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I said I was sick,

and then we talked about being sick,

and then I showed her my apple crumble.

Oh, whatever, I'll just forget about it for now. I've already asked her the question. The ball was in her court.

I've got 1 hour until dinner break,

although I'm not very hungry because I just had the soup.

I feel like I've asked every question I can think of

and I've followed up.

I, I don't want to risk asking like the same question I've already asked before.

No, just leave it for now.

Yeah, I already asked about the new job. That's a no-brainer. You think I'm that dumb? Obviously I've already asked about that. I'm not that stupid. It's the most obvious thing to ask about.

I'm so bored of the Rubik's Cube. I don't know how I was so into it. Once you've figured out how to solve it, it's not interesting anymore.

Let's do some pacing

the final hour before dinner break, then I'll be back for 2 hours of noob pornage.

Still got my apple crumble.

I want to go to Tesco and get a glass dish because I don't like this metal tin thing.

A drive might be nice if I'm up for it tomorrow. Where's the other bowl?

Is it in here? Oh, might take a multivitamin.

If I just take 5 of them, what happens?

I get so stressed out about this texting thing.

So jealous of my granddad. In those days, you just send a letter once a month. Because you build up a lot of stuff to talk about over a month, and then you'd be able to easily fill it out. So first you start off with, oh, things have been hectic at the army base. We killed 20 Germans and

I nearly blew myself up. It's been ever so long since I've seen you, and my groin lusts for your bosom. How have you been? Is so-and-so still visiting you.

I saw this twig on the battlefield and it reminded me of the twig that fell on your head when we went on our first date. I must go now, war beckons. See you soon, love, Philip. That's like the part you talk a bit about yourself, you ask about them, you bring up a romantic memento That's somehow related

to something you've done together.

Like this texting stuff. I mean, I like texting and feeling connected, but sometimes your mind just goes blank and then you get accused of not being interested.

God, seems like a rock. Oh, what? I need a chisel. This is like a flapjack.

Who wants apple crumble?

Stuck to the pot.

It's not fair. So if I'm honest and I say, um, to be honest, I really struggle with texting. Please don't take it the wrong way. As a heads up. But I don't really think it helps.

It's like, oh sorry, I have a tendency of randomly punching people in the face, so I'm sorry if it happens.

I mean, it doesn't make it any better when it happens.

Well, I did warn you I randomly have a tendency to punch people in the face. Did tell you, didn't I?

I'm just quite happy my laundry dries inside of the house. I thought, how the hell am I going to do laundry when it's winter? Dries just fine. Weird, it doesn't dry in the conservatory, but it dries here.

I don't understand. I thought it would dry better in the conservatory.

Don't be emotionally vulnerable. I'm extremely insecure and vulnerable right now. This has been a big unexpected wet slap in the face.

Tomorrow, you know, I mean, it really sucks that I'm sick because I can't even go out really.

I wouldn't mind going for a drive. Get some fresh air. Get some fresh air.

I wouldn't mind going to the big Tesco, get some glass bowls.

You know what's really cool? You get a house and you fix it up, and then it sounds cool because you got the money to buy a house, and then you can like show her the house. What progress? She like come around and help out.

Like getting a house is kind of exciting and cool, isn't it? And it's mature.

I would love to be able to buy a house. Maybe that can be my goal. I get some shitty house. The problem is I can't film it because I don't— if I'm gonna buy a house, I'm not gonna dox it. No way.

So it's not going to be usable for content, which sucks because doing a house sub is extremely time-consuming. So how am I going to stream and do the house?

And then the fucking trolls are going to be relentless trying to find out where it is. So I wouldn't even have— I wouldn't want to mention it.

It'd be so great if I could just stream myself fixing up the house, because then I could work on the house whilst making money. Otherwise I've got to get a job, and if I get a job, that means I don't have time to fix up the house.

And you realize so many other people also have a house.

I

want a cute little stone cottage with a fireplace.

How the hell did Foster buy a house? How the hell did that goat herping guy buy a house as well?

Probably put down a big deposit. I mean, I could probably get a mortgage. I'll put a 50% deposit.

