Kick Livestreams/PRE DINNER POST LUNCH BREAK SHOW 2025-10-15 23_43 [5d322c35-pre-dinner-post-lunch-break-show] 480p

Hello, welcome back to the pre-post-dinner pre-show.

Oh, market's tanking. Shit.

That was up £10, now down £6.

Classical. I mean, typical.

Seems like if I do this, I don't get in trouble. Might not have to keep ending the stream.

Oh wow, old days.

Wow, they did maintain the offensive.

Another abomination cleansed from our lands.

Glittering gold, trinkets and baubles paid for in blood.

Hit

it.

He dead.

He dead. He dead.

Huh.

He dead.

As victories mount, so too will resistance.

Ah, fuck, down £10 on my lung.

Wealth beyond measure. Awarded to the brave and the foolhardy alike.

Where

everyone tuning in from live?

I didn't go to that place. It's kind of hard to tell. Oh, I haven't been there.

Moving around the dungeons is— if only

treasure could staunch the flow of other

Worldly corruption. Bring on fiend! He dead. Back to the pit.

Remind yourself that overconfidence is a slow and insidious killer.

Secret wonders can be found in the most tenebrous corners of this place.

The sin is not in being outmatched, but in failing to recognize. I don't want to lose my best friend. A setback, but not the end of things.

I need a healer. Your soldiers' minds are mired in malignancy. Fear has taken root.

The raw strength of youth may be spent. But his eyes hold the secrets of 100 campaigns.

Slumped shoulders, wild eyes, and a stumbling gait. This one is no more good to us.

Um, still don't have a hero.

Fan the flames, mold the metal. We are raising an army.

10% damage, 4 gold.

Um.

Mastery over life and death was chief among my early pursuits. I began in humility, but my ambition was limitless. Who could have divined the prophetic import of something as unremarkable as a twitch in the leg of a dead rat? Well,

market's ripping. Where everyone tuning in from, guys?

Uh, the tea's bad. Let me use tea.

I used a used tea bag thinking it would be fine, but there's

no flavor left.

Wow, market written. Where everyone tuning in? A devil walks these halls. Only the mad or the desperate go in search of him.

God.

5 damage, so good. Wow, you— well struck. Oh wow, 6 damage.

All right, give them no quarter.

Oh, missed everything.

Oh, the onslaught! Destroy them all! Oh, missed.

Where's he going? Obliterated. Well, I'm up £7. Life is ripping.

As victories mount, so too will resistance.

Wow, market just ripped all the way back up.

Oh, I'm up eight pounds now.

What's the cure?

Watch your step. Why don't you move?

Hey, hey, hey, hey! Reeling. Gasping, taken over the edge into madness.

We can't reuse the tea bag anymore. All the flavor disappears. How many fucking pop-ups? Do I need fucking loot? Oh my God, the walls close in. The shadows whisper of conspiracy.

Nothing. Hey, go where everyone's zooming in from. My God, cute, miss cute. Another abomination cleansed from our lands.

Missed everything.

He dead. Confidence surges as the enemy crumbles.

He dead. He dead.

He dead. As the fiend falls, a faint hope blossoms. Wow, he hit his own guy. Was another

one falls? Wow, I'm not letting Be wary, triumphant pride precipitates a dizzying fall.

I'm up 12 pounds.

Even the cold— oh, my take profit on preventing passage. £12. I forgot about it.

I made £12.

Nice.

Take profit triggered.

See if it keeps breaking.

I wonder if it'll tank you. Where to pop it?

The match is struck. A blazing star is born.

Doing pretty well even without healing.

244 damage.

Shoot. Executed with impunity.

Right there. See that?

Missed.

Missed. I can't use any skills.

He dead. Begone, fiend!

I do a huge cast drop, and then I do a huge— and then I do another Their formation is broken. Maintain the offensive.

Why

are they all going the same?

He missed. He dead.

He dead.

Wow, market still wrecking.

A

singular

strike.

This expedition at least promises success.

Wow, I'm up 5 pounds on my other lung.

Shouldn't have taken profit.

Where everyone tuning in from, guys?

There can be no hope in this hell. No hope at all.

No, why did he get a heart attack?

Oh, you missed, you fucking idiot. He dead. Injury and Abundance set the stage for heroism. Well, I'm up 10 pounds. Cowardice. I really shouldn't have paused the other one.

He

dead.

No, I lost my pistol. Why do I keep hearing—

Perched at the very precipice of oblivion.

Ah, everyone's dying.

Up £10 on my lot.

He dead. Back to the pit, foolish horrors. Our team's dying. And driven into the mud.

12 pounds. Escape.

This is no place for the weak or foolhardy. I lost them. Yeah, I probably should actually.

Now, do not ruminate on this fleeting failure. The campaign is long and big. In time, you will know the tragic extent of my failings. I need a healer. Why won't they give me a healer?

Look, not a single healer.

Increase size of hero roster.

Word is traveling. Ambition is stirring in distant cities. We can use this. No money. Most will end up here, covered in the poisoned earth, awaiting merciful oblivion.

まあやです。なるほど。

Nice. And then in the back, maybe I'll put the bow woman.

I think she's got, she's got the bandage ability.

I think the more healing you do, the more aggro they get. They get toxic.

Mastery over life and death was chief among my early pursuits. I began in humility, but my ambition was limitless. Who could have divined the prophetic import of something as unremarkable as a twitch in the leg of a dead rat?

What mic am I using? A devil walks these halls. Only the mad or the desperate go in search of him. I think I give a shit about the sound quality. Don't care. Don't even give a fuck.

Still got 200 viewers, don't I?

