. Probably cooked then.

Boiled potato definitely tastes different to air fried potato.

It tastes more wet,

or wetter would be correct grammar. Where's my tongue?

My tongs. We're gonna make mashed potatoes. Case.

I'm actually quite excited for mashed potatoes. It's been a while.

Oh wait, I forgot to start cooking the sausages, and I haven't cooked the onions. What am I doing? Oh my god, daydreaming.

Gordon Ramsay would be yelling at me.

Are you fucking stupid?

You only do one thing at the same fucking time.

Okay, save the mush. We make the mush.

Where's the butter?

They think we don't eat butter in the West Country, but what do they know?

They think we don't use washed Movies on TV

in the West Country.

Oh, you're missing the mash. I put butter, like garlic powder. Where's my salt?

There we go.

Salt, parsley,

and now I wish I had a potato masher.

Wow, the butter's not melting.

You

might need more pasta tonight. Onions are burning.

I wonder if I need more butter. Put the whole thing in there.

Give

it a taste.

Quite good. Needs more salt.

Mm, mm, pretty good. Little bit dry. Maybe more butter,

more butter, and

I think this

is gonna be good. I might have a beer. Well,

maybe a month. Hmm, it's

crazy.

Creamy, garlicky, and potatoey. Too good. Straight on top.

Look, cheap rubbish Chinese product, it's already falling apart.

There's the mashed potato, looking pretty good.

I got the sausage.

Shame you don't have any gravy. I should buy some beef stock.

Simple, delicious, hearty meal. Perfect for those cold winter days.

Really wish I had some gravy though.

This is my life.

Never-ending boredom and misery.

Yeah, this would be like £25 at Jeremy Clarkson's diddly squat pub, and he'd be like, oh, this is bloody good value for money.

Locally sourced pork from our locally sourced pigs from diddly squat farm with our locally sourced potatoes. And locally sourced onions.

Oh shit, that

is mashed potato right there.

Oh, oh damn.

Oh,

I don't have a bottle opener.

Oh,

that's pretty good.

Oh, oh,

you're probably the best meal I've ever made.

Just need some gravy.

I've seen people on Instagram

open beer bottles by tapping it with a knife. How do they do

that? They go— it doesn't work. That's a scam. I've seen it on, on Instagram. They

go and then it comes off. So that's just clickbait.

That does not work.

Oh, I did it! I'm a genius.

Hmm, pretty good.

Banks's Bitter.

Good,

good. Hot.

Oh yeah.

Getting

kind of

full.

Uh-huh.

Oh.

Good.

Oh God.

Oh God.

啊，啊，啊哈哈哈哈。

うんうん。あとは、あはは。

Oh.

Oh yeah.

Ah, finished. That was hard.

Oh my God.

Oh God,

seems

like one sausage is my limit.

2 sausages, I feel sick.

Okay.

Oh God, that was hard.

It started off tasting really good, and then after the first sausage, felt sick. Jesus Christ, I thought I was never gonna finish that.

Now we get to wash everything up.

Oh, you know my favorite part of the day? Is when I finish the fucking dinner and it's over and done with.

Hardest part of the day— I've said this before to my dad— the hardest part of my day is having to get all that food in my stomach.

Right.

嗯。

We have some serious things to discuss.

Number 1, I'm not very happy. Number 2, I'm very bored.

Number 3,

I don't know what to do with my life.

Number 4, I'm cold.

From banning people, uh, I recently unbanned everyone, so I don't know what you're talking about.

Yeah, I've been feeling a bit down recently.

I feel like maybe I've been getting more depressed since I lost my job.

Maybe the job was a good thing.

And I've been feeling bad about Foster a lot again recently.

Out of all the pain, I think Faster is at the top.

I don't know why.

I think it's because, like with every other relationship, they dumped me.

And I was like, fuck you for dumping me, I hate you. But with Fasta, I think it was one of the only times where I dumped her and she like begged me not to dump her,

which is why it hurts more, I guess.

I don't know why she wanted to be with me so much. I wasn't even a good boyfriend. I'm not rich.

I wasn't even fun to be with. I just whined all the time.

It's all Sunny's fault.

