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Testing. I think it's working now.

Testing, testing. Oh, it's working! We at Kit Hill.

My

car looking good.

Back on YouTube. A little bit windy. Uh, I didn't bring the wind buff, did I? Or did I? Wait, it might be in my bag. I'll check my bag.

Maybe it's in there.

Blowing a bit cold.

I don't think I brought it.

I keep forgetting. I don't think I grabbed it.

No, I don't have it. Too bad. Where's the thingy?

Oh, I got a bit cold actually. Wind. It's probably going to get warmer though.

Okay, so we are at Kit Hill.

Um, just see if it's working. Yeah, okay.

And I just felt like doing a YouTube stream,

see what it's like after a month away,

test out my new phone.

Actually, I might go up the road.

The latest news,

um, the Thai school said they found my documents and I have to pay 1,000 baht by tomorrow to get them, and then I give that to the Thai Elite people. And they get me the Thai Elite Visa, £15,000.

Thinking about doing it, although I don't know if I really want to move permanently to Thailand. Sometimes Devon's pretty nice. I don't really know how you can get views like this in Thailand.

What? Thailand going to war with who?

Well, I don't know.

Maybe I'll pay for the documents anyway. I might need them later for something else.

Mortgage deposit. Somalia? What? I don't want to get a house.

Latest girl situation? No girls apart from AJ, but we're just friends. But there's no sexual girls anymore. Lost them all. Crip's gone, Moon's gone, Kate gone,

Aaron gone. What made you come back to YouTube? I don't know.

I feel like— I don't

know, it feels different on Kick. Something about Kick that feels kind of weird. The money's nice.

Just wonder how dead my YouTube channel is now since I've been gone.

Oh God, it's kind of cold. Where's the sun?

Somewhere up there.

I don't know about Crip, she's gone missing 2 weeks now.

My YouTube's dead. I've got 30 viewers.

And don't say because of the time zone, because In Asia, this is the time I'd be streaming anyway.

Used to stream this time in Japan.

But it seems like I finally sorted out how to do the stream well. This works really well.

I finally figure out how to get it working and there's no one left. Typical.

Interesting.

The local people here say ass instead of arse. Did you hear him? He said pain in the ass.

There's kind of like, I don't know, like a tinge of American accent in the Devon accent,

especially with the hard Rs.

Is that where the American accent originated from? From like the farmer accent in the UK plus Irish?

Pain in the ass.

I thought English people didn't say ass.

I thought it was an American thing.

I don't know, those guys look like 40-something. They seem too old to be Americanized by the internet.

Yeah,

so I gotta pay 1,000 baht to the Thai school. They said by tomorrow. What do you mean by tomorrow? Or else what?

Or else you're not gonna give it to me because you can't wait more than one day?

So I pay them the 1,000 baht and then they're going to give me the documents and certificates from when I was at the school which I need to apply for the visa.

It's about where the lady got stuck. Uh, yeah, drove up onto that little hill.

It's like I work here. It's like I do like a walking tour of this place every day. I do a walking tour to my online tour group.

Maybe I'll go this way this time. Uh,

maybe we at Kit Hill,

Fake Smile.

Early in the morning, 10 AM on the dot.

Isn't it weird if I get more viewers on Kick? Why do I get more viewers on Kick than on YouTube?

My Kick money didn't dry up, it's just I'm getting fed up with how dead it feels.

Like, I've got, I've got only 40 viewers on YouTube, but the chat is way more active than it is on Kick when I've got like 100+ viewers. But I'm getting sick and tired of Kick because it's just— no offense to the people who do chat a lot because I'm grateful that they keep the chat active, but it's

always the same like 5 to 10 people in my Kick chat, whereas on YouTube Like, we get a bigger variety of people,

and it's nice to see more people in the chat, not the same people every single time. And like, the same people getting on my nerves

every day. It's those same people, and they're starting to get on my nerves.

Not you, Vix. You're one of my favorites. You always keep the chat positive and nice, unlike some people. Constantly trying to bring my mood down. The thing with Kick is it's like a smaller room where you're stuck with the same smaller group of people, and then we all start irritating each other. Whereas YouTube is like, I don't

know, you got— maybe the room's the same size but there's more people in the room.

Why they get on your nerves? Because they're constantly whining about everything I do. I say, oh, I want to get a taxi to the airport, and they're like, oh, he's retarded, he's wasting money. Or I get overcharged on my water bill, so I decide not to phone up to chase it up because it's like £20 difference, and,

oh, he's stupid. Like, they're whinging and whining about every single damn thing I do. And then I get angry at them, and then they call me rude when they're the ones being rude to me. And then I ban them, and then they sulk like a bunch of babies.

Why stream quality is so good today? I don't know.

Um, I got my two best Sims, Vodhoin Labar. Put bitrate up.

That's all you needed. Don't need BellBox or Nighthawk or this or that.

There's, there's less people chatting on Kick because not everyone came to Kick from YouTube with, with me. So there's like a smaller group of people who chat, but they chat more and they Can be kind of annoying sometimes.

Oh, I miss YouTube, you know. I miss the vibes. I missed last year when I was in Japan streaming and we had Blood Bucket and Sunny, Tongue L, Gerbert the Serpent. I miss all you guys who didn't come out with Kick,

but I have to do Kick because it's the only thing that's going to make me money. I think I do YouTube for fun. I keep doing Kick every day, but now and then I'll do a YouTube stream for fun, just for like nostalgia.

I feel like the YouTube chat was more positive and less toxic, and the Kick chat just becomes so toxic and degenerate.

And it's like the most toxic people are really active on the channel, okay, when they weren't really that active on YouTube.

Uh, I mean, I could do both at the same time, but there's really no point.

It's not like I'll have double the viewers. I'll have the same viewers but split over 2 platforms, and I'll get paid 50% less.

I never got annoyed at TB when we were on YouTube, but ever since going to Kick, TB has been fucking annoying. I can't stand him anymore. He's been so annoying on Kick. I don't know why, because I never got annoyed at him on YouTube. To be honest, I didn't even notice him on YouTube, but I, I didn't

notice him on YouTube because we had more chatters. But on Kick, I noticed him more because we got less chatters. And he chats a lot, so it's very irritating.

That's the problem. Oh God, I wish I could live here.

Oh wow, thanks Elliot.