Where everyone turning in from?

I

say retribution.

Wow, I'm not getting wrecked.

And then I do a heal.

I did insane damage.

And then I do a sniper shot. Missed.

And then I do—

ah, you! Oh, you fucking idiot! How'd you miss both of them?

Like, you missed one, you missed two. I thought you just missed one, but

Their formation is broken. Maintain the offensive. He dead.

Confidence surges as the enemy crumbles.

He dead. He dead.

He dead. Continue the onslaught. Destroy them all.

Finding the stuff is only the first test. Now it must be carried home.

Mechanical hazards possessed by evil intent. How many fucking traps are there? Ancient traps lie in wait, unsprung and thirsting for blood.

Terrors may indeed stalk these shadows, but yonder, a glint of gold. Debuff resist, 10 stun skill points.

In Radiance may we find victory.

Oh, why'd you keep missing?

Where everyone to

Name from God.

A hand's breadth from becoming unwound. Why isn't he dead?

I

can't do anything. How many fucking turns do they get?

Oh, he doesn't want to get in.

Give them no quarter.

Fear

and frailty finally claim their due.

Why won't he take the fucking healing?

He won't let me heal him.

Eradicated.

He won't let me heal him.

So

My hands

are—

Where everyone can run from. Wow, 16 kills! Nice.

Another abomination cleansed from our lands. Hold on.

On to the next room.

Where'd he go?

Like this bone.

Be dead.

As the fiend falls, a faint hope blossoms.

Back to the pit.

Why is that sniper shot so weak?

He dead.

A time to perform beyond one's limits.

The blood quickens.

Why'd I keep missing him?

Stop missing. He dead.

Seize this momentum, push on to the task's end.

I hate the stress thing in the game. Maybe I use my camp.

Huddled together, furtive and vulnerable, rats in a maze.

Speed and courage. He didn't want it. A thin stress, minus 10 stress. Why is it not working?

Oh no,

they got more strength. Terrible vistas of emptiness reveal themselves. Now we attack. Great.

Then I'm gonna do Blinding Shot, then I'm gonna do— you are too dead.

And then I'm gonna do

Oh, you're gonna die. Then I'm gonna die.

He dead.

Oh no, he died.

Then I'm gonna take this one.

Then I'm gonna do that one. Then I'm gonna be dead. Annihilate.

Needed. As victories mount, so too will resistance.

The bow woman really sucks.

Fuck it, rip. My woman's gonna be dead.

Why are they all going for me? Oh God, perched at the very precipice of oblivion.

Injury and despondence set the stage for heroism. I wouldn't need that. Or cowardice. I run away.

I don't lose my left eye.

I didn't play XCOM 2. No, I played XCOM 1 a lot. This skirmish may be lost, but the battle— everyone's dead. Oh, I nearly lost him too. Let me out. Oh God, there can be no glory in its accomplishment. Let each help the other and in so doing help themselves. Everyone dead.

Uh, everyone keeps dying. Elusive, evasive, persistent— righteous traits for a rogue.

I'm not gonna place anymore.

You think you got a really good team

and just by pure bad luck they get wiped out

through no fault of my own.

Pistolman

and maybe play for one.

Damn, Mark is

ripping.

Bit— mine's not ripping though.

To prosecute our war against the swine, we must first scout their squalid homes.

Where everyone truly needs them for.

Getting real bored of this.

Every fucking thing misses. They should get rid of the fucking dodge and miss. Hate it. Why every time dodge, miss, dodge, miss, resist, resist? Fucking hell, what's the fucking point? Singular strike.

Hate miss and resist and dodge block. Oh God, press this advantage, give them no quarter.

Confidence surges as the enemy crumbles.

Their formation is broken. Maintain the offensive.

Oh no, I'm done.

Dumb fucking game. This blow up here and then everyone fucking dies. Oh my God, I need to pee.

I'd rather sit here doing nothing.

It's just irritating when you spend all this time building up characters and then they all get wiped out because of some stupid random generator.

Number. It's not skill-based, is it? It's just random luck.

It's an annoying thing with turn-based games.

Market ripped.

Probably keep ripping, though, won't it? Do you think it's going to get back to all-time highs again?

Really should have closed out that short.

Thank God I got more longs than shorts though. I got 0.5 long, 0.3 short. So if the market keeps going up, my winnings will outrun my lossings.

Where everyone tuning in? I'd rather read the stupid Wikipedia articles, mindlessly playing that stupid fucking game.

Oh God, sometimes I hate gaming so much.

I don't know how people get addicted to gaming anymore.

I'd rather play my Rubik's Cube.

Ah, at least I can touch and feel this.

I'm not just pressing stupid buttons.

Blue, a bit of blue.

Oh God, I don't see now.

Where everyone tuning in from, guys?

Wow, really? That's great.

I wouldn't mind some chicken soup, actually. I might make some chicken porridge. Would be nicer though.

Wild market ripped.

Gold tanking after ripping.

What's that stop loss for?

Oh, that's the stop loss for my short.

Don't know if I want that there anymore.

Where everyone tuning in from? Hello, Purin Purin. Yes, I'm gonna do too.

Chicken porridge is really nice. My mom used to make it when I was sick.

It's like rice porridge, not like oatmeal porridge.

Oh oh, market tanking.

Then I have to steer my long.

I

don't know, maybe not.

Um, okay. Marsupials have a short gestation period. Between 12 and 33 days, but as low as 10 days in the case of striped-faced dunnock, as long as 38 days for the long-nosed ptoro. The baby is born in a fetal state equivalent to an 8 to 12 week human fetus,

blind and furless. Small in comparison to placental newborns.

