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Yeah, livestream job interview.

Do you think I look handsome?

Today was such a nice day.

Blue skies.

Did some gardening.

I'll show you the garden in a minute.

Just wanted to show you my shirt.

I pulled out all the weeds and brambles mostly.

It took hours.

At

least I got some use out of the shirt, I guess.

I should get a tie, a white tie to contrast it.

I can see Mr. Meow Meow outside.

Hair's getting long again.

Yeah, so yesterday I only made $130. A bit rubbish.

So now I'm wondering if I just stream

4, 6, 8 hours after lunch. How much less money does it make? If it's not that much less, then what's the point streaming the whole day just to make myself miserable

for an extra $30?

Doesn't really seem worth it.

No more $250 a day.

No, it's because I got less viewers. I don't really think it matters about chat,

but obviously more viewers would mean more chat. It's because I used to get 150 viewers, now I only get like

80 or 90.

When am I gonna see Sabrina again? I don't know.

Don't really know

what's gonna happen.

Don't you think it's kind of a dick move if they don't even ask me if I'm coming back for Christmas?

Not paying any money back then. What kind of family is that?

I bought my shirt at Tesco. Bought it at the big Tesco. Some of you might remember. Bought it for Indian girl date.

When am I going to pay my mum? Uh, if I'm not even going to get invited for Christmas, then why should I?

Big events? What big event? It's no big event. The big event is I'm bored.

Why do you need to pay more money for a shirt when this one looks fine?

If I came to our date with this shirt on, would you be impressed?

There's no big events, and even if there are, I can't even talk about them. Like, if I got a job, I couldn't talk about it. If I moved house, I couldn't talk about it. I can't fucking talk about anything because fucking haters ruin everything.

It's just funny how it went from the whole point of the channel was so I could talk about stuff. And then we're at this point where I can't talk about anything interesting,

at least.

Like, even if I got a new girlfriend, I can't talk about it

because if she finds out, I mean, like, if we got together and then she finds out that I was talking about her, she'd be upset, wouldn't she?

And if I got a job, I can't talk about it because I might risk losing it. Fucking hell. Fuck. Am I supposed to talk about it?

That's why it's gotten so boring.

The only fun part of doing this was so I could talk about stuff that's on my mind.

Fucking fly.

I had a good time doing the gardening. I got out the cleaver and used it like a machete. It was actually pretty good. I completely messed up my knife. It's still sharp though, so whatever. It's also kind of serrated now. I hacked those brambles and weeds. Also, they cut down the trees by the fence, but the tree

was— tree's still alive, it's not dead, so it was growing back branches. So I hacked them all down,

ripped out brambles. New gloves are pretty good. I cut the grass as well with my butcher's cleaver. I grabbed the grass like that, I was going I cut it nice and

short. Am I addicted to nicotine? No.

Not really.

Oh look, Mr. Meow Mouse outside rolling around on the ground. He's rolling all over the

place.

It's funny, they spend so much time licking themselves to keep it clean and then it just rolled all over the ground. What's the point then?

What's that?

They didn't spray anything. I pulled out the weeds with my hands.

For some reason, I get the feeling the landlord's not going to come. He seems the type who gets really busy and then forgets

or takes a long time unless you, like, keep bugging him. I mean, I don't really care. I'd rather just— I don't mind spending a couple hours in the garden.

It's actually quite therapeutic.

Am I wearing an undershirt? Yeah,

I wore this to my date, but I didn't button it up. If I buttoned it up, it was a bit too nerdy.

He avoids talking about it. What, my sister's baby? There's nothing to say. Yeah, she's having a baby, so what else am I supposed to say about it?

I'm naked down below.

Oh my God, I nearly thought they named the saint— I thought they named the baby the same as what the cat's

called. It's kind of similar.

Do you want to know what the name of Mr. Meow Meow is? His actual name. I, I guess you know if you heard the audio. Do you guys know what the name is? You must know if you heard the audio because the neighbor said it.

Okay, what is it then?

Yeah, the baby's gonna be called Mr. Meow Meow.

Hair's getting long again.

This is still funny when I kick the minion.

When will I pay Amazon? It's a 2-year finance plan, so 2027 it'll be paid off.

I'm guessing baby's not going to be a Lord, is it? Be kind of weird if they took on the girl's name instead of the guy's name.

I guess Lord ends with me, unless I can find a girlfriend. I mean, a wife, I guess. Me and

my mum will be the only lords apart from uncles and cousins, I guess.

Why am I dressed up? Taking you all out on a date. 5-star restaurant and then hotel.

When would I like to stop vaping? Who, me?

Until it runs out. I'm not going to buy more.

Powell's already spoken.

He spoke 1 hour and a half ago. Market ripped.

My main portfolio is up £4.

Barrick Gold's up $26. Up to $26 now. See, I told you I shouldn't have listened to you. You all kept telling me to sell Barrick Gold only because you didn't understand why I bought it in the first place. Now it's ripped 50%. It's ripped 25% since I sold it. It's up 50% since I bought it. And then

you were like, oh, why don't you buy S&P 500? Is S&P 500 up 50% in a year?

You give terrible advice. Should never listen to you.

The one time I do listen to you, I get wrecked.

I should never have sold it and then just paid off the credit card using Kick earnings. Instead, I sold all my stocks, paid off credit card, and then put Kick earnings back into stocks.

I bought more Vanguard and, uh, gold ETF today.

He avoids talking about her husband. Well, I never said he's an idiot. When did I say that?

Yeah, I got 4 flavors. Sour orange, sour watermelon, sour berries, sour bluesberry— bluesberry— blueberry and raspberry.

Back to the YouTube setup.

Maybe my lazy setup for Kick was making me feel lazy too.

Now I feel like a professional again.

Where have I been? I was gardening, gardening, and then I relaxed. On the beanbag a bit, all by myself, by the way. Definitely not with anything else.

Regarding— I used my cleaver to hack down everything. It's pretty fun, actually. Felt like I was in the jungle with a machete, just hacks down the brambles.

You're not gonna get popcorn lung by just smoking one vape. It's like saying you're gonna get lung cancer because you had one pack of cigarettes. I don't know how much this vape costs. Someone bought it. 88 Vape. Is it on Amazon?

I don't

see it.

Oh, I found it.

It's only £8. What? That's so cheap. I thought it was like £50 or something.

£8.

Damn, these things are cheap.

And then the little green ones, £4.

Must have been £8, £16 total. I thought it was like premium £100 vape thing because it's kind of fancy. Look.

I'm not addicted at all.

No, I'm not buying anything. I'm just trying it out since I've got one now. It doesn't even feel good. I don't understand why people do it.

It's kind of like alcohol. You feel a bit fuzzy in your brain.

The problem is I don't want to relax because if I relax, I'm not very talkative. I need caffeine.

Oops.

I need caffeine to become more talkative.

Yeah, alcohol just makes me sleepy. I like beer because it tastes good, not because the alcohol is making me feel good. It makes me feel bad, makes me feel sad and bad.

But I like the flavor with food.

Do I inhale? Yeah, I can inhale it now. When I first tried it, I was Coughing so much.

Look, I can inhale it easy now.

I think I did too much at once. Am I doing it up and down?

I'll do up my nose. It's easy, easy.

I better do up my nose like this.

Yeah, it's easy when it goes up your nose, but if you breathe it in with your mouth, it's hard.

That was liquid in my lungs.

Does it make any difference if you inhale it in your nose or in your mouth?

Practicing for weed count? No.

Huh.

Let's just say about Weed Girl, I've learned many interesting things. That I can't talk about.

But she said we could meet next month.

Who's Towelie?

I have learned many interesting things. But I can't talk about it.

You have to wait until 2095.

Oh God, I feel dizzy now.

Whoa.

I've got, uh, how many days? 9 days left this month. If I make £80 a day

plus what I have—

oh, I could make £6,000 without having to get bumhole out. If I nearly make it but don't make it, I've got to get bumhole out.

To cross the finishing line. 6K would be pretty sweet for end of the month.

Yeah, I can't send the Flip 7 back now. Today was the last day to send it back and post office closed now, so stuck with this for the next 5 years unless I sell it to the CEX shop, which is in Plymouth.

Also, I found out

there's a new setting on Samsung now. You can use 2, not at the same time, but it can do switching. So if you lose signal on one SIM, it switches to the other SIM. Didn't used to be able to do that. You do on the S10+ as well.

So I got an eSIM as well and bought a 1GB eSIM. It's on EE,

it costs £3.

I wonder if it would help for the driving bits, for example.

Oh God, I feel dizzy now. Maybe I need more vape.

No, my Jesus fucking Christ! Oh God!

Oh, what was that?

Weather trend. Put it

on mute. I put the sound on so I could know when Weed Girl messaged me, but she didn't message me yet. Since 2 p.m.

Must be a busy day.

She started asking if I want to go fishing for some reason.

I said sure, I love fishing. Do it all the time.

Not like real fishing, but like, you know, rock pool fishing.

Yeah, maybe I need a coffee. This vaping is not— oh, the vape makes you want to do this.

I had a very productive day in the garden.

I got all the brambles and the stinging nettles out, and I cut my grass with my cleaver. I grabbed it like that and I went— hacked it all down. Imagine I, I mow the front lawn with my cleaver.

I don't mow the front lawn, the neighbor does it, which is nice.

Why didn't you stream the gardening? Cuz no one would care and I'd get like 50 viewers and it would tank my

KCIP. People don't want to just see me cutting weeds down,

and it's nice to just do stuff off camera and not have everything fucking streamed all the time.

How many viewers do I get when I'm driving? For like 50. Every time I finish driving and I get to the place, I've got like 50 viewers.

Do you know how much money you make for 50 viewers? Probably $6 an hour.

Doesn't feel worth it. You know, it'd be interesting if I start the stream in the morning And then I end it about lunchtime and then just see how much money I've actually made for the morning segment before going live again. I bet it makes like $20 or $30 because the numbers are so low.

Doesn't feel worth— I don't know. I mean, $30, $30.

Might make coffee.

Need caffeine.

The market ripped and didn't tank. Not good for my shorts.