Sunny made me dump her,

otherwise I wouldn't have dumped her. Probably the words still haunt me.

Please don't destroy our relationship for Sunny.

Those words haunt me.

Because I knew what was going to happen. I knew I was going to destroy it.

Yeah, she said it, and I handled it so badly. Like, I didn't— I didn't just— I didn't just tell her straight up. Sorry, but I'm interested in Sunny.

I just kind of faded her off. And then she tried phoning me, but I didn't pick up. So she phoned my mum, and then I could hear my mum on the phone talking to Fasta,

telling her that I'm not worth it, forget about me.

At the time I didn't care because I was excited to see Sunny again,

but now Sunny's gone, it's like I'm slowly realizing what I did was really shitty.

And then I kept imagining Faster, like, all alone in our condo, crying.

It's so fucking annoying. Like, your, your heart or your mind wants to do the right thing, and then your stupid penis wants to do the thing that feels good, and then the 2 things come into conflict.

You know, I could have made Vasta really happy. It wouldn't even be hard to show a bit of love, bit of care.

I could have made her really happy, you know.

I had that power within me.

I remember when—

I remember when I was in Japan and I just got back to the guest house after the police took me to the police station.

Fasta was blowing up my phone because I wasn't responding,

so I finally get back to the guest house And I tell her what happened.

I told her the police took me away. We talked on the phone

and I just started crying on the phone about,

you know, stalking Chihiro, and then the police came.

Faster said I had to move on, like forget about Chihiro,

accept that she's in the past, not part of my life now. But Faster was in my life now, so I had to focus on her.

And then Faster said

Right now you're crying over your ex-wife, but in the future, if we break up, you're gonna be crying about me.

At the time I thought, yeah, right, whatever. And then it literally happened.

I felt so depressed in Japan, being in that same place where I was when I was married.

I feel like I've got so much relationship baggage now.

Sometimes I get sad about Chihiro and the marriage, and then recently I've been getting sad about Fasta.

Sometimes I, I mimic her voice out loud.

Because it— I don't know, it brings me a weird comfort.

Well, I mimic the stuff she used to say.

Sometimes I wish I never met Sunny. To be honest,

it's brought a lot of pain and suffering.

And now I don't know what to do.

I'm scared if I go back to Thailand, I'll go all crazy again like I did when I was in Japan, you know, with the reminiscing and then getting all depressed,

maybe kind of hoping. There's like this weird feeling of hope that maybe— like with Chihiro, I thought, God, wouldn't it be nice if we could just hang out? And I don't know, maybe it would feel like how it felt in 2018 again,

because right now is so shit. I miss the old days.

Right now it's just so empty and meaningless.

I feel like maybe I do need to just start a new life.

I don't know how I feel about this life.

Sometimes I feel like I should just sell everything and Pack everything into a backpack.

Start over.

The only thing keeping me here was the job, and then I lost the job too.

Oh, thank you. Is life worth living? Do the pleas outweigh the pain?

Sometimes it feels like there's too much pain.

Sometimes I feel like maybe I should get a job, get out of the house, make a bit more money, new things to talk about.

I feel like I'm rotting stuck in here every day.

It's not good for my mental health, is it?

Because the more I just sit around doing nothing, the more I look back at the past and miss it.

But then when I was in the present at that time, I wasn't Really happy.

Yeah, I keep remembering these weird little anecdotes. I remember we were in Bangkok Central and there was like, there's like a random pop-up live concert in the road, you know, outside of Central World. You know, they got that big, the big road with like 10 lanes, they shut it all off and they put a stage and they

had some kind of,

I think, K-pop or like K-pop and then also a Thai group singing live music and all these crowds of people standing around. And we walked through it and we stood around for a bit to watch it.

Fasta bought a tea, like bubble tea, in a plastic cup and she put it in her handbag And then

maybe she bumped into someone, but it got squished in the handbag and all the tea exploded in her handbag. And she was like squatting on the floor taking all the stuff out the handbag, like her makeup and phone and comb. And so it was all covered in chai tea, like there's chai tea everywhere. And I was just

standing there rolling my eyes going Oh my God,

why would you put the tea in your handbag?