Must be feels very boring.

What about a

pig-footed bandicoot became extinct in the 20th century?

Wow, really?

Uh, what's to fucking talk about? I'm so sick and fucking tired of having to talk all the fucking time.

Don't want to talk.

Ah.

It's

crazy that someone would complain about

Having to talk. I mean, most people love talking.

Yeah, I don't know what to talk about though.

Yeah, people only love talking because most of the time they're talking behind closed doors so they can talk about whatever the fuck they want without getting in trouble.

It's different when you, you're talking on a camera where everything you say Has the potential of getting you in trouble.

Yeah, I like talking to my mum and sister because I can say whatever I want.

What do you mean, was I frozen? No, I'm not frozen. Frozen? What are you talking about? How— why would I be frozen?

All right, change category.

Might do some pacing up and down.

That usually kills an hour.

God, I hate my fucking life.

Might make some soup.

I

can't believe this is my life.

Pea and ham soup.

Oh, it smells like

cat

food.

Up

10 pounds.

Soup, soup, soupy, soupy soup. Red numbers going up. Yep, I just got billed for a hotel that I booked for the end of the month. I got billed for the other hotel last weekend.

I had to pay rent.

I haven't been billed for the iPhone Air yet,

and then I got my Friday pay taken away.

Not enough interaction, they said.

Who the fuck are they to tell me how to fucking stream?

Don't know what to do about my finances. Making all this money, but it keeps going out.

Hello, Murph09, where you tuning in from? Good old

Is it hot or not?

Wow, it's actually really good.

Yeah, I know the hotels are getting a bit expensive, but I don't really know what to do about it.

Really? I think even though she wants to help pay half, I don't think she can. I think she's actually kind of broke.

Oh, it's bubbling.

Pretty good. Oh, oh, oh, oh, there's nowhere to grip this bowl.

I don't know where to eat it. I'm losing grip.

Let's have some bread.

Hmm, it reminds me of my childhood.

Pea and ham soup. Hmm, it's pretty good.

They put like 4 pieces of ham in it.

Not enough ham.

Where everyone tuning in from, guys? Uh, hello Andy.

Chicken porridge was a thing my mum used to make.

It was made with rice, very wet sloppy rice with bits of chicken in it.

No, I can't really elaborate on the shifting paradigms.

Uh.

My mom's not selling the house. Why do people keep saying my mom's gonna sell the house? She's not fucking selling the fucking house.

Why do people keep thinking she's gonna sell the house? Why? I never said she's gonna sell the house. She's never said she's gonna sell the house, so why the fuck would she sell the fucking house?

What is it about? I just said I can't talk about it.

Basically, um, I have dug myself into a hole, and in the process of trying to dig myself out of it,

I'm kind of just digging sideways,

and I'm using every bit of brainpower I have.

To navigate a way out of it.

Wow, that's super good.

I kind of want another one. I can't believe how good this soup is.

Well, if I got my appetite, must be a good sign. That I'm

recovering.

Might I have some crisps?

What? Oh, hello, Bea! How are you doing today?

I would never manipulate anyone.

I would never do that. Oh no, not me.

I would never kill anyone.

Where everyone tuning in from today, guys?

Nah,

I got sick.

Might have some crisps.

嗯。

It's funny,

I haven't made a YouTube video in months and I don't miss it at all.

Yeah, I miss getting 40K views and loads of comments.

But I know it's not going to happen anymore. But the actual process of making the video, don't miss.

I only like the result. I like the money and I like the attention.

I never liked the process of making the video.

How deep is the hole?

Hmm,

it's getting to a point where it's like getting harder and harder to get out of it.

What are we talking about now? Just my hole

getting deeper into holes.

Look,

I'm not talking about it because when I was with Faster I talked about everything assuming she would never find out,

and then she found my channel and I nearly got fucked.

So when I talk, I have to talk as if I'm assuming that at some point they might hear what I'm saying.

Like, I was really stupid when I was with Pasta and I was just announcing all this stuff like, oh yeah, I'm at the Korean woman's house. Oh yeah,

I'm trying to see Jihyo. Oh, I'm doing— no, it was so dumb.

Thinking that these people are never going to find out, when nearly every time they do find out.

Now, if I just never said anything about how I was in a Korean woman's house, would have saved me a lot of trouble.

You have to talk as if— I mean, how would you talk if you knew the other person was listening? You can't just assume that these people aren't going to find out.

No, I'm sick and tired That's getting fucked over because I talk too much,

so I'm keeping my mouth shut.

It's like when you're at war, you keep communications locked down very tight.

Don't just announce things like, oh, we're going to attack this place and we're going to attack that place. Now the whole thing about the World War II thing was the Enigma machine, wasn't it?

Yeah, I have a guilty conscience, but sometimes you want things in life that override the guilt. It's like, I don't want to kill animals, but I also want to eat meat. My desire to eat meat overrides me not wanting to kill animals. So unfortunately, the animals gotta die.

That's just how it is, because I'm not gonna become a vegan.

No, I'm not seeing multiple girls.

I don't know how you come to that conclusion.

And even if I was, I'm not going to say I am. I'm not stupid.

It doesn't answer the question at all. How does it answer the question?

You'll never know the actual answer to the question because even if I was seeing other girls, I'm not going to say that I am. So the answer is going to be no if it was true, and no even if it wasn't true. There's no outcome where the answer is not going to be no. So it's a stupid

question.

Why am I not seeing multiple girls?

Um, because I don't want to. And it's too much work. It's enough work handling one girl.

Handling 2 at the same time— I'm already stressed out enough.

