monthly summary · May 2019
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Overview
Daniel's streams in May 2019 centered on his separation from his wife. He expressed guilt and regret, praised her support, missed shared routines, and was unsure whether leaving was right. Divorce paperwork stayed unresolved. Near month's end he resumed contact with her about reconciliation, and the outcome remains unknown.
Dating followed an arc: an Essex woman became his girlfriend and he went on a London date he viewed as going well. Other dates left him without attraction, he closed girlfriend applications, and by month's end he said he had stopped contact with the Essex woman.
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Daniel bought a £250 torso love doll, framed it as cheaper and simpler than dating, and set a Patreon goal for a roughly £2,000 full-body version. He later suspected an infection, which was unconfirmed and untreated, and took a break from the doll.
Daniel lived with his mother, discussing finances, privacy and conflicts. He weighed an extended stay in Japan, renewed his passport, booked a flight and an Airbnb, and contacted the Japanese embassy about his visa, but travel and residence plans remained unsettled.
Channel fortunes and finances were recurring concerns: subscriber loss, strikes, hiding the subscriber count, Patreon and Super Chat support, drama commentary, cooking videos, and online selling problems including a PayPal ban.
Daniel took online personality quizzes on stream. He reported results strongly suggesting antisocial personality disorder symptoms and a 39% autism score he read as not indicating autism. These were online quizzes, not diagnoses. He also voiced dread over mortality and aging.
Critics alleged pedophilia and tax evasion, which Daniel disputed. He also reported that a woman he had dated posted negative claims about him on Reddit.
Themes
Marital separation, divorce paperwork and possible reconciliation.
Dating and attraction, including the Essex woman and dates in Germany and London.
Love doll purchase, finances, health concerns and the Patreon goal.
Living with his mother, family disputes and privacy.
YouTube metrics, content strategy, monetization and online side ventures.
Cooking segments, including soups, roasted chicken and baked onion.
Grief over his late father and family mortality.
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Commentary on the Tati and James Charles dispute, Zach Choi and Game of Thrones S8E04.
Finances, family property, hardware, and Japan visa and travel logistics.
Developments
Source dated 2019-05-02: Daniel took an antisocial personality disorder quiz and an autism quiz (39%) on stream, tested local recording, and considered returning a £1,000 laptop before deciding to keep it.
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Source dated 2019-05-05: Daniel took an online personality quiz with a result he reported as strongly suggesting antisocial personality disorder symptoms, handled repeated phone calls, and noted a new Patreon member and a Super Chat.
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Source dated 2019-05-06: Game of Thrones S8E04 was recapped.
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Sources dated 2019-05-07: Daniel made an ex-girlfriend tier list video, ran a stream titled as an online therapy session, hid the subscriber count, created a second Tinder account, and discussed divorce papers and YouTube strikes.
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Source dated 2019-05-10: Daniel said a 27-year-old Essex woman agreed to be his girlfriend, planned a restrained London date, hid his subscriber count until it exceeds 90,000, and baked an uncut onion on Cooking with Daniel.
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Source dated 2019-05-13: Daniel met the Essex woman in London from about 1 PM to 4 PM; she left for work and both agreed to meet again.
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Source dated 2019-05-14: Daniel renewed his passport, changed his Tinder location to Japan, and said meeting Pia in London in March led to the divorce process.
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Source dated 2019-05-15: Daniel covered the Tati and James Charles dispute.
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Sources dated 2019-05-16 and 2019-05-17: Daniel bought a £250 torso love doll and received it. He said recent dates left him without attraction and closed girlfriend applications while staying open to hookups.
Source dated 2019-05-19: a Tati and James Charles commentary was paired with a Cooking with Daniel episode using HelloFresh chicken.
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Sources dated 2019-05-20 and 2019-05-21: Daniel set a Patreon goal for a full-body doll, sold a GoPro via Shpock, had two Switch buyers fail to appear, and said his main PayPal account was banned.
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Source dated 2019-05-24: after symptoms he suspected were a urinary tract infection, Daniel decided to take a break from the doll without medication.
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Source dated 2019-05-27: Daniel booked a direct British Airways flight to Japan and said it might be his last stream in England.
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Source dated 2019-05-29: Daniel said he had stopped contact with the Essex woman and did not want a platonic friendship or to feign romantic commitment.