Everything was soaked in tea, and I'm just standing there watching her trying to soak it all up with her cardigan.

So I walk off, I go into the shopping mall because we were standing outside of the entrance, and I just— I find like a food vendor and I just asked for a bunch of tissues. And then they gave me a load of tissues,

and then I give them to Fasta, and she's like mopping up all the tea.

She was so clumsy, the clumsiest girl I've ever been with.

I remember it just annoyed me all the time. Do you wish you were never born? Isn't life endless pain? No, I don't wish that, because you know there's times of pleasure and happiness in between the sadness. It's like the stock market. It goes up and then it goes down and then it goes up again.

I feel like when it goes down, it's your time to reflect and have a look at what went wrong, how you could do better.

I had a lot of good memories, um, with Vasta, like long-lasting impactful memories. I

was with her for 2 years.

Actually, I think I was with her longer than I was with Chihiro.

I really thought for sure when I was with Vasta that this cheating thing wouldn't happen because my channel died and, you know, I showed everyone that I'm a scumbag. Thought there would be no girls interested.

I thought I wouldn't really have to worry about that.

I even bragged about it.

And then the final trip in Japan with Vasta.

Oh God, I still remember the last night, the last day,

giving her that last hug at the door.

My plane was in the morning, hers was in the evening, so I left her in the apartment to finish the checkout, and then she had some hours to kill.

We watched this Korean drama on the TV in the apartment. It was kind of like a Squid Game wannabe show. A bunch of contestants need money, they join some game show, they start killing each other, blah blah blah.

Ask her for forgiveness. Well, she would,

she would forgive me because she's a Buddhist and she's not a hateful person,

but it's not really— it's not really what's gonna help me, is it? Nothing is gonna help me, really.

I mean, I don't even— wouldn't even— don't even think I would want to get back together

because at this point everything's like completely fucked up.

I don't know, just

I miss parts of it, like going to Chatuchak Park and then buying the fish,

getting noodle soup, and then explosive diarrhea. I remember getting all excited when Ice Poseidon arrived in Thailand. I was watching every stream.

I was like, oh wow, Ice is in the place we were at last week.

Ice hated Thailand.

I remember when they did the rooftop dinner on— I can't remember where it was. He went to some fancy restaurant on the roof of a skyscraper. And then he had Kim there, and then the thunderstorm started to come in. And I remember going to Central World with Faster whilst watching the stream, and I could see the rain

clouds rolling in, thinking, uh-oh, they're going to get soaked. It was cool to be nearby.

I liked how she believed in me.

Like, she kept saying, I know you're a good person. Deep down,

it was nice to have someone actually root for me.

Everyone always thinks I'm like this evil scumbag monster.

I remember once being a good person

until the corruption took hold of me.

I used to be good,

and then somehow this evil seed was planted.

YouTube made it worse, to be honest.

Everyone loved me at the guest house.

I was fresh, like a new character, like a fresh new character in the world. I had no skeletons in my closet. I had no dark history. Just turned 20, I was out in Japan. First, first time out as a young adult experiencing the world and relationships and women. And, you know, first time away from my parents.

Everyone loved me.

They thought I was cool. They said my Japanese was good,

but I got greedy for things like money and sex. I made decisions to get those 2 things, even if it meant destroying drawing people along the way.

It seemed like those 2 things were all that mattered— money and sex,

the 2 greatest evils in the world.

Sometimes I wish I could get good at something and teach people. You know, people always saying stuff like, oh, day trader YouTubers are just scammers. If they're so good at it, why don't they just day trade? Why are they making YouTube content? Sometimes I feel like, how good would it feel if you could get good at something

and then help other people, like teach them how to do it as well?

Maybe that's what they want as well.

I wish I could get good at trading and be like, guys, let's just do this.

Trust me.

Do you think you'd enjoy teaching others?

I mean, I won't hate it. I've never hated helping people.

As long as it doesn't cost me anything.

Like, if it costs me nothing and I can help someone, yeah, why not?

I don't know what to do with my life.

Like, I wish I could do something cool.

And then people feel inspired by it somehow,

or they want to know how to do it.

But I want the results without putting the work in. That's the problem.