Might go Tesco tomorrow. Don't really have much food left.

Kit Hill, then Tesco?

Your favourite. There's not really anywhere else to go if you want to go grocery shopping. Already went to Bog Hill.

It's these.

No,

it's gone.

Hmm, yeah, I thought maybe I should stop streaming all day and do something else in the morning. Otherwise I'm gonna go insane. Streaming all day thing's just destroying my mental health. Not because it's hard or anything, it's just because it's so boring.

I mean, you gotta do something to have something to talk about.

I kind of missed how it was before Kick when I had some variety in life.

Making fun of my sunglasses. When did I wear them? Yeah, I had a phase in my mid- early mid-20s when I wore these really big women's sunglasses and I thought I looked really cool.

Oh God, this feels so much better. Oh, nicotine is not the thing to have for a stream. You need stimulant, sugar, and caffeine.

Yeah, there was loads of variety before Kick. I'd make a video in the morning and then I'd make an OnlyFans and then I'd do some day trading and then I'd do some gaming, have lunch and fall asleep. And then I go live about 5 or 6

and life was way better.

Ever since I started Kick, life's been shit.

Because I can't control the greed.

The greed to make as much money as you can, even if it destroys your mental health.

I always get addicted to money. I destroy my mental health. I destroy other people's mental health.

You know, it'd probably be better if I just get a part-time job for the morning, come home, have lunch, trade, and then go live. Plus I have stuff to talk about and I'd be in a better mood.

Yeah, but Hassan's always got such strong opinions and he seems to really care about stupid politics, so he's got loads to talk about. The only thing I ever had to talk about was people, and I don't really have any people left in my life now.

Imagine if I was still doing Evry and I streamed Evry until they told me to stop.

The problem is

The car would be so full of parcels you wouldn't be able to see anything until the parcels start going down. And it won't be fun because I'm not talking. I'll be busy driving and delivering.

So I don't think it would retain many viewers.

The whole privacy thing about delivery work is stupid. Everyone's houses are on Google Maps anyway. Why do they care?

I mean, they don't care that it's on Google Maps, but then someone's deciding for them that they should care if it's on YouTube or not.

Any other jobs in Devon? Yeah, there's supermarket delivery stuff. I don't know if I would be able to get one. I applied for post office, but they didn't accept me. Probably did a background check. I don't know. I could have a good job.

Primark. Primark in

Plymouth. DHL

pharmaceutical van driver.

A 7.5-ton driver, sofa delivery, £35,000 a year. Damn, that's pretty good pay. 3.5-ton removals driver.

Yeah, I remember before I got depressed

when I was, I was actually quite happy to do every— and I was enjoying it and I got all inspired. I thought, I'll go get a 7.5-tonne license. I'll become a van driver.

And then I don't know what happened. My mental health went down the toilet.

Remember when I was talking about 7.5-tonne trucks?

No, I don't want to do that.

Savings going higher and higher. Yeah, I'm not getting the YouTube money until next week probably because I didn't get it today, so I'm not going to get it on the weekend. I only made $240 from YouTube this month. It's not bad, I guess, for not doing anything.

Posted 2 videos that were just clips of streams.

Do I still post on YouTube? Uh, last thing I posted was the phone, the iPhone with Colin. It flopped. 3K views. It made $7.

People don't want to see me do stuff. They want me to sit in front of the camera and talk about some big life development or just say weird stuff like being gay or something about my bumhole.

People just don't really want to see me doing stuff. They want to hear me talk.

They don't even want to see— necessarily don't want to see my face. Like, I could do those illustrations and just talk over it.

$600 a week is loads of money. Yeah, I guess so. It just doesn't feel like it because I was making 1,000 a week.

Yeah, the bed frame thing was actually— people like that. I mean, if it's me doing something big,

the bed was quite interesting, I guess, because it's like a big event.

I can't do 6 or 8 hours of talking to people. I won't talk to everyone I come across in the town.

I want to get a fish tank,

but I've done fish tank stuff before and no one cares.

Or I catch a tiny crab at the beach and put it in the fish tank. Oh, it's the black cat.

Oh no, fish tank requires a lot of effort. I've got to drive into Plymouth. I've been there before. They've got Dunelm, and I got those floor mats from Dunelm, and they also got a pet shop. It's a pretty big one.

They had a lot of fish stuff.

Went there ages ago, back in February, I think.

I nearly got a sofa at Dunelm, but they didn't have any delivery service. They said I'd have to book my own van, and the van was like £150.

Yeah, I wish I could get a cat. Do you think landlord would let me get a cat? Most people just get one anyway and keep it secret, but I can't keep it a secret. People snitch on me.

I'm pretty sure I can get one,

but I have to ask for permission.

Don't really— I don't know. I mean, having a pet would be nice. The Indian girl did say to me I should just get a pet. I said I don't know anyone here.

Another 50 a month? Really?

Bit harsh. Yeah, the neighbors got cats and they know the landlord. So are they his tenants as well? How come they're allowed cats and I'm not allowed a cat?

Oh, I thought that truck was going to hit the lamppost.

What did I do today? I spent 3 hours in the garden hacking away at brambles and twigs. There's like a little tree growing next to the conservatory.

It's like a full-on baby tree. I was hacking it to bits. I don't think it'd be very good if an actual tree grew in between the conservatory and the fence.

Neighbors own the house? Then how do they know the landlord?

Maybe they were renting, well, then bought it off the landlord. I don't know, maybe they all know each other here. They must have all been living here for decades.

Yeah, I pulled out all the brambles and I hacked away all the hard bits.

I pulled out the roots for most of them, but some of them are pretty hard, so I just hacked it off. If it grows back, I'll just hack it again.

Landlord said his mum used to live here. I don't know if that was the person who lived here before me, or it was a very long time ago. So they must all live in the same area for their whole lives.

I'm like the weird alien

Invader. I'm the only ethnic in the village. I've never seen anyone who's not white here. I saw one Asian guy when I was doing Every. That was in Horror Bridge. I knocked on the door. He looked like, I don't know, like fully Chinese.

I was like, oh.

You didn't say anything.

Do I pay my phone monthly?

Yeah, it's a finance plan. 0% interest.

Metal Gear Solid 3 is getting interesting. I got to the bit where the lightning guy starts beating up Snake.

And then you wonder, how is Snake not dead after getting punched that many times with lightning? And then they shoot his eye

and then shoot him in the leg. How is he still, still able to move?

Cats for adoption in Exeter. Any cute ones? I want one like Pushkin. Long hair, fluffy.

Although I guess I've learned that Bengals are very friendly.

He was sleeping in my garden today under the laundry.

Did not let him in, just as instructed.

Had pot noodle for lunch.

Life's good. I think the last thing I want to do is blow thousands flying off to Thailand.

I'm leaning less and less away from the whole Thailand idea.

I think it would depress me,

bring back memories of when I lived there. I don't think it's a good idea,

and it's not saving any money, is it? Unless I fully move there.

Going on a long holiday whilst paying rent here just seems really stupid.

Just imagine if I'm here all alone for Christmas. It's kind of weird.

People might say, why don't you go home for Christmas? I don't know,

cuz if I go home, I'd feel like, why the hell am I staying here paying thousands a month?

It would make me feel a bit silly for still being here.

But then I also don't want to leave here cuz I actually kind of like having my own house and stuff.

Sharp, unannounced, like cesium.

But I like living here.

My mum should sell the house and move here. My sister keeps saying she would like to live in the countryside.

I said Devon's pretty good. We should all move here.

Dave Gibson should sell his house, move here too.

I don't know why my sister— I think she doesn't actually want to live in London,

but her husband does because of work and networking. I don't know why you need to live in London for networking. Just can't you just phone people? Or just go into London for any networking meetings. You don't meet every day networking, do you?

I don't know.

I guess you also got a lot of things to do in London so you can meet friends and do stuff. What are you going to do here? Go to the pub?

Dave Gibson built a Japanese-style bridge? No, my dad built that like 15 years ago.

Don't give Dave Gibson credit. Why do you think he built it?

Unless he was doing repairs on it.

Yeah, maybe my dad built that Japanese bridge because I like Japan. It used to be my granddad had a bridge there that he built, and it was like this rotting, ugly, like planks of wood. Nailed together.

My granddad was good at building stuff, but he wasn't good at making them look good. Like, he built a shed and it was where the summer cabin used to be. I mean, it's where the summer cabin is now and it's where it used to be, and it was really ugly, like corrugated metal and planks of wood just

nailed. Maybe he just didn't have enough money to make it good.

I think Dave Gibson has created like a pathway to the summer cabin.

I remember my mum showed me that before I blocked her.

Oh, getting spasms.

I need toilet.

It was just gas.

Hmm.

My electric bill next month on the 1st is £150. It's from all the driving I've been doing. It's made my electric bill go up.

I think if I don't drive, my electric bill's about £70.

But if I drive this much, it goes up to nearly £150. So it's like £70, £80.

Every time I go out to stream.

Well, I thought it was a poo. That's why I went to the toilet, and then I sat down and it just went

like that.

My mouth hurts.

The place where I bit my cheek has turned into a massive ulcer,

and now it's hard to clean the area around it, and now it's starting to stink

because if I touch near it, it hurts.

I can smell it.

Smells like rotting fish.

I bit the flesh inside of my cheek really hard twice, and then

it swelled up. Now it's hard to clean because I don't want to touch around that area. Yeah, I should probably buy some mouthwash.

The mouth is so stupid. The saliva should be powerful enough to kill the bacteria, don't you think? It's a wet hole full of bacteria. Why isn't the saliva strong enough to kill the bacteria? Sweet. Quick, swish some whiskey.

What do you mean Chihiro didn't kiss me on the mouth? I didn't kiss her on the mouth. We didn't kiss a lot.

It depends on the girl. Like, sometimes I don't kiss and then sometimes I kiss a lot.

Depends. I mean, sometimes it's nice to kiss a girl and then sometimes, I mean, you kiss them and then you don't really feel much. Or maybe you're just not used to kissing them, so you don't do it.

Have you ever

Found that some girls are more fun to kiss than others.

