Kick Livestreams/had a little break but i'm back! 2025-07-07 00_02 [63760331-had-a-little-break-but-im-back]

Testing. So I had a little break, just been feeling kind of burnt out recently, but I'm back.

No, no, Kit Hill. The weather's terrible. So windy and rainy.

What is wrong with this country? Nearly middle of July and weather is horrible still. You think it's summertime now.

Missed out on so much money. Yeah, like $80 maybe.

2, 5.

Yeah, like $80 maybe.

Oh no, I just felt really down. I did try to set up the Bella Box thinking about going out, and then I couldn't set it up. It— something went wrong again, but I fixed it. But by the time I fixed it, I couldn't be bothered. It was already too late, middle of the day,

and the weather just got worse and worse.

I want to go out when it's nice and be in a good mood.

No, it's too late. I'll get there and it'll be nearly 4.

It's like getting dark, and it was really cold as well and windy.

Really frustrating. So I want to test out the Bella Box. I finally got it fixed. I couldn't connect the Samsung to it for some reason. The iPhone would connect, so the Samsung wouldn't. Now I finally found out how to fix it.

Basically, you just got to set the hotspot band to 5 GHz instead of auto or 2.4, and then it works perfectly. It's really weird. It took me hours of of just randomly clicking buttons to finally figure out what the problem was.

Just switch everything off and on again until something changes. That's how you do tech.

Also, I don't think I'm gonna send the Switch back. I started playing it again today. I just think if I'm gonna start, start streaming a bit later, have some time to myself, It's really nice to just relax and play some Mario Kart. So I'm going to keep the Switch too.

No, I don't go outside after 3 PM. That's my rule, because that's when the youths come out. I go out early and I come back early. I don't want to be stuck outside late.

All the hooligans start coming out with their girlfriends, smoking their weed.

Well, I don't know. So you try and connect your phone to a hotspot and it just spins around and nothing happens. How are you supposed to know that you're supposed to change the band to 5 GHz when Copilot is telling you that S10+ struggles with 5 GHz and it does better on 2.4? Actually, it's the opposite.

So I had a nice break,

um, kind of like returning back to how life was before Kick with some Bobby time, Mario time, alone time. I feel in a better mood. I was getting really stressed out and very angry all the time.

And I've got to eat these donuts quickly before they go off.

It's really hard to eat donut without a plate and the sugar gets everywhere.

Yeah, I need some alone time. Uh, it's like being stream all time, it's like Being with someone in the same room all day long, I start getting irritated.

I need some time to just stop talking and think, like, think about different stuff.

Yeah, I feel a bit better, I guess.

Also,

I don't know if Crip's actually gonna come, to be honest.

So she texted me this morning saying that she hurt her back and she's leaving the camp. And she said the doctor said she has herniated a disc and it could take months to recover. I said, so are we still meeting or what? And she didn't reply. So she just texted me and then disappeared.

So I don't know what's going on.

If she really herniated a disc, probably shouldn't fly. Flying would not be good on a herniated disc.

So I don't know if she's like just messing around or— at first she says she can't get the passport because the post office is on strike. That was like 3 months ago.

It does not take 3 months to get a passport. Now this herniated disc thing.

So I'm feeling more and more like more and more excuses and putting it— is he getting cold feet or what?

Just more like endless excuses and post office strike and 3 months to get a passport. Seriously, it takes like 10 days to get a passport max.

Now everyone else also seems to agree she's just like messing me about.

She said she'll join the stream later today, so I guess we can ask her.

But she's been talking about coming to meet me since, what, April? It's now July. You're still saying you don't have the passport?

So yeah, I need to find out what's going on with that. I mean, if it's true, And she actually herniated a disc,

then she can't come, can she? Until

October, maybe.

But I want to go to Thailand.

Maybe she's going to be like, oh, I can't meet you in the UK. I'll be better in November. We can meet in Thailand. Maybe she just doesn't want to come to UK and she'd rather come to Thailand. I don't know.