Maybe because I stream so much now, people are getting stream fatigue and I'm getting

being winded fatigue.

What hillside is this? It's called Kit Hill in

Devon. Oh no, actually technically it's in Cornwall.

Dogs everywhere. That's okay.

Oh,

we got the wind. I'll try and block the wind. My back.

Well, I know it's bad for my mental health, but the money is so good. I've made nearly $7,000 in a month. I managed to pay off all my credit card and all my overdraft.

But it's making me miserable, to be honest.

You banned me on Kick? No, I didn't, did I? Wasn't me.

If you weren't online, then I wouldn't have banned you, because I would have only banned you if you had been really annoying.

Well, I'll do a mass unban later.

People getting very annoying.

Oh, I just like— my mind's so confused.

Maybe the moderator badge.

The problem is nothing's happening. There's like no activities or people.

I don't know, very stagnant feeling.

Yeah, I feel a bit like a prisoner.

It's funny, I felt happier making less money on YouTube.

Well, I wasn't doing 10-hour streams on YouTube every day, I was just doing 4 or 5 hours.

I wonder if I do a 10-hour stream on YouTube, see how that compares to a Kick stream.

The Flip 7 is a very nice phone.

I really like my Flip 7. What do you mean that's nothing compared to how you're gonna feel?

Yeah, I'm thinking, hmm, I don't know,

maybe not every now and then I do a YouTube stream.

Every now and then do a YouTube stream, maybe. I've got to do kick every day, unfortunately. The money's just too good.

I can put sun cream on. I got my hat. Signal struggling here.

The signal's struggling right next to the massive cell tower.

Why is it struggling right at the cell tower?

Oh, thanks, Sickly. It's weird, I had TTS on. I don't know why it's not working.

I don't get any donos on Kick either. Makes it kind of boring as a streamer. Part of the fun of it is also getting donos here and there. I don't get any on Kick. They don't have a dono system implemented. You gotta download some third-party app or website.

Oh my God, oh, I need to smack off.

It's really weird. Oh, oh no, I have to manually approve this.

Let's turn that off. Wait, I'll play it.

Hey, got it. Sausage. Nice.

Forgot to turn it off. Oh dear me.

I've given up on the saveloy.

It's too hard to get.

The fish and chip shops don't open very early, so you've got to go for dinner to get the sausage.

I posted a new one yesterday.

Way

up here, signal's good.

Oh God, probably because it's windy. I got higher up, signal's better, it gets windy.

Oh God, yeah, I wanted to show you guys on YouTube my favorite place. Amazing views.

I don't know if it's ever not windy.

Always. I think I've been here 12 times now.

What I'll do is I'll probably stay outside until about lunchtime. 1, maybe 1 or 2 PM, go back home, and then go back to kick

my new mistress.

My new mistress gave me permission to come back on YouTube for a little bit, but she wants me back by lunch.

You have less views down here. Yeah, the hell?

Well, less viewers on YouTube than I do on Kick.

Maybe that guy was right, the one that said, well, if I go back to YouTube, it would have declined from inactivity.

Oh, why is it so fucking windy?

Go this way.

Maybe if I lied and I said I'm in Japan, people would have clicked. You wouldn't know, would you? Look, I'm in Japan, guys.

I didn't stop posting on OnlyFans. Posted a couple days ago.

What's this place called? Kit Hill.

Kit Hill in Cornwall.

I'm sad I never got to go anywhere nice with Sunny. I've been to a lot of nice places on my own.

I think it would have been good for the relationship to get out the house and like walk about, talk about things instead of getting mad at each other.

I

don't know, I just don't

like it.

I think tomorrow I'll go to Bog Hill on Kick.

Now I've got my setup. Sorted out.

Morning. Morning.

See, I did say hello.

People are so friendly.

Maybe I get a dog.

I could get a dog, couldn't I? Then I can never travel.

They're basically stuck here. I thought maybe when I'm old, like 50 or 60, and I'm done with traveling, done with women, get a dog.

Do I feel young?

I don't know.

I forgot what I felt like when I was younger.

Maybe I was more adventurous when I was younger and I wasn't so down because I hadn't experienced so much failure yet.

Nothing to make me feel down.

As you get older, you collect more baggage— failed relationships, broken hearts.

Damn, 50 kilos. That's crazy.

Do you think if I was in Japan I'd have more viewers?

Is that all it takes?

Oh, I don't want to go to Japan again. Nearly got beat up.

I'll do a Kick stream later around 1 or 2 PM.

Just thought I'd come back to YouTube, see if it feels any different.

Not really.

Sold my soul to the devil

for quick money.

I miss someone to have— I miss someone to go on a trip with. There's something nice about being with someone in the car, go on a drive, get to the place, get food. Definitely way more fun than doing a

If I could choose.

I nearly had it.

Nearly slipped through my fingers. I didn't handle things well.

I wanted, you know, go and have girlfriend, go on trips, use the car.

Maybe we'll get back on dating apps.

40-year-old English lady.

It's like me and Sunny suffered through the initial phases of the relationship, but then didn't get through it to where the good bit would be, which would be now where everything's settled and I've got home and I've got money.

Like, we couldn't get through the stormy patch of the ocean to the calm bit. This would be like the perfect part. Weather's good as well.

But she, she ruined it.

She sabotaged it.

Because of what? Texting? Not happy with texting?

Stupid excuse.

I'm not really— I'm not actively looking for a new girlfriend.

But if one came along—

What happened to Kick? Banned. Got banned on Kick. It's over. Money's gone. YouTube's dead. It's all over.

Turkey Tom people gone.

No, I wouldn't go to the Philippines,

not after that, uh, Vitaly's drama thing happened. No way.

Am I still going to Thailand November? Yeah, I kind of want to go sooner.

I'm trying to apply for the Thai Elite Visa or the DTV Visa.

Thinking about selling my car,

right? Sell my car. Might max out my credit card, get the 5-year Thai Elite Visa.

But I would miss this actually, it's just nice.

I think UK is probably best for countryside and driving. In the countryside.

What do I plan to do in Thailand?

I don't know, really. Sit in my condo, walk around being bored until I find a new woman.

I need a new lady to breathe life back into me.

Give me something to complain about too.

Why not get the TV visa? Yeah.

The application process just seems more complicated. I've got a screenshot of my earnings and I need 11,000 savings.

