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Um, testing.

Give stock advice?

Oh God, I'm not the person to ask that.

I lost so much money today.

Just an insane day.

I'm down thousands.

Started off the day so well

and then the whole market just crashed.

Nearly 5% drop

on the NASDAQ.

You might think, oh, just 5%. That's nothing. Yeah, well, when you're leveraged 20 times, 5% becomes 100%. No, I'm

not working a job yet.

You know, the funny thing is I actually made money,

um, shorting,

but because the whole account is fully long in like long-term holdings,

the account balance got wrecked.

I don't know why it happened.

Nvidia earnings were good,

uh, job reports were good.

I don't know, like people saying stuff like Epstein list or whatever, Saudi prince trillion dollar, blah blah blah.

So yeah,

started off the day at £1,500, currently at £800. £700 loss. Uh, stocks and shares ISA down

£366 in total. You know, people are saying, uh, quantum computing is It could destroy the thing that protects crypto, like making it pointless. Then

I think the, the founder of Ethereum saying that, saying that by 2028 quantum computing could like bypass the security measures that makes crypto secure.

I mean, imagine after all this crypto actually just becomes like zero.

Just like the tulips. I'm still 37%, so I'm 12% away from margin called.

I mean, I've already been margin called, which is at 25% health. You start getting closed out unless you top it up.

I top it up and then it'll just keep tanking. I mean, I've already topped it up with £1,000 over the last month or two.

So if you take off the £1,000 I topped it up with, the account's blown.

The account would be minus £200. Account's blown. If I didn't top it up. I keep feeding money into it and it keeps gobbling it up.

Yeah, I did really well sniping shorts. I made like £150,

but obviously that's not going to make up for the massive losses from the longs, which I always have open because I'm like thinking that it's going to go up towards the end of the year and in general.

I mean, if I just did what I said I was going to do and close everything and like only do day trades, I would have done well today. But for some reason, I like can't close everything out and start fresh.

It's really annoying because I don't know, I did pretty well yesterday and I did pretty well today

on day trades, but because the things I'm holding that are not day trades are like dragging me down.

Ah, what am I gonna do? I lost my Kick money, I lost my YouTube.

Really screwed. It's just funny how it all happens at the same time.

You know, it'd be nice if I lost the Kick money, but you know, stocks were doing well.

Same thing happened last time I was in financial crisis. Stocks were down. Yeah, it was April.

I remember back in April I was like really worried about money

and the stocks all crashed because of the Trump tariff thing and I had to sell things otherwise I'd start getting charged interest with a credit card.

I don't know why, like when I was doing really well with money when I was on Kick for 4 months, stocks were doing really well and I felt like really confident and everything.

And I was piling all the Kick money into stocks and it did well for a bit, you know, I was up £500 on gold.

And if I just kept the— I mean, gold has not even moved today. Look at gold.

If I just kept all the gold and I got, you know, I got bored with gold because it wasn't moving after it moved up a lot. So I thought, okay, I'll switch it into something more volatile like Tesla, and then everything just tanked.

I've got nothing to buy dips with now. My overdraft is £802. Actually,

my overdraft's £800. I only get paid about £100 a week on Kick now.

So I don't know what's gonna happen now. There's been no bee liveries for the last 4 days. There's not been a single bee livery.

Apart from like in the middle of the night.

I literally bought at the very top. That's insane.

I guess you should have known it was over when I closed all my shorts and started going long.

Don't

know.

This month I've only made

£750. You're fucking moron. You will never make money in stocks, and you are clearly addicted to it, just like someone is addicted to gambling. Watching you observe a line going up and down expecting to predict the future is the most pathetic thing I've even seen.

The lesson I learned was that holding stocks overnight or over any time period of time is a losing game. Every time I've held stuff like stubbornly held stuff for months and years, it's just ended up making me lose the money.

If I was just in and out and I took profit quickly and I didn't hold things, it would have been fine. Everyone keeps saying, oh, just buy and hold, buy and hold. Buying and holding is what made me lose all the money.

Oh, thanks, Dai Wang.

So every time I try and like hold and buy and hold, I get burned. At first, maybe I'm up good, like up couple hundred, and I think, oh, this is going good, I'm going to hold it, and then it just crashes. And then I'm bag holding.

I thought I'll just hold it a bit longer, let my account go back up to $2K, and then reset everything. I got so close. I got to like $1,900 and then it crashed.

Oh well, it's too late now, isn't it?

No, I didn't get margin called. I'm still in it. I still got all my longs.