Where am I going to get £100,000 from?

I can't even get 10K.

I got 7K, but if you minus all my debts, I've actually only got 4K.

Yeah, I think GoHyping went to some shady mortgage broker.

Didn't he? Like a loan shark.

This just sucks that I can't show the house if I ever got one, so I wouldn't want to dox it.

Yeah, I'm in the snotty coughing phase of the sickness, which means it must be nearly over, although the coughing can last for a couple weeks.

Why am I always looking at my driveway? I'm not always looking at it. I just have it up. It doesn't mean I'm always looking at it. It's like I always have my fireplace there. Doesn't mean I'm always looking at it.

I mean my heater, not my fireplace.

645.

I kind of want to build a gaming PC. That's what's interesting me right now.

I'm gonna get it on a 4— 2-year— I mean, a 2-year 0% interest plan, £100 a month.

But I don't really see how it's going to help me make money because I can already play Battlefield 6. The problem is the internet, not my computer, because the small map works just fine. The large-scale map is a lag fest, and it's ping, not,

uh, hardware-based.

It like triggers me more knowing that.

At this time now, I should be with her.

Like, when plans change, first it hurts, but then it— like, secondary punch to the gut is when the time comes when you were planning to be together and then you're not. Then you keep thinking, ah, she was— I was supposed to be with her at this time.

Although I might not have been very good company since I didn't realize I'd still be this sick, so maybe it's all for the best.

So you'd think getting a job is a good idea because you make more money, but then actually I'd make the same money because instead of streaming I'd be doing the job.

Like, if I didn't have the streaming, and then yeah, getting a job would make sense. To hunker down and grind out hours,

but I'm already doing that,

so

Unless I can get a job that pays more than this, which would be hard.

Unless I get some training,

a forklift license. Knowing my luck, I get a forklift license and then I'm the one who crashes all the shelves down and the whole warehouse collapses.

Yeah, really, I don't know how you make more than minimum wage. You got to get some kind of training, really.

Amazon was the only way to get more than minimum wage if you're quick. You get paid £60 and then you finish in 2 hours, you basically got £30 an hour, but you can only do that Twice a day max.

It's quite hard work actually doing the 4-hour block. I would never take the 4-hour blocks. They were so much harder than the 3-hour blocks. Difference between having 45 parcels and 32 parcels to deliver. So that last 10, 12 parcels is killer.

Even doing Amazon every day, double block, sometimes triple blocks, most I made was £1,600 a week— I mean, a month.

That's still not very good.

I mean, Amazon claim it's not full-time.

Because if you do too many blocks, they'll stop showing you blocks

to like limit how much you can do per week.

I was going really hard on Amazon and best I could do was 1,600. I think 1,600 to live here with my spending is not enough.

Yeah, because I'm doing stupid things like booking a hotel every week. I'm like booking a hotel every week and living here. She must think, Jesus, how does he afford it?

Jobs to market their company products on TikTok. Would I do that?

No, I don't have the charisma.

He's like really smiley face and positive energy. I keep getting bombarded with BetterHelp ads recently. They're so annoying.

They're like, I started using BetterHelp and recently it's been so great. This is stupid. I don't know how they do that.

Oh my God, guys, I've been using BetterHelp and it really helps me so much.

I thought BetterHelp was a scam. I thought like a bunch of YouTubers were exposing it, saying that they had unlicensed therapists on it.

At least you're not losing an eye. Well, at least you're not maybe losing your girlfriend.

No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no,

no, no, no, no. Yeah, I could do the voice, but having to see the face as well is a lot harder. Like, you can fake your voice easier than you can fake your face. Fake your face all day long, how about that?

I wonder if I felt this way when I was in Japan married as well. I felt like, yeah, I'm good with money, getting paid well from YouTube, but I don't know, I don't feel fulfilled was what I was thinking back then. Like, I want to become bigger

and get more views.

Hard to sell my ambition then, I guess.

7:47 minutes left. And then break for dinner, and then remaining 12 hours. Baffled, baffled.