But then I would save 15,000 miles on that one.

The problem

is I need £11,000 to apply for the DTV visa to show that I've got savings. But I've only got three thousand, so and then August probably have seven thousand. So I'd have it by

September. September I might have eleven thousand,

but it means I can't pay my mum any money back because I need the money to save up the eleven thousand.

Or I take money out my credit card to apply for it sooner. But then, yeah, what I do is I take out the money from the credit card, print the statement, and then put the money back into the credit card before I have to pay interest. So would I have a month before I have to pay interest,

or does the interest keep building up day by day?

I guess I don't need it after I've taken the statement.

Chat more dead here than Kip. Yeah, what the fuck happened? Where the fuck all my viewers gone?

In Japan, chat was popping. It's like 5, 6 PM in Japan now. I would have been walking about.

Got less viewers here than on TikTok.

Really fucking over, isn't it? Stupid fucking social media.

It's not too early. I used to stream in Japan. I used to get like 600 viewers at this time.

This is— the channel's dead.

I used to stream this time in Japan and Thailand. When I was in Japan last year, I'd be streaming at this time. I have like 150 viewers.

When I was married in Japan, I used to stream around this time. I would have at least 300, 400. It's just because people got bored and they forgot about me, and then the algorithm doesn't show that I'm streaming to my subscribers.

Boy, that's the problem. Time zone was never a problem before.

I need to do— I need to like change my life to get people interested again because I've, I've been here too long. I've been here 6 months now. This is when people get bored. These numbers are like Thailand numbers after 2 years when I was making pies. I was making chicken pie and I started painting. People really

got bored. I was down to like 70 viewers and then I moved to Japan. I mean, I went to Japan and then everyone was like, wow, Japan! 150 viewers again.

I gotta keep doing new stuff. That's the problem with being content creators. You gotta keep doing stuff. People get bored. It's fucking annoying.

But Asmongold can just sit in his house forever and get the same number of views he always gets.

Yeah, I need a girl.

I'm really disappointed about Crypt. But also kind of relieved. I didn't realize her dad was like a murderer.

I didn't realize like her whole world is surrounded with murderers and drug addicts. She literally lives in a Breaking Bad episode. I mean, I knew she was kind of nuts, but I didn't realize she was living in a world full of nuts.

I didn't realize like her entire world was just nuts.

I started reading up her old posts from March and April when I wasn't really paying attention, and I was a bit shocked. I didn't really— didn't really like talk to her about this stuff. Didn't really care.

I mean, I could put aside the drug stuff, but family killing people is crazy. I do not want to get involved in that.

She's literally involved in like a cartel.

She said she was in prison. I thought maybe it's just something silly, like, I don't know, shoplifting. Did she beat someone up like nearly to death or something? That's crazy. No wonder she went to the on all the other girls. She'd probably fight them as well if she could. That's why Cake got scared off. Cake was in

the same city. Crypt even recognized the places Cake went to in her Instagram posts.

Crypt would have beaten the crap out of her.

And then if I like really upset her or talk shit about her, she would have went ballistic. I've been lucky that I've just upset kind of docile girls. The worst— I mean, the most aggressive angry one was Chihiro, and she didn't, she didn't get violent or anything. I mean, she did kind of slap me about, but she's

a tiny Japanese lady. She's not like gonna get a weapon or anything. But I think Crips would have been psycho. Like, if she actually fell in love with me and I cheated or I really hurt her, she would have went mental. I think I was scared she would fall in love with me and then she'd be like

a creepy stalker. Then I'd be like, fuck, what do I do now? I can't say anything to upset her.

Thanks, Turkey Tom, for so much. For bringing this into my life.

What kind of audience Turkey Tom has—

they seem crazier than my own audience.

Tucky Tom's kind of a weird guy as well. Outside of his normal videos where he just talks about other people and doesn't reveal himself, in his like personal vlogs and shorts, he's kind of weird. Isn't he into furries or something? The guy's a bit of a freak himself.

I think he has a bit of his own cult following who are even weirder than mine.

Yeah, when I found out about Crip's dad, I was like, no way am I meeting her now. Even if she came back, like, I'd be friends with her and we can chat, but I wouldn't meet her. Also, didn't she say she tested positive for HPV? I feel like I would definitely catch something,

and I wouldn't have the self-control to use a condom either. So I'd be screwed.

So it's kind of convenient she disappeared actually, because I would have met her, I think. I was actually convinced she was coming.

We talked about dates and everything, like a plan for when she would come.

No, I don't have HPV. I don't know why I keep saying that. I don't have any like weird warts or lesions.

You can see my dick on OnlyFans. I've got nothing weird down there.

She's completely vanished, like no sign of activity on any of her social media— Discord, Reddit, Instagram. YouTube, TikTok.

Really weird. 2 weeks as well. It's a long time

to go AWOL.

I do miss her because she was funny. I miss her in the chat,

but I think it's a sign that times have changed and moved on. It's been 4 months since Turkey Tom happened. It's time for something new.

I need to like put an end to this Devon arc,

begin something new.

It's just hard. I've got a lot of stuff to do, like sell the car, get rid of my stuff, move out. Moving out sucks.

But now my YouTube's completely dead. If Kick goes down toilet too, I'd be so screwed. So maybe being in England with a house is best because then at least I can get a job. If I'm like stuck in Thailand, my online income dries up. And I've paid for a 5-year visa. I can't stay, I can't live in

Thailand for 5 years with my YouTube being dead like this and Kick drying up.

And I can't get a job in Thailand either. I mean, it's a very risky bet thinking that this income is going to last 5 years.

The biggest risk is my viewers just ditch me,

which they have.

I can't bring in new viewers and I can't get the old ones back.

At least in the UK I can always fall back on getting a real job if I desperately have to. Imagine I move to Thailand and then all the online income dries up. And I'm broke and I spent all my money on the visa and then I gotta leave and I can't get my money back for the visa.

Very scary, um, depending on the whims of a couple thousand people online to support

Oh hey Viking, been a while. Yeah,

I should probably go for the deep TV. I gotta look up how to apply for it because you know what? It costs £250 to apply for it, but if you've not done it properly, they can reject you and you don't get your money back, and then you've got to apply again. So you've got to make sure you've

done the application properly.