And then that other British girl, she unfollowed me and I don't know if she blocked me because I can't— the profile says user not found now. So I don't know what happened to that British girl. She was like, hey, you're really cute. Are you single? And then I try to talk to her. She replied three times, and

now she doesn't reply. And her profile says user not found. Looks like she blocked me or something.

Why would you block me? You messaged me first. The hell?

Maybe because I showed a picture on the stream. I don't know.

So yeah, we're losing the girls. They're dropping like flies.

I guess we'll find out if Kbug is a flake as well. If I say, oh, you can come now because Crypt's not coming, she'll be like, hmm, what's the next excuse? Oh, you have to wait until Crypt's back gets better, then I'll come see you. Yeah, yeah, okay, whatever. All these girls, massive waste of time, aren't they?

The only one left is AJ.

Kbug messages me almost every day, so I don't know why you think she's not interested.

Saying what? I don't know, like, how are you? How's your day? She sent me some pics as well.

I don't know. I feel like a paradigm shift has happened. Something feels different, like something's off. My spider sense tingling.

Maybe with the everyday endless streaming, it's like showing how boring my life is and now they lost interest.

At least with the videos, it seems like I've got a crazy life.

I don't know, you just can't trust anything these girls say, can you? Like I said to Sunny, I take everything you say seriously. And then Sunny goes, well, yeah, and you should. And I thought, well, I obviously shouldn't have. Because nothing you said actually stuck, so I shouldn't have taken anything you said seriously.

If I just never took anything Sunny said seriously, it would have saved a lot of headache because she basically meant nothing she said.

So yeah, I don't know. I think we have to start creating contingency— contingency plan where none of these girls come through, and I got to get back on dating apps. Seems like that's what's going to happen.

I mean, no girls are going to come from Kik. My YouTube's dead. The Turkey Tom thing's done. I can't get any views on YouTube. No one cares about anything I'm doing on YouTube.

So it seems like my only option is back on dating apps.

I would like to plan a new, like, meet a girl, move in with her, secretly stream. At some point. Just trying to figure out like, um, photos cloaking devices. I want to get the new Samsung Flip 7 to make new dating apps, and also it's good for streaming and might get some views on YouTube.

We haven't banned all of them, but I can get back on for a few weeks before they ban me again. I should probably make a new Line as well, because most of these girls use Line.

Where's my iPhone?

What time is it in Canada?

10? 10 AM.

Do you think she's sleeping?

I guess it was early morning for the rest of the earlier part of the day.

I don't know why she's not replying.

Her back literally got blown out. That's pretty funny. She said that she was carrying a canoe.

Said, I hurt my back. I should be back on Tuesday or Wednesday.

Back where? From the camp. But today's Sunday.

Where is the camp? Is it really far? I guess it's really far from her house. If you can see the aurora borealis, it must be pretty up north.

She said, I carried a canoe by myself on a deserted island. Okay.

Yep. And my house burnt down and my grandmother caught on fire. Sure.

Yeah, she said something like a reservation camp chief, something. I know, like Native American stuff.

Yeah, sure. My grandmother caught on fire going down the stairs in her wheelchair, and I can't come over tonight. Sorry.

So now we got no Moon. Maybe Moon can come back. No Moon, no Cake, no Crypt.

K-Bug unlikely. AJ possibly, but friends only.

Oh, not looking good, is it, for Hot Boy Summer? I thought I was gonna nut my brains out.

Hot boy summer ruined.

And it's not even hot, it's raining and it's windy every fucking day. I can't even go out and do IRL and use my Bella Box because the weather's so Fucking shit. So I'm stuck in my house going insane, raging at viewers,

losing viewers too. Lost Walamo now, lost Moon, because I raged at them.

It's not very good.

I need to stop raging.