SPY is currently at support, but if it breaks this support, I'm screwed.

The best idea to make money now I have is to go to my mum's house and do Uber Eats at that McDonald's.

Siri says dead.

Believer is dead.

Old people of Devon don't eat McDonald's.

They go to Toby's Carvery and they eat at home proper cooked meals, not eating junk food.

Oh God, I wish I had Amazon Flex still. Would have been pretty helpful.

Well, well, well.

What is Voo?

Flex. I don't know if Flex would be any good in Devon, but there's a bunch of Morrisons, so I would, I would assume that they would have the Flex blocks. Maybe I'd get my mum to sign up to it and then I use her account, but I wouldn't do the logistics because then you end up having to

drive around Plymouth and Exeter and everything.

Especially now I've got a massive car. Doing deliveries in my massive car now would be so much harder than the Peugeot.

Uber Eats is annoying because sometimes you sit there for like half an hour and you get nothing.

So I don't know what I'm gonna do. I've got £800 overdraft to pay. I've got 17 days until rent is due again. I make £150 a week from Kick.

Um,

my savings got decimated today.

I can't believe my Kick money dropped so much.

I do 7 hours a day on Kick. I make about $35.

That's insane.

That's like $5 an hour.

I used to make such good money on it. See, I got 120 viewers on YouTube. If I had that on Kick, I'd be making thousands a month.

Why can't you guys help me out?

YouTube makes F all.

I make like $20 for a 2-hour stream on YouTube, which is better than a 2-hour stream on Kick.

You ban them all? Yeah, cuz the only people who came to Kick were horrible, annoying, toxic people.

So all, all it was was like nonstop toxic chat, so I ended up banning them all. So yeah, it's dead chat and they left, but I just couldn't stand them anymore. The only people who came to Kick were the horrible, toxic, stupid, annoying idiots, weirdo incel red pill types.

Oh, thanks, Jahan.

And the chat was just toxic all the time.

Weirdo freaks came to Kick and

just non-stop trolls. I had to ban like hundreds of troll accounts.

I just got so depressed doing Kick. I missed doing YouTube, but the money on Kick was so good. But now it's rubbish, so I'm back.

Now I banned hundreds of accounts made by the same weirdo freak loser who doesn't have a life.

I finally got rid of the trolls by setting stricter moderation settings. Like, you gotta be a follower for a month, so then they gave up.

Yeah, well, you know what I'm like when something upsets me. I don't really have any self-control. Yeah, I know, it's that fucking loser called Rune.

That guy is like severely mentally ill.

He would sit there. Has he got nothing to do with his day? He'll just sit in the chat all day being annoying, and then he'll make hundreds of accounts.

What the hell is with that guy? Does he have no life or something?

Every day on Discord, had to ban like 10 of his accounts.

God, I hate these people. I don't know how I seem to have attracted the most mentally ill retards on all of the internet.

Had, have like gathered around me for some reason.

I'm so fed up of it.

I can't stand these people.

That's just so lame, and they're such losers.

And that's coming from

me.

I don't build my content around people like them. What are you talking about?

I make content about life in Japan and dating. I don't know why or how these people relate to me. I have no idea. Do they live in Japan? No. Did they have a Japanese wife? No. They're incels? Yeah. How am I an incel?

I literally have a girlfriend right now.

I had a wife. How am I an incel? I don't understand why people think I'm an incel

or why incels feel that I'm relatable.

I've had more girlfriends than you've got fingers and toes. I don't know why people keep labeling me as an incel. I literally have a girlfriend right now. How am I an incel? I don't get it. Why incels flock to me, I just don't get it.

I hate some of my viewers. I really hate them.

I don't say anything incelly.

Name one thing incelly I say.

So you can't even say one example.

I don't know how people have so misunderstood me on the internet.

Completely misunderstood me.

Even people who've been following me the longest don't understand me at all.

You want girlfriend's hair to be long? That's incel-y. Well, it's incel-y to want a woman to look like a woman.

No, I only made about £120, £140 shorting, but I lost like 700, 800 in total from the longs.

I closed out all my shorts. Right before the market tanked, I think a couple weeks ago, and I went all in long. I went all in long around

end of October.

So I went all in short right after the tariff crash happened and the market ripped. I lost nearly $1,000 shorting from April when the market just nonstop ripped, and then I gave up shorting and went long, and now the market is crashing.

You can't make this up, can you?

And now I'm gonna be stubborn about the longs whilst the market crashes, and then I'm gonna give up and I'm gonna switch short, and then the market's gonna go up. Sick and fucking tired of it.