I've got to find a guide and do everything to the T. You've got to like write a little letter why you want to go Thailand, how you support yourself. You gotta prove your, your online portfolio or something.

Oh yeah, in case you didn't know, I'm gonna be an uncle in a month. I think I didn't tell YouTube. My sister's pregnant.

Gonna have the baby in September. I don't think I'm gonna go back home to see it.

Me and my mum are still on bad terms.

I don't really want to go all the way home.

So I'm gonna be an uncle.

Kind of strange.

Shows, you know, I'm halfway through life.

It's like life 50% done, isn't it?

Middle-aged. Next you start becoming a granddad.

Actually, I won't because I don't have kids. Well, what's the granddad of a niece or nephew?

Hello.

I said hello first. Conquering anxiety. Did you see? I said hello first. Usually I never say hello first.

I defeated anxiety.

Yeah, I made contact with my eyeball and then I gave a little Japanese nod and I said hello.

Oh God, it's so awkward when you're going down these trails and someone coming the other way. There's There's like nothing, nowhere to hide.

Probably gonna get— oops. Yeah, those members didn't pop up on the screen earlier.

I reckon it was before the wedding.

No, if it's due in September, it would have been conceived in December.

The wedding was in June.

Really? The war with Cambodia? Maybe the ticket flights price go down then.

Less men as well, more women for The wedding was in June.

Damn, it was a different world, wasn't it? Back from Japan, sunny on the horizon, leaving faster, getting my car, doing my first Amazon Flex.

It's been a wild ride last year.

Walking about in Japan, being miserable. When I was walking around Japan looking at the guest house, I was thinking, oh God, I wish I had a house, a car, silence. Now I got it all. I got everything I wanted when I was in Japan.

Nice place to live. Now I don't want it anymore. It's weird. Why do I not want it when I get it and then I want it when I don't have it?

When I was in Japan, I was miserable living at that guest house.

Trying to meet people was tough.

I met a lot of people, but it didn't go anywhere and it was all meaningless. I hung out with Americans, I went bars, didn't see them ever again. Yeah, you can meet people and hang out, but it doesn't go anywhere and it's all kind of meaningless. I met a bunch of people, I don't even remember their names.

It's all just temporary.

One drunken night

with the guys.

I didn't really meet anyone that I felt like, yeah, I want to meet them again. Just felt a bit bored.

They were nice enough, I guess, just didn't really feel

Like I was just having a great time.

YouTube copied Kick with the experience points, channel points.

Crypt is a ghost. It is kind of weird someone with the exact same name died last year. She was also Canadian. And also native, I think. Was she native? I thought she was black. I forgot now. There was someone called Cheyenne Williams who passed away last year in Canada. I don't know if it was a murder.

Similar age but a bit younger, but I think she was black.

Kind of strange.

I don't know, I just— I don't feel anything meeting guys and hanging out with guys. It doesn't— it feels the same as just being alone. But when I'm with a girl, it creates a powerful memory. It's like powerful

emotional, emotionally charged, raging boner memory that lasts. I meet guys, I'm like, eh, it doesn't— I don't feel anything. Like, I don't— it's not a powerful experience to me. It feels like nothing.

So I don't feel motivated to hang out with guys because it's boring.

I'm gonna do a Kick stream after lunch. I just wanted to come back to YouTube, test the waters, see what it's like.

You don't care about girls either? No, what I mean is I create a more powerful experience in my mind when I'm with a girl.

It's more meaningful to me.

I don't know about caring or not caring. It's a flip phone. I'm using it now. Do you like it?

Flip 7 stabilization, 12 megapixels,

Exynos 250 chip,

4300 milliamp battery.

Pretty good.

The new TT phone, what's that about?

Yeah, I think I finally found the best streaming setup. Now I just need to get my viewers back with some banger content. Where's Bloodbuck?

Now, I mean, now everyone knows me and Blood Bucket did it. People would be more interested. I think we'll get those 200 viewers back.

We need a Phase One Sunny and a Blood Bucket with fries, extra large.

Mid-range? Yeah, I mean, it's not a flagship. The Flips are never flagship. Like, they don't put the zoom lens, they don't put the best chip, Snapdragon 8 Elite. And the funny thing is, S25 Ultra is actually cheaper than the Flip 7 because it's older, but it's got better specs. But the problem is you can't flip it. The

whole point of the Flip was I can flip it and put it into my bag strap here

in case I need to go discreet mode.

That's what sold it for me, because, you know, I want to walk around. I don't want people to know. I don't want to walk around with a selfie stick like this. People get upset.

Some people go ballistic. Have you seen Tezo? He streams on Kick. He was walking around with a selfie stick in Tokyo. A couple of those Nigerian bar scammer people see him streaming and they rage at him. They start following him around, telling him to delete it. But don't they realize the more they stand around in the camera

shot, the more they're going to be recorded? If they just walked away in the first minute, they wouldn't have been in the video as much, and they gave him content.

So kind of silly, isn't it? I don't want to walk around with a selfie stick like this. In a busy area when people get upset being filmed. So I thought I'd get the flip, I put it in my bag strap, no one knows what I'm doing. Yeah, Tazo, that's what I said. Tazo. Tazo.

Oh hey, Blood Bucket, we were just talking about you.

Yeah, I missed YouTube. I've been streaming on Kick, money's been really good, but I feel like the community's been fragment— fragmented because not everyone's going to come to Kick.

I'm in England

in

the middle of nowhere.

But it's nice, don't have to worry about angry people and

traffic. Now we need Phase 1 Sunny back.

Tell us about Cook Partners, Nexus. What do you mean? Nothing happened to Kick. I was just joking. I'm just getting burnout on Kick. I want— even if it's technically the same, it feels kind of different if I stream on YouTube.

I need some variety.

I'm not really making $250 on Kick anymore. I'm making more like $170, $180 because I'm streaming less hours and people have gotten bored because nothing happens.

I think I'm gonna get sunburnt.

I don't know how Kik pays so much.

They're trying to poach everyone from YouTube and Twitch to go stream there.

But thanks to Kick, I paid off my credit cards and my overdraft.

I'm getting paid again today, $1,400. I'm getting paid about $1,400 a week,

so it's pretty nice. It's just getting very mentally draining streaming all day every day.

I've been cutting back the hours, cutting down the hours a bit. Which is why I'm making less now.