I think I need to cut down on the streaming hours. Like, not start before lunch unless we're going out. If we're going out, I'd start. So I got this new idea. I set up a remote control for my desktop, and it's pretty good. It's on the phone's app. And it just connects to your computer and you, you

like use your hand to move the mouse around. So I'm thinking I just drive to the place and then use the remote app and press go live instead of wasting time doing the driving bit and just start the stream from the place, the location. Thinking of doing that. I'm just hoping the app actually works because if I

get to the place and I don't know, the app doesn't work for some reason, well, I gotta go all the way back home again. Because I don't know how to go live from the Bella Box straight to Kick.

So yeah, um, I don't know about tomorrow. I guess since I'm not returning the Switch, I don't need to wait for UPS, which means I can just go straight to the post office.

Um, but I don't know if I'll start the stream in the house Or start it when I get to the post office and try out the remote thing.

I'm not returning the Switch because I had realized I need some time alone, um, and before I start the stream, I think it's quite good to play a bit of Mario Kart.

So I just need some hours to do nothing, like, uh, doomscroll, Mario Kart, maybe wank, and lunch. I think this is going to be my new routine. I'm going to lose money though.

Maybe I start like 1:00, 1 or 2, and And that would give me 12 hours.

Yeah, I re-downloaded Mario Kart and reinstalled my profile,

so I guess people got scammed again.

Oh God, these predictions are not good because I keep changing my mind.

Everyone's getting scammed.

Well, I would have returned it if the UPS person came on time,

but now it's mine.

Oh, is that Cripps messaging me?

Oh, it's not Cripps. It's this other weird American girl that messaged me years ago, and then she recently messaged me again saying, marry me for citizenship to the US and Canada so I can have England. Just trolling, isn't she?

She says she's got dual citizenship for Canada and America,

but I don't want to live there.

I like England.

Yep. Another weird American girl.

I've been good. How about you?

Yeah, I talked to this one ages ago, but she was kind of weird.

American girls are the worst. They just troll and then they flake and nothing ever happens. Especially that LA girl, the Yuna Tamago girl. Just such a bunch of time wasters.

When has an American girl actually done what she said and pulled through? Never.

They all seem to be broke as well. So they're broke and stuck in America and can't travel anyway. And then they just like talk nonsense.

Yeah, when I was with Moon, Crypt was in the chat all the time saying, oh, just show up at his house. Okay, where are you then? Talk, talk, but no action.

Well, at first I wasn't really interested, but then I thought, hmm, I guess it'll be good for the stream. Plus, I wouldn't mind having some sex,

so I changed my mind about it.

She sent me a voice message. Um, you probably don't even know what free swim with sharks mean. Tell me that you know what that means, please. I have no idea what free swim— free swim with sharks.

I have no idea.

She said she's only there to free swim with sharks. What is that, a euphemism for having sex?

And Crip keeps saying there's like a, a strike, a post office strike in Canada delaying it. But surely it doesn't take months to send a post— I mean,

a passport.

The strike was in May. Yeah,

I don't know. Maybe accelerate my plans to go to Thailand. I can just go tomorrow.

Why does she keep saying voice messages? Okay, so basically, um, you go out in a boat in this one part of Florida. There's 2 places, but I'm going to Jupiter, Florida for a week, and they put like this little water

And, um, you just free swim with like tiger sharks because they have a huge population of different sharks. The biggest are tiger sharks, um, bull sharks, lemon sharks, and you get to get really close to them. And sometimes you have to like redirect them because they're getting too close to you. Um, so that's what I'm gonna do.

So if I'm, if I'm like never online after August, it's Probably because I got eaten by a shark.

Hmm, some people really love voice messages, don't they? TK Sam was like that, who just sent endless voice messages, and I was like, oh my God, play. Play and he speaks so slow. I can instantly read a block of text, but listening to someone do a voice text

takes ages.

Does he really have HIV? People were saying that for years.