And it's also really stupid that people think just because you've done something before that you're gonna do it again.

Because just because you've done something in the past doesn't mean you're going to do it again. And just because you haven't done something in the past doesn't mean you can't do it at some point.

Like, I don't cheat on every relationship, it's just being a couple.

So trying to find out about someone's past to judge their future actions is stupid, and it should be banned in my opinion,

because I know if people find out about my past, they're going to be making all kinds of predictions about how I'm going to behave in the future, which is dumb.

Coach, I don't think my past actions indicate what future actions I'm going to take.

Oh God, market is tanking. I was up 14 and up

£5. Yeah, I don't know if it's going to tank here or is it going to rip or what.

Maybe I'll go short here.

Might do a little short, maybe.

Can't lose now.

My trades are all over the place. I got 2 longs up there, 1 long down there, 1 short up here, 1 short down there, and then a massive short down there. Only 3 just longs and shorts randomly placed all over the fucking NASDAQ chart. I don't know what I'm doing.

I'm just like randomly going long and short all over the place.

What time is it?

4 o'clock. I've got 3 hours until dinner time.

I'm not sure what I need to do.

I need to figure out if I'm gonna be healthy enough for this weekend, otherwise I might not be able to see my girlfriend.

Is it Wednesday? Yeah, Wednesday.

And then overall long-term plans,

I'm thinking actually,

I'm thinking pulling the trigger on the move out might actually solve this other problem I'm having.

I got this problem

that I think I can conveniently blow out the water by moving out of this house.

Interesting.

But if I suddenly tell her, oh, I'm moving out, doesn't it seem a bit suspicious?

Do you think she's gonna get suspicious if I suddenly say, oh, I'm moving out. Because I can say, oh, I want to save more money, better work opportunities back in Kent,

which is true.

I don't think she's suspicious at this point.

Yeah, maybe the weed helps now.

Benefits of staying in Devon.

There's really not any benefits.

Apart from Devon's very nice and peaceful,

and it's a nice place to live,

but financially speaking, there's no benefits.

But I actually— I think moving out might actually save me from this current problem.

I mean, it's not really a problem now,

but if certain things happen, it could become a problem.

This is too many things that are too unpredictable.

Rent a place in Somerset?

Yeah, that's what I was thinking.

Either I move back to my mum's or I move out of here into a new place in Somerset.

But then if things didn't work out with the girl,

then I'd probably want to go back to my mum's place to like reset.

On va voir déjà.

My mum's too preoccupied with the baby to be getting on my nerves.

The baby has completely distracted her.

No, my sister's at home now.

They come around quite often.

Everything's so frustrating. Things were just so much easier when I was married in Japan.

No secrets.

No fears

right now.

Things are very complicated.

Okay.

Basically, I want to be able to stream

without it negatively affecting my relationship,

which is why

it must be secret,

because the alternative is I have to nuke everything and get a job.

Otherwise, how am I going to explain how I make money?

Say you work from home. Yeah, doing what though?

Where are the stupid emojis on iPhone gone? Where are the yellow round faces? Why is it all just animal faces now?

Where are the yellow round faces?

Oh, that's weird.

Oh God,

yeah, you can say you do this or you do that for a job, but what if they start showing an interest in your job.

And then if you say you don't have a job, then they'll be like, oh, how come you got money then? And then if you say, oh, I do this online work, well then you've got to tell them what it is.

Oh, I won the lottery.

Oh, I inherited half a million from my dad.

I'd love to say, oh, I just, I don't have a job. I don't work, but then they're going to say, how do you pay for rent and stuff?

And then if you say, oh, I do streaming, then they'll say, what's the channel?

I can't tell people I do streaming because if they find out what the channel is then that will lead them to finding out all my back history, which makes me look very bad.

Yeah, I've done bad things.

Sorry, no, either I actually get a job so it's not a lie And I do have a job.

Very stressful, this whole thing.

It's not that bad at all. Well, I don't know. Maybe she's okay with most of it. But then there's that one thing I said in 2021.

That's a deal breaker or something. You don't know what would be a deal breaker.

So there's like 3 outcomes, I think. Either I actually get a job and just quit this whole internet stuff, or I just hope she doesn't find out, or she does find out and she's okay with it.

Like, those really the only 3 possibilities I see.

Because like, I get a job, I wipe everything, and then the lie becomes the truth that I'm now living.

I mean, in a way, I kind of wish I did get banned from Kick because it would make it a lot easier to just walk away from it all. Like, if I get— if I get banned from Kick, I'm wiping everything. I've already started wiping. I wiped Instagram, I wiped my Twitter.

Maybe like subconsciously I want to sabotage Kick because then that'll force me to actually move on, and then I won't live a lie anymore. I'll live a truth.

I don't care if you upload everything back up. That's not the point. The point is that I'm not doing it anymore.

The point is I could then say, yeah, I'm not doing that streaming stuff anymore.

I'm now doing this job. You're so fucking stupid because you always seem to miss the fucking point about wiping you? Why don't you ever fucking understand the point of wiping it? It's not to get rid of every little piece of video footage on the internet. It's number one, to reduce discoverability. Number two, to not live a lie.

Yeah, I know people have the fucking backups and they upload it to some obscure Obscure fucking website with fucking obscure URL. I don't care, you fucking moron.

Stop being like, oh, we got the backups, your old archive. Shut the fuck up, bitch.

How fucking moronic are you to not get it?

Every time I talk about wiping, you're always like, oh, archive. Shut the fuck up about the fucking archive. Don't give a shit about the fucking archive. No one's gonna fucking find the fucking archive, and it's not the stuff on the archive that I'm worried about.