My hourly rate is the same, it's just I'm streaming less and I'm getting fewer viewers.

Of course, people are losing interest. I need to do something like go to Japan or Thailand and be miserable. Being miserable gets views.

It's like living in a shitty, horrible slum hotel.

Kick pays every week, which is really nice. With YouTube, I've got to wait a whole month until I get paid.

Never seen a cloud like one like that.

I miss the food in Thailand a little bit, but not Thai food. I miss like beef bowl noodle crispy thingamajigs. I had a dream last night I was eating Thai food. It was the little, you know, the holly leaf. They— Fasta used to make this thing. It was like peanuts, coconut shavings, something else, and something else wrapped

in a holly leaf, and then you shove it in your mouth South Korean style. I don't know what that is, but it tastes really good. Very fragrant, fragrant and floral.

One time I was really hungry, went to a Thai restaurant, and I had to eat the Thai food. It was okay, I guess. I don't know, like, they got this weird sauce and it takes a lot of getting used to, but I think it— I was starting to like it. It's like this very spicy citric acid peanutty

kind of sauce they like to put on pad thai and like a side sauce thing. And then they got tom yum, which is very citrusy and acidic. But I was starting to feel like, yeah, it's not bad, it's just weird from what I'm used to. So your first reaction is, I don't like it.

Yeah, the papaya salad too. Fucking spicy.

Everything's covered in chili.

It's hard to get used to the food there,

and I don't like shrimps. Oh, that spider web's massive. It's like a weird trampoline made out of spider webs.

I might put my hat on.

What do you think?

That's

my hat, protects my neck as well.

Oh, I didn't take the label off. I forgot. I remember seeing it yesterday.

There, look.

Do I look good?

Someone bought it for me.

Probably the best hat I've had. The other ones were either too small or looked weird. This one doesn't look weird at all.

Do you think if I wore this in Japan, would people get mad at me?

Looks okay.

It's gonna mess up my hair, that's the problem.

My biggest problem.

Do you think modern-day Japanese people even know that this is what soldiers wore in World War II? I feel like modern-day Japanese people have no clue about history.

Or am I wrong? I should have called the livestream title My Life's Ruined or something. Damn it,

I swear it's because I didn't put a negative title.

Well, I've never been down this bit before. It's quite pretty.

Do do do do do do do do. I don't know where I'm going.

What happened to kick? Sober.

Paid off my credit cards. Don't need money anymore.

Do do do do.

What the fuck? I don't know if I should mention this.

Um, nah, I'm not gonna mention it. People are going to twist it.

Not worth it.

I really hope no one comes by because I feel kind of silly wearing this hat.

So, you know, you know those Catch a Predator guys who bait pedos into the open?

I think they're trying to bait me. I got a really weird DM that I'm not going to reply to, by the way.

They think I'm stupid. Get fucked.

Yeah, I'm blocking it.

Uh, how'd you block?

Block.

Blocked and deleted.

Think I'm stupid? Get the fuck out here.

Ain't falling for that.

Dun dun dun dun.

Done, done, done, done.

Try to catfish me.

Blocked and banned and deleted.

If it's real, then even more reason to block and ban. Oh my God.

There's no two ways about it, it's got to be a block.

Yeah, stream's been really good. I haven't disconnected once. I've only got 2 SIMs, Lebara and Vodafone, and they are ripping. I don't need Bella Box. This is the best stream I've done. Out of everything I've tested, and I look handsome.

What did they say? They said, hey, I'm a fan, I really love your videos, and I find you cute. By the way, I'm only 17. Instant block.

Instant block.

Someone trying to bait me

for Catch a Predator content, or it's actually someone under 17, which obviously block. So block either way.

But thanks for letting me know, I guess.

Setup today is 2 SIMs, IRL server, Norwegian server, to my laptop. But it works pretty well. It doesn't crash my Streamlabs, doesn't lag like Moblin does. Moblin's good, but it crashes my laptop.

I'm getting hungry.

I didn't bring any food.

No, I got one SIM in the iPhone using it as a hotspot. Oh, fucking hell.

Flew in my face. Jesus, stupid fucking bee. Can't even fly. Bees flew right in my face.

No, I didn't attack right-wing people. I attacked extremist people.

With extreme weird views that I don't care for. I don't want my live chat becoming like a hive of extremity.

I don't know what they were saying, to be honest. It's weird race talk.

First they started hating on me, and then they— then it devolved into race talk.

I've got the Flip 7. Isn't that better than S25? Although it's not a flagship, it's a midship, but it's newer. Yeah, I wouldn't mind getting S25 Ultra, but

too big. I can't flip it. Yeah, it was Indian talk and the P-A-K-I talk. People saying, oh, why can't I say the P-A-K-I word? It's not even bad. Yes, it is. It's a terrible word. It's on par with the N-word and the C-H-I-N-K word. What do you mean, why is the P-A-K-I word bad?

Baby, you can't say the P-A-K-I word. Literally racist. People wondering why they can't say it, it's insane, because the auto mod on Kick deletes it.

That way goes back down to the lower car park.

Oh, the hat's saving my life. I would get toasted without the hat.

My neck was scorching. Good thing I got the flap.

Well, today was disappointing. Not even 100 viewers.

I thought on YouTube have more active—

more activity.

Guess YouTube's dead unless I bring out some banger videos. I need some crazy drama to like make a video about to get them to come back again.

This ain't it.

Guess I'll go home. I'll probably end the stream and then drive home. I'm not going to stream the driving.

I can't even play music because YouTube would copyright claim me and then I wouldn't make any money. I'll probably end the stream here and then drive home and start stream on Kick after I had lunch. It's a Maracut,

but I'll probably go for another few hours. It's only 11.

Do I still run my Discord? I'm on the Discord, but I don't run it. It's a fan run.

I'm not the owner or anything.

Sad, isn't it? This is where YouTube dies. I can't— unless I can come up with some interesting content.

I need to find a new woman.

I need to get on those dating apps, get a new Mizuki,

go to some random village in Japan, like a fishing village in Hokkaido.

Oh, I can't be bothered.

I mean, I wouldn't mind having some sex.

I wouldn't really want to mess with women in this country. They could come after me.

There's also laws that protect them.