27 hours until market session. I mean, Asian market.

Faster used

to love hotel buffets. I remember she was showing me this buffet. She looked really excited and she wanted to go, and I was like, ah, but it's gonna be 10,000 baht and the food is all just gonna be shrimp and crab,

and I don't even eat much anyway, so it'll be a waste. I remember one time we went to this hotel buffet with her sister and her cousin

and the other cousin, the 5 of us. And it was this fancy hotel, and you could just go up to the restaurant and have this buffet.

And we all just sat there eating in almost silence, and no one was talking.

And then I just walked around picking up little bits of food, like bit of bacon, bit of bread,

some rice. I thought, what is the point of this? This food is shit.

We're not even staying at the hotel.

It's like such mid food.

I remember going on these road trips, staying at other hotels. She was always really excited about the breakfast buffet. I remember when we first met, and after we fled from her house, I booked a Holiday Inn in Sukhumvit for about 10 days,

and she didn't even leave me for one day to like go back to the house to sort stuff out or anything.

We were like homeless, running away from her house in a hotel.

I remember going down to the breakfast buffet every morning,

eggs and bacon, whilst looking for a place to live. Found this apartment in Bangkok, it was called Boon Lumpa, 20,000 baht a month.

I thought, let's just live here. I didn't realize in Thailand 20,000 baht a month is damn expensive for a place like that. We got the condo for like 11,000 a month and it was way bigger and nicer.

I miss the Thailand Ark.

It was like a—

really, it was kind of like an extension of the marriage in Japan.

It wasn't really a complete fresh start.

It was like, leave Japan stuck in England because of COVID

and then deciding to go to Thailand because it was really the only option because Japan was closed. And I really missed life in Japan with Chihiro, so I thought, ah, this is like next best thing, I guess.

Oh, we're still Living off those memories of being in Japan, but in Thailand instead.

Create new memories. Yeah, I just— I don't know what to do though.

In some ways I feel attached to this place, like I, I'm scared to leave it cuz then, you know, it's over.

In a way I'm like hanging on to the past by staying here as well,

cuz this whole thing is a remnant of a previous life that doesn't exist anymore.

You got all gloomy. Yeah, it's cuz I had that beer. Beer makes me depressed.

You know what kills me is that I will never know if Chihiro or Faster ever messages me again

because I got locked out of my LINE account and they wouldn't know, would they?

Also, I'm scared if I logged into LINE, what if there's a message from Sunny that I never saw?

I know George Trombly sent me a message. Apparently he found out I was ranting about him.

I feel unfulfilled because I never did any of the things I wanted to do in Devon.

Like, there are all these things I wanted to do with Sunny here and then never got the chance to do it.

Before we broke up,

like go to the beach, get a Cornish pasty, visit a castle,

go somewhere nice.

Well, I'm not going to do them alone, am I?

There's no point,

because you don't do those things to do the things. You do them to make memories with someone special.

The thing, like going to the class or whatever, is just It's like the background. It's not the main centerpiece.

It's like you can have great memories going to Sushiro with your wife,

and you can go to Sushiro by yourself. But would you have any great memories? No, because you're alone. The great memories don't come because you're eating sushi. Who the fuck cares about the sushi? The great memories because you're with the person. There, that's what the great memories come from.

The castle or the beach isn't the center point, it's just like the background.

Yeah, I went to Kit Hill by myself and I spent a couple hours walking around, and sure, it was nice and everything, but I don't have any powerful memories because I just stood around, walked around by myself. You only make memories with people.

It's all about people at the end of the day.

That's what life is about, isn't it?

Objects and money are nice and everything, but

that's not what life is about.

All my best memories are with people, and also the worst ones.

I never look fondly back when, oh, I got the iPhone X, wow, so great. Who cares? It's just a phone.

Also, I don't have powerful memories with friends. The only powerful memories are with girlfriends.

I don't look back at the time when me, Dennis, and Adam went to Don Quijote and bought a sex doll. I hung out with Adam and Dennis a lot in Japan.

I don't care about that. I never think about, oh, Miss Adams.

Who the fuck cares about friends?

All my powerful memories are from girlfriends and wives and relationships.