Hmm. So I feel like I need to do something, but I don't really know what to do.

I need to meet someone, really. I need to start getting the ball rolling to try and meet someone.

I don't think I'm going to die. My friend who owns the business, she's been doing it for over 7 years, and the whole team that goes out, they've never been even bitten in a bad way. So I'm not that worried about it. I just need to work on holding my breath because right now I can only hold

my breath for around 3 minutes and 10 seconds, and I would like to get to the

You

can fast forward it.

I don't know if I start trying to date around in Devon. I mean, I could do—

or wait until Thailand.

At least I could rant about how boring the dates were or something.

No, it will take some preparation to get it going. First, I need

to sort out some photos.

I've only got one new phone that's never been used before. I don't know how they know that a phone has been banned before. And I don't know how you can change it so the phone doesn't get recognized again.

Factory reset. I don't know if that actually changes it.

This girl, she's always going on about wildlife, like wild cats and now sharks or dogs.

I don't really know what else to say.

Usually Crypt shows up in the chat around dinner time, doesn't she? We need some answers.

It's 10 AM in Toronto, wake up.

Although she might not be in Toronto, she might be at this camp place somewhere. That is, we need some answers.

We were promised content and sex. Where, where is it?

Cripps living rent-free in your head. Well, yeah, she scared off all the other girls, so she better show up.

If it wasn't for Cripps, I might still meet Moon. Who, who knows?

I lost Moon because of Crypt.

Can do everything Thailand has to offer here.

Um,

but it'll bring a bit of excitement back because it'll be a new, new area, new place.

I don't know.

I don't know, really.

God, I wish there was a new Sunny. A new Sunny would be great.

I feel like the main thing holding me back now is this stupid weather. I want to go to places and test out the Bella Box. The weather's just not cooperating. I think Monday is not very good either, but I think after that it's supposed to be sunny. I just want it to not rain.

I wrote, I kind of ditched YouTube for Joe instead of for now.

I feel like, I mean, earlier today I was having existential crisis thinking, why don't I just go to Thailand tomorrow? Really, what's stopping me? I just pack my bag, pack my bell box, laptop, Power bank switch. I just book a ticket and a taxi and let's go. I don't know why something is holding me back mentally.

I don't know why I feel like this,

but it just seems silly to go Thailand when it's warm in England.

Don't you have to pay the chap for the Bella Box? Well, I haven't even used it yet.

This girl gives me Greta Thunberg vibes. But American. She seems like activist, environmentalist, animalist.

Yeah, I'm not really that into animal stuff.

You know, like girls who are really into animals.

I thought maybe I'd go to a zoo. I saw a zoo. There's Dartmoor Zoo, Big Cat Conservatory or something.

Yeah, also I got chocolate on the BattleBox and I can't get it out.

There's like melted KitKat wedged into the gaps and I can't get it out.

Are you at your computer right now, or are you taking your phone?

Are you at your computer right now, or what if you already have a pretty large built-in

How many more viewers would I attract if I had ladyboys? Well, go to a ladyboy bar and just sit there like Suspenders does. Point the camera at myself and the ladyboy, could get good viewers. Like, if I could get 200 viewers, the money would be pretty good. I could do half the stream time for double the money.

So instead of having to do insanely long 15-hour streams to make $250, I could do like 6 hours to make $250. It'd be pretty good.

Nearly cracked. I think I did see it crack 170 at some point when I was doing an IRL.

Oh no, I was eating pot noodle in my conservatory. I got 170, didn't I?

I don't know, I'm struggling to think what I want to

do. Girlfriend would be nice, but

Hmm, which is a lot of effort.

Go to Japan.

I'm scared to stream outside in Japan now. Japanese people seem to hate streamers now.

I'd have to find a super discreet way to stream, like the Flip 7 in my shoulder strap.

Get those Meta camera glasses.