Like, if it's from another country, it's less likely she's gonna bother to come after me. What, she's gonna fly all the way to the UK to enact revenge? But if they're like down the road, who knows? Don't piss in your own back garden, as they say.

God, I wish Chihiro came back.

Why does this have to be such a wet tissue?

It's her fault.

I

hope

no one sees me wearing this hat.

Maybe I take it off, someone can't I guess I'm stuck on Kick. See your savings going up now. Yeah, Kick's doing really well. Yeah, this is the Flip 7 camera.

It's just a hiking hat, but doesn't it look kind of imperial?

At least I'm not wearing the MAGA hat.

What if there's like a World War II veteran and it triggers him? Reminds me of the time he was hiding in the jungles of Malaysia.

Well, his friends got marched off to Myanmar, Thailand to build the train death track.

Oh God, I hear voices.

This is where I lost the boomerang.

Couldn't find it.

Look for the boomerang again.

Oh God, I hear voices. I was looking for it here last time.

Look, there's a trail in here.

Yeah, I really, uh, figured out this IRL thing, didn't I? Perseverance.

I'll let that woman pass. I'll pretend I'm going in here.

Looks

like someone came this way.

Yeah, all you really need is the right SIM card.

You don't need all this other stuff— Nighthawks, encoders. If you got the right SIM card, that's all you need. Like at the beach, I had the eSIM and that was all you needed. The stream was fine.

I'm not buying any more stuff for the stream. This is it. Flip 7, that's all you need.

I mean, imagine spending thousands just for 65 viewers. And maybe if you're getting like 1,000 viewers, 500 viewers, it makes sense.

Oh wow, it's like I got— wait, I gotta approve it.

Wow, so generous. Do you fart?

Yeah, yeah, I returned Nighthawk. I should get my refund soon.

I want to change the settings so I don't have to manually approve it all the time.

Oh yeah, uh,

general settings.

Oh, it's really hard to do on the phone.

I don't think I can do it on the phone.

The website doesn't work.

Ah,

his setup worth 30K. What?

How? He must have like 10 SIMs.

Live view pro— legacy L series lens.

Oh no, I hear youths.

Why are youths here and not at work or school?

Well, if you're making millions, it makes sense to get the best of the best. When you got 60 viewers and make barely anything, what's the point?

School is out? Really? Why is it like always some kind of half-term break or holiday?

Oh, summer holiday, isn't it? Until September. I forgot about that.

Youths, why am I standing in the middle of a meadow?

Oh, someone over there. I look like I'm taking a piss.

What if there's snakes in—

snakes in the grass?

I don't like it down here, it's too overgrown, but there's a person over there, so I'm stuck.

I'll just pretend I'm doing something.

I'd definitely be getting scorched without the hat.

How's the vibe back on YouTube?

Um, isn't it just the same people from Kick? It's literally just the same apart from maybe one or two people don't come to Kick.

How do I have less viewers on YouTube than I do on Kick when I got 100,000 subs and only 1K followers on Kick?

I thought I'd get at least 100 viewers. I thought people would be like, wow, Daniel's outside. It's actually Boree.

Still, people don't give a shit about me. I guess I gotta make them give a shit.

This is why you got clickbait and troll, otherwise no one cares.

Sad state of YouTube.

And then they'll say, oh, it's because time zone. Yeah, when I was in Japan, I still get 120 views or something.

Life update since Kick— well, since I started Kick: paid off my credit card, we lost Crypt, we lost Moon, lost all the girls. Apart from AJ.

I've got to pay the Thai language school 1,000 baht to get my documents.

To pay for a visa that I can't afford.

So I guess we know what it's going to be like. And

then Kick doesn't work anymore and I've got to come back to YouTube. I'll be coming back to 50 viewers. Great. It's fucking over. When this sugar money runs out and I'm back on YouTube, this is what I'm coming back to, isn't it? I'm so fucked.

I'm so fucked.

This is why I gotta use the kick money to pay off all the debts instead of getting into new debt. I think I gotta milk it as much as I can

because this is what I'm coming back to, isn't it?

Back to spamming out do not buy videos and streaming every day, making $30 a stream. That's like $900 a month.

Better not get used to this money. You go back down from $6K a month back down to $1K a month, can happen real quick.

That's why I'm not getting excited over this money.

This is the new paradigm.

Shouldn't get that Thai visa because without Kick I've got nothing. I can't— I wouldn't be able to do OnlyFans in Thailand. All I got is YouTube. Go back to day trading. How's the market doing?

Fuck, it ripped.

Why would Kick fizzle out? Mixer did. Mixer lasted about 4 years and Kick's been going about 2 and a half years.

And Mixer had Ninja

and the backing of Microsoft, and it failed.

So who knows what's gonna happen.

Mixer was an old streaming platform. Ice Poseidon tried to move there.

Ice Poseidon said he was streaming on Mixer for weeks, didn't make any money

before he found Kick.

I thought they paid Ninja like $50 million or something for a year or two, then he went back to

Twitch.

Why bother with visa? Yeah, yeah, I mean, without a visa you can still live overseas. You just got to do a lot of border hopping, like 3 months Thailand, a month in Vietnam, 3 months Thailand again, 3 months Japan, 3 months Taiwan. Back to Thailand. It would keep the channel fresh, I suppose, and I don't have to

worry about getting a visa.

But if my views still suck even doing that, then I might as well just keep my house in the UK. That's why I'm gonna do like a little dip my toes in the water, test out how it goes. You never know, I go Thailand and I do traveling, I get exactly the same shit views. So I need

to test it before jumping in.

I think even if the viewership is higher overseas, I'm not going to make more money because I'll be spending more money on travel and hotels and eating out. You save a lot of money if you stay put because you now have to go add the flight tickets and transport, and if I'm going out, I've got to pay

for stuff.

Probably November for Thailand, but

best bet. So I avoid as much of the UK winter without missing out on the summer

and also save up more money.

I hate winter. I hate being cold.

I'd rather be hot than cold.

I wonder what it's been like at home. I bet my mum's been excited to be a grandmother.

I'm missing out on all this because I, I left home.

Or missing out on like family memories.

How'd I lose Crypt? Don't know, she just disappeared.

Vanished without a word.

Oh my God.

I used to say I prefer the cold. Did I? Yeah, maybe. I used to say at least you can put on more layers, but once you're naked you can't take anything more off. And at least you can enjoy hot beverage or nice hot soup.