Do you think farmers actually care about feeding people?

Do they actually wake up every day thinking, I feel so great that thanks to people like me, people have food?

Because they can't be doing it for the money. The money can't be very good. Farmers keep moaning about how they're gonna go bankrupt.

And then it's a lot of work, isn't it? So why do they do it? Because it's the only thing they know how to do. I mean, what else are you going to do? Go work at Tesco? But maybe if I had a farm and I grew up on a farm and I knew how to farm, I'd rather

sit in the tractor going up and down the field all day than do some stupid Tesco job.

I can't believe me, Dave Gibbs, and my mum went bike riding on my school friend's farm. That was my friend's house. He used to live there. That whole farm, that was his dad's farm. I used to hang out there all the time when I was a kid. Used to go sledging.

I can't believe they've gotten rid of all the old sheds. And outhouses. It used to be like these old concrete-looking things with wooden doors and full of junk, and now it's like modern big metal steel metal thing like on Clarkson's Farm.

Guess farming business can't be that bad for money if they can afford all that.

Bet he loves that Clarkson's Farm show.

But he met Caleb and he's like, oh, I shook his hand, I sucked his knob off too.

The hell kind of name is Caleb anyway? Doesn't sound very English. He looks more like a John

or a Joseph. Call it Josh.

Biblical name. Not as good as Daniel though, is it? The prodigal son. Jesus's best friend, he was.

Oh, I feel dizzy from walking up and down.

Aren't all names biblical?

And they're either like John, Peter— isn't— aren't those Jewish names as well? Hebrew names? What are some Abrahamic names?

We know Muhammad is the Islamic name.

I can't believe I've been in this house for 10 months now. 9 months, actually.

It's funny how it looks exactly the same as 9 months ago as well.

The only thing that's different is I put my laundry rack over there and there's a minion on the wall.

I don't really know what else to do with it.

It's like frozen in time.

Yeah, I know I was saying that if I end up alone again, I'm gonna go back to my mum's house. I don't know about that now. I think I need to hold fast. And stay strong.

I'll just go date— go dating again.

This time I'll alter my strategy a little bit. I think I've learned some lessons from this.

Attempt. Oh damn, I should have put the apple crumble in a container, not a bowl. It needs to go in the fridge.

I think, I think, uh, no, I think— where'd I get these? Made in India.

I don't know if this was a takeaway that I got with that.

Does that fit?

No. Maybe this fits.

Yes. Excited to try my apple crumble. I have less of an appetite today.

Now I've got to wash this.

This one, the lid doesn't close.

Isn't it funny that, um, I'm scared to meet people because I'm scared of the awkward silence and I don't know what to talk about, but I

don't want to be all alone either.

Isn't that weird? Like, weird paradox, contradiction.

Like, maybe I want to be with someone and not talk.

No, she hasn't said anything important. Things just back to normal, like chatting-wise, like no change.

She probably doesn't think it's a big deal, like, oh, it's only 2 weeks.

If I freak out over 2 weeks, then she's gonna think, oh my God, he's so controlling.

Yeah, no one wants to be with a control freak.

I mean, I am pretty controlling, I guess.

Don't know why I'm like this. Now, any other guy would be like, oh great, now I've got more time to focus on my projects and hang out with my mates and work on my car.

I mean,

what would Andrew Tate say?

Oh, hello Hugh Anus, how are you doing tonight? Where are you tuning in from?

Manchester.

How's good old Beef and Tower doing?

Did you say, uh, yeah, I did.

Not a fan of Manchester. They should rename it to Womanchester.

Should rename it to Theychester, to Themchester.

Gold up 1% today.

Should I buy some gold on my CFDs? I don't know why I only trade NASDAQ 100 with CFDs.

I could short gold.

I could buy £6,400 worth of gold on margin. 嗯，卡普斯教員みたい的。

Local life.

What they got going on?

Book society.

Football, community scheme, YMCA,

bored.

Maybe I'll join a football club.

Have I ever went clubbing? Yeah, I think just once. With David Bond. I just sat at the bar drinking my Red Bull and rum. I think it was a Red Bull and whiskey, I can't remember. Back in 2017,

David Bond was this pickup artist YouTuber.