That feeling of This person actually loves me. Look at the way they look at me.

Sometimes I watch the old videos of me and Chihiro, like eating at a restaurant, and I look at the way Chihiro looks at me,

and it's nice to be looked at like that.

Like, just, just the look can make you feel like they care.

Maybe I'll show you. I'll show you.

Look at this thumbnail. Wait, that was a good thumbnail.

Sushi lunch with Japanese woman.

These were good videos.

It's like mum taking her little boy out for sushi lunch.

I can't believe this was my life.

Yeah, kura sushi. Not even sushi though.

It's funny she didn't report this video. I didn't have to blur it.

This camera angle, this is funny.

Look, I still got the same phone, the Samsung S10 Plus, over there.

Look how happy she looked though.

But I seem so boring to be with, like I barely spoke. I look grumpy all the time.

I really had a lot of beer back then. I'd always get a beer if we go to a restaurant.

Yeah, I got a burger at the sushi place and I kept saying it was really good. I got burger and chips at the sushi place. Yeah, like that look.

Look at this.

Look at the way she looks at me.

I don't know, something about that look, like the way she looked at me. I didn't really notice until you watch it from third person.

I got chips.

Burger and chips at the This

is

funny.

I tried the eel and I hated it.

He ate the eel. Eel sushi. It was so disgusting. Tastes like seawater.

Seawater?

おいしいでしょ。I look like I'm gonna puke. Look, he ordered potato in sushi restaurant. He's a foreigner, not Japanese.

Oh, stupid ads.

Yeah, I miss stuff like this.

She looked happy with me, didn't she?

Was this before or after? When was this? It looks like 2019. Yeah,

2019. So it was after all the cheating. She was still that happy to be with me.

And then where's the other one?

These videos bum me out.

Octopus.

This one was a good one.

July 2019,

$19.

I was trying to do like ASMR restaurant stuff,

random people's faces blurred out, random blur.

I sound so bored talking to her.

Look at the random blurring, but you can still see her face.

That is not even blurring her face.

あはい大丈夫です。

I missed you,

hero.

The

blurring's so bad.

My hair looked good in this. My hair looks quite nice short.

I can't see her face.

Her laugh is funny. This is

mine.

This is Daniel.

Look.

I'm like a mute, barely say anything.

It must be so boring going on a date with me. I wonder if I've gotten better though. I feel like with Sunny I talked a bit more, didn't I?

Filming your dates is like, it's weird cuz you can like analyze how you look from a third person. And I watched this and I thought, Jesus Christ, I, I should talk more.

I'm barely saying anything.

It's kind of embarrassing.

I'm just not saying anything ever,

and then when I do say something, it's like 2 words.

It's so boring.

It was another good one.

Idiot on bike rides into my wife.

The night my ex-wife kicked me out.

This stuff only got about 4K views. I thought it was good stuff.

Uh, what else was there?

Yeah, this one got a lot of views because it got Indian people. 11K because it was Indian food. Indian people like to watch foreigners eat Indian food, I guess.

That was a nice restaurant.

Um, oh yeah, yeah, this one.

I like this one.

Secretly filmed us having lunch.

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I just put the camera up. I don't know why I mosaicked out her you know what. You couldn't even see it.

I like this bit. Yeah, she told me how to do the noodles and I just ignored her and I messed it all up,

and then I said I'd do it my way.

Who just kept grunting? He kept grunting at you.

He found it funny though. Look at her laugh.

It's like she enjoyed being annoyed at me.

I don't know why I blurred out my face.

We're just sitting in front of the TV and it's off and we're just staring at it. This is so awkward.

Could at least put the TV on.

It must have been hot July in Japan.

Wow, such great conversation.

Look, my Amazon cup.

I like this bit.

お い しく 食べ る 方 法 を 教 えて あ げ た だけ な の に。 男 だから。 My way. My way. My way.

Why is it blurred? I think I was embarrassed to show what I look like when I eat food, so I mosaiced myself out.

I liked how I made her laugh, and I liked seeing her smile just being with me.

Like, she looked really happy to be with me.

I never know what to say when we go out to eat. I just sit there in silence.