You hold out as long as you can, and then as soon as you give up, it flips. I held Barrick Gold for 3 fucking years,

and as soon as I sell it, it goes from $16 to $38.

I held my shorts since June

for like 5 months. I held it for 5 months waiting for the market to crash, and then as soon as I closed it and gave up, it fucking crashed.

As soon as you capitulate, it flips on you.

Unbelievable. And now you're going to be like, oh, it's going to go back up, so I'm going to hold my longs as it keeps going down and down and down. And then eventually get down so much you can't bear it anymore, and you're like, oh, I'm going short too then. And then it's going to flip.

What are you supposed to do?

It's like a game that's impossible to win.

On Kick, you could be rich. Yeah, I know. I mean, if I had these numbers on Kick, actual viewers and not bots, I'll be making thousands a week. I'll be making like $5,000 in a month. All my financial problems will be solved.

No, I'm still in. It's just, uh,

I still— I got my account balance at 787 now. This morning is 1,500.

No, I don't want to stream if the chat is just full of retards like that Rune guy. I'd rather just let it die, to be honest. I don't want to stream if that's my audience. Fuck that. I'm not being a caretaker in like a special needs— special needs classroom full of retards. YouTube's better because you guys in

the chat on YouTube are just so much more normal.

I don't want to be a streamer if my whole chat is just a bunch of retards. I don't care about the money, I just— I can't stand it.

Yeah, my safety account's at £780 now. Just lost another £7.

I'm, uh, 16% away from getting closed out.

You know, I didn't want to have to do a real job because I hate people and find them really annoying. You know what job not to do if you don't like people? Social media.

Content creation and social media is all about people. I literally chose like the worst job ever because I hate people. They're so annoying. Like, you think, oh, I'm gonna be a YouTuber because I don't like dealing with people. Uh, guess what? Being a YouTuber is fucking dealing with people the entire fucking time, especially as a streamer.

I want a job where you don't— I mean, the whole reason why I wanted to do YouTube was because I thought I didn't have to like directly deal with people face to face.

But dealing with people online is so much more annoying than dealing with them in real life, because at least in real life, people are polite and mostly nice. On the internet, people are fucking annoying.

Now my mum's messaging me. She thinks I actually lost all my money. I really wish my mum would stop watching my YouTube channel. It's really fucking annoying.

People are so much nicer, and you know, they're all normal in real life as well, and you only have to interact with them for like a minute or two.

I gotta deal with you people all day, all day long almost.

Yeah, if I don't stream for a few days, my mum messages me saying stuff like, oh, where are you? What happened? Are you We're worried because you weren't live.

I'm not streaming all the time, every single day. Like, sometimes I have days off. Give me a break.

I don't get any fucking privacy.

What's the problem with this YouTube thing?

It's always people like snooping and spying on me.

I never wanted people in my real life to be like spying on my YouTube channel. It's like writing a diary and then they keep reading your diary.

No, I can't turn off the stream because I need to make money, you fucking idiot.

Sometimes I wish I spoke Swedish or something and then I had a Swedish audience so no one I know would understand what I'm saying. Oh, why don't you do in Japanese? I don't know,

I don't like speaking Japanese and it's difficult.

Yeah, maybe it would have been better better if I like made a Japanese-speaking channel and then had a Japanese audience,

but I want to talk in English.

Yeah, I used to sometimes think about like, what if I made a video in Japanese? But it just felt so cringe.

I never felt like my Japanese was good enough to, to speak it on YouTube. I'm not Dogen or anything.

I don't like the way I sound when I talk in Japanese. Sounds kind of Stupid, because I never hung out with guys. I never hung out with Japanese guys, so I never learned how to speak like a Japanese man. So I end up speaking like a Japanese woman because that's my only interaction. I only ever talked to

Japanese women. Oh wow, thanks Simon.

So I kind of sound like a woman. When I speak Japanese.

Like, I never had mates in Japan to speak Japanese with, and the only Japanese guys I met at guesthouses, they always spoke— well, they always were very insistent on speaking English because they wanted to learn English. So I thought, okay, I'll just speak English then.

Account balance at 777, still going down.

Yeah, I'd say oishii instead of umai,

or I'd say desho instead of darou. No, I don't really know. I don't really feel comfortable speaking masculine. I feel like it's not— doesn't suit me.

Yeah, I went to a bar with a Canadian guy in Japan last year. I forgot what his name was.