Like, I kiss Mina a lot, but I barely ever kiss Fasla. I don't know why.

I never really, um, felt attracted to Chihiro, to be honest. Not saying she looks bad or anything, I just didn't really find her attractive.

She doesn't have like the stereotypical Japanese look. Have you noticed?

Even at the airport, sometimes Japanese staff would talk to Chihiro in English, not thinking she's Japanese. She doesn't have that stereotypical Japanese look, like thick lips and the puffy cheeks

and the bangs.

You know that girl in the Moomins?

The one with the red hair? She kind of looks like that but with black hair. Like, very pointy face.

Every time I went to the supermarket and all the cute girls at the cashier made me feel depressed, I thought, why can't I get Why can't I have a wife who looks like that?

That's why I had to divorce her.

She divorced you? Yeah, because I didn't put effort into the marriage anymore because I wasn't really I wasn't happy in the marriage because I didn't really like her. I mean, I liked her personality and everything, but

I wouldn't exactly say she's my type.

I just settled because she was, I don't know, the first girlfriend I had who wasn't fat or ugly. I mean, she was a bit old, but she looked good for her age.

But she looked a lot better than my exes before that.

I don't know, I thought this always pissed off Chihiro whenever I said Chlamydia Girlfriend was the best-looking ex I had. I still think Chlamydia Girlfriend looked much better, but she kept saying Chlamydia Girlfriend's ugly. She had a picture of her on her phone so she could show her friends. And get them to agree with her. Don't you

think she's ugly? Daniel keeps saying she's beautiful. I mean, she wasn't beautiful conventionally, but I found her attractive.

I mean, someone can be a 4 out of 10 and you could still find them attractive, can't you? Because they have certain characteristics that you like.

I could find a 4 out of 10 more attractive than a conventional 7 out of 10. Just 'cause I got a weird— weird type, maybe.

Chlamydia girlfriend had a big head. She made my head look very tiny.

Yeah, it's tough. If a girl ever asks you to rate her or if you think she's beautiful, obviously you could just say yes. But if you want the honest answer, I would be like, um,

You're not exactly a 10 out of 10 or what would conventionally be thought of as super attractive, but you make my dick hard, so that's good enough.

Like, I wouldn't give you an 8 out of 10, but you make my dick harder than any other girl has. That's going to get you in a lot of trouble, but that's the honest answer.

That you should never say. Just say, yeah, you're a 10 out of 10, babe.

People really don't like honesty. I find it hard because I want to be honest.

I'm just trying to be realistic. You're obviously not a 10 out of 10. I mean, imagine a 10 out of 10 being with me. Why would a 10 out of 10 be with me?

I'm not a 10 out of 10.

Why can't I just like the way someone looks but also say you're not a 10 out of 10?

I'd rate Mila 7,

7.2 out of 10.

I rate myself 10 out of 10, obviously.

Look at that smile.

So handsome.

No, chlamydia girlfriend didn't leave me. I left her. I ghosted her. I went to Korea and blocked her because she was annoying. She kicked me out like 3 times. Cried too much. Got mad at me for stupid things.

Like I asked, she came home looking sad. I said, "Are you Daijoubu?" And she says, "Daijoubu." So I say, "Okay," and I go back to eating my burger. And then she gets mad at me, said I don't care about her. I just asked you if you're Daijoubu.

It said you were.

No, we didn't break up because of the chlamydia. We broke up— I don't know, she kept saying I didn't care about her, and then I was getting annoyed. Oh yeah, I remember one time we had a massive fight.

We went to Hakata in Kyushu and we were walking around in that park. And then for some reason, I accidentally opened this photo of me and the Korean girlfriend from 2010 of our feet together, like our feet next to each other. She sees it and she gets really mad and then she storms off and I'm Like trying

to follow her and she wouldn't talk to me. She gives me the silent treatment and I keep trying to get her to talk. And then she just explodes in anger in the street.

Like she rages at me in Japanese on the street. And I'm just really embarrassed because we're standing next to people as we wait for the— we were waiting to cross the road, waiting for the light to go green. It was an accident. I don't even know why the photo was on my phone. I was just swiping and

then it popped up. Stupid phones.

That's why I never take photos anymore. It gets you in trouble.

I hate photos saved on my devices now. I always wipe everything. So many things can get you in trouble.

But then if you try and hide it, they'll be like, why don't you let me look at your phone? Why do you always lock your computer? Because I don't know what's on it that could make you upset. I get really nervous if a girl I'm with has access to my devices.

That's why I like getting new phones, because you get a fresh start. Nothing in the photo gallery.

So then she gave me silent treatment for hours.

Gosh, she was a nightmare. And then one time in Japan,

At her apartment.

Talking about chlamydia girlfriend, by the way. Um, we were doing it and then I lost my erection. It went completely soft and I had to stop. And then she started crying, said I didn't love her anymore.

I don't know, I think I just got kind of bored because we did it so much.

Sorry, I got fed up with her. I ghosted her when I left Japan.

Don't have sex tapes of past exes. Yeah, well, I don't have them now. Learned my lesson.

Don't have anything saved.

I don't see the point. I mean, do you really want to be 60 years old and have all these old photos of you when you were young and good-looking with the girl of your dreams, and now you lost everything? How's that gonna make you feel when you see that again? I think it's best to just delete it

all. And don't save anything. I, I feel way better just wiping everything. Just remember it, you don't need a photo.

I don't see what good it's gonna do.

I don't really like to keep photos anymore.

It will make you miss the person and make you feel sad.

I don't really like Spanish Girl anymore. We were talking about naming pets, and then I said, uh, what would you name a cat if you got one? And then I said I'd call mine Mr. Meow Meow, and then she said I'm cringe.

If you think that's cringe, see what else I do. I mean, if you don't like cringe, then I don't think she's gonna like me.

She said cringe, lol. Now I don't like her.

It's not that weird, is it? I thought it was cute, Mr. Meow Meow.

It's not even the tip of the iceberg of cringe things I do.

So I kind of don't like her attitude now.

I don't like it when people, I don't know, find things cringe.

I'm just joking about— I wouldn't really call it Mr. Meow Meow. I don't know, I wouldn't really call it anything. I don't really know why pets need a name.

I didn't call my fish any names.

For attachment. Yeah, maybe.

George mentioned you recently.

Does he still stream?

Is he not mad at me because I raged at him for not coming to Thailand? That was kind of cringe.

He cast some shade on your emotional intelligence. What did he say?

Yeah, I mean, I can't really argue with that, can I? I had so many tantrums on stream.

Which basically burned every bridge I've had with everyone I've known apart from my sister. I think maybe my sister and Dave Gibson

are the only people I've not raged about.

Raging about people is just kind of fun. That's the problem.

'Cause everyone's kind of annoying in their own way.

It's fun to make fun of them.

I think that's my biggest regret though, burning bridges.

The problem is when it feels like they're not in your life anymore.

It feels like it doesn't matter what you say about them,

but then they find out and then they hate you, and it closes any doors that they might want to meet up again at some point.

I think that's my biggest problem.

No, Chris would never have met— I'd be too much of a liability to his brand.

People would say, why are you hanging out with Daniel? He's this and that. Why are you supporting someone like that?

Chris was raging about some guy recently, the owner of the Gun Run backpack, the IRL backpack thing. I don't know why. Something like he was doing a charity and then he pocketed the money.

He seems to get very triggered by people like MrBeast doing charity and then, I don't know, taking the money for themselves

or doing it just to make themselves look good.

I reckon he's got a lot of

strong opinions about stuff he keeps to himself because he knows he could get in trouble.

Maybe one day when he's done with YouTube, he'll lay it all out. Start F-bombing certain YouTubers, naming them. I think at some point he's not going to care anymore.

Once he's made all his money,

he's definitely alt-right. Is that why he keeps praising Jafar? He keeps joking about how Jafar was good for whatever the city was in Aladdin.

A lot of girls would probably unmatch you and block you if you even said you liked Trump or Nigel Farage. You gotta keep those things to yourself.

Wonder where Weed Girl is.

Why is she not replying?

Hmm, I don't know what to talk about.

I do like the Flip 7. What do you mean?

Who says I don't like it? The fuck is that sound?

How come you still use your old Samsung? I don't know, because usually I stream on the Flip 7 and I use the Samsung for everything else. So then I got into the habit of using it.

There's not really any difference. It's a bit faster, I guess.

You

can also use it like this.

Hmm, so bad.

I feel like I'm losing my ability to endlessly talk.

I think

I'll switch the camera.

Yeah, I know it's mirrored. Stop fucking going on about it. Jesus fucking Christ. How many times you gonna fucking say it? All my videos are mirrored. Have you never seen one of my videos on YouTube before?

How many fucking times you gonna say it before I rage?

Have you not seen my videos? Every single one is mirrored.

Jesus fucking Christ.

Go on and on and on.

I don't know why sometimes— I don't know, like at some point people just wake up one day and they go, I'm going to be really annoying today, when they were never annoying before.

Yeah, of course it looks weird. How is it

God, you people are fucking annoying sometimes.

It looks weird to me because all I ever see is myself in the mirror.

So obviously I'm used to seeing myself mirrored.

Why do I have to explain the most basic shit to you people as if you don't know? You should know this stuff already.

Not putting on the camera anymore.

Back to POV only. It's because of you ruining it, so everyone blame you.

Literally every single one of my videos on YouTube is mirrored, and now you're complaining that it's mirrored. Every live stream on YouTube is mirrored. And now you're complaining about it. What even the

fuck?

I don't like the unmirrored version because I'm not used to the unmirrored version because I only ever see myself in a mirror.

Weird. Before, when I messaged Spanish Girl, it always had a 1 gray tick

for a while, and then it would go 2 gray ticks.

And I always got 2 gray ticks when I messaged Weed Girl, but now it's just showing 1 gray tick.

What does it mean? What, that they don't have connection?

I really don't like the tick thing on WhatsApp. It makes me, I don't know, like paranoid.

It says one gray tick means your message sent but they haven't received it. 2 gray ticks is they've received it but they haven't read it, and then 2 blue ticks, they're not connected to the internet.