Really, my ideal hope is like another Sunny or another Mina, but first stages, not late stages. First stage Mina and Sunny were great sex and content and lovey-dovies,

and then it blows up. And I get depressed.

Why does Crypt— I don't know, maybe she is awake, but she's working or something, and then she shows up later when she's finished working.

I don't know why she didn't reply to me. I think she did say she's in a place where there's no signal. She has to be like in her tent to get a signal or something. Didn't she say there was Starlink? At the camp, but it's not very good. I don't know, she said something about cooking for the

camp. I wasn't really paying attention to what she was saying, to be honest.

She's like helping out at a camp.

Maybe I can make my own Custom-made bag strap where the phone slots in and disappears. That'd be pretty cool.

Well, maybe you can—

oh,

now I got the Bella Box,

something small like a GoPro would actually work with it. HDMI cable.

I wonder if the GoPro could connect to the Bella Box wirelessly. I think it can because I saw Sam Pepper had a similar setup with a wirelessly attached action cam. You know that little tiny camera I had, the white one? That'd be cool if that could connect to it.

Remember how hard it was for you when your back was bad? Yeah. So if she's got a herniated disc, which I'm pretty sure I didn't have, how is she even moving?

She didn't say anything about not being able to come.

She said, I managed to get a herniated disc in my back. Doctor said it could take months to recover, but I can still walk.

She said, I'll come on the stream later today. Hope you have a good morning. Miss you. I said, sounds bad. Does it affect our plans to meet? And she didn't even read it.

But she didn't say she can't meet or can't fly. She just said she can still walk. But I don't think it'll be very good to fly if you've got a herniated disc.

She said she was carrying a canoe on a deserted island.

So can you have sex if you've got a herniated disc?

Well, seems like she's not coming in August then. She's got a herniated disc.

Doesn't sound very good.

Hmm. How are the earnings from Kick going? Still don't have my second pay. But same as usual, made $190 yesterday for a 12-hour stream.

It's getting lower and lower today. Probably just make $150

because it's what time? 4 o'clock. Done 1 hour already. That's 8, 9. I'll do another 9. I do 10 hours today. If I get $16 per hour, so $160. I was trying to aim for at least $200 a day, but it's hard.

That's why I wanted to go out, because I could fill the morning with outside activities, come back, and like the boring sitting in my room bit starts around 4:00, 4 to 12. Isn't as bad as 11 to 12. Yeah, I'm burning out.

The main problem is I don't know what to talk about. Like, I'm running out of stuff to talk about. There's no people

to meet apart from AJ and Crypt.

And that's a long way off, and I don't even know if Crypt's coming anymore, and then who knows about AJ.

Very dull.

The money's nice, but now I feel pressured to do something. I don't know what to do.

Apart from going to random places in Devon and walking around.

What does my heart want?

My heart wants what I had and lost. Really?

I want what I have now combined with what I had before.

Which was girlfriends

to stream with.

I still— I feel a bit down as well because I still don't have my money. Where's my fucking money?

Better come on Monday, otherwise I'm gonna be pissed.

No money.

They said I get paid weekly. Well, I didn't get paid anything this week.

Yeah, Stripe said I should get my money on the 3rd of July. That was ages ago. I can't wait for the next pay because it should be coming from Revolut this time. See if that's any faster.

What if they just paid me in Bitcoin? I don't know, whatever's faster.

I hate waiting.

Well, on Stripe it says paid, so I guess on their end they've done their job and they've paid the money to my bank, but my bank hasn't given it to me. My bank's stupid.

You know it's coming. I don't know though. Is it? Better be.

It's like Crypt saying she's coming. Is she?

You're begging for a second chance for something better than YouTube.

Yeah, in terms of money, it's better,

but

technically I've got less viewers now because half of them are on YouTube, not here. So I lost half my audience to make more money, which is nice, I guess. But the enjoyment didn't just come from the money. It came from having an audience. Now I lost half my audience.