90% of my content is fine.

I don't care if there's like footage of some video I made in 2017. It's not the point. How are you so fucking stupid?

The point of wiping it is so that I'm not— so I can honestly say that I'm not doing it anymore

and just say, oh yeah, I used to do that, but I'm not doing it now.

So I'm saying the 3 possibilities are I actually wipe everything

and get a job, which means I wouldn't be living a lie, or she finds out and she's not okay with it and we break up, or she finds out and she is okay with it. Those are basically the only 3 outcomes.

Oh, I wipe it, get a job, and then she still finds out and still we break up.

Is what addictive?

Look, if I lost Kick partnership, I'd fucking delete the whole fucking Kick, because what is the point of having it?

Like, there'd be no benefit at all of having my Kick channel if I lost partnership. What's the point?

It would be like it never existed. I'd delete the whole fucking Kick channel.

And then I would set everything on YouTube to private so in case people do re-upload stuff, I can copyright strike them.

And then that way there will be no, um, there'll be no accounts that I own that have like my content on it, apart from there'll just be the stuff that other people have uploaded it.

I mean, I don't want to lose Kick. I want to carry on doing Kick,

but doing Kick does

create complications.

I don't want to get a job, although having to get a job might simplify certain things. Like, number one, I don't have to lie about what I do for a living. Number two, I don't have to explain how I have money. Because I would actually have a job, wouldn't I?

But if I did carry on doing Kick, and then obviously I'll be making a lot of easy money, so that's one plus, I guess.

Yeah, I just say I've done— I've been doing delivery work, which is true. I've been doing delivery, haven't I?

How's the new iPhone? It's so great.

Well, market tanked. Good thing I went short.

Up £9.

The long's down 16 now, but at least the short's up 12.

Hmm, not sure where to take profit.

What happens if I take another zinc tablet?

Do you think it will make me recover faster?

Oh God,

I've got so many problems, guys.

It's just funny because I just want 2 very simple things. But I don't know why, they just— they don't go together.

I want to have a girlfriend.

Who doesn't care what I do to make money.

What? Why is that so difficult?

Like, I'm not trying to use her for money. I'm not trying to make money off of her. I just want to do my own thing

and be allowed to do it. Whilst also having a nice relationship.

But I mean, maybe a lot of girls are— would be okay with me doing this, but the problem is I'm too scared to tell them that I do this.

Because I just think it's pretty common sense that most girls are not going to be okay with it.

I mean, I just wish I could keep it— not how I make money is my business, but why can't that just be private?

Damn, market's tanking. I'm up £15 on my short, my take profit.

Should

I take profit? £14.

Yeah, I'm taking profit. £14

today. I made £12 plus £13 plus £1.10.

I made £26 on my day trades today.

Fuck, still tanking.

I wish I could just say I'm a day trader,

cuz I actually do day trade. It.

Where everyone tuning in from?

So I need to like create, I need to like try and improve things.

Um.

Hmm, I don't know.

I guess I'll think about it when the time comes.

I'm thinking if I do lose her, I might hold off trying to get another girlfriend until after mid next year, once I, I think I got like sort some stuff out.

But for the time being, I'm just like fingers crossing, hoping it goes well. Yeah, I got to prepare for the eventuality

of losing everything. But, you know, live by the sword, die by the sword.

I was trying to think like what would put me in a stronger position for the next time.

Bitmain tanken.

I could just tell every single girl I match with that I'm a streamer, but then they're going to be like, oh, what's the channel name? And then as soon as they see it, they're going to block me because number one, I look weird on stream. I don't look cool, like I'm very weird.

On stream. I'm not like this in real life.

Like, I don't go— I don't— I'm not like all the time in real life, am I?

So I think it's unfair that if they watch my stream, I get unfairly judged negatively.

Why don't you act like you do in real life then?

Because it's boring.

So I'm sure when you're alone, you pick your nose and you fart on your hand and you smell it, and I know you pick your ear and then lick your finger. Why don't you do that in front of people? Yeah, exactly.

Why do you need to fart on the hand? So you can smell if it's a normal smell or if it smells rotten.

There's ways I act on stream that I would never act in front of a person, but if they see my stream, they're going to think, oh wow, he must be like that in real life. No, I'm fucking not, you stupid fucking idiot. This is not how I behave off stream. So don't fucking watch my stream and think

this is what I'm like, fucking idiot.

And that's why I don't tell people what my stream is. You think I want some girl that I like clicking on my stream and seeing this? Get the fuck out of here, bitch.

This is a persona, not real.

Doesn't exist off camera.

Who are you raging at? I don't even know anymore.

If I came across as cool, I wouldn't need to go on dating apps. I'd have fangirls lining up. And I used to before I let my mask slip.

There ain't no more fangirls left anymore, is there? You know why? It's because I come across on stream bad.

If I came across well, there would be fangirls in my DMs. There aren't any.

So yeah, I don't want— if I like a girl, I don't want her to see my stream because I know what people's reactions are like. They're like, oh, he's a weirdo. Oh, he's an incel. Oh, he looks nice but his personality's bad. Shut the fuck up.

So I can't ever let a girl that I like know what I do, because if she sees this,

there might be a slim chance she finds it funny and likes me more because of it.

Who knows? Maybe there's a lot of girls out there who would like this.

All I know is that 2 million people have seen my stuff and not a single girl wanted to, apart from fucking Crazy Crypt,

and then she disappeared anyway.

What do you think about having kids?

Uh, again, having kids is Troublesome because

what if they find out that I do this?