He kept trying to speak to me in Japanese. It was really annoying, actually. I hate it when foreigners, like, want to test my Japanese ability and, like, I don't know, like, they want to show off and be like, oh, my Japanese is better than yours. I don't fucking care.

I don't want to speak to you in Japanese.

I only speak to Japanese women in Japanese. If you're not a Japanese woman, stop trying to speak to me in Japanese. Cringe. I don't care if your Japanese better than mine.

It's really irritating.

Just, it just seems like they're trying to brag, like they're trying to

see who's better.

Savings all gone,

market crashed. Sorry, but

Financial ruin,

just like Jesse Livermore

lost it all.

Do you think this is really the end of Bitcoin?

God, it'd be crazy if it would. It'd be crazy if it was the end, like just that. After all this fuss

about how it's going to be the future and how it's going to a million dollars and blah blah blah. Imagine After all that fuss, that's it, it's done for. That'd be crazy.

So I don't know what to do about money now.

I got to cut my damn hair. Maybe next week I'll cut my hair.

I wonder what Asia market's gonna do. Just imagine the Chinese traders waking up in the morning going, holy shit, what have the Americans done to the market? Imagine the Chinese investors waking up and they're like, damn, the Americans just trashed the market. Are we gonna buy it up or not?

It's like you come home after a trip and then the kids have wrecked the house.

Mm,

where are

my vitamins?

Well, they said the crash was going to happen next year.

Where's Santa Rally? These tablets are too big, they get stuck in my throat. Gotta make some saliva.

What am I gonna do?

How are you gonna pay rent? I actually don't know.

I reckon I can get my YouTube earnings up to like $500 a month, which is like $300, $400-ish.

Pounds. You know, you know what I want to do?

Close all my positions, reset account to £1,000, and have a proper bash at day trading. Because my day trades have been good.

I've been making money. It's just the open positions keep wrecking my account.

If I just woke up in the morning and I didn't have anything open, I would have been fine.

I did too many trades today to add it all up.

I wish it would tell you how much. I mean, I got my P&L down £110, so I must have made £110 today

in open and then closed trades. So if I could do that and not have all the open trades wrecking me, maybe I could have a shot at this.

It's funny because it's not the day trades that are wrecking me, it's the long-term things that are just open because I refuse to close it because I keep thinking I was gonna go up.

So my last Hail Mary is gonna start December 1st.

Whatever happens, I'm closing every single position December 1st. If it's below £1,000, I'm going to top it back up to £1,000. If it's above £1,000, I'm going to take out everything out a bit above £1,000, and then I'm going to give it my best shot for one month. And then after Christmas, I'm going to look for a

job

because I have not been properly day trading.

Where are you going to get $1,000? Well, I mean, my account's at $780 now, so I only have to top it up a couple hundred to get to $1,000.

I can't get a job now because I've got to go back to Kent to get my new car door fixed.

And also, um, might go home for Christmas and maybe do some Uber Eats.

I day trade in the Uber McDonald's car park.

I'm doing back to full-time YouTube with daytime kick day trading for December. What's wrong with the car door? Well, they sold the car to me with, um, paint missing from the door, like it peeled off, and they offered to fix it on the day, but I was stubborn. I said no, I want to take the car home

now.

'Cause, you know, I wanna show it off to my new— my girlfriend.

I said I'll come back to Kent next month and fix it then. When did I learn to drive? Like 3 years ago. I've had 2 cars in the past year. Guess you haven't been here in ages. I got a Citroën e-C4. I had a Peugeot e-208, but I traded it in for a Citroën C4.

2 weeks ago.

No, I'm not done with Kick. That will still be my daytime activity,

and then I do a YouTube stream in the evening every other day.

Yeah, I used to be really anti-driving because I was scared of driving, but now I love driving. You know, my favorite thing about Devon is that it's so nice to drive here. The views are stunning. The roads are nice

compared to Kent. I mean, in Kent, it's just 30-mile speed zones everywhere, traffic jam everywhere. In Devon, you can like put your foot down. Barely any traffic, no police anywhere. It's great.

Police everywhere in Kent. You can't enjoy driving. There's just stupid police everywhere. Speed cameras everywhere. Bus lanes everywhere. Devon's so good for driving, especially Cornwall. Cornwall was so nice. I did a delivery into Cornwall and then on the road, on the drive back, it was so nice.

Uh, Every banned me so I can't work there again. I wouldn't want to anyway, it's horrible. Pays rubbish. You deliver 60 parcels, you make like £30, £35. I did Every every day. The best I made was £900 in a month delivering about 60 or 70 parcels a day. And then you minus electricity costs and then repairs to

cars like tires, you probably netted like £700 a month.