I did the same thing with Fasta, although it was easier with Fasta because we spoke English. I felt like I struggled because of the Japanese.

Yeah, good times.

Now my life's boring and shit.

Oh my God, I fucked up my whole life.

Oh, I

really hate my current life.

Poor. Yeah, but when I, when I was married in Japan, I felt bored then as well. I thought my life sucked back then.

Oh, hi Moon.

What you been up to today?

Why are you watching old videos of your life?

I don't know, it's interesting to see.

It's like looking back in time.

What would I do if I had £300K?

I don't know.

Mm. Buy a house.

Buy a house, maybe.

Buy a house and then

maybe travel and then come back to the house.

You know how most people If they find their way into big money by luck, you know, like they win the lottery, they always end up blowing it all, don't they? They always just get prostitutes and hookers and drugs or gamble it, and then they blow it all, and then they're back at their job 5 years later.

Makes you think that the majority of people just shouldn't have large amounts of money because they'll just blow it anyway.

That's basically what I did when I got a lot of money—

blew it all.

I reckon even if you gave me $5 million, I'd probably Blow it all, and then in a few years' time I'll be broke again.

Unless I'm smart enough to just put it— I mean, you don't even need to invest it, you just put it in a savings account.

What did I miss today? Nothing really.

I made mashed potato

and then I got depressed because I had a beer.

It's all the beer's fault.

It turned out pretty good. I put butter and garlic powder.

I can't believe it's only 9 o'clock.

Oh, people were saying this is a dildo.

It's my shaver. What are you talking about? You've got dirty minds.

Filthy, dirty people.

Looks like a butt plug. No,

no.

What do I have to shave? My beard and mustache

and my butthole.

Very hairy. Oh, what's that?

Oh, it's a fly.

Malaysia. Look at all these weird flies on the window.

Do you remember I got the laser pen for the first time ever in Japan? And I pointed at my hand and I thought it was burning my hand. That's

funny.

I feel like I would miss this place if I ever left, if I ditched it all for a new life.

It's always sad to leave a place, isn't it? One minute you feel like you're stuck there forever, and then before you know it, it's your last day and you're closing the door on it.

I remember feeling like that in Thailand.

Last time I left that apartment, the condo, I remember having one last look around. Because I knew I was never going back again.

I had one last look,

felt Sasuke

teary-eyed, and then closing the door,

the last walk down that hallway.

I remember one time Because I used to get lazy and not lock the door. I remember one time I was on my computer and this guy just opened the door and he was like, oh, because he, he didn't notice he got the wrong door and he thought he was like— he started to walk in. I was like,

what the fuck? I was waiting for him because he was on his phone, like all bloody Thai people staring at their phone all the time. So he was staring at his phone as he walked into my condo and And I was looking at him, just waiting for him to look up and realize what an idiot he is.

It happened like 3 times, and then I started locking the door. And the second time is a woman. This woman just opens the door, looks at me, makes eye contact, and she's like, oh

yeah, check the door number before just walking in. Jesus Christ. And yeah, I wrote a note

No, Fasta wrote a note in Thai saying something like, do not enter or we will call the police, and then we sellotaped it outside the door.

I remember getting so triggered.

It's weird, you're just sitting in your home and then some stranger just opens the door and nearly comes in.

I'm just reminiscing.

All these random memories of little things that I kind of forgot start coming back.

I got so angry. Oh God, I raged when that man came in. I was like, stupid fucking idiot, doesn't even know where his own door is.

My sister messaged me today, something about AI, DeepSeek.

She said it was really good.

She said, why don't I make a video series where I ask AI to help me improve my life.

Yeah, maybe.

She said she uses DeepSeek and it's really good. I think they're all the same. Gemini, Copilot, ChatGPT. Apart from, uh, Grok has those funny responses.

I remember using Grok to give me some tough love.

I like Copilot.

So what you're saying, Copilot is just the same model as ChatGPT, and then what's the difference? So you're saying there's no difference? Yeah, that's what I'm saying. They're all the same because they all use the same model, OpenAI or something.

I just like the app for Copilot because it, it works well and it looks good.

I don't like Gemini.

I also like the voice of the Copilot, man. Hey Daniel!