Wonder why. Maybe she's like in some weird place, like middle of nowhere.

Yes, cuz they're not connected to the internet, so they haven't received the message.

Look at my knife.

Destroy. Oh yeah, I'll show you the garden.

Door's all dirty and the sun's shining on it. Yeah, that I cleaned up all around the fence. Massive pile of weeds.

No, Landlord didn't come.

I did it.

Weed's not going to be all gone straight away if he came today. It'll take at least a week for the weed killer to do anything. It's not magic.

I spent all afternoon pulling out weeds.

Now Spanish Girl replies very quickly.

Any life plan updates? Not really, apart from I tidied up my garden and the cleaver's a pretty good machete.

But people will think or say it's weird to use a cooking knife for gardening, even though it does the job, so why not? And you can always clean it. Just like people say it's weird to use shampoo on your body.

People really need to be told what thing to use on what part, otherwise they think it's weird. Even though it works perfectly fine.

Why is everything weird to people? If it works, it works.

The Spanish girl's a bit boring to talk to tonight.

I mean, she said she's too busy this week to meet, but she doesn't sound very busy. Everyone's

busy. Toilet duck. That's bleach, isn't it?

I don't know why people are so against using something for something that it's not intended for, even though it works perfectly.

Like, the butthole can be used for receiving, not just expelling, but people think, oh, it's weird to put stuff up it.

It's only weird because you think it's weird. It's not actually that weird,

just because you're conditioned to think it's weird.

嗯。

I don't know, I feel nervous because

weed girl wanted a picture of my back for some reason. So I took a picture of it. I don't know if it was good.

Now I'm worried it doesn't look good.

I don't think my back is— I don't really understand like what's a good back or a bad back. I don't really think my back looks

That's special. Look at my slippers, destroyed. Maybe I've got to get used to it. I already have slippers upstairs. Maybe I'll get rid of these.

Slippers are not very good for gardening.

I've got these white lines on my lower back. I don't know why. They're like stretch marks, but when does your back stretch?

I never stretch my back.

I did the gardening in my slippers. They got covered in seeds.

What do you mean dual stream?

No, I can't stream on YouTube, otherwise I lose half my Kick money.

Friday 15th. Damn, it's only been a week since I started talking to weed girl. It feels like it's been ages,

and it's been nearly a month since I started talking to Spanish girl. I still haven't met her.

It shouldn't really seem—

I don't know why it's that hard to meet people, isn't it? They keep saying they're busy when they don't really seem very busy.

I mean, it's hard to like— it's hard to really care about someone you've only met online and

not in person yet.

You really do have to like spend every day with them, like at work or something. So many affairs and stuff. Or hookups or relationships start at the workplace.

I never met a girl at work. There were a few cute girls at the Roebuck Inn when I worked there, but they weren't interested.

And then there were just middle-aged women at my dad's company when I was there.

And then Lawson,

there were a couple young Chinese girls,

but they weren't interested.

Maybe

it takes years.

Spanish girl thinks I bought this house.

Should I say I bought it?

She says she doesn't have a garden, which means she lives in an apartment or flat.

Damn, if I could buy a house, girls would think that's so cool. They'll be like, wow, you bought a house.

The problem is buying a house is only cool when you're young.

Not really very young anymore.

But then they'll say, oh, how did you afford that? Oh, I just work really hard.

Would be pretty cool to buy a house.

That's what my dream was, uh, become rich from trading stocks and then buy a house.

With 6K, what kind of house can I buy?

A bit of a crappy garden, this place. If you're gonna buy a house

This garden's tiny. You can barely do anything with it.

Ah, that's where all the problems start, isn't it? You meet someone, you plan a future together, you help each other to buy a house.

5 years in, someone's having an affair, messy divorce,

gotta sell the house and split the money.

Yeah, it's sad about humans because they start off things with good intentions,

and then greed, lust, all these bad things happen, destroys it all.

And then you got 2 people who hate each other now.

They throw in some kids and it's one big mess.

It's hard being a human.

So many temptations.

Everyone thinks they can resist temptation until it's on their doorstep.

Like, how gutted would you be if you settled and got married with someone not very attractive, and then, I don't know, the girl of your dreams finally shows up in your life 2 years later?

You would be nutting yourself.

And now you gotta sacrifice your own happiness or destroy someone else's life and live with the guilt.

That's why you don't settle. And then you risk never meeting the girl of your dreams and dying alone.

That's why it's so sad.

I don't really know what to suggest.

That's why they say don't look for happiness in a relationship.

What if it just normalized making it okay to have sex with anyone you want?

But that would just be— I don't think that'd be a very good idea for society as a whole.

Yeah, that's the thing though. I wouldn't be okay with my girlfriend having sex with other guys,

because if you look at it from a logical standpoint, I don't want my girlfriend to give birth to another man's kid.

I wanted to give birth to my kid. Her giving birth to some other guy's kid is wasting 9 months, resources. Oh God, the whole thing's a mess.

That guy is back. No, Mr. Meow Meow, not allowed.

Look who's rubbing his face against the window.

No, sit on the

chair. Breaks my heart.

Oh,

look, he's trying to get in.

Looks like he's saying, let me in.

I saw him earlier today when I was gardening. He came by.

Getting a bit hungry.

I mean, nothing's saying I can't be in my garden and then if he comes over What am I supposed to do, like shout at it to scare it off?

What if the neighbor says he likes you too much? Can you make him hate you? Like, if you see him, can you like scream at it? Uh, no, I don't want to be mean to it.

I feel like making stir-fried noodles.

The gypsies' dogs used to come into our garden when my dad was alive, and he would get so angry and chase them off.

I used to play with them, and then my dad told me off. He said, don't encourage it.

This, like, greyhound-looking skinny like a running dog, came into the garden once when my parents were at work, so I was alone at the house. So I played with it and I gave it some ham and it ran around the garden and looked so happy.

I told my dad about it and he got angry at me

and I felt kind of annoyed. People always getting mad at me. I didn't even do anything wrong. I just played with the dog.

Everyone's such a bunch of wet tissues.

Yeah, my dad's never liked dogs. He liked cats, but he used to get really mad at the travelers because they kept getting dogs. And they were really bad dog owners because they, they kept letting the dogs run off.

They had a horse as well, and the horse came into the garden. Me and my sister played with it.

It looked all skinny and like not treated well.

Gypsies are really bad at owning animals. They don't look after them properly.

We used to have 2 terrapins. My mum's Spanish friend smuggled them in from Spain,

and then when she divorced her husband, she gave it to us.

One of them died because the other one sat on top of it and it drowned. And then the other one ran away, which sounds funny. It just walked off and someone brought it back, but then it walked off again. We never saw it again.

So I guess we can't really talk. Pets walking off.

I feel sad when people say stuff like, I wouldn't trust Daniel with my cat or my pet.

I've never done anything to harm an animal,

and I think I'm quite good with cats. I don't scare them, don't grab them.

Some people don't know how to handle cats, like they grab them and chase them. You gotta let them come to you, you gotta be gentle. And quiet.

I would never do anything bad to an animal

apart from insects, like a fly. I swat that bitch out the fly— I mean, out the air. Stupid flies.

When have I ever mistreated an animal? Apart from my fish dying, I guess.

Uh, that's an accident.

I didn't realize. I thought you just put fish in water and they're fine, but it requires a lot of effort.

What do you mean you can't feed cats milk? People feed cats milk all the time.

No, I didn't kill the fish on purpose. They died because the water was not good.

You're saying apex carnivore predator can't eat a bit of venison? You're nuts.

We gave our cats milk all the time. They were fine, lived long lives, never had any problems.

Looks like Dijang needs a timeout.

Go calm yourself.

Time to take your meds.

Imagine thinking it's abuse to give a cat a little bit of milk.

It's fine, just give it a tiny bit. Obviously not like a whole bowl every day.

Next he's gonna say giving kids ice cream is abuse because it's bad for them. What a dumbass.

Cats literally eat anything that moves outside, and you think they're gonna have problems with a little bit of milk? Oh God.

Dijang's off his meds saying that I am abusive to animals because I gave some milk to the cat. What an idiot.

Okay, with my

noodles, leftover stuff, I

Da da

da da da da, little piggy.

God, it's cold now. Summer's over, the cold days are coming. Hoi sin shaw shaw, or oyster sauce.

Nearly out of oyster sauce. It's weird, I hate oysters, but oyster sauce is really nice.

Don't really get that.

Oh, I'm cold. Oh, don't snow, I know you're gonna fancy castle.

What kind of position does— do you have to be in for the girl to see your back?

If she pegs you, I don't see how else she could see your back.

Oh God, is she gonna peg me?

Why do I never wear shorts?

Uh, I don't think it looks good on me, and my legs are never that hot for me to want to wear shorts. And then I can just roll my trousers up. My torso gets hot, I guess.

Would you date a girl that you really like on the condition that she's really into pegging?

Everything else about her is perfect, but she really likes to peg you.

Hmm.

I don't think I would enjoy pegging because it's just a dildo, isn't it? At the end of the day, it's still just a dildo. The only difference is it's attached to the girl, but it's not Like an actual dick. It'd be better if she had like a real dick and it was hot and meaty. Otherwise I'll just

use a dildo. It's not really the thing I want to do with a girl. I don't need a girl to do that. I want to do things with a girl that I can't do without a girl.

Nah, picking's not really what I want to do with a girl.

Oh, that's why you think it's weird, because when I've started streaming, I have to show my face a lot like that.

So now when I flip it, you think it looks weird.

Didn't realize, because I have been doing this a lot.

I just thought it'd It's weird that you thought it's weird because my entire YouTube channel, um, flipped in it.

No, I'm not sorry.

You say sorry, idiot. Idiot.

Idiot.

Yeah, well, I learned from the best, didn't I? Mrs. Lord taught me her ways.

Indirectly. My mum's a master gaslighter, if you didn't know. Nothing she does is ever wrong, and she's always right, and you're stupid. Learn from the best.

That's basically my mum.

Where'd you think I'd get it from?

Maybe I should have my mirror.