Yeah, well, when it does get freezing cold, it's not fun anymore.

Start dreading having a shower. Going outside is horrible.

I don't really wear hoodies anymore. I wear my jumpers.

Go back now, I think.

Get back home at 1, maybe. Get some food, stream on Kick, make some real money.

Now I've grown older, so I've, I've lost interest in wearing hoodies because it kind of gives you this juvenile look. I think if you're over 35 and you're still wearing hoodies, looks kind of sad.

You're not a teenager anymore listening to Linkin Park.

I think you do have to adapt your fashion as you get older, which is why I think Suspenders looks kind of ridiculous with his basketball jerseys and his New York baseball cap. He literally looks like a middle-aged man dressing up like a 20-year-old guy. It's pretty weird.

All he wears are these basketball jerseys. It's so lame, honey. Just get like a plain white t-shirt or something,

or just get a plain black cap. And what's with all these logos and branding?

Now my hairstyle's fine. I have adapted my hairstyle over the years to make it shorter. It used to be longer and more like scruffy anime style, but I've made it shorter over the years, kept the back short.

Sas does look a lot better. He got rid of that emo hairstyle that he used to have in Japan. Now he just Has it short.

Well, today's been very disappointing. The YouTube channel is fucking dead. It will be. It will remain dead until I move countries. Unfortunately, moving countries is the only thing that kickstarts it back into life. New country. And new girls is what it needs. That's the only thing that will save it.

So until then, be back on Kick, I guess, raging at people.

But at least the phone's good, for what it's worth.

Wow, the baro is ripping. 4,000 kilobits.

Ah, my car's so far away.

I guess I'll send that money to the Thai school, get my documents,

because I might need it for DTV visa as well. 1,000 baht is what, like 20

£20, £25. It might be useful to have at some point.

Maybe I'll be manic again and be like, oh, I'm gonna get the Thai visa. A bit depressed at the moment.

Oh my God,

what happened to kick? I'm going to stream on Kick later today. I just wanted to do a YouTube stream. I thought I'd get more viewers, but it's dead.

I can't even get 100.

Bad time to be streaming. No, when I'm in Asia, this is the time I'll be streaming anyway. So I can't be like, oh, bad time for streaming. When am I supposed to stream then when I'm in Asia?

What, in the middle of the night?

And I was streaming in Japan at this time last year and it was fine. I got 120 viewers.

I used to stream in Japan around this time. Was it in Japan? It's like 7, 8 PM.

Yeah, and I guess some people are asleep, but there should have been other people awake.

I think the channel's just fucked. I used to stream in Japan when I was married. I'd get like 500 viewers at this time. When I did my walkout, my bitch wife streams, I got like 1,000 viewers at this time,

and no one used to say anything about the time zone then.

And when I'm in Asia, I'll be streaming at this time, so that's what it's going to be like.

There's no escaping the time zone.

I

hear young people shouting. Oh God, a bunch of youths.

Having a picnic over there.

My hat's gonna blow off.

It's weird hearing young people again.

They sound different to old people.

No, maybe we'll go this way.

We can look at the youths' banger cars. They're too poor,

unlike me making 6K a month now. Don't need YouTube. YouTube can suck it.

Fucking 60 fucking viewers. Get the fuck out of here. Dead website.

Look at that bank of cars.

They're driving £500.

Yeah, look at those shitboxes.

Ugly. They were the 2002 Peugeot 206. Peasants.

Oh hey, well, what a miserable flop. The YouTube is dead.

Oh my God, it flew in my face.

Cambridge Removals and Storage. Why are they here dumping some stuff off the cliffs?

Chat's dead as here as it is on Kick.

Why'd I think it'd be different here?

Oh God, I feel so stupid.

It's the same people, isn't it?

Oh, banned. Everyone's banned. Get the fuck out here. Fuck out my chat.

Fine, I'll unban everyone when I get home. Jesus Christ, stop rage baiting me.

I thought I'd just do a quick stream on YouTube, see if people remember me or not, but I guess not.

Thanks so much.

See you on kit

in an hour, I guess. I still got 10 hours left in the day. I can still squeeze out $165.

Where have I been? I've been streaming on Kick. I made $7,000 in a month, paid off my credit card, planning trips to Thailand. That's it really,

but time to go back to my day job. On kick, that's where I make the real money.

Gotta focus on the money, not what makes me happy. And this don't make me happy anyway. I thought, oh, I'm miserable because I miss YouTube. I thought I'd do this YouTube stream, I'd be happy again, but I'm not happy.

Things just aren't the way they were. Things changed.

Time's moved on. Emma has been washed up. Irrelevant. No one cares about me anymore.

It's over. People signed up for funny little short videos, not endless boring streams. But this is all I can offer, so I can't make those videos anymore.

I've changed as a person. It's like the British Empire is over. The British can't colonize the world again, no matter how much they would like to.

They just don't have the ability. The capability is gone.

It's over.

Yeah, I wish I could make banger videos like I used to. I just can't do it anymore. I've tried, tried to sit in front of the camera and I force myself and I try and be funny, but it's just forced and it comes across as being

Not genuine. Give

it up. It's like Sunny said, been there, done that. Gotta move on, nuke it all. Sunny was kind of right. If it wasn't for kicks, she would have been right, you know.

I

could have had a normal life with a girlfriend, job, moved on from this stuff, but I clung on to it because it made me happy once. Upon a time. Made me feel like people cared about me, made me feel special,

like I wasn't just some boring nobody. I was a somebody that

could have a viewership and people were interested in what I was up to.

And now it's over.

I just can't accept it.

I can't, I can't find anything that makes me happier or as happy.

I tried finding it in stocks, I couldn't do it.

So I can't find anything that makes me happy again.

Oh God, that white Volvo looks like my boss's car from Every. He had the exact same white Volvo.

Imagine he's— imagine he's there. Imagine he found my channel and he stream sniped me. Nah, his Volvo looks nicer. This one looks older.

My red beauty.

What's that?

My beautiful car.

I really do love my car better than their cars. My car looks nice.

Fucking dogs shit on my car. Oh my God, I don't know why people love dogs so much. Stupid, stinking, fucking, fucking shut the fuck up making stupid fucking sounds.

I can't stand dogs.