I am in the partner program on Kick. You don't get paid if you aren't in the partner program.

I don't like multi-streaming, so you got 2 chats. I don't like having 2 chats. I usually ignore one chat.

I multi-streamed before and it was a waste of time.

If I turned off— if I turned on multi-streaming, they cut your pay by 50%. So instead of making $5 an hour, I'd make $2 an hour.

Just feels pointless.

I'd make $4 for my 2-hour YouTube stream. I make $4 on Kick if I did that.

Last night was freezing. I woke up in my bed freezing cold.

My feet were sticking out the end and I kept like cocooning myself in the blanket, curled up in a ball. The air was so cold, like being in the fridge.

I have to have my heating on all day now Because if I turn it off, it's like living in a fridge. It's costing me 25p an hour. I've been up since 9 AM.

It is what, 10 PM now? 3, 13, 14 hours I'm awake. Oh God, it's cost me £3.50 a day for heating. That's like £100 a month electricity.

Oh wow, they splashed the thing. Decimated. Market crashed. Okay, I'll update my savings, what they actually are now. 778 plus 2666. Well, 266,778 plus that one. Oh my God. Oh Jesus.

Oh my God.

3,687.

Oh God, that's bad.

I lost £700 in my CFDs

and nearly £800 in my stocks and shares ISA because I was up £500, now I'm down £377.

In the stocks and shares ISA, I've got Bitmine down 46%, £600 down. I've got Tesla down £140. I've got 5x long S&P 500 ETF down £50.

But my 1x normal S&P 500 is still up £24. My 3x long silver is still up £28. But I got wrecked with Bitmine,

down £600. Bitmine.

Asia market in 40 minutes.

Yeah, I heard Homeless got banned. I still think that's crazy

for squeezing a boob.

Sam Pepper got banned as well for shooting someone in the face with a firework.

Let's talk about something else other than stocks. Okay, what then?

Isn't it funny? Back in the day, I never talked about money. I never used to talk about money this much, and I didn't have money problems. I had no debt.

I was making a nice amount on YouTube, like a couple thousand a month. I didn't owe anyone money. I didn't have Amazon debt.

Now my whole life is just like money, money, money, money.

Yeah, I, I never— you look back at my streams from 2018, I didn't say a single word about money. I was never like, oh, I'm making so much money.

I just made the money. I don't even remember what I did with the money.

I think I just spent it all as soon as I got paid. I didn't save it. I don't know what I did with it.

I don't remember having savings back in Japan when I was married.

Ever since I got into stocks, I've become obsessed with money. And the more obsessed with money I have become, the worse with money I've gotten. Which is funny.

I was better with money when I didn't care about money.

I never felt stressed out about money back then.

I remember when the money got good on YouTube. I used to be very frugal, you know, before YouTube. Took off. You know, I had a very— I didn't have a laptop.

I just had iPad Pro 12-inch. And I only had one phone. And I never got like the— I never got the latest Apple phone. I just got like rubbish Samsung phone.

But as soon as the money started coming in on YouTube, My frugality disappeared. I bought MSI 16-inch gaming laptop, 18-inch. I bought the latest iPhone X.

I bought— I don't know, I just bought anything I wanted,

and then I got hooked on having nice stuff.

Yeah, things really would have been better if I never got into stocks. I would have an extra £20,000 to my name.

If I just never got into stocks, I'd have enough money to pay off all these debts.

I did put it in S&P 500. I put it in NASDAQ and downloads. Jesus.

That was bad.

No, I don't do art anymore.

I don't even have an iPad to do art.

Oh, I don't know why you suddenly get like a cough spasm.

I don't want to do art anymore.

Oh, I think I need to get water.

Oh, thanks. Bless you.

You would be rich, you invested in Palantir.

Oh yeah, I mean, I'll be rich if I bought a lottery ticket, went back in time, bought a lottery ticket.

I did have Palantir at one point. I think I sold it for like 10% gain, probably.

Go on Who Wants to Be a Millionaire. I'd probably, I'd blow all my lifelines on the first 5 questions.

Your problem is you keep selling.

The reason why I've lost so much money is because I didn't sell.

That's the paradox.

Is that I let go of winners and I stubbornly hold on to losers.

I'll use all 3 lifelines on the second question.

Well, first you gotta win fastest finger first, which I just wouldn't be able to win.

Imagine I'm like at the first question, I apply all the lifelines on the first question and I make the £1,000, and then I'm on the second question, I'm like, I'm gonna walk away with the money, £1,000 richer.