I

heard someone said they had a mirror installed in their ceiling, and I thought, how do you do that? Glue? What if it falls on you when— what if the glue goes dry or something and falls off onto you?

Screws. Why don't it crack the glass?

How can you bolt a mirror into something without it breaking, idiot?

Get out of my house! Call me idiot? Move out!

The weird thing is my mum, she can never see the humor in it. Like, she can never laugh about it

and say, oh yeah, that was kind of funny how I overreacted. My bag. At least I can do that.

It's kind of plain. Amounts of soy sauce. This lasted 6 months. Some sweetened sauce.

I wonder if she still thinks that I left a dirty dish in the sink and if she still thinks that's a good enough reason to get mad at me.

She has no ability to say, okay, my bad, I overreacted, or, okay, he didn't actually leave anything in the sink. I just could never imagine this.

Why is it such a big deal anyway? She leaves stuff in the sink all the time. The sink's full of her dirty cups. It's like 5 dirty cups in the sink every day, all day. She doesn't even keep the sink clean herself.

Such a hypocrite. Looking for a way to kick you out.

Yeah, maybe I was looking for an excuse to storm out too.

Oh my God, what?

嗯。

Battery bank didn't charge at all. Put the cable in the wrong hole.

I can't believe this soy sauce

took ages to finish that one.

Where should I put it?

I'm still eating the rice. Wow, we

saw the clam.

One bottle of soy sauce lasts half a year. It's pretty good.

Didn't do exercise today. Forgot, so I started the stream so late.

Uh, maybe I take a break then. We'll do it later.

Could do

it later.

Maybe I do all day stream tomorrow.

Go to Tesco.

My boyfriend is always asking me to stick my finger in his butt while having sex. Is he really gay? Help me.

At first he wanted me to lick his butt, then he started asking would I use my finger, and in my head it didn't feel right.

How boring having a girlfriend who won't finger your butt.

They're like, ew, my boyfriend's gay.

All these people on Reddit just posting their relationship drama and secrets, and they don't get in trouble because they do it anonymously. Not fair.

I told my wife that her childhood friend tried to have sex with me while she was drunk. I got kicked out.

I miscarried and my brother-in-law assaulted me.

I wonder if there's any posts on here about me.

Why do they put the ages? M21 had sex with the friend F21.

Why does my boyfriend like his ass to be fingered? My boyfriend wants me to finger his bum. I'm happy to pleasure him, but I don't know what to expect. Would it be gross?

I never really asked any of my girlfriends to do it. They just started doing it like Chihiro.

I never asked her to do it. I think if you go ask them to do it, it's kind of weird. But if they just start doing it and then they figure out on their own, oh, he likes it.

Having to verbalize it makes it weird.

No, no, no, market's boring today. It just went up and then stayed there.

嗯哼嗯哼。

How come women don't have a prostate?

Why would he watch those videos at work and not at home? It's kind of weird.

I downloaded this app. It's called a smart SIM, but it's rubbish. I thought the idea sounded good.

I forgot what it's called.

Honest Mobile.

So it's supposed to automatically switch. To any network that is strongest.

So if you're in an area where Lebara is weak but EE strong, it would automatically switch to the strongest one. I thought that'd be good for streaming, but then it only works with 500 apps. It doesn't just work with anything. I don't understand it. It only works with apps that have been pre-approved. And IRL Pro is not

one of them. It's just a bunch of apps like Airbnb, Domino's Pizza, the Nike shop.

I don't understand how it only works with certain apps but not the internet in general.

No, Venus, it's only for texting. Yeah, there's Apple Maps but no Google Maps. And bunch of texting apps. So I wasted £10 thinking, oh, is this going to switch to any network that's the strongest? Because I go through different areas where there's different strengths for different networks. Rubbish.

No, Venus doesn't talk to me.

She's nuts. Nothing she says makes any sense. She doesn't mean anything she says.

She's just an empty, hollow human being

who just says stuff for the hell of saying it.

I think her mum's completely right.

Anyone would be crazy to get involved with that.

She's just posting dumb shit on Instagram.

She's just completely lost it.

Yeah, I feel kind of stupid. I even got slightly excited that she was messaging me.

I didn't realize she's that nuts.

She's just completely nuts.

Yeah, I got some

Fun clips, I guess.

I remember when she followed me on Instagram, I was like, whoa, is that Venus? Why is she messaging me?

The constant phone calls got really annoying.

Like, she kept phoning me in the middle of the night as well. I don't know why.

Last time she was in the chat, she seemed kind of mad at me and said I can't keep my piehole shut. I don't know if I said something about her that I wasn't supposed to.

Why was the mum squatting? She broke as well now.

Oh, these people are nuts, aren't they?

All these girls are nuts. Crypt Moon.

Crypt was supposed to come in a few days. She was saying, how about 24th of August? Imagine she actually just shows up.

Hey Daniel, I'm at the airport now.

Not a single sane woman in my orbit.

It's funny because I crave someone normal so much, and then I'm just surrounded by weirdos.

I guess that's what you get for being a weirdo.

You attract what you are, I guess.

I'm weird, but I'm not that weird.

Some of these people are nuts.

I'm only weird in the sense that I, I say gross stuff, whereas most people would keep it a secret.

I only say it because I don't know what else to talk about. I'm gonna talk about something.

My job is to talk.

How am I supposed to talk about

You end up just going through every single possible thing you can talk about until there's nothing left.

Imagine being one of those YouTubers who built their entire audience off of one thing, and now they have to endlessly talk about that one thing. Like, Chris can only ever talk about Japan.

Um, who else is there?

I don't know why Chris Lev loves Japan so much, because he doesn't seem like a loser or have Japanese girl fetish.

He could have had a nice life in the UK. He's not a weeb, he doesn't give a shit about anime, so I don't get it. The food?

Like, what made him want to join Jet

and move to Japan? Was he one of those, oh, the UK's rubbish, it's shit?

I like life in the UK way more than life in Japan. What's shit about this? Got a car, got lovely countryside, got a nice house. Don't get a house like this in Japan, do you? Get a stupid apartment.

Better food here too. Got bacon.

Bread, bear donuts.

Don't know why he loves Japan so much,

cuz he doesn't seem the type, does he?

People like CDawgVA are massive gamer anime weeb nerds. So that makes sense.

Funny how not a single one of them has a Japanese girlfriend. Joey has Aki Theorist, Garnt has Sydney. Don't know who Connor has, but he's keeping it a secret, isn't he? Maybe he's like e-dating Ironmouse.

I mean, if you were CDawgVA's girlfriend and he was always playing games with Ironmouse, wouldn't you get a bit jealous?

You'd be like, why are you playing games with that girl all the time? I wonder if he went to see her secretly, cuz he was in America for a bit streaming.

If they're such good friends, surely he would go and see her in person. Otherwise it's kind of— what if she's like some massive fat overweight I mean, she is disabled, isn't she? She's got that immunodeficiency thing. Does that mean she's bedridden? Because she sounds like she'd be like a cute girl, and then she's got that anime avatar.

And then what if it's just like a 500-pound Jabba the Hutt woman in a bed? That would be kind of sad.

She just roleplays as this cute girl online, but that would suck if they were together.

Because he lives in Japan, she can't even leave the house. He would have to move to America.

Maybe they just have e-sex.

Wasn't Chris and Shiloh keeping it a secret for years before they made it public? Maybe one day he'll make it public. I thought he would date that old Japanese one. What's her name? Kaho Shibuya. The one with the big boobs.

I find it funny how none of them seem to hang out with actual Japanese people,

apart from Chris and Natsuki, I guess.

I guess once you've been with someone so long,

you can't really just ditch them like that.

Because you've grown attached, and then you enjoy them more for their personality than how they look.

Because yeah, he could probably get a hotter girlfriend, but it won't be the same as Aki's personality and how she makes him feel.

Can you imagine how insane it would be if, I don't know,

like they break up and then Joey starts, I don't know, fat shaming her or something on his channel?

Laughing and, I don't know, making weird jokes.

That'd be crazy.

Or Chris doing it on his stream or something like that.

Okay,

tomorrow— I don't even feel like going to Kit Hill, to be honest, after Bog Hill yesterday.

Maybe I'll go on Sunday because I've got one more portion of— oh wait, do I? Yeah, I got one more portion of that chicken pie filling.

That could be tomorrow's dinner. Then I don't have lunch though. What should I have for lunch? Ate all my pot noodle. I mean, I could go tomorrow. Kit Hill? I'm bored of Kit Hill as well now. First time I went there, I was like, oh my God, wow, the views. Now I'm a bit bored as well.

Find a swimming pool. Why?

I don't really want to go swimming. I don't, I don't really like getting naked in front of people.

I just don't want the only thing I do when I go out is to go to Tesco. I want to do something and then go to Tesco. I need the toilet.

What was I gonna do?

I might work out a little bit.

Vape shop?

No. Do I miss sleeping with Japanese women?

Not really. I think sleeping with Japanese women was the most boring out of all the women I've ever slept with.

Apart from having the fetish, there's just nothing really that great about it. It's only really good when you got the fetish. When the fetish goes away, you don't give a shit anymore.

Having sex with non-Japanese women was better than any Japanese woman I had sex with.

They don't even smell of anything.

I don't think I'm really that into Asian women anymore. I was only really into them because I had a fetish, and now I don't have it anymore.

It doesn't interest me.

Maybe I've got white girl fetish now.

I'm finding the English accent on a woman kind of hot now. I don't know, they kind of sound like what my teachers sounded like when I was a kid.

It's funny because up until age 20, probably up until my 30s, I had zero interest in English women.

I didn't see anything sexual about them. Now it's all different.

Now I feel like I don't want a girlfriend unless she's white and English.

Now I feel kind of stupid. I don't know how I was so obsessed with getting a Japanese girlfriend, like it was my entire life goal. Was to have a Japanese girlfriend. Now I have no interest in Japanese girls at all. I used to love it, having 5 different Japanese girls on the go, chatting to,

fantasizing about marrying her and having a house. Oh my God, so stupid. There's girls in every place. In every part of the world, there's girls.

You don't need to move all the way halfway across the world to find one.