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Source dated 2019-05-30: Daniel resumed contact with his wife about possible reconciliation, got a new passport, booked flights and an Airbnb for Japan, and called the Japanese embassy about his expired spouse visa.
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Uncertainties & gaps
The future of the Essex relationship was unclear mid-month; the final source reports Daniel stopped contact.
Whether the divorce will be finalized or the couple reconcile is unresolved. Daniel finds his wife's lack of anger suspicious and is unsure whether he can switch to a spouse visa inside Japan.
Travel and residence plans were unsettled, as were first-class tickets with inheritance money and washing the doll before leaving.
The suspected urinary tract infection was unconfirmed. Daniel did not know his HIV status after an incomplete home test, and long-term effects of a past chlamydia infection were uncertain.
Disputed matters stayed unresolved: Japanese tax action, a past claim about his wife and the SD card, whether Shpock transactions were fraudulent, how users altered a Patreon screenshot, defamation options and tax issues.
In the Tati and James Charles dispute, Tati's allegation of predatory behavior was denied by Charles, and whether the waiter video was genuine or enlisted by Charles is unconfirmed.
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Whether the subscriber count will recover or reach 90,000 is doubtful.
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The identities of the repeated phone caller and of the companion in the outdoor ride-on segment, and the machine and the cause of its stall, are unclear.
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Explore this period
- Recording · May 2019
Why my love doll is better than a real woman
Daniel purchased a £250 rubber girlfriend substitute that lacks a head, arms, and legs, hosting images of it on Instagram under the username @rabbitsate_my_family instead of displaying it on video. The £250 substitute provides practical and
- Recording · May 2019
Game of Thrones S8E04 Explained
A recap of Game of Thrones Season 8, Episode 4 covers funeral rites for fallen fighters, post-battle celebrations, Bronn confronting Jaime and Tyrion, and the march toward King's Landing. Euron Greyjoy ambushes Daenerys's fleet, kills a sec
- Recording · May 2019
My problem with James Charles and Tati Westbrook
Daniel reviews the public controversy involving YouTubers James Charles and Tati regarding sponsorships, allegations, and the nature of online fame, while criticizing the decision to publish an expository video rather than resolving the dis
- Recording · May 2019
Mukbang after starving myself for 24 hours
Daniel eats lunch prepared from a HelloFresh box during a stream, consisting of sausage, mixed beans, and beer, while managing spills and finding an eggshell. Daniel had not eaten since the prior day's lunch because he stayed in his room un
- Recording · May 2019
daniel's online therapy session
Daniel praised a newly acquired Samsung S10 Plus for its camera, screen, and minimized playback capabilities, while comparing it favorably against iPhones and detailing plans to sell a GoPro and an iPhone. Daniel addressed audience trends,
- Recording · May 2019
James Charles just DESTROYED Tati Westbrook
A commentary review analyzes the public dispute and video exchanges between Tati and James Charles concerning allegations of predatory behavior, subsequent refutations, and public fallout. Daniel hosts an episode of Cooking with Daniel, pre
- Recording · May 2019
Why I stopped talking to the Essex girl
Daniel reflected on ending contact with the Essex Girl, noting a lack of interest in platonic friendships or feigned romantic commitment, while considering his requirements for communicating with women online and finding fulfillment through
- Recording · May 2019
daniel's online therapy session
Daniel hosted a live stream addressing feelings of boredom, isolation, and negative views regarding content creation, while explaining that hiding the channel's subscriber count resulted from audience hostility and continuous subscriber dro
- Recording · May 2019
Am I a sociopath
Daniel completed an online questionnaire evaluating sociopathic traits and antisocial personality disorder symptoms, addressing questions on lying, impulsivity, irresponsibility, criminal acts, empathy, remorse, violence, risk-taking, super
- Recording · May 2019
meeting the Essex girl [8Dpha6Q4pyM]
Daniel prepares for an upcoming date with Essex Girl by packing personal items, snacks, headphones, and a passport, and selecting layered clothing including Uniqlo jeans, shirts, hoodies, deodorant, and Durex. Daniel meets Essex Girl in Lon
- Recording · May 2019
Hiding in my room is an UTTER manchild
Daniel cuts his hair and displays a cape during a broadcast before criticizing a depiction of a battle based on gameplay experience with Total War. Daniel reflects on how candid remarks harm his channel's growth and subscriber numbers, noti