So again, the problem I'm having with women would be extended to having kids. It all comes back to I got to get a fucking normal job.

Shoot my shot with Cake. What, some terminally online mentally ill 20-year-old, basically a kid who lives in Canada with her stepdad? Wow, what a catch.

Number one, I'm never going to— number two, she's probably mentally ill. Number three, she's crazy. Number 4, she'd just be a massive flake. Number 5, she's like half my age.

How many red flags do you want?

I never want to date someone from Canada because I don't want to go to Canada. Can they come here? Probably not.

I don't want to date any more international girls because I'm not interested in moving country.

I don't want to go to some other country and then have to get visa and do all this shit.

Fed up with all that.

Your kids can't dump you. Yeah, but they can hate you, and they can be embarrassed of you, or they could resent you. It's actually much worse because, like, I mean, do you want to be hated by your children?

I don't know, like, maybe

Maybe my best chance is if I just get some Asian girlfriend who doesn't speak English, so even if she does find out, she's not really going to be that bothered.

Back to Asia.

Yeah, but I don't want to live in Asia, and I don't want to bring her here and like have to get married to get her a visa.

That. Yeah, things would be much easier if I just focus on Japanese women again,

but I don't want to live that life anymore.

No, I wouldn't consider full-time OF with a girl.

I just, I think this is like a really big problem that I don't have a way of making money that I feel proud of, that I want to tell everyone about.

Like, you shouldn't have to, you shouldn't have to keep it a secret what you do for a living.

Should be proud of it. And if you're not, then why are you doing it?

I don't care if I'm proud of it, I just don't want it to negatively impact me.

That's why I want to be a day trader, because I think it's cool.

And there's no shame in it. And girls like guys who are in finance.

You can do it anywhere in the world, anytime. There's no boss, can't get fired.

You can only blow your whole account and lose all your money. But apart from that, it's great.

One day I'll be able to say I'm a day trader.

I'll just say I'm in finance.

Day trading doesn't require capital or intelligence.

You just— you're completely wrong in one sentence.

I mean, look at Bill Ackman, really intelligent, smart investor, multi-billionaire. He still bought Netflix at at the top and then sold it at the bottom and lost billions of dollars.

Just because you got more money and you got more degrees and diplomas doesn't mean you're immune to making mistakes.

Like, who's going to be better investor, me with a million dollars or Warren Buffett with $10? I'll come back in 10 years' time, I've probably blown the million dollars and his $10 is probably $100K. I'm talking rubbish.

It's not about intelligence, it's about psychology.

It's more about psychology than anything else. People say don't read books about economics, read books about psychology if you want to trade,

like handling loss.

Controlling impulses,

which I'm very great at

in all walks of life. I'm so great at controlling my impulses.

Getting a job at a finance firm.

No, you have to go to university and get a maths qualification and then get an economics qualification. I couldn't be bothered. And yeah, I'm not intelligent enough to do that stuff. I don't like maths. I'm not good at maths.

But I don't believe that trading and investing is about being good at maths. Yeah, it's about numbers and money, but it doesn't mean it's about maths.

I mean, what kind of mathematical calculations are you doing, having to do to invest? You don't have to do anything.

Just buy and hold. Buy low, sell high.

No, I can't get a job in a bank cuz I don't have any degrees

and I'm too old to start all that and I can't be bothered.

Too late in life. I mean, you can never— you never say it's never, never too late,

but you get to a point in life where you just can't be fucking bothered.

Like, that ship has sailed.

Sure, there's people turn it around all the time, but it's not me, is it?

Yeah, I'm too lazy to get an education, and I don't have any talents or gifts, so there's no point wasting my time.

It's easy to say, I'll go back to school and learn something. Learn fucking what? The fuck am I supposed to learn? When I don't care about anything, I'm not good at anything. And even if I am good at it, I don't care about it. Like, people say, oh, I'm good at art. Yeah, but I don't like doing

art, and I'm not actually very good at it. My art sucks.

It's not good enough for professional work, and I don't care enough. I'm not passionate about it.

There's nothing I want to learn.

Like, what am I going to study? What course am I going to enroll in? And then what job am I going to get? I don't know, because there's nothing I want to do.

I want to buy a house and then I want to put it on Booking and make £150 a night.

So if I put £120 a night and then, I don't know, 20, 25 days a month, I make £3,000 per month. In a year I make £36K. In 5 years, £180K minus 20% taxes, like £140K in 5 years. So if I get a bank loan to buy a house, £150K, It'd take me 5 years to break even,

wouldn't it?

Inflation. Well, I'd increase the price per night to be adjusted for inflation. It's not going to be £120 a night for 5 years.

Prices of hotels gradually increase with inflation, don't they? I'll just do that, wouldn't I?

Take out a mortgage, buy a house, put it on Booking, make $3K a month, 5 years it's paid off, you've got a free house. And then you can just live in it or rent it out or continuing Booking or, I don't know, sell the house.

But buying a house is so risky because very hard to get approved for a mortgage without a job.

Where do I buy the house? Because once you've bought a house, you've— you're stuck with it where it is. You can't move it.

And then getting it all ready so it's safe and follows all the rules to be, um, bookable

might be costly.

Yeah, not easy.

And then you're basically tied to the house, aren't you?

Very difficult.

I wouldn't live in the house. I'd buy the house and then I'd live at my mum's house whilst I rent out my house.

That's my dream.

But it's not really something you do at this stage of life. It's more really like people are much older do that stuff.

Unless you're rich or very successful at a young age.