He kind of disappeared. Into the jungles of the Philippines.

Maybe they got some kind of Japanese class in Plymouth.

Kyoko Japanese.

Oh, I just don't want to do anything.

We must see a therapist.

Why do I not want to do anything? Like, what's wrong with me? Everyone else is like, oh, I want to do this, I wish I had the money to do that, oh, I want to do this. Why don't I want to do anything? Am I broken?

I don't get it.

Like, I want a girlfriend, but then all I want to do is sit on the sofa and watch Netflix

and go to Tesco.

I was thinking I'd buy a typewriter. And I write a novel because it's got like that old world kind of charm. And then you create something that's physical. My manifesto.

I'll type out my entire life from my earliest memory.

I like the sound of the typewriter typing.

Oh God, I'm getting lightheaded.

I really— energy levels really started dropping

the later it gets.

And tomorrow the long weekend starts. No stocks, no girlfriend.

Today we're reviving a great British tradition, carving up the Middle East. Welcome to Middle Easters Take Off, and let's see who's making off with the most today. We're joined by 2 of the world's Most despicable bastards! Benjamin, what have you cooked up? It's called Casa Mess. Mess? It's destroyed! Thank you, just how I like it. Talk me

through your process. First, I allow it to simmer. Kept it at boiling point for 2 years, whipped up the rhetoric, and then dropped hundreds of thousands on it. Oh, them sprinkles? No, bombs.

Now let's meet our second. Why does that Yahoo sound like a New York accent? What about you, Donald? Oh, this looks a bit rough. I call it my cake of peace because it was a piece of cake, just like the negotiations were. It looks like it could fall apart quite easily and a bit off-bake. There's not been

a cake like this probably ever. Everybody gets a slice of it. Some people will get a little more than others. In fact, I deserve that the most. I baked it while everyone else watched. United Kingdom, where's United Kingdom? Is Kingdom here? Today is a great day in the— it's nice spitting everything back.

United Kingdom.

Oh God, I'm getting a headache.

What do you think PewDiePie does with his gaming computer with 10 graphics cards in it?

Why do you need so many graphics cards?

What's he doing playing Minecraft?

Oh God, 28 minutes.

I don't know if I can do it.

Why is everyone— should I play Sims tonight? Yes, you should.

Definitely do it.

Ah.

What time is it?

7. I could break an hour back at 8. 2 hours till 10.

That means I would have done 5,

7—

no, wait, 5, 7 and a half. I need 2 and a half hours more to get to 10 hours.

Yeah, we talked today. All day long, just like usual.

I don't think she thinks of it as a big deal like I do, that we aren't meeting.

Oh God, sickness is making me very sleepy.

You cried yesterday? Yep.

Were you entertained?

Thank you for the content. Wow, you just want me to suffer, don't you?

I just want to see me break down and cry.

So glad 200 of my biggest fans here to support me. Through these trying times.

Well, if I end it now, I had to do 2 and a half hours after dinner.

Might be easier with Battlefield.

Try out a new gun, maybe.

I feel like— I don't know why, but when I end the stream, I feel like my brain decompresses

It's like

I can not have to talk without worrying about losing my money. Otherwise, I'll just probably sit here saying nothing.

This format's working better. Yeah,

yeah,

lunch break, dinner break,

cut up the day a bit.

What do you mean he gone again?

I'm still here.

Market's going

up.

I might buy a tiny bit, 0.10 units,

take profit at these equal highs.

Okay, I'm long.

Okay, well, I think I'm gonna break now. For dinner? Well, I'm not gonna have dinner straight away. I'm not really hungry.

I don't know, I might just have apple crumble.

Really sucks that 2 things happen at the same time— getting sick and no girlfriend.

Yeah, I made homemade apple crumble. Turned out pretty well.

Well, I'm gonna break now. I'll see you in about an hour, I guess. What time is it?

7:20. I'll try and come back at 8. And at 10, go to bed.

See you back here in a minute. Ah.