It's like McDonald's. McDonald's everywhere.

It's this thing, aside, aside from women,

If you're not thinking about women at all, where would you want to be? I like being here.

It's familiar.

All those Japanese girls probably married with kids now,

like Sayaka.

Sayaka's sons could probably beat me up by now. They must be teenagers if she had kids back in 2010. Yeah, they must be like 15. Imagine getting beaten up by the sons of the girl who was your first girlfriend.

That'd be embarrassing.

Good thing I took down the video with her face in it.

Strapping young lads might come looking for me.

But yeah, I'm thinking of looking for a job soon.

I think it might be good for me.

I'm so bored of this streaming stuff. It's given me nothing to talk about. I got nothing to talk about because I'm not doing anything.

That's the irony of streaming, is that it's easy money because you just talk about stuff, but if that's all you do, you won't have anything to talk about because you didn't do anything apart from just sit here.

I've been thinking more, more recently about getting a job.

It would also mean I don't have to lie about having a job when I could just actually have one.

Might help me meet people too.

It's funny when you don't have to do something. You end up kind of wanting to do it, but when you have to do it, you don't want to do it.

I think maybe there's more to having a job than just the money. It's about

being part of a team or a movement to create or provide something.

I think it's not working to make money, it's just that the money is supposed to be there so you are able to work and buy food and have a house.

It's supposed to be— you're supposed to do your job and then the job pays so that you don't starve or freeze. Not that you do your job so you get a house and a car.

Yeah, I did most of the gardening with the cleaver.

Well, I ripped a lot of it out with the gloves at first, and then I realized, wait, I can just get the cleaver and machete it all down.

I guess you're supposed to pull the roots out.

I'll just machete it again. Whatever. I actually kind of enjoyed it.

And I— the tree stumps were like growing back little branches with leaves, so I cut that all down too.

I wonder why they cut the trees down. I guess so they have a view over the fence.

There's still loads of tiny little weeds. I'm not plucking them out one by one.

I pulled out all the nettles.

I got a big pile of weeds now. I'll just let it rot and dry.

Actually kind of had fun hacking it all down. Makes me want to get a proper machete.

My knife was nice and sharp, cut through it easily like butter.

Might sharpen it again.

I don't know why people always moan about how I do stuff. Like when I was sharpening the knife, people kept whining, oh, does he even know how to sharpen it? It still sharpened, didn't it? When I lift weights, they're like, oh, his form's bad. Yeah, my biceps still getting bigger, aren't they? People bitch and moan about every

little thing. The knife got sharp. Who cares if how I did it wasn't perfect?

All I care about is that the knife gets sharper. I don't care if I'm doing it properly or not.

Such a bunch of wet tissues in the chat all the time, like fucking TB, bitching and whining all the time about every fucking little thing.

Bunch of OCD fucking weirdos.

You're a bunch of Nepalese guys at the petrol station.

Oh, his form wasn't good. Oh, he didn't sharpen it proper. Shut the fuck up. I still got the results.

TB whined all the time at everything I did.

I hate TB.

There's someone else I really hate too, but I won't say who.

Secret.

No, I can't say what it starts with because then it'd be too obvious.

No, I'm not saying it.

Most of the time they're fine, but sometimes the stuff they say is really annoying.

No, it's not you.

Do my special push-ups. I'm training to do these special push-ups that should let me walk on my arms. I need to develop shoulder strength.

What's like this?

好，好点儿。

I think I don't have enough shoulder strength.

I don't have enough shoulder strength at all.

I need enough shoulder strength to be able to stand on my arms.

Oh God,

oh

God, Jesus.

I can do 30 normal push-ups, but those ones It's a completely different muscle group.

I guess I'm nowhere near to be able to do it.

I'll probably stream a bit later since I started late.

Been slacking again. It was just such a nice day and I was so relaxed.

Just wanted to relax on my own, enjoy the weather, do some gardening.

Streaming makes me depressed.

I do not like streaming anymore.

All it does is cause me trouble, ruin my life.

It's fucked up my life so much.

Made people hate me.

I feel like maybe I do just want to get a job. Nuke everything, delete every fucking thing.

I just don't feel like it's worth it anymore.

I'm only still in it because the Kick money's good. If I have to go back to YouTube making under $1K a month, I'll probably just get a job and fucking delete every fucking thing. I'm done with it.

It's ruined my life so much.

I think some people just shouldn't be allowed to have a megaphone.

I feel like you should need some kind of training or

You need a certificate to be able to broadcast opinions because most people just shouldn't be allowed to do it.

Like, you wouldn't give a child a nuke, would you? I just— I don't think I'm responsible enough to wield this power,

which is like having a megaphone on a platform.

I mean, back in the olden days, you had to get on TV to have this kind of power. They wouldn't just let anyone on TV, would they? You had to, like, prove

that you can do the job.

Nowadays, anyone can just pick up a camera and record a video, go live. Twitch, Kick, YouTube, Instagram, TikTok.

It's a dangerous weapon, and in the wrong hands

can be harmful,

harm themselves and others.

YouTube is like a I mean, streaming and YouTube is like day trading. It's one of the most difficult and dangerous things that anyone can just do without needing to pass a test or pass requirements or anything. Like, no one would be allowed to just operate on a brain or do heart surgery without years of training and education,

but then anyone can just pick up a camera and go live on YouTube.

Well, not anyone, because I think you need 1,000 subs.

And all these unhinged crazy people just let loose on the internet

with no checks or regulation. I thought it was a great thing, now I'm not so sure.

Just think, maybe in an alternate world where the internet didn't exist, I'd live a happy life.

Now I'm just miserable alone. Everyone hates me.

Getting in trouble with the police.

What kind of stupid life is this?

More and more I'm thinking just get rid of it all and get a fucking job.

This is shit. I'm only in it for the money. And then I'm out.

Once the Kick money dries up, I'm out.

Not going back to YouTube.

I'm not doing this for £800 a month.

That's number 2.

I made $3,800 in August, I think. So far I made $3,000, but there's still a week left, so I might be able to make another $1,000, maybe $4,000.

That's why I want to build up a savings safety net in case,

you know, just so I'm safe whilst I look for a job.

Well, yeah, no job's gonna pay what I'm making now, which is why I'm milking it now as hard as I can.

But I don't want to do this forever. Fucking sucks. No one wants to be with me. Everyone thinks I'm a freak.

End up dying alone like this.

It's not worth it. I mean, it is worth $4,000 a month, I guess. Well, yeah, well, well, yeah, well, if I keep making £4,000 a month forever, then I guess I'll just be rich and miserable.

But if this dries up, I'm not going back to YouTube.

I don't care why you watch.

I want a relationship and I want people to like me and I have like a healthy life.

You can reform even while streaming.

I don't know, I feel like I can't unless I nuked all of it and wiped it all clean,

because then at least if someone found the channel or found out about my past, I can say, yeah, but it's all deleted. Those are just reuploads. It's like solid proof that I've moved on from it. Or whilst I'm still doing it, it's not proof that I've moved on. I'm like, I'm still doing it. It's like a druggie

saying, oh, I won't do it again, whilst they're still doing it.

I just want to have a home and like stay Stable life, a nice girlfriend,

pet maybe. Not have fucking freak Redditors snitching on you about every fucking thing. I can't even let the cat in my house anymore. Fucking stupid haters ruined that as well.

Ruined every part of my life.

All because I streamed it. Like, I lost Amazon because I streamed— I videoed it. I lost every— because I streamed talking about it. I lost the cat because I streamed it in the house. Otherwise, no one would have known that the cat was in the house.

Got all these fucking mentally ill retards obsessed with me.

Not in a good way as well.

Snitching on me on everything I do.

Maybe the only way to escape it is if I just actually delete it all so I can't go back to it.

Take the leap of faith. I just delete all so I can't come back. Forced to grow and move on.

The problem is I share too much. I overshare, which is what gets me in trouble.

Most streamers are happy. Yeah, because they don't have a fucking annoying toxic audience. And then you say, oh, you're the one who attracted the toxic audience. I fucking didn't. 2015, '16, I was not toxic.

I was a happy-go-lucky

innocent soul,

just sharing my funny stories.

And then all these degens started flocking to my channel. Incels, red pills, black pills, Oh, habit people. Oh God, all the fucking sickos of the internet hitch the wagon to my truck.

Korean Poo Museum. What's that?

Yeah, making the Elliot Rodger video was a mistake because it brought all these fucking weirdo incels to my channel.

That was the one video I regret making.

I don't remember Poo Museum.

I remember a museum in Korea had like a 3D printer thingy— not a printer, but had like cameras rigged up to create a 3D image. Maybe it was that one. I don't think it was about— I don't think the whole museum was about poo.

One more.

There.

嗯哼。

Just— Keth is not very pretty. She's got big chin. I

used to watch her a couple years ago. She used to get about 500 viewers on Twitch. I think she multi-streams on Kick and Twitch.

She would make way more money if she just fully moved to Kick.

Yeah, I used to watch it ages ago

because I was looking for streamers in Thailand to watch.

Yeah, she's quite funny though. She's got a funny accent.

Don't you hate asking girls what's the craziest thing they've done sexually and then you dread the answer? Because it's going to be something wild. I don't know, gangbang with 5 guys.

It's not really what you want to hear if you're like looking at them as a girlfriend.

Oh yeah, my new girlfriend gangbang with 5 guys.

If they don't keep that secret, what does it mean? Because if they like you and they want you to like them, they wouldn't admit they've done that, wouldn't they?

But if they ask you and then you don't say, what about you? Then it seems like you don't care about them.

Chihiro's most craziest story.

Must be Australian guy. That guy was a psycho. He ate bread whilst having sex. He likes period blood sprayed all over his belly, and he shoves it in the ass even when someone says stop.

He doesn't stop. He just thumbs it in there like a bit of Play-Doh.

A lot of girls like being dominated, so they would love someone like Australian Guy. I've never been good at it. I don't know how to do it really. Well, it's like push them around and shove them. Wait, toilet.

Ugh.

Yeah, but I don't like causing pain. So when they say like they want to be spanked or choked, I don't really like doing it.