I watched this guy from Kent, he's got a YouTube channel. I used to watch him, he would buy these cheap houses up north or in Wales for like 60, 70K. Fix them up and rent them out. But you have to regularly do these 5-6 hour car trips up north to check out the properties.

It seems like a lot of work.

What the fuck just happened?

What was that?

Wait there.

What? Oh, I missed that.

I

need 30% deposit for buy to let. I thought it was 20%.

Yeah, so if you want to get like $200K house, you need to put down $40K deposit. It's crazy.

I don't have $40K.

嗯。

Yeah, the whole house idea is just

Way too difficult and risky.

What's the plan after Kick money dries up? I hate that phrase, dries up. Why can't you say runs out?

I don't know. Either I gotta get a job or I move back in with my mum.

And then I just do Uber Eats or BeLivery, and I do some late night YouTube dreams. Maybe I can scrap together £1,000 a month.

What's the plan when the food dries up and we're all starving? What's the plan when the meteor hits the Earth and you're the only one left alive?

Only 2 options: move back in with my mum. I make bare minimum wage on YouTube, or I have to go and get a fucking job.

Other factor is if I have a girlfriend or not by that point. And are we gonna live together or not? Like, how, how's that gonna work?

Because I don't know, she can get a job and then I can go out and do Uber Eats, and then we should be able to make enough money.

I

think the vape's bad for my sickness.

A vape must be good for

something. ROG Xbox Ally review, the curse of Xbox. Calm down, Dave2D.

So dramatic.

Ding ding ding ding.

I don't know if I can feel the nicotine more after not having it for a bit. You kind of become immune to it if you have it too much, don't you?

Come on, market, do something.

Really don't know what's gonna become of my life. Either I make a breakthrough and make— become a famous day trader,

or Kick just never dies, making this great money for the rest of my life, slave to streaming.

Or I suck it up and just go and get a job, and I'm like, oh, it's not so bad actually.

Or I revitalize my YouTube channel. I don't know, who knows what's gonna happen. I don't know what's gonna happen.

Trying to predict what's gonna happen in your own life, you might as well try predicting the stock market.

Hair's getting long now.

The nice thing about buying a house is that much cheaper to pay off a mortgage than it is to pay rent, isn't it?

Decide on actions that will improve your life.

Uh, like what?

It's easy to say that, but I don't know what.

Yeah, but I would hate having a job more than I hate streaming. I hate streaming, but I definitely know I'd hate having a job more.

I don't like streaming. It's boring.

I like eating pot noodle and I like having sex.

Get me a job doing those things.

I want to have sex with a massive pot noodle.

Hello, Hillary Carrot. No, I'm not okay. I'm having an existential crisis.

How about you?

I can't even play video games without getting bored.

Yeah, but there's no video games I want to play.

It does sound like the best job,

and I could be doing it now, but I don't want to. I tried earlier, so boring. I'd rather just be bored than play a game.

It's funny how every day we just whine and complain about the same thing— being bored and money.

And then my whole existence is just being bored

and worrying about money.

I haven't even turned on my Switch 2 in weeks. Maybe I'll sell it. What would I do if I had infinite money? I'd do nothing. I'd get bored and then just have sex.

Yeah, it would just be the same as now but without the stress of having to stream.

I'd just, I don't know, I'd buy a TV and I'd put on a show and I'd sit back and I'd eat a pot noodle and I'd have a relaxing time.

No, I can't do that stuff because I got a stream. I don't have time to sit there watching TV every time. All the time I have, I've got to stream.

No, you're not allowed to do watch party. It's not allowed to monetize watch party or gambling.

Which is weird because I thought— well, I guess they don't want you to gamble unless it's Stake.com because then you'd be advertising their competitors.

End of the day, it's all about Stake.com for them, isn't it? That's all they care about.

Oh, oh, for fuck's sake.

嗯。

Where everyone tuning in from, guys? Time's it? Nearly 6.

5:40.

Do another hour and then dinner break.

At least the rubbish has gone out today. Finally get rid of it.

I think the black beds go out today. Let me check.

Uh, refuse collection is tomorrow, Thursday.

Okay, where do you want us to be tuning in from? I don't know, where's everyone tuning in from today, guys?

I really hope I don't get a fever.

So I'm really hoping I can see my girlfriend this

weekend,

as long as I can drive. Like, I don't care about the cough or the sore throat. As long as I can drive, that's the main thing.

Maybe I have an orange vitamin C.

That pea and ham soup was so damn good. I've got pizza again. I've had the same pizza for 3 meals— yesterday's dinner and today's lunch, and then the last bit of it I have for today's dinner.

Orange. Come on, market. Tank. I got a new short open.

Well, thank you.

I'm up. 2 pounds.

I'm up 4 pounds,

tanking.

Oh, I'm up

£5. Tankin'.

What are you gonna do with the £5? Nothing.

I have to make back £2,000 for my CFD account to not be down £2,000 over 5 years.

My goal is I gotta get my P&L into the green, but I'm down £2,200.

So yeah, that's my goal, really.

Chipping away at it

trade by trade.

Where everyone tuning in from? Okay.

Where the guys are.

Don't know what to do anymore. Don't know what to do with my life.

Dr Disrespect still playing Battlefield 6. He really loves that game.

Why was it so boring when I played it?

Why does it look fun when he's playing it, but when I played it, it was really boring? That's what I don't get.

Market at risk of 5 to 10% drawdown.

Where everyone tuning from?

Come on, Mark Tank. I'm up £2.

It's always got a bounce on some little cluster of previous support.

Wow, thank you.

I'm up £5.58. I'm up £5.71.

Probably gonna bounce a lot around here.

Yeah, I might as well rent the second house nearby at this rate.