No, I don't pay for Copilot. I haven't talked to it in a while. I haven't really felt the need to.

Um,

I don't really do much with AI. I just type stuff like Write me a YouTube title about why Switch 2 is better than Steam Deck and write me a script.

I used it recently for writing scripts and I just read it out.

The Switch 2 uses a custom Tegra Nvidia chip with 12GB of RAM. It's really good. And then I get bored halfway and I just give up, and then the rest of the video is just silence.

Yeah, well, no one watches past 2 minutes anyway. Who cares?

Wow, going viral.

Look, you can see the Switch 2 trend falling off.

So you make all the content about the Switch 2, then your view line is gonna look the same as the Switch 2 line, trending line. You know what it's like?

Hmm. It's kind of like your views are pegged. To the switch to

trendiness.

So it's kind of like a stock being pegged to an index, so the stock follows however the index moves because it's like coupled to it. And then you've got decoupling

when that no longer happens.

So you make all the content about that one thing, and then your trend line is going to look just like the trend line of the thing you made it about. And then you got to like switch your topics since that trend's dead.

It's like hitching your wagon,

you go up for the ride.

And then you gotta find out the next trend. What's trending now?

I might go to

the toilet.

No, I don't do programming now. I've completely forgotten how to do it.

Yeah, I quite enjoyed making the game. I thought it was cool how you could basically create anything you want.

I really liked how I made my bedroom in that 2D game, and then I put a computer, and I made it so you could blow up the computer, but then I also made it so if you click the computer, it opens up the computer screen, and then you can add a sound effect when you click it. And

then you can like drag a box over the area like a hitbox. You could put in the coordinates of where the hitbox is, so when you click within the box it will open an image. And then I would make the image, I would draw it. I drew the image of the computer home screen with icons on it.

So then it took ages to code that because it was like, if you click in this box, open this image, and then the image opens, and within the image I wanted all different icons representing the desktop, so I made a menu system when you click on the computer screen. And then it was a nightmare because each button

you press would open like a new menu system, and then I had to make back buttons to take you back to the previous page. And then like you press back it would delete all the images because I needed it all to disappear. So you take you back to the previous screen.

God, it was a mess. It was just a headache. I hated coding.

So when you click on a button, you had to make it so everything else disappeared and the new window would open, and then when you click back from there, that one disappears and it reopens the previous windows.

I made like a little shop from the computer where you could buy ammunition and potions.

I just got fed up, and then all these bugs, all these glitches kept happening. I couldn't fix it all.

Oh, these weird physics bugs with the bullets kept happening.

Yeah, one thing I found really tough was

having 2 weapons and switching between the 2 weapons.

It was so glitchy. All I wanted was You press one button and then it switches to the other gun, but then you need to make the previous gun disappear and make it so it stops firing the first gun when you press the shoot button. So you need like a switch.

It just got really annoying.

I liked coming up with the ideas, but I didn't like having to do them.

I had a lot of ideas for the game.

It was going to be like a dating sim slash platformer

shooter based on my life. I made the petrol station as well, and I made a mini game in the petrol station where you gotta scan items and the customer will come up to the till, and then you scan it and they'll walk away, and then you make some money, and then you go home, and then you can

go sleep. And there were girls in it, and then you can like find the girls and hold their hand. I made the animation so the hands linked together. And then when she holds your hand, she follows you, and then you like take her back home, and then you can bring her on the bed and make little Daniels.

I made all these little Daniels spawn and they'd run around. It was funny.

That Jupiter guy paid me $100. To make him a level and put him in the game.

Why would he want that? So I did it.

I don't know if he was happy with it though.

Yeah, I had this idea for the game where you would play the level, like the first level, at home, and it will be in the English countryside. And then you get money either by killing stuff or by working at the petrol station. I also had a stock market in the game, which was basically just a random— it

was like a digit that randomly went up and down, and then you could put more money into it, and then you would either lose or win money.