I don't know how they get around the tax stuff with that.

Surely you don't have to pay taxes on your winnings, but then how do they get away with giving you a lot of money? Surely HMRC is going to want some of that.

Maybe this show pays the taxes for you.

It's like, oh, congratulations, you won £1 million, but actually it's only £600K because you got to pay 40% taxes.

Remember they did that scam ages ago where the guy won the million pounds because he had people in the audience coughing to give him the answers? He was like, hmm, I'm thinking it might be B. In the audience, they got busted, didn't they?

It's a good idea though.

What, what was his name? Was it Mark Ingram?

Yeah, they could do other things like sniff 3 times, like

clear throat, sniff, sniff, sniff, and cough twice.

So what, did he go to jail? What happened to him?

What happened to Charles Ingram?

He never received the money. He's found guilty of cheating.

Whoa. He was fined £25,000 and ordered to pay £15,000 in prosecution costs and given a suspended prison sentence.

Convicted of procuring the execution of a valuable security by deception. He was forced to resign from the British Army, ending his career as a major.

His reputation was destroyed. He became known in the UK as Coughing Major.

Ingram and his wife now live quietly in the countryside in Somerset in a rented farmhouse. That's where I go. I go Somerset like every week.

Maybe I stayed at his farmhouse. I don't know.

He's often seen walking his dog in the village of Maiden Bradley. He has reinvented himself as a novelist and painter.

Sounds nice.

He continues to insist he did not cheat.

Convicted cheat losing his army career and public reputation. Well, how does he make money then?

Did he go to jail?

Oh, he didn't. He was sentenced to 18 months in prison. But it was suspended for 2 years, meaning he never actually served time behind bars.

So he was sentenced for 2 years, but it was suspended for 2 years. I don't get that.

Suspended sentence means the punishment is on hold. If they commit another crime within 2 years, they could have been sent to prison. Since they did not reoffend, they avoided— I mean, that's pretty good.

So maybe the prisons were full, so they were like, okay, we're not going to put you in prison unless you're a bad boy.

How come his sentence was suspended for such a serious crime?

Because the judge decided that despite the seriousness of the fraud, the circumstances did not warrant immediate imprisonment. Court emphasized crime was nonviolent. Defendants had already suffered severe public humiliation, and deterrent— and the deterrent effects of the conviction itself was considered punishment enough.

Nonviolent offense.

Courts reserve immediate custody for violent or high-risk offenders. Public disgrace.

Already injured. Intense media scrutiny. Reputational damage. Told them to thank your lucky stars they weren't going to jail. The conviction itself, combined with fines, cost over £50,000.

Damn. Going from nearly winning £1 million to £50,000 fine.

Yeah, well, he still, he still gets to have a nice life in the beautiful countryside and has a wife.

So he's still got a better life than me.

How does he make money now, and how old is he?

He must be like 60— damn, 62 years old now. He makes money through writing, painting, and media appearances,

so he must be in his 40s back then.

He lives in a rented farmhouse on the Duke of Somerset's estate.

Oh God,

I actually don't know what it looks like, so I wouldn't even know if I saw him.

24 minutes until Asia market.

Man, peak years are his late 30s. Yeah, Kick money was probably my peak earnings. I made £7,000 in July, I think. Never making that much money again. For 4 months, I made more money than doctors, police, ambulance, hospital workers. I felt rich. Now I'm broke again.

I mean, I did try to invest the money. I put all the Kick money into stocks and shares ISA. Now look, I'm down hundreds of pounds.

And yeah, I got S&P 500, so don't even start typing that.

I got 5x leverage S&P 500 ETF and I got the VUAG Vanguard.

Still lost, man.

How's my garden? I don't know, I haven't been out in it for months. Just loads of weeds everywhere. I nearly said reeds.

The vaping helps, uh, loosen the mucus.

What made Kicking come drop? Uh, cuz I stream too much all day long every single day. People got bored, I wasn't doing anything interesting, and then I got mad at the viewers and banned them.

And then I gave up trying to do any— I mean, in the beginning I was doing stuff like I went out, I did IRL,

I went driving and I went to places and we did IRL and it's fun and everything. And then I, I got fed up doing it. Also, it got really cold and it started raining every single It was raining every single day back in September-ish. I think around August, September, it's like raining every day. I couldn't go out,

and then I got really miserable and depressed, and then I started raging at people.