Maybe I will get the ball rolling,

but then to do a viewing, I've got to drive all the way there, don't I?

But then she's gonna be freaked out if I suddenly just move near her.

Ask her if you want me to move closer.

Well, I don't think she would say yes. She's not like that.

Would be creepy if you move closer without saying anything. Yeah, kind of.

We're neighbors now. Just to let you know.

No, if we live together, then I'm really fucked. How am I going to stream?

I thought he'd be able to stream like 5 hours a day.

I'm up £6.20.

I told her I'm a day trader.

Crypto millionaire.

Come on, Marco, just fucking tank. Really gonna tank? Want my money.

I am a day trader. I'm trading now. I made £26 today so far. Currently gonna make another £5.

My total earnings today, £30.

Whoa, tanking! I'm up £9.

Whoa, I'm up £10.

Whoa, I'm up £11!

Take profit, come on, £12! Yo, £13! Fucking yes!

Took profit, take profit triggered. Just made another £13, guys.

I am a genius.

I told you it was going to tank.

I made—

today I made

13, 13, Plus £13.53, plus £12.20, £12.75. I made £39.41 today trading.

My total P&L, minus £2.170.

That was a nice little trade.

Damn, it's just ripped right down and tanked into my take profit.

I made £40 day trading.

Now if it keeps on tanking, I've got this other short here,

but if it rips, I've got this long here, so I can't lose really.

If it goes up, I'll take profit on my longs. If it goes down, I take profit on my shorts. Can't lose.

Made £40. I made £60 yesterday. I'm on a tear.

And you people think day trading is a scam.

Stocks and shares, aye sir. I'm not doing good today, down £46

because Bitmine tanking. But

gold ripping.

Now, is it gonna bounce? I wonder. We'll keep tanking.

What do you mean I lost £6? I made £40.

Didn't lose nothing.

How much money to spend today?

250. Ah, spend another 250.

Jesus, I spent £1,930 this month.

Can you believe it?

Oh God, market tanking more. Shouldn't have sold, I'm sure.

Damn it, still tanking.

How has sitting in cash outperformed me? Has cash gone up? 25% in 2 months.

Fuck are you talking about?

Okay, Dante, you're banned. Go fuck off. You don't know what being an annoying prick means, because that's what you are. Don't fucking patronize me, you fucking bitch.

Get the fuck out of here. No one gives a shit about your stupid fucking house or kids or whatever the fuck you do. Bragging about your stupid fucking life. No one gives a fucking shit about you. Shut the fuck up, prick.

Bante is a stupid, smug fucking prick who laughs about, oh, I'm just painting my brand new house guys whilst my 3 kids are at school after I BJ'd my wife. Shut the fuck up. No one's buying your bullshit.

Comes here laughing like he's some successful family man with investments in a fucking house so he can like look down on us. Fucking bullshitter. Get the fuck out of my stream.

Why would I not know what sitting on cash— of course I fucking know what sitting on cash means, you fucking prick.

It means instead of having investments, you just hold cash.

Insult my fucking intelligence, get the fuck out of here. Fucking prick.

Thinks he's so smart, but he doesn't know when to keep his fucking mouth shut.

Stupid fucking cunt.

Oh, hello, Taka Taka! Where are you tuning in from tonight?

Yeah, obviously if I just never invested and I just had my cash, I would have done better. No shit,

stupid thing to say. But since after The big losses. Obviously my investments have done better than cash. Stupid dipshit.

Which part of the timeline are you going to cherry-pick to make your stupid fucking point?

I'm still crashing. Really shouldn't have taken profit. I would have been up— oh, I would have been up like £30 if I didn't take profit.

All right, V, Kwaj, your band agreeing with dancing. Get out of here.

Do not piss me off.

Not telling you what's so funny because you don't deserve it for making me mad.

Damn, Bitmain's gonna tank back down to the 40s.

Can't talk about it.

Are we bouncing here or what?

Oh, down more.

What

time is it? 6:20. 40 minutes, then dinner break.

I'm having leftover pizza and bowl of grapes for dinner.

Where everyone tuning in from?

I tried Guinness last weekend. I didn't like it. It's got a weird taste when you swallow. It has like a weird aftertaste I didn't like.

Rubbish going out tonight. I don't know why I feel kind of disappointed. I didn't like the Guinness, cuz it looks like it would taste good, and it was such a successful company, you think it would taste amazing, but tastes like rubbish. It's like black coffee with— it's like black coffee made with gutter water. That's what it tastes

like,

with old man's raincoat from the pub squeezed into it. And I like beer, but it's not a beer, is it? It's a stout, whatever the fuck that is.

What's the difference between a stout, a lager, a beer, an ale? I don't know.

Last time I had beer was at my mum's house. I got Corona and I got San Miguel.

But you need good food with the beer, don't you? Like fish and chips or kebab.

Haven't heard you say beer in ages. Yeah, I kept saying beer. Remember I kept saying coffee as well for coffee? What do I say now?

Coffee.

I don't know why the Japanese say coffee like kohi when there's a fee sound in Japanese. Why don't they just call it coffee? Why they gotta call it kohi? They have a fee sound in katakana. Why not just say coffee?

Coffee, like a New York accent.

A smoker jacket? What, this? It's my bathrobe. It's not a jacket.

Where everyone tuning in from, guys? 嗯。

14 minutes until dinner break.

That means I did,

uh, 4

plus 4, 8 hours, and then I do 3 after dinner. That'll get me to 11 hours.

Do I enjoy life or am I just enduring it?

I like life 20% of the

time. 80%, 80% of the time is shit.

80%...