And then the goal of the first mission was you had to save up money to buy a plane ticket to Japan, and then you would get taken to the next level, which was in Japan. And then there'd be a guest house, and then I was going to make a phone in the game, and then Tinder. I was

going to put apps like Tinder on it, and I was going to make a bunch of girls, and like you swipe left or right, and then you can go on dates. And then different girls have different personalities and will respond well to different things. So if you succeed on the date, it will unlock new missions or quests,

and then there's like a relationship progress bar. And then there'd be people at the guest house, and then you could like be friends with them or be enemies, and then they would give you quests if you become friends. Yeah, I had so many ideas for it, but it just seemed like so much work and I fizzled out.

It would have been so fun, like a guest house, and then I put all the characters that I've met from my life in the game, like Mac, the black tall guy who kept Flirting with all the girls.

Adam, the goofy American guy.

And then you go out in Japan and maybe it was like a platformer game. And then I thought, hey, isn't it kind of weird? Because in the first level you've got a gun and you're like shooting and blowing stuff up. Why would you like go to Japan and stay at a guest house and go outside and start

shooting and blowing stuff up? And then I thought, what is the direction of this game anymore? It started off as a shooter and now it's like a weird dating sim with money.

Make a game with all your haters.

Yeah, I was gonna have bosses. I made Hong Kong Guy and I made the ground shake every time he took a step. There's like a vibrating effect and I made an earthquake sound effect, so I downloaded one. So every time he took a step, it shook the screen and made like a rumble sound.

And then there were going to be other bosses like Turkish Girl,

Kaito. I was going to make him like a lumberjack and his weapon would be a big log, like a big tree, and he'd swing it at you.

I had a lot of funny ideas. It's just was too lazy to implement them. I reckon you can still play the game if you go on my Patreon, unless it's bugged out now.

Turkish girl's special attack was she would spray blood at you.

I used Game Maker. Game Maker Studio.

Yeah, when I was a kid, I used to design games as well. I used to write down my ideas on a piece of paper and like draw out

the interface.

Maybe that was one of my dreams when I was a kid— game designer.

Yeah, when I play games, I'm always thinking, wouldn't it be cool if you could do this? Or wouldn't it be cool if you could do that?

I would make the best game ever.

I still think my dream game would be GTA but in Japan and more real-life kind of stuff you can do, like get a job, rent an apartment,

not just driving around killing people. Maybe something more like Sims but not like Sims.

I want a game where it's like real life

but not miserable and boring.

Like, you can buy a ticket and fly to Japan and then look for a place to live and go dating and then meet people.

And then if you wanted to hijack a car and go on a rampage— Goddamn, the spiders are smart. The spiders set up webs all over these windows because the flies keep flying into it. And it's just full of little flies that have been wrapped up and sucked dry.

I tried cleaning it, but then a few days later it was covered in spider webs again.

Whoa, is that a bat? What is that?

Look weird. Have you played Inzoi?

It's like a Sims rip-off but with good graphics. I played a bit of Inzoi when I was with Sunny. She liked it. She made us in the game. She spent hours making me. She was like zooming into the face to make it look just like me.

Yeah, the graphics are really good on it. It's like a modern Sims. You can get a computer and you can trade stocks on it. Which is funny. And you can walk around third person and

build a house and get a job and stuff. But I don't really like Sims because it's— you're not playing as the character, you're, you're like commanding the character.

Are those really bats flying around? It just seems kind of weird. Are you sure they're not birds? They move too fast. I can't see them properly.

Yeah, one of the things, things I wish I did when my channel was at its peak was probably make a game, a little app

where you play as me, and then, I don't know, there's dialogue, and then all the different characters from the channel pop up.

Nobita, Chihiro.

Who else was a character back then? Kanato, Tomoko. Why does everyone's names end in O? Chihiro, Kanato, Tomoko.

Oh, Nobito. No.

I remember Nobita made that video about me.

He was like, he is a handsome guy living in Japan who only makes content about his life drama.

I thought, wow, thanks for calling me handsome.

And then he deleted it because all my weirdo viewers went over to his video and started writing weird stuff. He got scared.

Oh God, I gotta stop thinking about the past.

It's so hard not to though.

I keep— when I get into this mood, I'm like, snap out of it, focus on the money.

And then I get up and then I go to my whiteboard.

And I go, eyes on the money. We need this, I need that. My numbers looking good.