Doesn't it hurt? I don't want to hurt no one.

I mean, how hard am I supposed to choke them so they go all red in the face or so they can't breathe? I mean, what if I accidentally crush their throat?

Or do I just like gently grip around the neck? I don't really understand it. I mean, you choke someone to like suffocate. I want to suffocate them. I mean, how hard am I supposed to choke? What if like they actually can't breathe and I'm like, am I doing it right? And she's like, it's just weird, like Bart

Simpson Homer strangle.

Am I doing it right? What's up?

Ah, biting. I hate biting. Mira had a biting thing.

I can't remember if Mira wanted me to bite her or she used to bite me. I hate it when they suck on your neck and then you get a stupid hickey. So ugly looking.

Amina used to try and do that and I would stop her. Look gross on your neck, like big red mark.

I don't really know why violence has to be brought into the whole thing. I like to be soft and gentle, affectionate.

I don't really— it's like spice, I guess. Some people like pain when they eat their food.

I don't know why you want pain.

I guess it's supposed to be kinky, but if someone slaps my butt, I don't really feel pleasure.

It's just like, okay, you slapped my butt.

It's not the physical feeling of it they enjoy. I think it's the psychological feeling they enjoy.

I don't really get it.

I remember Chihiro telling Australian Guy sex with me was boring.

Yeah, compared to Australian Guy, it's pretty, pretty boring.

If that's boring, I don't know, why don't you go to India wearing a bikini in some dark alleyway? It sounds like something you'd enjoy.

I'm a sensual lover.

What do you like about sex outdoors? Oh, the smell of the air and the gentle breeze caressing my buttocks. And the blades of grass tickling my scrotum, the sounds of the grasshoppers. That sounds so gay.

I'm like the gayest straight guy ever.

And the grass between my anus.

When did they legalize weed in Thailand? I should have taken Chihiro there and then we got weed. That would have spiced it up. I didn't discover weed until 2020.

Me and Chihiro didn't travel much, did we? Apart from Malaysia and England twice, I guess. But we never went to Thailand or Indonesia,

or— we didn't do much traveling overseas,

just the two of us. The only traveling overseas we did was to see my family.

Do you think she did weed in Thailand? But Atsushi got high and smashed her backside out.

Maybe Chihiro heard my story of how I got high in Amsterdam and fucked for like an hour without stopping. She was like, oh, I want to try that. Atsushi, let's go Thailand. And then she got him the weed.

嗯，啊，差不多，多少？嗯。

Oh.

Oh,

those push-ups are so hard.

My shoulders must be really weak then.

I guess I don't really exercise my shoulders. I only do my biceps.

I need shoulder strength.

How out of debt am I? I've still got £20,000 debt. With only 5,000 savings.

No, I don't really want to go to Thailand anymore.

I kind of want to get a job.

If I go Thailand, just be sitting in a condo being bored like I am here.

Oh, I'd go crazy and become full degen, like, fuck ladyboys. So she's not ready to part. I want to go down— I want to go down wholesome, like, uh,

self-improvement path, not degen taking out the ass path. Sorry to disappoint you all. I know that's what you want so much,

but I don't really want to become more degen.

I want to become— I want to like go on the path that's good for my mental health.

I think fucking ladyboys in Thailand for a couple years and coming back here, back to square one without achieving anything's

gonna be a good use of time and money.

I mean, look at Ice Poseidon. He's got all the money, but he's still surrounded by scumbags.

Even his own girlfriend.

Just imagine if the internet gets switched off. Oh God, right, all these things, all of it just disappears. Like it never even happened. Reddit gone, Discord gone, all these losers and weirdos gone. Go stay in their own little shitty part of the world.

I'd love it.

I think it would be great.

Like, it's a flick of a switch, it's all gone.

No one can Google me up.

I would be lonely. I'd be forced to make real connections in the real world instead of wasting my whole life talking to a bunch of strangers on the internet where half of them hate me.

This isn't real connection, is it?

This is just like

using a plaster to fix a sinking ship.

You would get a job and meet real people and make real connections and

I don't have the internet there to ruin your life.

The internet's just a drug.

It's just a drug people use to make themselves feel happier because their own lives are not fulfilling enough.

But instead of fixing the actual problem, they just ignore it and then use the internet as a vice.

In a way, I feel kind of jealous of my dad because he grew up in a time without internet and was an adult in the time before internet. And you had to like use your brains and wit and creativity to do anything in life instead of just ask ChatGPT or Google. You had to have a brain,

and then you didn't have social media to ruin your life.

Everything was analog. It seems like it would have been cool being an adult in the '80s or '90s, '70s.

Yeah, if my dad was— my dad was a young adult in this day and age, Yeah, maybe he would have made a video about how he can't get any women and then it goes viral

and then the stupid cringe video he made years ago haunts him, like comes back to bite him in the backside.

6 hours.

Why did they remake Metal Gear Solid 3? Flavor autism. Oh my God, shut the fuck up, stupid bitch.

Why don't they remake Metal Gear Solid 1? Why do they start at 3?

Is it just a remake? It's just a remake, isn't it?

They should remake 1 and then 2 and then 3. Why are they starting at 3? All right, you're probably playing Metal Gear Solid Delta Snake Eater. I feel weird calling it that because I was going to call it the Metal Gear Solid— I hate Americans who sound like this. Last time I played this game, I was 17

and now I'm 38, so a lot has happened since then. That's why you broke it early. So been a lot to do, time to kind of prepare this video, which is why it's so long, by the way. Why does he sound like a cartoon character? Saw it 3, 3 hours, I got close. Metal Gear Solid 3, I

played it. Oh damn, I played this game. Being so nostalgic for me, it'd be awesome to see this video do well. Out of my hands as I upload the video, but Likes, views, all that means a lot to me. If we get like 20,000, definitely expect a full series. My goal is to keep doing like the long—

Shut up and just play the fucking game.

Talk so much. I agree. The hell?

Hey, you'd better hurry. Sokolov ran off by himself, but I'll catch up to him. We're counting on you. Some of these American gamer YouTubers have the most annoying voices ever. Man, that was a very long cutscene and I loved it. Seeing Revolver Ocelot for the first time, actually, that was amazing. All right, compass back. All squad for

this guy, man. It's just wild seeing the same cutscenes. I forgot how cutscene heavy this game was, you know. It's like compared to like MGS5,

can they just sprint normally?

Why do they sound like cartoon characters from South Park or something?

Yeah, they just remade Metal Gear Solid 3. Why not 1 or 2?

Metal Gear Solid 3 is the worst one. Boring in a jungle.

What happened to Meryl?

Does she not reappear in another game?

The Rad Brad, probably one of the most annoying sounding YouTubers ever.

Do you ever feel like you've got a million things to juggle. Keeping track of everything can feel like quite the tightrope act. That's why at EON Next, we— And we're back with another episode of Before You Buy, that show where we give you some straight-up gameplay and our first impressions of the latest games releasing. As usual, it's

me. This guy sounds a bit more normal. Talking about Metal Gear Solid Delta: Snake Eater. This is a remake of the classic Metal Gear Solid 3 from 2004. A game that was way ahead of its time, now updated a bit for 2025. How is it ahead of its time? This is a more straightforward one than I was

expecting. Now, just so you know, some context and some bias up front. Uh, if some of you guys are newer to the channel, you might not know, but I am a diehard Metal Gear Solid fan. No one cares. Way back when I played the original Metal Gear Solid 1, I consider that game the reason why I'm No

one cares about you. We're here for the game. Why is he telling us about his stupid childhood? All my children, so it's complicated. Oh, no one gives a fuck about your children. Some already great performances by the voice actors, the animators, and all the original work put in by those original developers. And it's still all the same

voice performances, the same cutscene direction, the same shots, which really tells you just how ahead of its time this game originally was. What, it was ahead of its time because it had cutscenes and voice acting? Wow, so ahead of its time. Now it just has a nice Unreal Engine 5 sheen on it. Now it looks like a

million bucks. Every so often the old game underneath will show in like an awkward pose or expression, but at this point, I don't know, I think that's part of the charm. Look, the game is preserved. Seeing those characters now in such high fidelity, especially Snake, the Boss, and Volgin as standouts— look, it's been a hell of a

trip for me to experience the story I've experienced 100 times before, but with characters looking more realistic. Realistic but still stylized, most importantly. Outfits still— yeah, I was watching CDawgVA play it today, and there was a scene the lightning guy grabs Snake's balls to check if it's really the person who was imposing. That was weird.

How does he know what his cock and balls feel like? Cool costumes. Snake's bandana cartoonishly furrows along with his brow like Batman's mask. All of it just really works and is fun to watch on screen again. Now graphics-wise, this was all captured running on a review copy I've been playing on PS5 Pro, and it's not perfect. It's

not a locked 60 frames per second. Sometimes it slows down a little bit, but nothing too bad. I just was hoping for like a redo of an old game that would end up being rock solid frame rate-wise, but otherwise it still looks nice and sharp. And, uh, also in terms of color palette, you can choose all these

different filters that are kind of silly, but there is one important one, a good one Legacy Mode filter, which I ended up using for quite a bit of the game and was shocked to see just how much it made it look more like how I remembered color-wise. Look, the new creative choices color-wise are fine, but you'll notice

it a ton when you do like a seamless run to crawl. It's smooth and it never gets old. They really did a good job with like fixing like the crouch, stand, crawl. Hmm.

I've got to send the voice message.

I'm meeting Helen.

Did you hear what I say?

Good.

What did I say then?

Oh, I should send her that picture of— ah, did I delete it all?

I remember the stream with the abandoned— was it Phoenix Mill?

How come it's not saved on my phone?

Maybe I delete— I think I deleted it to save room.

Yeah, should have made a Metal Gear Solid video, shouldn't I? As an avid fan of Metal Gear Solid and tactical espionage games in general, I knew I just had to play this game. Unfortunately, boring, bland, and rubbish. Metal Gear Solid 3 was probably the worst one out of all of them. Why do they make a remake of

3 instead of 1 and 2. I could just say that, couldn't I?