No, I got fed up people criticizing every damn thing I did. Like, oh, you didn't wrap the box properly. Oh, he's not lifting proper form. Oh, he's doing this. So annoying. Every damn single thing you do getting nitpicked by a bunch of backseat driving idiots. It's so irritating. Like, can you just imagine you doing your daily life

routine and then you got like some irritating gremlin sitting on your shoulder going like, oh, I wouldn't do it like that. Oh, you're not doing that properly. Oh, oh, he's doing it like that. Shut the fuck up. It's so annoying.

A bunch of retards criticizing every damn thing I did. Made me snap.

As if they do everything perfectly normal and perfect.

It's like having a bunch of backseat drivers sitting there whinging and nitpicking every damn thing you do.

Fucking annoying.

So I just like getting more and more angry.

I like just doing short streams, like a couple hours,

where I just talk.

And I don't do stuff because if I don't do stuff on stream, people can't like criticize what I'm doing. So I'm not doing anything. I'm just talking.

Why not work a normal job? Because it's nearly Christmas and I got plans and I gotta go get my door fixed

and I want to be a day trader.

Uh, I thought I'd give day trading a shot. If it doesn't work out, I'll get a job after Christmas.

I don't want to get tied down with a job and then I got to take days off or whatever.

I think I'm just going to like try and focus on streaming and

Have a shot at trading.

Maybe I sell a few things to make meet ends. Maybe I sell this phone, sell my iPhone Air.

Max out the credit card.

Do some Uber Eats at my mom's house.

And then after Christmas, maybe I'll have a look at applying for some jobs.

Like that meat wrapping job seemed pretty good. It's just it starts at 5 AM, 6 AM, but then you get to finish at 2. So that's pretty— but then you got to go to bed at like 8 PM.

I had some job, it's like poultry inspector, meat inspector.

I don't know, it'd be cold. It's gonna be in like a walk-in freezer kind of place,

just inspect the meat.

Can't be that hard.

How did you lose all your money? Market crashed and I'm on extreme leverage,

20x leverage. That's the problem with leverage CFDs. If you catch the right direction, you can make loads, but you get wrecked if it goes your— goes the wrong way.

Yeah, maybe I'll just get a part-time job to start with.

I don't know. I mean, I feel like I've been given so many lifelines this year with Every, and then Turkey Tom boosting my channel for a few months. Reinjection with new viewers was nice. And then Kick. I have had several lifelines thrown out to me. Saving me from doom. Now I just don't know what's gonna come next.

You fumbled all your opportunities. I don't see it that way. I think I milked every opportunity to the max.

Like, I milked every until I just couldn't stand it anymore. The pay was rubbish, the work was hard, you get soaked in the rain, You barely make it. You make like 50p a parcel. Your car gets wrecked.

I hated doing every

load up all the parcels and then you got to like number them and then you would go house to house to house, like 50 houses.

And then you get people angry at you on the road sometimes if you're like getting in the way. Because you gotta park up on the side of the road. I got so, so many people raged at me because I was parking to deliver.

And I hated doing Kick. I hated it.

It's so miserable streaming all day every day with nothing to do or talk about.

I was like begging them to ban me.

I hated doing Kick. It sucked all the fun. It's like, oh, you like sex? Then have sex all day long, every single day. You know that Simpsons episode where Homer's in hell and he's being force-fed donuts? And he's like, you like donuts? I've ordered donuts. You want? He's like, more. Oh, oh, oh. Be like that. Like, imagine

you get given Viagra 24/7 and like endless supply of women coming in. And then you think, oh wow, it sounds great. Yeah, sure. You'll love it after doing it day after day after day after day, endlessly nutting in hundreds of vaginas. Eventually your dream becomes your hell.

Careful what you wish for.

I like to think of that Homer Simpson episode, that scene where instead of like being force-fed donuts, it's like an endless conveyor belt of women where you have like this ability to endlessly nut and like, nut, next, nut, next, like endless women.

Like they're on the conveyor belt with their legs spread and they're coming towards you and then you nut and then they hop off and the next one comes down and then you're like tied down on this machine and then you're being pumped with Viagra.

That'll be a crazy scenario.

I mean, the other way round is possible because a woman gets endlessly nutted in, but a man endlessly nutting is like physically impossible.

I don't know what we're talking about. What?

Yeah, it was just so miserable having to stream all day every day. I hated it. I cut down a bit now. Instead of doing 14 hours a day, I do 7 because I can't stand it anymore.

So yeah, I don't know what the next thing is going to be that saves me.

Maybe another person's going to make a YouTube video about me and I get another reinjection of fresh viewers, fresh meat.