- Recording · May 2019
Beer stream with Daniel
Daniel experiences conflicts with his mother involving household responsibilities, monetary contributions, refusal to learn to drive, meal preparation, and contentious YouTube videos such as Why I Hate My Mum. Daniel evaluates living arrang
- Recording · May 2019
i accomplished nothing today
Daniel purchased a £250 torso love doll from lovehoney.co.uk using proceeds from selling a GoPro and a Switch, explaining logistical concerns regarding his mother, storing it in a closet, and comparing its costs against dating and sex worke
- Recording · May 2019
chat and updates and stuff
Daniel deliberated returning to Japan for an extended stay, weighing single casual dating and apartment living against potential reconciliation with his estranged wife, Chihiro, after recent romantic pursuits in England failed to generate a
- Recording · May 2019
i accomplished nothing today
Daniel returned to streaming to address online criticism, harassment claims, and allegations regarding pedophilia and tax evasion, maintaining that critics are motivated by hatred and that he adhered to applicable tax regulations. Daniel re
- Recording · May 2019
Am I a Sociopath Let's find out
Daniel deliberated over hardware choices, such as keeping a £1,000 laptop rather than returning it and canceling an iPad purchase, while adjusting streaming technicalities like 320p broadcast settings and local recording tests. Daniel addre
- Recording · May 2019
[2019-05-17] I'm giving up on women [ua7jGYCep6k]
Following a separation from his wife, Daniel went on dates in London and Germany without experiencing physical or emotional attraction, prompting reflection on his romantic preferences. Concluding that attracting an ideal partner demands un
- Recording · May 2019
[2019-05-27] Why I still live with mum at age 30 [qPEz23pBHZU]
Daniel lives with his mother at age 30, citing financial savings, avoidance of household chores, and the ability to travel frequently to Japan and South Korea without losing 60 to 70 percent of his income to rent and food. To address the la
- Recording · May 2019
My plans for the Essex girl [lCaszQEvugQ]
Daniel entered a relationship with a 27-year-old woman from Essex, planning to meet her in London while adapting his dating approach to mitigate subscriber loss and online backlash. Daniel hid his YouTube subscriber count to prevent viewers
- Recording · May 2019
Why I still live with mum at age 30
Daniel resides at home with his mother at age thirty due to financial, travel, and domestic advantages, avoiding high housing costs while using the home as a flexible base between extended travels in Japan and South Korea. Living with his m
- Recording · May 2019
why my love doll is better than a real woman
A £250 rubber girlfriend substitute provides long-term financial savings and fewer complications compared to traveling to London, hiring escorts, or traveling to Japan. The purchased doll exhibits physical limits, prompting a Patreon fundra
- Recording · May 2019
I'm giving up on women
A few months following the separation from his wife, Daniel dated women in London and Germany but experienced no attraction or physical excitement toward them. Reflecting on this dating history, Daniel concluded that his attraction is confi
- Recording · May 2019
Ex girlfriend Tier List
Daniel created an ex-girlfriend tier list video ranking past partners from S to F based on intimacy and annoyance, replacing previously deleted standalone videos about each relationship. Daniel assigned lower tiers to several partners, plac
- Recording · May 2019
meeting the Essex girl
Daniel prepared for a date in London with a woman referred to as the Essex Girl by choosing an outfit, packing personal items, and managing nervousness. The London meeting lasted around three hours because she had to work, and Daniel viewed
- Recording · May 2019
Do I miss my wife
Approximately three months after separating from his wife following more than a year of living together, Daniel reflects with guilt and regret on leaving her, contrasting the supportive nature of their marriage with the emptiness of his pos
- Recording · May 2019
I'm going back to my wife
Months after separating, Daniel recently resumed contact with his wife to discuss a potential reconciliation upon his upcoming return to Japan, while planning to live separately initially in an Airbnb. Daniel evaluated his past reasons for
- Recording · May 2019
My love doll gave me a urinary tract infection
Daniel presented and demonstrated a Philips OneBlade shaver, describing it as significantly more powerful than a women's Philips leg shaver that previously jammed during facial trimming. Daniel reported symptoms of burning, itching, and bui
- Recording · May 2019
I have a new girlfriend!
Daniel entered a relationship with a 27-year-old woman from Essex, who agreed to be his girlfriend after first contacting him around October while he was married; communication intensified via messages and Instagram voice calls following hi