I don't know why people want to drag around noisy, scruffy furball pissing everyone off.

Where's my

Oh God,

I feel like one of the things keeping me in the UK is I like my car.

I don't want to get rid of my car. I, I wouldn't be able to. It'd be so dumb. Like, I buy this car £15K, sell it for £5K, buy another one for £12K.

So

I like how nice and warm it is in the car.

Was the

woman saying thank you to me or to the dog?

Uh, AAA say

Payment by July 25th.

Yeah, but my viewership was dead in Thailand too, wasn't it? Oh God, I don't know. But at least if I'm in Thailand, I'll be nearby to Japan and other countries I could easily take a trip to, to jumpstart the channel again. The channel dies, I gotta jumpstart it by getting on a plane. It's so fucking dumb.

All these camper vans start arriving. They're gonna fuck in the van, aren't they?

I would not want to come here at night. All the camper vans are going to be going, and then I'll get hard. Jerk off into the bush, listening from the outside.

Now my hair looks stupid,

ruined by my cap.

It just looks really annoying having a dog. Like, you want to go for a walk and then you've got to start shouting at it because it will start barking at other dogs.

Oh, the cat came into my house last night when I was taking the rubbish out. I had to get it out. You know the cat? Middle of the night, it was still skulking about. Is it actually homeless?

It just seems to be outside all the time

and sniffing around the garbage.

Yeah, do you guys even say thank you to me? Bring you to Kit Hill without you having to come to Kick. So ungrateful.

I'm missing out on dozens of dollars by streaming on YouTube. Of how many hours I streamed? 2 hours. That's like $30 I missed out on.

And only made $7 Super Chat,

and stream's already demonetized because I swore, so no ads.

It's got 1.8 million views now.

The sociopath YouTuber who destroyed his life. Okay, calm down, Jesus. Yeah, my life is so destroyed in the beautiful countryside with my state-of-the-art electric car making £6K a month.

What's this?

What's that?

Oh, Hong Kong guy. I thought it was new.

This stupid chiharu.

Damn, Chihiro look kind of hot in this video though. She got nice eyes, she got nice nose.

My ex-wife.

That's where I bought the tracker. Yeah.

Look at me in Thailand, the naked man.

I think I paid £5 for that glass of juice.

Well, better do it at home.

Every minute I'm on YouTube, I'm losing like $15 an hour on Kick.

My

Kick Hiding in my room, no spaces.

Everyone here is already on my kicks, let's face it.

I'll start the Kick stream when I get home.

Might make— what should I have for lunch? I barely got any food left.

I've got bacon, sausages, but I've got no bread in the low eggs. I got chips.

It

is nice to come in and sit though. I wish I wasn't straight. Dreaming. Forget about it.

Hands all brown looking. Looks like brown hands.

Jesus, getting destroyed by the sun.

Yeah, it makes no sense why I would have more viewers on Kick when YouTube is my main

place. I wonder if they 2-exit.

Got the whole country at your fingertips, could go anywhere.

I'll probably charge the car up today.

Oh, my Flip 7 case. Oh, it's coming early today, 11:45 to 1:45. Strange, usually Amazon come really late unless it's being delivered by Royal Mail.

Delivered by Amazon.

Sad Ozzy Osbourne died.

I never really liked his music though.

I always wondered, how was he really rich enough from just being a singer to have that massive house and lavish lifestyle in America?

Because I don't know, he wasn't that famous, was he? Black Sabbath wasn't like— I don't know

how much money he made. He made more money from MTV contracts. People knew him from Black Sabbath and thought, oh, he's funny, let's give him a show. I wonder if he made more money from the reality TV stuff. Because Black Sabbath seems like a bit of a niche band. They're not exactly Metallica, are they? I don't even

know a single song by Black Sabbath.

I only knew him from the TV show. I never even knew about Black Sabbath before that.

I couldn't name a single Black Sabbath song. I think you have to be like pretty into that kind of metal,

you know, small bands that aren't really that famous, like Bullet for My Valentine. I wonder how rich they are,

or if they had to get a real job.

Don't pronounce niche as niche. I'm pretty sure it's niche.

Niche, you fucking niche. It sounds like an insult.

Well, I guess this is where YouTube dies.

65 viewers.

It's like quiche. It's got the C-H-E ending. It's not kitsch.

I pronounce my French words pretty well, like facade. I'll have a nice drive home, hopefully.

A lot of slow drivers on the way here. I had to overtake. They were doing 40 on the 60 road.

Imagine being scared to do 60 on a completely open straight road.

After everything that happened, me saying I'd never give up on YouTube, the drama, the virals,

this is how it ends. Pathetic whimper

fizzling out.

That's how things end usually, isn't it? Without a bang. Like the most notorious, infamous, famous people end up in a hospital bed just surrounded by a couple people And after everything they did and achieved,

all ends the same with no one giving a fucking shit.

Unless you're Ozzy Osbourne, I guess.

Yeah, and then when Kick's over, I come back to YouTube and this is what I come back to. Probably 30 viewers when I come back.

Any one of these exes could be dead. We would never know. Mida could be dead. Shahira could be dead. Turkish girl could be dead. How would we know? No one's going to tell us.

That's what's kind of sad about it.

You know, I could die and none of my exes would care.

You think they care about me now?

Would they even be sad?

They had my semen inside them, and now they— I'm invisible to them. Dead to them.

I still care about my exes.

I think about them every day. I don't think a day goes by when I don't think about all of them. Naked. In my bed.

Dick going in and out each one, one by one, bent over.

I line them all up on my bed,

2 thrusts each, mix all the juices up.

They probably get a yeast infection from Sonny's juice.

The Yeastmeister.

You know, I have deep thoughts about all my exes. Like, I remember the time when they seemed so invested in me. They treated me like this, like this investment they had to prioritize because it's their future. Like get me the visa, get me to immigration to get me the visa, helping me book a school and do this

and do that. They really invested the time and energy into me thinking I was gonna be with them

for the rest of life.

Jiho went through great lengths to get me a marriage visa. Town hall, immigration, she came with me, did all the talking.

Faster came with me to the school.

I took it all for granted.

Okay, I'm gonna go home. I get home at 1 o'clock, have food, and stream until 11. That'll be 10 hours, $160.

See ya on kick.com/honeymyroom. Okay, now how do I end the stream?

I press this button.