Oh, thanks, Blessed. Are you keeping the house? Yeah, I mean, I don't want to feel like a failure where I have to move out cuz I'm too broke. I got to find a way

to not be a financial failure.

Going back to my mum's house, just taking the easy route, isn't

it?

I don't like

this cough medicine because it makes my tongue dry.

May I drink it without it touching my tongue?

It really dries out your tongue.

I just think giving up,

giving up would be more depressing than persevering. And I feel like moving out would be a giving up thing, wouldn't it? Throwing in the towel.

Asia market in 9 minutes. Oh God, what are the Chinese gonna do? What are the Japanese gonna do?

What did Gigi post? I can't believe she's still posting. Like, why does she still post? I thought she was moving on.

Maybe the market just tanks until they cut rates in December. That would be the only catalyst, wouldn't it?

She went to Morocco. Well, she's rich, isn't she? Able to afford flying here and flying there. How many holidays does she go on every year? Like 5 times a year she goes on holiday.

Van life. My new car is so big I could probably sleep in the back. Oh, Citroën EC4 crossover hatchback SUV, 18-inch alloys. I could probably sleep in the back.

Well, what's the point doing that when I could just Go back to

my mum's house.

Paying my mum back her debt. Yeah, no chance of that happening now.

I can barely pay my— I can't even afford my expenses. My expenses, £2,000 a month.

You know how much I have to pay every month to Amazon? Like £500 a month I got to pay to Amazon for the next 2 months because of that iPhone Air and the Flip 7.

2 more months of iPhone Air payments, and then in January I gotta pay £700 income tax, and then in March I gotta pay £600 car insurance, and then in,

in May I gotta pay £700 council tax.

So on top of my £2K a month expenses, I got all these nice little random bonus payments around £600 or £700 going out. Car insurance, income tax, council tax.

I mean, yeah, if the market can rally,

maybe I will get out.

Maybe not back to all-time highs, but at least enough so I'm over £1,000 again. I cut all my losses. I close everything and then do day trading only, not holding stuff.

In and out.

Not getting destroyed by random news and overnight fluctuations and I don't know, whatever the hell Trump tweets.

Yeah, I made a few big trades that were successful. Like Barrick Gold, I made like 25% on that. Uh, I mean, before I lost a huge amount in 2021, I made some pretty big trades in 2020.

That made me thousands, but then I lost it all, didn't I, from the 2021 crash?

Yeah, based in Canada.

I made £120 today shorting one big short. So if I didn't do any shorts today, my account wouldn't be at £777, it would be at like £500.

I managed to soften the landing a little bit by shorting, but not enough really.

Account's at 777 now.

I started the day off at 1,500. I'm at 777 now.

That crash was insane.

It's even broken the 10th of October crash low. I don't remember why it crashed October the 10th. What was that?

What happened on October 10th?

Was it the China thing? I don't remember.

And then it ripped all-time highs. Maybe it's going to do that again.

The daily candle is massive,

4.75%, 10th of October, red candle. Today was a 4.8% red candle on the daily. You go back, there hasn't been the big massive red candles like those 2 since the April tariff stuff.

That was a, uh, 17% drop. Jesus.

Whoa, from February 2025 until April, how was I— I don't remember this happening. That was a 26% drop.

What was I doing in February? Because I didn't seem to care at all. Oh yeah, because back then I had Barrick Gold and I was kind of unaffected by the drop because Barrick Gold was like really strong.

Damn, went down 25% in 2 months. Oh, what if it does that again? I'd be— I mean, it could do.

It's down 7% from the all-time highs. If it dropped 15%, that would be quite a strong area to bounce off of. That like January area,

I would get destroyed with my CFDs. I wouldn't be able— I'd have to add so much money to not get closed out.

I would add the money and it would get instantly eaten up by margin. I wouldn't even be able to like buy the dip. I'd have to add so much to be able to buy the dip.

Asian markets open. Oh God, it just bounced. I went from 777 up to 814. Whoa, what happened?

I'm at 812 now.

Maybe I short it.

Asia awakes.

Come on, Asia, rip it!

Do you think Wall Street is still trading? Because I mean, it's only 6 PM in America.

Or do they just finish the day at like 5 o'clock and then they're done? They go home and they— I don't know what they do.

Play golf.

Oh God, tanking again, back down to 780.

Back

to bed.

What time is it? 11 o'clock. Yeah, I'm gonna go to bed. Not a great day.

See you maybe tomorrow, otherwise probably next Monday.