Did I have to flip 7 at that time? Maybe it's my flip

7. No, I don't think I had the Flip 7

when I was at the cheese ring.

How come it's not saved? It would have been on the smashed S10 Plus.

I remember I took a bunch of thumbnails. Weird, must have deleted it all.

Doesn't sound like she liked the idea of the abandoned mining buildings.

Why? Does she have experience with them? I didn't think they were dirty,

just had a lot of weeds.

I wonder if this is a common theme with couples. Coming to Devon or being in Devon, like scouting out places to bang outside?

Or am I just weird?

Every time I'm in a secluded area, I'm looking around thinking, yeah, I could bang there.

Bog Hill. Yeah, but the problem is a lot of girls won't be able to walk that far.

But then the problem is, if you can drive and park near the bang place, then it's not going to be that secluded,

so you're going to have to trek a bit.

You've seen lost clothing? I saw a very small sock, not an adult sock.

I did see a man's boxer shorts. That looks very old in the rubble at Kit Hill.

It's like one of my dreams though. Find a pair of dirty ladies underwear just lying in a bush. Would you take it home? Maybe I'd buy a bunch of dirty— I'll buy a bunch of ladies underwear and I'll wear them for a week, make it dirty, and then I just leave them lying around in certain places like

top of Kit Hill.

Bulk kill. People are gonna think, oh, some girl banged here, and they're gonna take it home and sniff it, and it's gonna be me that they smell. Catfished.

I'm pretty sure every guy would sniff smelly underwear if they thought it came from a cute girl.

Don't lie.

You mean you never got used underwear— that's a woman's underwear— and then rubbed your willy all over it and then came on the vagina patch? And then as you're cumming, you rub in the cum with your dick into the fabric. If you haven't done that, you're lying, or you're gay, or you're just really boring, or you've just

never had the opportunity to get dirty underwear.

Sometimes the willy is— you can think of it as like a pen. Or a paintbrush,

and instead of ink or paint, you got cum, and then you like swish it around

like you're creating art.

I'm bored. Why do girls take so long to reply? Maybe she's gaming or something. Like, when I play Mario Kart, I can't— I can't pause it or anything when I'm in the race. I have to play it until the race ends or I get knocked out.

I kind of left Spanish go on read because I didn't know what else to say.

The Spanish girl's a bit boring to talk to.

I keep talking about meeting up and then she's like, oh yeah, I can do that. When are you fucking free then?

She said next week.

I already met Indian girl when she was born.

No, I didn't go on a date. I was doing gardening.

Gardening, and then the weather was really nice, so I just relaxed.

Sometimes it's just nice to not talk and just sit there and look at the sky.

I feel so much happier when I'm not streaming. When I'm streaming, I feel so miserable. Like all the negativity comes out.

I just sit in the garden and I just look out into the distance.

And then Mr. Meow Meow came by and said hello.

And I did my laundry. It's so relaxing.

No one telling me that I'm boring

felt so nice.

See how much money I spent this month.

£1,400.

No, wait, that's wrong. £1,800. Oh,

it didn't include column J.

£1,800. Oh God,

what did I spend? This is stupid. Meldon car park, the Bog Hill car park cost me £20.

The castle cost me £40 for the date.

Tesla charging cost £10. Beach car park, £7.

Spent £100 on parking and charging.

And then I got clothing, £70. I got a belt, gardening gloves. I got a monitor that cost £165. And then I spent £200 on food.

Water bill, 130.

Internet bill, 31.

£1,800.

It's the random spendings that make it expensive, like dating website, £50. Monitor, £80. Clothing was £70. Belt, £7. Gardening gloves cost £220 for all these random things.

No, I made more than 2,800. So far I've made 2,900 and there's still a week left, so I can make another 700-ish probably. I reckon I'll make 3,600 this month.

So that's 2,000 left over.

Yeah, but next month there won't be a water bill or a monitor or clothing. Might be something else, like a fish tank. It's always something, isn't there?

I don't know why I'm spending so much on food.

The dates cost me a little bit of money.

I can't believe last month I made £7,000. It's insane, cuz I made £1,000 from YouTube and then £5,600 from Kick. July was so good, but £5,600 down to about £3,000 now.

Most expensive items, probably The steak, it's usually about £7, isn't it?

£7 or £8.

The problem is I did everything and then I did it again and again and again and again. Then I got bored and burnt out because now I've done basically everything there is to do around here. In the beginning, I was really excited to do a driving stream, show you Kit Hill.

Now I've been everywhere at least 5 times,

10 times even some places.

I think I've got to book a hotel somewhere and spend the week there. Then you lose all the money you make on the hotel, or just fly to another country and then you lose all your money you make on plane tickets and hotels.

Went to Churchill a couple times. I don't like ChaCha because he just reminds me when I was really stressed out about the Bella Box.

Remember I was using Moblin?

I was so miserable because I couldn't figure out how to get it working.

That was just my food in May. What?

How the hell? In May, I only spent £100 on food unless I've done it wrong. In April, I spent £126 on food.

How am I spending so much on food now? In March, I spent £200.

June, I spent 174.

I'm definitely spending way more on food since I started Kick.

She doesn't seem to like my ideas. She doesn't seem to like dirty places.

Yeah, but if it's outside, it's obviously gonna be dirty, isn't it? Because it's outside.

I think I spent too much money on clothing. I got carried away. I got 2 button shirts. That light blue one, I don't think I'm even gonna wear.

And why did I buy 4 t-shirts instead of just one? I got way too carried away. I could have spent £30 instead of £70.

I wore it earlier on the stream.

Doing it outside and being a clean freak don't really go together.

Oh yeah. Ah, I forgot

the reason why my food bill was cheaper back then, because people kept sending me food. I can't believe I forgot about that.

I just remembered people were sending me like crates of food.

Yeah, I just remembered that all by myself.

I guess that's why I

wondered why my food bill

suddenly seemed to have gone a lot more expensive.

Damn, £200. I'm gonna go Tesco again soon. I'm gonna spend probably £40.

That'll bring— I've already spent £200. I end up spending £250.

Again.

I don't like Lidl cuz there's no self-service.

I need more flour.

Why do dogs love peeing on lampposts?

Uh, dog running around out there.

I knew it was going to piss on the lamppost. Okay.

Oh, 10 o'clock.

I only streamed 5 hours.

Going to make like $70.

Better stream another 2 hours.

Hmm, what instantly turns me off?

A lot of the things Crip said really turned me off, like eating cum with food. It was so gross.

Never really been with a girl who wanted me to do something really gross.

Thank God.

I'm really annoyed I lost my spreadsheet records from Thailand. I had every month's expenses written out from when I was in Thailand. Would have been interesting to compare. Now my records only go back from March.

Been one month since Cripps disappeared. Yeah,

I would never have predicted it, to be honest. I was convinced that she was genuine. I, I really was. I really fell for it. I feel kind of stupid.

I really was kind of banking on her

coming

after I lost all the other girls.

I still feel a bit sad when I go to Bog Hill or someplace. Remember the last time she was in the chat?

It was nice having someone fangirling over you that hard. Even if it might have been fake.

It would have been a nice distraction from the complete loneliness I'm in now, even if it was only for a week.

I wonder why she just suddenly lost interest. Was it because I moved to Kick and it doesn't have the same— it's not the same as being on YouTube, is it, with 100K subs but 1K followers? Feels like, I don't know, you signed up to bang a Hollywood star, and then he got a job as some B-lister.

I'm just exaggerating, obviously. I don't think I'm a Hollywood star, before anyone fucking says it. Daniel comparing himself to Brad Pitt. Shut up.

It's an exaggerated example to make my point.

But I appreciate what she did for me.

It was a time when I was very lonely and vulnerable and She made me feel like I wasn't completely unwanted.

It's nice having a girl into you.

Makes you feel like you're not a complete reject.

Had so many girls interested in me. They few months. Moon Crypt Cake.

There were a bunch of others that I didn't really talk about. I DM'd them for a bit, but they were all Mexican or American.

None willing to

travel.

Win some, lose some, or like lose everyone, win nothing.

I'm never going to Mexico. No way. I don't care if she's the hottest girl in Mexico. I'm not going there.

I don't care if my sister said it was nice.

Yeah, I appreciate the few months she was with us.

I haven't had such an obsessed fangirl like that in ages, or ever really.

Made me feel good,

like it strokes my ego.

Last crazy fangirl before Poor Crypt. Hmm,

I mean, I wouldn't say she's crazy even though some crazy stuff happened, and she definitely wasn't on the level of Crypt. Probably Pia, because she was always down to meet, but she wasn't like in the chat like Crypt was.

I'm not saying she's crazy,

but we had some wild moments.

I think Pia matured a lot over the years. She seems very different now,

like she's been through many experiences and she's growing from it.

Yeah, it was 7 years ago, 6 years ago, 2019. Most

people have moved on.

Someone asks you what's a big turn-off and then you say, oh, um, asking for my cum in a sandwich. It's gotten a bit— I mean, you did say the biggest turnoff.

Maybe that was a bit too big. Oh God, I took way too much nicotine.

Oh God.

Well, like things that give me the ick, what would it be?

That's risky, because if I say something gives me the ick and it's like something they enjoy or want me to do, then they'll feel like they can't ask me to do it.

This is a bit of a minefield.

Oh God, what if I ask about you and she says, oh, eating ass? Oh, but I like that.

I don't know.

Something I don't like.

Oh God, I feel a bit sick.

Hmm.

Borderlands 4.

I never liked Borderlands 3. I thought it was boring.

That's coming out on Switch too, isn't it?

Crawl thing. You can still dive roll to a crawl, and that's good. Grabbing enemies with CQC feels much less awkward, and you're not going to accidentally choke slam a dude into the ground as much. I like how they did this. My only issue here is that the COVID system isn't that good. It's, it's one of those cheap-feeling

cover systems where you walk up to it and you hope that Snake locks into it like you intended. It's not like an instant push snap to the wall as like the old— I never understood what makes Snake so deadly.

All the enemies, like the main bosses, have some kind of cool ability or some special skill.

But what does Snake do?

He, he just shoots a gun. Like, he doesn't have any magic powers or like super strength.